very hard
Oh
okay all three of my I mean my parents
and my older brother are all outside and
well my mom's my kitchen I think I her
and father never been anyway they're all
away from here so I'm just talking for a
second and then in general thought awful
people and you can see my family are
basically they're all much larger people
than me like I'm like maybe five nine I
think or something around that my house
my mom was shorter than me but she's a
larger person than me
my older brothers like at least six feet
tall and a very much larger person than
me
my dad's a larger person me everyone in
my immediate family is like anyone I can
think of it my family is pretty much a
larger person me I'm the David Bowie and
my family and they beat me and they do
crazy rant like they harass me and they
ran at me about everything wrong with me
for wearing dresses or anything about me
I mean they complain about my low income
but they're the ones who I work for
they will not pay me to afford it to
live free of them so they clearly don't
want me out of here they want me here to
abuse me physically verbally all that I
think they want that punching bag and my
hate older brothers a is a former boxer
in training I mean you never really box
a day in his life that I know in a match
that I've ever heard him even practice
matching he's lost he's never won
imagine his life of boxing unless you
count the times he's beating me down in
front of them you know and it's a
drunken mess most of the time it's
terrible and I'm tired
I'm just getting footage and I try not
to waste much memory card space on his
videos I don't know I'm like trying to
get video of what I think is important
I mean it's video diary for
documentation of everything going on in
my life is I don't know what it amounts
to when I started filming these like a
few years ago no one was watching them
at all and no one in the community was
watching them I always thought that I
never saw any you know anybody clicking
on the videos at any point even though
people knew about it nobody cared
this is really good Pro LGBTQ with like
City thanks so it doesn't make sense
people don't care so I basically think
it's uptightness
about anyone with facial hair who wears
women's clothing and you know glamorous
things on any level it's just like you
from everyone it's that all even the
Liberals in this town are that kind of
struggle with their own virtues and
values like especially towards me it's
all folders and in my operation support
I don't know inventing a little bit
about that but basically it for the past
few years I've been getting footage
because I couldn't afford to get out of
here eventually I decided okay I'm just
going to take I've already been starving
in the house and basically like let's
find some awesome punk music outside and
they're slightly distracting my
concentration anyway so yeah I'm trying
to think but yeah I mean basically just
all in all all the I mean all the
starvation through all these years and
this house has been crazy it's
ridiculous that they would went whilst
of rhythmic drink or sorry I'm saying
that weren't it wrong again or is word
dharmic psoriasis irizar derma crisis
I've had since I was a kid it's like
it's crazy that they know that it's
stress correlated that stress factors of
any kind calls it doubly all over the
body that's crazy
that happens like
I just get frustrated so anyway I
started getting video footage and then I
started you know already starving
because it refused to pay me enough to
feed myself three meals a day in this
house I live on basically one meal a day
when I'm lucky it's usually less than
that much anyway at that point I
realized there's no way to getting out
of here while living on that page so I
decided to start completely not only
completely completely but basically so
much so that I was living on half of a
meal a day or less pretty much the past
couple of years or so and I started
investing in all my fashion I was I got
to start investing and then at that
point I was like okay once I realized
that I could in the best you know more
than I years there like God ages from
this warbles which like environment I'm
living in that like I can't afford to
get my license unsuspended and even if I
do I can drive their car because oh
that's silly instead of what they call
it a rolling stop at a stop sign on a
side street not a stoplight to stop
signing a little like the tagging or
like whatever a shape one and I gets
basically you know the most ridiculous
pullover in history that I can imagine
getting it's not I wasn't even doing a
rolling stop so it's ridiculous
anyway I'm talking too much I'm
frustrated and slightly like that I
guess but anyway I'm trying to just it's
more than anything this because it's so
hot right now but yeah I'm used to the
starving it's the heat to summer that's
like store sudden that really frustrated
Mississippi of how hot is it just as I
do and I provide a sea for anyone not
even themselves they have ceiling fans
in their room so like they really own
that I don't have ceiling fans over like
I had to rely on those a little like
ridiculous one that blows hot air on me
so well you know Australia assists
increasingly an issue so anyway I'm just
like
so I invested in fashion while starving
even more than I was already starving
living here or was suspended license
that I can't just you know drive out of
here and all that I can't afford out you
know until I have my shop open or
whatever I don't know how to have a much
more regular financially normal life
while the psoriasis is a problem and I
even can treatment for that now so it's
so frustrating and I'm just venting
and I told me to talk to lives they
can't over hear me if I'm loud enough I
don't want to be heard so anyway this is
already a ten minute video on here okay
I'm done