That's fucking horrible. How old are you? What type of cancer was it?

22
lymphoma

well 23 now actually

>>126546846

jesus christ. you're two years older than I am. what a horrible age for something like this.

how has the treatment been, and are you recovering swiftly? I damn hope so.

as for gaming apathy, we all have it here. it may just have to do with your growing older/maturation. games don't hold our attention like they used to.

Whats your TNM status op? Gotten an life expectancy estimate yet?

>>126546974
recovery's a bitch. Lost my saliva production and gonna be on a pill for the rest of my life.

As for growing out of it, maybe. But I'm not doing anything else right now. It's making me feel ever more depressed knowing that I could at least be enjoying my time, but arn't

You should've died of cancer, happy and satisfied instead of coping with more bullshit.

>>126547258
I'm in remission I guess? Life expectancy is anywhere between 5-20 . 5 being from the cancer; 20 being from chemo/radiation which will probably cause a 2nd cancer (lung, skin, etc)

>>126547550
so edgy

>>126547582

did you have a family history of lymphoma/any predisposing causes? or did it emerge out of fucking nowhere?

that's the kind of thing that frightens me most, and you're very courageous to have gone through it.

This thread is making me worried... i have a weird lump right next to nipple...

>>126547550
ya totally, dude. But I would have had to wait a couple of years to have tumors the size of atlantis on my body b4 I died..

pic related.


jackass..

>>126547722
nah man. Out of fucking nowhere.

I'm a very healthy person. I'm not athletic but my blood and blood pressure and heart and lungs when tested showed that I might as well be one (before cancer treatment they did a bunch of diagnostic tests to see wtf could have made this happen). Doctors told me, and I quote "You've got the internal body of an athletic, excpet for the massive tumor in your chest *laughs*"

I have like over 30 family members. none of them have had any cancer.

Hmhm... I know this is weird coming from /v/... but maybe you should not play video games instead do something else... what i don't know.

>>126547722
also never smoked, rarely drank (once in a blue moon), and didn't stuff whatever down my fucking throat.

but seriously, how do I get back to fucking gaming? someone gifted me bastion, I played that for litterly 5 fucking mins and then i closed it.

HELP ME!

>>126548045

what a dick. i'm glad you're still with us.

i'm going to bed (murrifat here) but take care, dude. movies are always fun too, and they don't require as much an investment of time as games.

You probably unconsciously are thinking about what else to do now that you have a second lease on life. Your brain feels like video games are a waste but your conscious mind wants to play. I know after I had testicular cancer I gave up games for almost 2 years so I could go and see everything I could. That was 3 years ago now, and I feel more satisfied with myself. I enjoy games again but it was only after I just did things that would make me happy (ex. I bought a dog on a whim, I learned to draw better, I learned to rock climb and go cave exploring.)

That really sucks op you'll be in my prayers. I suggest just diving into Deus Ex and giving it a shot that game really pulled me in and I basically couldn't stop playing it for like 3 days straight.

You clearly acquired a taste in vidya and can no longer enjoy the babbys generic console FPS or gritty WRPG #124349

>>126548188
dude I thought about going on a 15 day cruise, but doctors dont want me to.

I thoguht about going back to school, docs dont want me to (too many ppl, immune system shot to shit) also that applies to anything social - movies, resturants, etc.

I thought about getting a job. I'm starting one next week but honestly, I'm not fucking motivated.

I've thought about jumping off of a building, but it's kinda useless after all this pain and suffering- shoulda done it before chemo.

Oh and I can't fucking work out because my thryoid is fucked and my muscles are weak.

what else is there to do other than gaming?

Take a break from the vidya OP, seriously.

It's possible to feel burnt out on a hobby, find another one and come back to it in a week or however long you feel you should have a break from it. It'll come back. <3

>>126548486
>what else is there to do other than gaming?
Browsing 4chan all day. Duh.

oh OP here

I STOPPED PLAYING SKYRIM..SKYRIM!.. I got like 20 hours in and then POOF..that's it..can't open up skyrim anymore.

>>126548486
Hmm... you could pick up something you find interesting as a hobby that you can do from home stuff like drawing/artsy stuff, programming, dwarf fortress, anime, comic books, films, making music, etc

>>126546728
>OP posts sap story
>/v/ seems to care
>/v/
>caring
>not ridiculing and making cancer jokes
And I haven't even been here that long.

>>126548331
you know what dude, I think that's what it is. I went and bought 3 birds and for some reason they take a fair bit of time of my day..that's the only thing I can actually stick to doing for more than 5 minutes.

>>126548501
This happened to me and art, at first I drew for like 3 months at like 9 hours a day everyday and after that i was pretty sick of drawing so I ended up doing a ton of 3dsmax organic modelling tutorials. Was pretty cool seeing all that I was learning apply back to drawing when I went back to it.

>>126548713
>dwarf fortress listed as its own hobby

Have you tried Warhammer OP? If you like the universe try collecting and painting warhammer. It's a lot of fun and despite popular belief you can make some really awesome normalfag bros from it. A huge time investment if you enjoy painting, too.

>>126548933
ya op here i laughed too

Also >>126548331

This is the first thing i thought of when I read cave exploring..At least i could still laugh

>>126548501
Yeah. What this guy says.
You get burnt out, especially when you game intensely. Also, if you do it but you're not really enjoying it, but you feel compelled to, that makes it unpleasant and eventually you can't put up with it.

Reassess your values. Pick something else to do.

>>126548713
>Dwarf Fortress

>>126549121
alright Ill look into watching some anime. I got like 50 gigs of it that I was downloading for the past 8 month and havn't watched anything other than Monster and Black lagoon, and put games aside for a couple of months.

>>126549410
Remember to pick up a waifu otherwise you wont fit in at /a/

>>126549723
haha

>>126549941
thanks for the advice dude, They really took me in..lol

>>126548045
Cancer is a random mutation that may well be one of the primary triggers for evolution. You're evolving but our world don't need you yet.

Godspeed you, bro.