I'm getting the
just to talk a little bit about I'm
trying to quiet I don't want my voice to
be my parents are home right now is what
my brother is homemade they took the car
left and they leave the house basically
pretty much every weekend and they take
a car and they face it for you they go
away from this environment that seems as
though they pretty much do so to get
away from him
this behavior is unstable
ever since I couldn't even think
I mean the thing about time is such a
mess basically take the car go with like
a whole four shows a day I was fine I
mean right now it's like the early
afternoon there's something like that
right now I'm like I have to look at
this fog but they often leave early in
the day and don't come back until almost
nightfall or like the end of the day at
some point they often don't come back
for the entire day
as far as daylight hours they are like
gone the entire time
and they're trying to equalize I don't
know where he is my house if he's nearby
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so I'm just talking in this chair
beautiful this is the most peaceful room
of the entire house and it just rains so
I'm just kind of just ran away
this setting right now because he's
nowhere around earth if he is I don't
see him so I was just like should I
finally talk a little bit about what my
life is like and basically they leave me
in this house of performance and this is
nothing new at all this has been going
on years obviously but I talk about it
all the time on videos but I'm just
saying like I I noticed I haven't posted
this specific kind of video about the
fact that basically most weekends for as
long as I can remember anymore now or at
least for a while most weekends they
leave the car all the Saturdays and
Sundays jaysus Sunday they leave and
they let the house quietly and actively
mumbling at this tone of voice I'm like
he basically has he basically has the
spouse to himself at every weekend and
he beats me right in front of them so
many times I can't count anymore
I'm so traumatized by this I'm just
that's essentially what compelled me to
honestly to save everything I made I
think it was in 2017 when storage is
really safe everything I made instead of
spending it on any food at all which I
was already starving because I couldn't
afford anything and then they just saved
I just started saving money to live off
those savings and instead of spending
every week in order to do that I didn't
start to begin with the server monkey
I have save and then I had to live on
those savings and starting at some point
back in 2017 that's why I started to
take everything that I was making each
week I started investing in fashion my
fashion so I finish every week I was
just starting investing and I didn't
know how long I would start how long I
starve you know I heard like to that
extreme that I'm still doing at this
point why I'm starving unless I build a
but basically I did not know how long I
would go on doing that with the starving
in order to invest in everything that I
needed to get myself out of this
situation because simply leaving this
house and getting a minimum-wage job
which would be better than what I'm
doing this right now with low minimum
wage working for the family that's just
completely what's the word Francis it
they're complacent that much they're
like definitely
I mean for me my family are essentially
tax collectors that's what they're
what's the word occupation was
essentially how do they make their into
whatever I'm like whatever like baby
turn their income is significantly life
so they that their refusal to pay
minimum wage for a person taking care of
a house for me I coming up after them
and I think you know laundry on a weekly
basis pretty much almost daily basis
I never choose to paying me more than
like a minuscule little tiny budget in
fact my mom won't maybe that's the
reason my mom refuses to pay a trans
person for any work in itself
so my dad pays from his Social Security
he's retired so basically he gives me
the little like he gives me the aspect
of his missile budget and my mom never
have to take anything and that's what it
is
so anyway you know I'm a little bit
ranty about it I guess and ranting the
whole point of closing this all was
really because it was on my mind I was
thinking wait the fact that he is always
getting the house to himself at every
weekend because he's like so perfect in
my mind
he's like the perfect son in their minds
and hates me write them eat a total
failure in his life he's a big jock
wacko dude who doesn't mind do anything
with his life he does not have a job he
does not even work for that he is such a
mess I needed the part of their planet
because he's a hetero masculine man and
he beats a person who's less than half
the size or as dressed as it makes them
yeah that alone but the fact that
there's also facial hair I'll be dating
he doesn't beats me like crazy senseless
right in front of it then they're like
well he's our Father because he doesn't
just our standard what am i define
that's so terrible like what's so
terrible about me defying that he's
defying not having a job he's defying
like this for him he's defying all those
things that are supposed to be
functioning adult grown-up things I used
to find all those in there fine with us
but me to find their gem jurist
standards and
that's what's so evil on their minds oh
they're religiously conservative at the
other day and they said you have a
little bit of video talking about the
fact that basically I'm in this house by
myself legit but we're in the house we
do I know and I'm gonna be brave anyway
officiously just scathing narcissistic
and they know it they're not so
oblivious they're just there that they
in themselves are defiant to the sense I
it's wrong I mean they with safety they
go and take the car to get away from him
more or less and then they come back and
really happy because they got away from
him for several hours of the day on the
weekend and all they know at this point
anything could have happened to me in
that duration time well they left me
alone
it was like I just stayed the hell away
from him at all times I mean I was by
myself with that man my parents don't
care anyway my family doesn't care
it's terrible I'm just pushing another
day about this Mike you know that's
funny to me mister at this point I'm
some level about what's going on cuz the
other day if I was documenting the thing
that's going on in my life from it's not
sorry I might as well get the details
about everything
is this the people on years the whole
portion of my life has been traumatized
by these experiences I'm like I might as
well be getting video at this point it's
just on a diary level and a level of
just talking know what actually is now
this time on a weekly basis I just
decided okay I'll get some video talking
about what it's like to actually like
one big leaves get along like that
that's even worse I'm standing there in
front of them which is how it happened
so many times I can't happen this week
or about this week I did not have to
misbehave I just finally avoid him at
all cost they're having this year marks
a job
my Steinway
I had such great experiences