and I'm trying to not try to waste too
much video memory tonight but decided
Charlie I can't run because I just heard
my alert are slamming his fists on there
and this is very irregular behavior and
this is everyday behavior from that idea
and it kind of came to me in that moment
of hearing him slam his fist I was like
I should get more video of him audio
like his audio of him being were they
physically violent downstairs boy
himself down there he's like I hear
humming down there
in the living room and I'm pretty sure
that means that he's probably listening
to like headphones or earbuds or
something like anything where he's
listening to some audio from a device
you know most likely it's music or
something I have no idea or it really
doesn't even sound like music to me it
sounds like someone talking over
something so it's probably sports it's
my guess it could be music but it's
probably him beating his fists to
something in the news or sports but it's
on his headphones I think if I can't
hear I hear like a buzzing sound over
headphones down there so I don't think
it's I mean it's definitely not the TV
normally has a TV on this is the rare
occasion where she has something over
headphones which makes me think it's
music but it doesn't sound like it to me
it sounds more like something that he
decided to put headphones on for once
for which may be sports related I don't
know what it is but he's flammeus fish
down there and I also heard him shoving
a glass down on the table which means
he's drinking excessively right now so
he's just being a really belligerent
person
himself if I entered the living room
right now looking like this if I don't
know if you could do something about it
this was the makeup I wore tonight it's
very glam knows what I'm warden like my
dad dropped me off downtown for an hour
or so because I can't afford anything on
my incomes I spent about $10 on $2 beers
or something I did not spend very much
but it was down there and whatever us
downtown having a weekend my about an
hour
really I didn't want to over spend any
of my money's wages it was only on there
for about an hour then he takes me up
again knowing full well that the danger
in my house even exceeds the danger out
there which is not any better really
people are harassed you everywhere
downtown in UI it's a very uptight area
and this neighborhoods bad too so anyway
in this house though I get beat
physically and the people of being in
the house were in the room when it's
happening and they don't do anything
about it
the only time the cops are a pain call
it was because all I called cops so I'm
in dangerous all those I'm living her
and I needed to have a Ford in the valve
so when I spent money I spent very
little it's only to get through however
I'm going through emotionally so that's
what I'm doing was right now in anyway
he's downstairs being a total douche
tired himself no life he's been doing
that years by himself in this house
being a douche bag beating me in front
of them over twice my Saugus he's over
twice my side is beating me down I had
family members who know about this who
don't do anything about it because they
want to protect that situation I guess
it's the sanctity of the situation
religious sanctity they know that these
are religious people and they don't want
the trans person
causing trouble by getting beat down by
obviously a transphobic bigot was also
racist and I took the total mess
complete an absolute total mess in his
life that's not a big enough problem
because the sanctity of their religion
is a bigger deal that's why that's going
on this household in this way no family
in the end that's what it is