i don't like to admit it to people, but i really like reggaeton music. it's universally acknowledged as the shittiest music on the planet, but when i hear the beat of the song it makes me want to move my booty. (i'm a guy)

I wonder if there is life after death...

>>7578278
Well, we all have our guilty pleasures. I have Lady Gaga songs on my media player that I renamed as classical songs so that people who look through the songs won't know I listen to Lady Gaga.

>>7578281
I do too.

"The fear of being average is normal."
i dunno came up with it myself

>>7578294
>he listens to lady gaga

girlslaughing.jpg

I want to get gangbanged by the homeless more than anyone else. Not even trolling

I have nothing to say about myself that won't be said by something else in this thread

i want to do some dark age raiding, long bearded and sword in hand

>>7578300
Good one. I agree. What's uncommon - and yet what most people need to do - is being content about being normal.

>>7578319
Yeah. The homeless are a really nice group of people despite their bad reputation. Most of them aren't crack addicts or criminals, they just got screwed over by the government / their credit card debt.

>>7578332
Yes you do. What's your weirdest fetish? I want to know it.

>>7578333
Can I come?

I'm absolutely terrified that I'm going to turn out to be my father. He's not a nice guy, and I'm still getting over the effects of living and growing up with him in my life. While my extended family knows I don't speak to him anymore, none of them know how scared I am that I'm going to be the same as him. I'm too scared to have a relationship because I've seen what my father did to my mum, and I'm too scared to consider children in my future because I just know I'd treat them as he treated me and my brother, and I couldn't do that to a kid. I say I'd never do that, but I know I would. It's inevitable. The last relationship I was in, I was an emotionally manipulative and violent cunt. I was my father, and I didn't even realise it half the time until my mother would point it out. I can't get over this fear, because I know it's inevitable, and I don't want to be like him.
No one else knows that apart from you, Arcanine :(

>>7578346
You can come live with me. People have told me I'm the most tolerant person ever. I have a garden you can tend to in return for me feeding you. I've always needed a hand anyways.

Of course you probably live impossibly far away but the point I'm making here is that there will always be someone to complement you - you just have to find them.

I wish I was a dude. Really.
I'm not trans-sexual, or anything. I'm quite feminine. But everything I do, or want to be, or desire to act, would be so much more accepted if I were a guy. There's things guys can say that girls can't without sounding ridiculous, things guys can do that girls look stupid doing. I just wish I was a man.
Plus I wanna jack off so bad.

when i was a kid i didn't want to go to the bathroom because i was afraid of the toilet

>>7578367
I like gardening, we could reach an agreement.

Ah, if only :(

>>7578376
I'm pretty sure everyone has wished they were the other gender, but if you were me you'd know that there are just as many things girls can do that guys can't. The benefits of both sides are actually very very even I would think. Sometimes I wish I were a girl. Well, I think it's a good thing that you can admit that you want to be a guy sometimes. It shows that you are very secure in your femininity.

>>7578342

of course. if all goes well we shall feast on meats and drink golden mead afterward.

I'm viciously scared of being forgotten. By anyone. I will do virtually anything to be remembered by the people around me. This has caused serious thoughts of a homocide-suicide scenario to cross my mind. It scares me how much I consider the idea of violently killing someone (or multiple people) in a memorable way, just to be remembered. If they make a documentary about me, all the better. I hope they somehow find this post and incorporate it into the film. 'The life of' kind of thing.
I don't have the heart to kill someone, but goddamn. I need people to know who I am.
... I say this while posting on an anonymous board.

>>7578376
Try actually being FTM transgendered. I hate it. Nobody quite understands it, and response is never good. Not that I've come out as FTM, but I've spoken about the concept with a few friends. Knowing that I'll never be what I should is hard sometimes.

>>7578379
I seriously laughed when I read this. I have that same fear to this day, actually. It's not that I won't use a toilet, but when I do I have to poop with one cheek lifted off the toilet so that I can make sure there isn't a snake that will come up and bite my butt. Perhaps this reveals something about my personality. Who knows.

>>7578410
Fuck yes, mead

This reminds me oddly of the mystic knights of tir na nog...

>>7578413
Given enough time, you'll be forgotten anyway.

How does that make you feel?

I really like the smell of bellybutton, it fucking stinks but I cant get enough of it.

The only reason I'm not still a virgin is because... my grandma said out-loud that she thought I was gay at the yearly family meeting, so I called one of my slutty friend(a girl) that I've known since childhood and went apeshit with her the next week. Shit feels empty bro.

>>7578416
Oh I understand how actually being transgendered must be.. So hard. And I would never want to go through that, so I feel for you. It's just, sometimes the way I act, I feel like I should be a guy. I have no girl friends whatsoever, and I get flustered and can't really speak to them when I'm in a primarily female situation. I just like drinking beer with the guys and talking about sex. I know it's nothing like being transgendered, but it's like, if I HAD been a guy, I'd have such a more secure place in this world than I do now.

I've been called rational to the point of being inhuman...

I think that's kinda cool, lol. I only wish they could be as rational as me.

>>7578436
terrible, actually. :/ fucking terrible.

>>7578413
Yeah, I used to be the same way. But I realized I'd rather enjoy a nice long relaxed life of fun than to be always vainly making plots of how I'm going to get famous and be remembered. At the end of things most every human spectacle will become irrelevant, so why bother.

Once you stop caring about how other people feel towards you, you start really living freely

>>7578450
Why do people still care about having sex when we have Tenga sex toys in Japan

>>7578453
Rational is good, what's not good is being rational to the point that you're incapable of extensive abstract thought. Have you ever taken drugs?

i like to eat plain rice and soy sauce

maybe it's because i have the palette of a five year old

I don't like people, and I enjoy being a shut-in, so why do I still care at all about social acceptance?

>>7578507
No. I don't think I ever will. If you're talking about recreational drugs.

>>7578532
is that wierd?
Cause that's pretty much what I live off of

I'm so desperate for friends that I'm tempted to start a Facebook and randomly add strangers in hopes that they will talk to me. I don't go through with it because I doubt like hell this will work out.

>>7578533
Depending on your childhood experiences, the need to be accepted by society has probably been engrained in your subconscious one way or another. Find something to occupy yourself. For me, it's gardening. Get a hobby. Crocheting, origami, who cares - if you can find something you're really passionate about, before long you'll find it can become very important to you and replace the void you need to fill with the need to be accepted socially.

Something ridiculously personal? I dunno. There isn't much I keep close to my chest.

Well, okay, I can think of a couple things.

1: Someday I want to live in a tower made of thick, grey stones. It'll have one of those conical, pointed, tiled roofs. The walls inside will be lined with bookcases filled to bursting with thousands of random books.

2: I want to be the little girl ;~;

>>7578302
I listen to Lady Gaga

>>7578532
Nah mayne I love the stuff too. I save up enough to get a tray of sushi and I save the packet of soy sauce to use on my morning bowl of plain rice.

>>7578533
I'm sort of like you, but for me it's about how I need a girlfriend.

At least that's what I think it is...

-I am a big fan of the Killers and Bruce Springsteen and am very open about it.
-I'm a bit power hungry and have a 3 year plan mapped out to rise up through the university in various societies to become a committee member.
-My taste in women is a bit odd compared to most guys (judging by /r9k/) I like girls who are social and are a bit different: an accent, certain style or something really can make me attracted to someone and I don't particularly want to date someone passionate about videogames
-

>>7578561
Your first secret is totally fucking awesome. I want to gather all of my books on the history of journalism and I have a lot because i studied it in college, and I want to help you build this tower and fill it with books. We should go to Ireland and do so. Your dream has become mine, too. I WANT TO DO THIS SO BAD NOW

>>7578586
Just like I answered the other guy, it's my belief that a cause is a perfect replacement for the need for another person. Find something you're passionate about and do it, and you won't feel so lonely. You might think that you need a girlfriend because you have some kind of need for another human, but what you really need is something to work towards. A girlfriend provides something to protect, feed, and care for.

Or, you could grow a garden. Or buy a cat. Whatever you like.

>>7578550
I'll talk to you. Tell me about yourself. What do you like to do?

>>7578591
You sound like a really interesting person. You should write a book about yourself. I would read it.

i sometimes wonder what the point of the olympics is.

I'm terribly empathic and caring, I get destroyed inside whenever I watch the news or just a sad, real movie. To the point of taking a clean blow knowing it was coming in a fight so that I wouldn't hurt the drunken piece of shit that hit me. I could have literally killed him since I have years of training in several (useful) martial arts and I'm like 1'87m, athletic. Whatever.

But on the other hand, I'm way too intelligent and cultured to be even interested in anyone (let alone trust entirely) or feel any kind of passion at all, so I feel terribly alone and I get depressed. And because I get depressed for nothing, when so many people suffers unimaginably, I get to hate myself, get more depressed, and so on.

>>7578629
My distraction is 4chan, the internet, and video games.

Why would I go for anything requiring tons of work?
I'm in education... but everything is half-assed, and motivation is plummeting.

A cause? That's nice and all, but anything worthwhile, and that you can actually make money off of, is going to take tons of work. Without anyone to help me, or pushing me, how do it? Why do it?

I hope I could be more focused on "Self-actualization" if I wasn't distracted by being ronery all the time.

hey OP, check out this new login screen I just made.

I couldn't think of just the right touch, until I found the image of Our Great Leader George W Bush.

>>7578677
You pretty fucked up in the head. Check that out for your own sake.

I fall in love with every attractive girl who shows me the least bit of kindness/interest.

I really like people, but I don't relate to them at all. I pretty much just put up a front that I don't like being around people, but that really is not the case. I can't handle very loud social situations, but other than that I would enjoy being able to go to a party and just hang out with people, but I'm generally just the awkward kid that doesn't know how to contribute to the conversation. One on one interaction is perfectly fine for me, but in big groups I just don't understand people.

>>7578721
lol missed the 'are'.

>>7578722
Because no-one shows interest in you.

>>7578722
Just like everyone here.

>>7578677
I'm overly caring too, I hate thinning my garden (removing unhealthy sprouts) because I feel bad about the little plants.
I don't think it's a bad thing. I mean, I'm glad I'm like this and not overly violent on the other hand, which results in a lot worse things.

As for your loneliness and depression, I had the same problem. A lot of people are just square pegs in society's round hole. Like I've told other people, a lot of lonely people don't need other people - they just need something to do. What are your ambitions?

>>7578677
Attention whore. This isn't your blog.

>>7578693
Well there you go - you're afraid of work.

You're just going to fall deeper into a hole of loneliness if you aren't willing to start to dig your way out.

>>7578600
Yeah, all books are good. I don't know why, I just love them. Bring whatever you want.

The Cliffs of Moher would be a good place. Speaking of which, Celtic mythology is amazing. I'll need to includea couple books on that.

>>7578740

There is a girl I've grown very attached to, and she likes me too. But I had a crush on her for the longest time. Now that the feelings are reciprocated I don't know how to react.

>>7578711
HAHA that's great. i love it.

>>7578730
I think that's because people get annoying when you get more and more of them together. Back in 2000 I went to the Democratic National Convention and found that liberals en masse are even more annoying than conservatives en masse. So I became a gardening introvert. And I'm okay with this.

>>7578781
I WAS JUST GOING TO SUGGEST WE GO TO IRELAND. Yes, I do love books, a lot. As I was saying in another post, people are often better in one-on-one situations then they are in large groups, and I think books are an example of that. I love being read stories to, I love reading stories to people. It's great.

I just realized that most of my clothing and personal items are all varying shades of blue or shades of purple.

I've been purchasing sex toys, but I have no idea where I'm going to store them I when I go home over the summer. (International student here)

I want to have a s&m relationship/sex buddy (not picky) in which I'm the m, because I enjoy people bossing me around. There is in theory someone I could ask to try it out with me, but he likes my friend so I don't want to go there.

>>7578786
What do you expect me to say? Carpe diem my friend! Haven't you been a good american high school english student and watched Dead Poets Society?

>>7578753
I do need people. I have accepted that the only moments I've ever felt hapiness were shared with someone else. I have friends, but just because of that. I wouldn't tell any of this to them and some of them I know for 20 years, for instance.

I don't have passions nor ambitions. I equally like music, films, literature, poetry, plastic arts, sports, videogames, etc. Even speaking of, say, music, I don't have a favourite song, album, band or style. I'm too aware of the fact that I'm not special to focus on anything over something else.

>>7578836

I have actually been meaning to watch that movie >.>

>>7578833
I love blues and purples on caucasians, and oranges and yellows on colored folk. But maybe I only like the complementary thing because of my OCD.

What kind of stuff do you wear?

>>7578853
But by having friends you're choosing to focus on a certain group of people more than another. Getting to know a person is just like reading a book, except less interesting.

I practice Christianity so my parents/ everyone don't disown me, but I'm pretty sure I'm either pantheist or atheist.

The Bell....Where are you located?

I am a college dropout who was too lazy/apathetic to go to classes, and ended up being put in a mental institution because my family mistook it for being suicidal. The cops were called to my dorm. It was funny.

I'm an artist who's mostly too lazy to create anything. I draw comics and build websites in my head, but am too lazy to put them on paper and make them happen. I play video games instead.

That's about it. I'm single, obviously, but don't care enough to change it. I don't do anything outside my house, so I don't meet anyone new, ever. But that's fine. I wouldn't know what to do if I did.

Funny thing, though. I have an OKC profile, and I get messages from women all the time who want to talk about nerdy shit like WoW, Warhammer, and comic books. I barely ever respond to them, because I'm terrified of saying something to make them think I'm as much of a loser as I really am, or worse, actually like me.

I kinda like my life, I guess.

>>7578914
The first section of Richard Dawkins' "The God Delusion" is a great little essay you should read.
Seriously. Go check the book out at your library and read it.

>>7578917
I live in Minneapolis, and work at the Olive Garden in Saint Louis Park. I also grow a variety of vegetables and dry and cure herbs that I sell at farmers' markets around Minnesota.

>>7578677
>>7578677
Oh you're just like me. Good explanation.

>>7578902
Thanks but no, not really. You can choose which movie to watch or what book to read. You can't choose friends with such liberty whatsoever. They depend almost entirely on your surroundings and very strongly in something as trivial as what school did you go to.

I thought you were truly following me for a second ;_;

>>7578961
I like your life too. Few people would be able to go through that and be able to like their life. You're very confident, and if you ever think that your history makes you somehow non-legit, you are legit, as long as you believe in yourself.

>>7578778
Well, I wasn't asking for advice. Also, "afraid of work" is not it. I'll explain what my "deal" is, it's really classic.

I'm not attractive.
I like to think everything else is just derivative of that fact. I was never liked in kindergarten and not in school either. I tried hard to be liked by people, but there was always something wrong. Even when I did nothing, something was wrong. After 10th grade, no-one cares anymore, and I'm not bothering trying to impress anyone either. But still, I feel disadvantaged, if not just for my looks, but because I have to do everything on my own. Everyone at uni that I get along with are strange in one way or another. Sadly, they're also overlap somewhat with the "slacker" archetype. Those who work, seem to normal. And indeed, sort of scary. Asking to work with them, I'd just be a burden. And probably wouldn't get along.

So that's the thing, this is going to sound cheesy and stupid but, if I'm going to do stuff for no reason alone (and I really think I can, if I just try harder, or work harder), I just want 1 person that I love to support me. I'd have no trouble giving support back. But there's no support, no motivation, only vague promises of rewards. I've kept pushing on because of those promises all my life. But it's starting not to be enough.

So there you go, I'd never say this shit without being Anon.

/r9k/ is now my blog. :D

>>7578985
I'm sorry I have failed you, but I don't have any advice to give you if you think you really need people to be happy. I've never had a good social experience, and it's just something I've learned to live without.

I'm going to go make myself some rice and soy sauce - Be back in 15 to respond to more posts. Thanks for sharing so far, guys, all of you are really neat people!

>>7579019
I really should proof read my posts...

So many unnecessary typos.

Everyone finds me to be a polite and charming intelligent young man, really I'm an absolute cunt, I just put on that front to everyone but my closest friends, they know what I'm really like and we all have fun, its just the vast majority of people I do not want to socialise with and have little time for, but if I told every single one to fuck off then I wouldn't find awesome people who I did want to socialise with after getting to know them a bit.

>>7579006
Oh, you misunderstand. I'm horribly afraid of people finding out how much of a failure I really am. My family knows, but they just chalk it up to depression and let it go, but none of my friends do. I have this weird habit of lying about shit just to buy myself a bit more time of keeping a facade up. Never works out in the end, but I do it anyway.

I like my life, because I've had so much time to think to myself, that at least I know who the hell I am. I know what I want and don't want, even if I know I'll never get any of it. But mostly, I feel that I became the person I was supposed to be, and it fits me well enough that I don't have to pretend to be someone else.

>>7578969
Oh, and how are you doing otherwise?

I am a man of few words. Many people find that hard to accept.

Personal experience has proved to me that their is life after death. What that life is like is still up for debate(awaits shitstorm)

I spend all day reading and watching documentaries. Did you know you can buy a dirty bomb in Bulgaria? Well, you can. The guy selling them is a huge real estate tycoon also.

My only real goal in life is too make the people around me happy. I am happy when they are happy, strangely enough.

I have never been able to bring myself to hate anybody. Seriously, I just can't do it. Even people who are by all accounts assholes I can see some good in.

In this crazy world, choosing a side is stupid. Because every side is wrong.

I'm the emotional rock in my group of friends, and it's really taking a toll on me.

>>7579098
Well why limit yourself? Express all the feelings that build up inside you. I want a story damn it.

>>7579110
>there's a life after death

If you're just another douche with an opinion and no proof... you're part of the problem bro.

>>7579120
What's wrong? If you're having a shitty time and your friends are just going to call you a downer and not help you, they're shitty friends and you should ditch them anyways.

Alternatively, if you're just self-conscious about it, do not worry. Be happy you have friends. Enjoy yourself with your friends. Of course I have no idea what kind of emotional baggage you've got, but I've never seen a burden that can't be lifted by a good game of Pokemon TCG.

My girlfriend is a fucking sadsack despite all the great stuff I've provided for her and the fact that she has a good job and is doing better than most of her peers.

Her days are numbered as mu fiancee

>>7579188

No, I am thoroughly convinced. I could argue with you, but my little bit of proof is meaningless to everybody BUT me and if I type it all I am going to get a bunch of posts by idiots who don't know what they are talking about trying to "prove me wrong" even though their knowledge of the situation is severely limited.

I don't feel like derailing a decent thread. Although I probably already did.

>>7579110
I really like you judging by everything except the first thing you said. If you don't want to take sides, how can you be so sure about this side you've just taken? I mean, unless you've studied some intense psychology, how can you know that your experiences can't be explained by scientific findings?

>>7579224
>but my little bit of proof is meaningless to everybody

Exactly. So in essence, you are EFFECTIVELY a just another d00d with an opinion.

You need to look at it this way, EVEN if it was true... if you can't prove it, no-one else can in principle assume you're right. Which makes you...

another br0 with an opinion... And part of the problem.

>>7579204
Stop before you dump. Maybe she's struggling with a traumatic experience from her past. You need to confront her instead of dumping her without asking first. Be gentle...tell her how you feel, and be honest but consider that she is sensitive.

I really want to have a threesome. Both kinds. Have a boyfriend, he is into it and we're sexy, but everyone I know is so conservative. Just got into a really awesome wow guild and now I don't even wanna raid anymore. I'm supposed to be packing a whole lot of shit away today but I'm too lazy so I'm on r9k. Any advice for not being lazy?

Why isn't this thread on /adv/

>>7579240

I meant taking a side on worldly issues. I was trying to add some wise pondering and failed, whatever.

I know as a fact I am not crazy, because if I was that would mean A LOT of people I know are also crazy. Also, no. It can't be explained rationally. If it could I would not be typing this.

But like I said, me typing what this experience is would just derail this thread. Plus, I have typed it out a million times before. And unless you are me or somebody in my family or social circle you would have no reason to believe me anyway.

>>7579224
I'm going to say "Brain in a jar" here.

You can't be sure of anything. Ever had a dream? Ever questioned if what you saw in that dream was real? If you brain can generate things so good that you don't question them...

How can you be sure that EVERYTHING you experience while awake is not just a product of your brain?

You can't...

My only ambition in life is to construct a ballpit in my home when I get older. I've already calculated the cost of construction.. it wouldn't be too difficult. I want my house to be like the guy's in the movie Big. Video games, trampoline, etc. I just don't give a shit what anyone thinks.
I also am in love with a dead celebrity. Pic related.

>>7579301
that sounds awfully closeted and specific to be a universal truth

>>7579270
Well I never meant for this to be an advice thread, but since I seem to be giving a lot of that out, sure.

Let me tell you what has helped me to get things done in the past. First, I make a list of all tasks in my queue, or things that I must get done before I can "relax" without any immediate chores to be done. Then, I make sure that everything is prepared and organized so that I may move from one task to the next without spending a lot of time getting ready to do something new. For instance, if I need gardening gloves for the third task on my list, I will set the gardening gloves on the table before I even start my first task so that I won't go looking for the gloves. All of this preparation makes it less and less easy to get distracted, and with my mind on the prize - "now you can relax" written at the end of the list - i can be fully productive and efficient.

>>7579311

I feel the same way, just with a pool of chocolate pudding.

>>7579332
so should I finish fapping before I start or just go to it now?

>>7579330
He's another douche oblivious to his douchiness.

And in his mind, we're douches...
No wonder there's war in the world.

Hi it's me again. The only person I have ever respected was a professor of 'Representation Modes of the Contemporary Cinema', that helped me understand the world painfully clearly. Of course he doesn't know and I didn't even participate in the debates (although I have to say that I got the highest grade in the end). He's very open, friendly and understanding, but I never wanted to even speak with him because I knew I would find out a small detail that would spoil the image I had of him. It always happens.

And the thing is, I always imagine him questioning me on my mind, whenever I doubt about anything. I'm fine with this altogether, just saying.

APPARENTLY THIS STORY HAS BEEN SAID BEFORE EVEN THOUGH I HAVEN'T POSTED IT SO WHATEVERBLOX
I was in a long-distance relationship for several years. We lived on opposite sides of the US, so we only saw each other every couple months (usually for 2~8 weeks at a time though).

We never had sex, but we did a lot of foreplay stuff. She was always really tiny so she was afraid of how much it would hurt. We tried several times to have sex, but I would never get all the win in - I'd always pull out after getting halfway because it was hurting her so much, and she'd tell me to stop. We're no longer together now for unrelated reasons.

I dunno if that still makes me a virgin or what but whatever.

I'm completely obsessed with the beat generation and really want to go on some kind of adventure travelling all around the world. I don't have the balls to go through with it though.

>>7579295
Like I said, I didn't intend for it to be an advice thread - I only asked for people to tell me interesting things about their life, and of course when you ask /r9k/ for stories they tell you the story about their dysfunctional relationship with their father and their dysfunctional relationship with their girlfriend and their lack of a girlfriend and their failed expectations and their broken dreams and their isolationist tendencies, and so on, and so on...i meant to only have to respond with "that's so cool!" or "wow, neato!" but i end up having to tell people how to be happy because, i mean what am i supposed to say. people come to the thread and are so sad. i feel bad when i dno't make them feel better.

I have a crippling insecurity so severe about relationships that I don't think its possible for me to ever trust someone I'm with. Even if they were the most open person in the world (which who I'm with is the opposite, actually), I would still be wondering when will be the day they leave me. I'm very cynical and jaded towards love and the opposite sex, so much its physically painful sometimes. Honestly I just wish my S.O would show me they truly love me, instead of throwing up that beautifully indifferent face every time I tell them how I feel. ):

>>7579264
yeah dude, I appreciate the feedback. We've talked about it and it's been a problem for her for most of her life. She's just not a happy or excitable person and she just prefers to take the easy way out all the time and run away from anything difficult. Even though it winds up always making it worse because shit always catches up to you.

I've been at this for like 4 years and she hasn't even tried to improve herself. As soon as something gets in her way, she just turns off and curls up in a ball on the couch and goes to sleep.

Shitsux man.

Never once has she ever done anything exciting or sexy or surprised me with anything. She just waits to be given stuff and loves being treated to things, but never feels as though she has to do it back to me.

And she's let herself go and doesn't look as good as she did a few years ago, while I've taken the initiative and look a lot better and am a lot happier.

>>7579367
Which means you probably posted this on the wrong board. : p

I love art. I feel like going deeper, but it's going to be hard to live on it. I think i'm just going to apply to both engineering and arts.
also, i'm an atheist but I don't tell other people because they're not smart enough to understand why I am, they're just gonna say non sense shit and i'm gonna rage.

>>7579384
he posted it on an appropriate board, it's just that people looking for advice haven't moved over to the appropriate board yet.

>>7579377
samefag... she just seems like a shell of a person now thanks to the stress from her job and her inability to deal with it properly. She can't face anything head on and always has to try to run away.

Comes from having her mom being a helicopter parent when she grew up, she would literally swoop in and expedite any problem for her so she never had to bother to fix her own problems. Mommy was always there to take care of it. now that she's in the real world, she's just an emotionless mess. And I want to be with someone happy.

>>7579311
Absolutely love this idea. A lot of times when there's nothing to talk about I ask people what they would do if they could have a swimming pool filled with whatever substance they want. Usually its some kind of delicious pudding substance, but I've often wondered what the sensation of swimming in carbonated water would be like.

I'm currently reading Kurt Vonnegut's "God bless you, Mr. Rosewater." You remind me of Eliot Rosewater OP.

I would be very sad if people like you did not exist.

>>7579258

Everybody has an opinion. Opinions are not the problem, having a stupid opinion is. This is not a stupid opinion. This was just a very strange, seemingly impossible, event that my family experienced.
Could it be some sort of freak occurrence? Yes. Is it? I can't think of a single natural, rational, explanation for this experience. It completley defies earthly wisdom. It takes science and takes a giant shit on it's understanding of the world. So yeah, I am thoroughly convinced. Because this shit I am talking about is just weird and seemingly insane enough to convince me that life after death is a very real possibility.

Maybe I should just tell you and let the shitstorm get even more out of hand..Nah, being vague is fun.

I've been pressured into going to med school. All I really want is to get an easy stress-free job. I've never wanted a lot of money, since all I ever want is books. I love literature, it's my only real passion in life, I could be truly happy living in some shitty apartment as long as the walls were lined with book shelves. But I have a crippling fear of disappointing people, so I feel like I have no choice but to live up to expectations.

>>7579350
well, you could use fapping in a negative or positive way: if it's going to distract you and interrupt your workflow, fap before you work. alternatively, you can use fapping as your reward that drives you towards finishing your list of chores.

Brandy, you're a fine girl. What a good wife you would be. But my life, my lover, my lady is the sea.

I'm not antisocial, I have a large number of friends, I have a girlfriend who I love, and who loves me back, I have a great close family, I had no severe trauma as a child. But for some unknown reason, I hate myself. Like, truly detest, to the point where I've actually put myself in the hospital trying to mutilate my body (I got wasted and started cutting off fatty areas) And only thanks to a lot of plastic surgery do I look normal again. But still, I hate myself, I hide behind tattoos and piercings and a badass aditude. But when I sit alone I often just drink and wish I was somebody else. I even cry to my girlfriend about it sometimes. And the fact that I do that just makes me feel worse. I really don't know what's wrong with me.

>>7579421
You're probably just trolling anyways. But let us know if you pay a visit to /x/.

>>7578872
Jeans, t-shirts/sweaters & hoodies because it's cold in Northern Ontario. I do enjoy dressing up in a nice shirt when I go out to parties though.

I masturbate more than 4 times a day. I still have a high sex drive and I am very active in sports and lead a very healthy social life.

Also I have a girlfriend, but she wont put out. She is extremely catholic.

>>7579437
thats not a normal relationship with alcohol, bro.

You gotta cut that out of your life and stop hiding from yourself. Accept that you might be a disappointment to some, but your sobriety is more important than anything else if drinking = self harm

>>7579421
I don't know what it was... but I'm saying bro... if there's a chance it was coincidence, and nothing else.

It probably was coincidence.

"Statistically, you shouldn't... But there's always SOMEONE winning the lottery."

>>7579359
Intriguing. Well, I wouldn't hesitate to talk to someone you find interesting, as the only options are that 1) he's as interesting as you thought he was or 2) like you said you find some small detail that ruins the image, and even then it's not bad, i mean if that detail makes you really decide you don't like the guy after all then it is what it is and there's no real loss because you supposedly wouldn't like him anyways?

I'm not sure i fully understood your post, anyways. I'm very tired. ( '._.)

>>7579360
That's heartbreaking. I feel really bad for her. Maybe she could've gone to the doctor to try and fix her small vagina. That sounded very abrupt and shallow but it's the only solution I can think of...

I'm sad now, because you didn't do anything wrong, and yet you guys never got to have consensually enjoyed sex...

>>7579362
I want to go traveling around the world with you! Once I save up enough money, we should go through with it!

>>7579200
Oh, by emotional rock I meant that they all come to me with their worries, because I'm the stable, happy, fun one that gives good advice. Sorry if I came off otherwiiiise.

>>7579465
Pre-emptive block strategy activate!

It's like the universe... people think that because the chance of a planet like earth occurring is absurdly small, it must've been made by a God.

But the galaxy is filled with absurdly much shit. We won the lottery, but it's not something special.

Someone always wins.

I'm a closet dyke (... bisexual? who knows), but just don't date anyone because I don't want the negative social stigma attached to me. I'm content with being a crazy old cat lady when I grow up, I guess.

I like really fast music. Sometimes I go into Audacity and speed up songs so they sound chipmunk-ish, and listen to them when I'm feeling really energetic, or have a million thoughts racing in my head at one time.

Sometimes, when I'm bored, I drift off and think about having imaginary conversations with people. Not really in a crazy kind of way, but I guess it's sort of like... daydreaming about hanging out with a person? I dunno. Probably really weird, but oh well.

I always find myself having random morbid thoughts. Not about killing people or anything like that, but more like... "oh hey, it'd really suck if for some reason I felt compelled to stick my finger in that pencil sharpener and have it grinded away, with blood spewing out of the machine and splattering across the room." Pic related.

My lady wants to go live in London some day, raise a child, maybe grow old and she wants it to be with me. I think that would be the best thing ever, I love the idea of Britain.
I'm not sure where this is going. But that was my random thought.

>>7579485
We talked about it before we broke up and decided next time we were going to try some lube or something. We both kinda had the impression once we did it a few times she'd be used to it and we wouldn't need to worry about it any more.

I felt really bad for her cus I know she sure as hell wanted it as bad as I did.

>>7579465
Fuck it, I will just tell you people. Dead grandma showed up in a family photo.
Anybody remember reading this? I have posted it many times.
Anyway, this was no trick of the light. This was an 80 year old dead woman's face clear as day. Coincidence? I was there when the thing was taken, this was no coincidence. This was one seriously weird happening. So weird in fact that I can't bring myself to accept the "nothing" answer to the question of what comes after death. Obviously it is something, I saw it with my damn eyes. My whole family saw it with our damn eyes..

So go ahead, try to convince me I am crazy or it was swamp gas. I know you are wrong and I know what I saw and the circumstances that created it. I am fine with that.

Damn..brother tries to write and interesting personality trait and has to put up with this shit!

>>7579405

Do you think it would feel very different? What is carbonated water like anyway? Similar to soda? I think pudding or jello would be the best. Alternatively I always thought having a house with trampoline floors would be cool. So you could sort of run about the house doing very high jumps or say jump over a stair railing onto the trampoline ground.

I'm pondering proposing to my girlfriend of 13 months. I have the money. I know what kind of jewellery she likes, so I've got an idea about the ring. I'm just worried I might be moving too fast. We're both still students (albeit towards the end of final year), and we haven't lived together properly yet.

Still. I'm kinda convinced we could have something wonderful here. And I would like to go out on a limb, make myself a bit vulnerable to show her what she means to me.

>>7579377
You need to tell her this in the same matter that you just told me. If you've tried talking to her before and she hasn't changed, maybe she really needs a wakeup call. Either way, make sure you're being assertive if you think she isn't getting the message. Are you possibly being intimidated by her? I know it sounds crazy but....

Yeah I'm pissing in the wind here, but good luck anyways

>>7579405
I saw an episode of Brainiac where they filled a pool with custard and were able to walk on it as long as they kept moving (they would sank if they stood still, I can't remember the physics of it though). I really want to do that.

>>7579466
Yeah, it should be like that, you got it right.

It's just that, as I mentioned, no one interests me, so when I come across these rare findings, I keep myself from spoiling them. I don't believe in special things or people; the smallest detail out of place (that is, for me), would remind me how he isn't special either.

But as I said I'm ok with this.

>>7579512
Well then obviously they're shitty friends. Get some new ones! Problem solved!

I've never planned, and I've never really worked, despite that I seem to be supernaturally good at winging it, everybody else assumes I put in shitloads of time and effort, I turn up and just wave my brass pair around

>>7579550
trust me dude, wait until you move in together for at least 9 months.

I really want to be a train conductor. You know, the guy who takes passengers' tickets and wears the awesome getup. I've always loved trains, and loved talking with people, so getting to do both would be my dream job. Get paid to talk to folks and ride across the country on a train? Sign me the fuck up.

Of course, getting a job as a passenger train conductor is pretty much impossible.

I was best friends with this guy for a really long time, but we got into an argument and stopped talking. Eventually we made up, but it was forced and awkward. He's seemed to moved on with his life, but I'm miserable and miss him. It makes me sad that he's happy without me.

>>7579547
Did it show up like ghostly? Or super perfectly clear?

I'm 19 years old and I still sleep with a baby blanket.

>>7579550
I know I'm just an anon and my opinion is probably worthless to you, but I'd at least wait until you've finished up with your final year. I've heard of people proposing on their graduation day, always thought that was romantic.

>>7579582
conductors don't take the tickets, the customer service people who work aboard the train take the tickets. If you're a Canadafag, check out viarail's website. Unionized and good $$$

>>7579570
Truue.

>>7579582
>>7579610
In norway and denmark at least, the conductor checks your ticket.

>>7579608
Yeah. I know waiting is the sensible thing to do, really. Give it some time, see how it's like when we're actually living together and not just at each other's house all the time. It's just a bit like I feel that, well, by waiting, I'm kinda saying 'I'm not willing to take risks for you'. Does that make sense, or am I talking crazytalk?

I like a girl but she just started going out with my friend, and my other friend who knows i like her keeps saying how they are a nice couple and i should be happy for them, i'm now the only person in my group of friends without a girlfriend or boyfriend. :( anyway, that's my random bit of self pity....

>>7579549

Back to this plawks!

I read Fanfiction. Harry Potter mostly, but occasionally I'll dip into other fandoms.

Never told anyone that before.

>>7579550
Humans are weird. I'm speaking of this tradition of gifting a jewellery ring. Do you spend so much money in useless objects just to mean that you care about someone? Are you all that shallow? Shouldn't you employ that energy in finding the most special thing you can? The one that represents your relationship most eloquently and beautifully?

I want to travel across the country on foot. I have really intricate daydreams about it all the time. Currently I'm debating whether riding a bike and attatching a wagon on the back would be good or not. On the one hand, extra storage, possibly faster commute, easier on the feet and back. On the other, bikes break and thus I'd have to take repair supplies, and such a thing would decrease mobility (for example, crossing streams and climbing mountains, or very dense forest, would be hard to navigate with a bike.)

After a while of wandering all around, coast-to-coast, I'd pick a place and construct a home. Start a garden, be completely self-sufficient.

But I'd probably just end up dead in a ditch somewhere. Or my glasses would break, and I'd have to live the rest of my life blind.

>>7579547
Could you be more specific than just "showed up"?
Was it like, there's a ghostly image? Or some leaves look like her? Or the ripple in the water? Or something like that?

>>7579629
guess it varies from country to country. My friends dad is a train conductor in Canada

I feel really bad for you because I had the same problem with a lot of bad relationships in high school.

You just have to wait until you find someone who's as crazy about you as you are about them. Believe me if you keep going out and attempt to meet new people it will eventually happen, no matter what you look like. Once that happens, you'll know it, and your anxiety will go away. Trust me.

>>7579636
Personally, I think asking someone to marry you, no matter how long you've been together, shows your willing to take a risk.

But I'm not married, so maybe someone who is could chip in.

>>7579636
Trust me dude, WAIT.

Living with someone full-time is COMPLETELY different than staying over at each other's places. There are going to be things each of you do that drives the other NUTS. Some things may be big enough to end the relationship, as sad as it sounds - yeah they're little things, but it's the little things that make up life.

>>7579598

Clear as day. No trick of light or weird photo filter could create this image..at least not that I know of. I think the funniest thing about people, they are not willing to just leave things I say at what they are. You guys go on this whole charade about proving me wrong, even though you don't know what I am talking about and never saw the thing. Most common explanation is that I am crazy, which if true would mean I require my own section in the DSM.

Anyway, let us learn something fro this. What we think we know and what the reality is are usually two very separate things. I will admit that this picture might have a logical explanation. Having spent years pondering this I have come to the conclusion that no, no it does not. Now, if it doesn't what does this imply? Obviously that something comes after death, whatever that might be.

Now, can we all accept this, or do we need to stroke our egos and try to prove me wrong?

>>7579547
damn that's awesome. don't suppose you have a picture of the photo?

>>7579651

Sitting in the background looking at the camera.

>>7579423
Dear God child if you don't want to go to medical school DON'T. If people are seriously going to be disappointed because you want to do what YOU WANT TO DO, then they obviously aren't people you should be worried about making disappointed. Yes, it's good to be ambitious but I'd rather be unsuccessful and happy then suffer to be successful.

This has been buggering me for a while.

I know love exists, but only as a natural human reaction or state of mind. And it is scientifically proved to last only for some time (1-2 years?). I despise the idea of spending my time exclusively with one person for the rest of my life if my mind isn't altered to make me wish so. Can't even think of it.

BUT I love kids and I want to have a lot of them. What to do? If only I were a woman...

>>7579681
Let's see the pic bro. Surely you've scanned it?

>>7579696
Are you sure it couldn't be a case of accidental multiple exposure?

>>7579686

Unfortunately, no. I think its at my aunts house. You aren't missing much anyway, it looks pretty normal. If you didn't know the lady in the background was dead you wouldn't think anything of it.

>>7579714
oh wow, so she's actually THERE? i was under the assumption just her face was like, floating in the light or something.

that's creepy as hell

>>7579649

I relate to this. This is relevant to my interests. I idolize Christopher McCandless and I desire to hitchhike across the united states and work my way up to Alaska. Even if I die. I don't care.

>>7579714
Inb4 this guy is schizophrenic and the picture doesn't actually exist, as he is delusional.

>>7579523
>Sometimes, when I'm bored, I drift off and think about having imaginary conversations with people. Not really in a crazy kind of way, but I guess it's sort of like... daydreaming about hanging out with a person? I dunno. Probably really weird, but oh well.

I do that too. I was under the impression everyone does it.

>>7579710

If that was the case I would imagine the rest of the picture would be distorted in some way. It isn't. The actual face itself would probably be transparent also.

But I can't show you since I don't have it, so obviously if we want to talk about this you are going to have to trust me. Which you don't. And I wouldn't either.

Stop spoiling the thread with that bullshit about ghosts.

BTW, even if ghosts existed, they wouldn't show up on pics, you horde of retards. Physics are physics.

>>7579603
I think....that is adorable. I had a lot of stuffed animals when I was a kid and I still like to cuddle with them. By all means, you cuddle with that safety blanket and feel confident about it. It sounds like a perfectly healthy way to comfort yourself.

>>7579710
This sure sounds likely... I bet the chair she was sitting on was not even there when the photo was taken.

Maybe the chair is there and she is sitting in another photo?

>>7579735

Your opinion is obviously flawed if my dead grandmother was showing up in fucking pictures.

Thread derailing successful! Now I can rest in peace knowing I accomplished something in this world.

>>7579734
you're so negative to people. you keep talking about how people don't trust you and shit when it comes to this photo. I haven't read every reply to your post, but it seems like people are generally interested and believe you that it appeared, and are just trying to come up with reasons as to why it might have happened.

>>7579583
Tell him how you feel. He'll admire you for your honesty. And if he still ignores you? Then he's a shallow bastard that isn't worth it.

>>7579735
No-one is ACTUALLY thinking it's ghosts, (besides the guy).

We're trying to deduce the real cause. Multiple exposure seems extremely likely at this point. As stated, if it's in the background, a little transparency could easily be hidden. Granny might be sitting in the exact same position in a different photo.

>>7579523
Funny. I used to imagine all the time a large kind of factory, where people systematically slide down on very long, well, slides, like for a couple of days, only to find a blade at the end and get chopped in half. There would be a pool at the end where all the slides flushed the corpses.

Not so pleasant.

>>7579707
Here's a really interesting article I read lately, you would like it:
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1704672,00.html

>>7579750

Let me describe this to you.

-Foreground is my aunts front lawn
-4 people are standing on it, smiling, nothing out of the ordinary.
-about 10 feet behind them is my uncles car
-You see her sitting in the passenger seat. All of her face and part of her body are visible.

This is basically the specifics of it as I can remember. Go ahead and argue and derail good thread more.

>>7579728
I want to head somewhere warm. I'm tired of being cold, and warm climates support more plant life. But I suppose Alaska is unrivaled in expanse of wilderness as far as US goes.

>>7579775

Yeah, I don't know if you have taken a photography class, but if it was multiple exposure the whole picture would be messed up.

>>7579799
>implying thread was ever good.

At any rate, you should get that photo, and scan it... From your description it sounds far-fetched in some manner... I'm almost certain someone could find something off about it.

Also, sure she's not having that same expression in a different photo?

>>7579437
If you have no reason to hate yourself, you shouldn't - Just think about it logically. If you're still depressed it might be something deeper in your consciousness, so go see a psychiatrist. I know, I know - No one likes the idea of needing therapy. But give it a try.

>>7579807

I'm disenchanted with cities and people. I want to go where no one can find me. Nature is something I find solace in. I would like to see all the beautiful things the U.S. has to offer but I simply won't live that long.

>>7579707
if you want kids but don't want a wife, why not adopt?

I want one of only two things...love, or freedom. I would kill every man, woman and child on this earth for either of them.

My boyfriend would rather play his stupid online game than fuck me. despite telling him I'm horny as hell, NOPE GOTTA PLAY DIS GAME WITH PEOPLE I DON"T KNOW AND WILL NEVER MEET

god is it too much to ask to devote a couple minutes a day to something other than a fucking game? fuck, even some dry humping would suffice.

>>7579829

Can't remember seeing another photo of her in that exact same position. And you have to remember, I was actually there when this thing was taken. If it WAS multiple exposure you would need two pictures taken in that exact same position. One with her in it and another with her not.As far as I know that didn't happen

But whatever, all you have is my word and my word admittedly means shit.

The last time I spoke to my mother was when I was 10 years old, and I threw such a fucking shitfit over some pathetic little thing that she stormed out of the house crying. The next day, she called home and said she was coming home with her boyfriend. That night, her boyfriend (who was driving) got into a police chase at 100+ mph, and crashed into a street lamp. My mother was killed instantly, and he walked away without jailtime or a single scratch.

My grandparents woke me up at 3 am that morning and told me she was dead. I just laughed it off, and for the next few years I just didn't care that she was killed. I rarely saw her since she was constantly in rehab for her heroin addiction, and I lived with my grandparents while she was away.

I miss her so much it hurts, and I want nothing more than to go back all those years and tell her I'm sorry. I love her so much.

>>7579450
Ah, yeah, it's bitterly cold where I live too. Nothing beats this parka that I've had for like 5 years, it looks really normal from the outside but the inside is the softest fleece material I've ever felt. It's great, and cost a ton of money, but was so worth it.

>>7579829
Aw :(
I'm sorry I make such shitty threads....

>>7579896

If it makes you feel better, I like this thread. Even though I ruined it with my ghost shit.

>>7579829

This thread is actually better than most on /r9k/ or 4chan for that matter.

>>7579879
This, fucking this. I'm in the same boat. I can usually pry him off CoD for five minutes if I start sucking him off while he's playing, and then he'll fuck me and immediately return to the game. We don't do anything. We don't play games, we don't go out. He just plays his game.

>>7579879

You can cure my WoW addiction any time. ._.

>>7579882
Depending on the circumstances of what happened, the photos don't need to be identical... Hell, they could be completely different.

But all I have to say is:
Get the photo. Scan it. It's sure to be interesting.

That's it, I'll leave you alone.

>>7579917
Maybe you should buy the game yourself and be his wing-girl.

>>7579862
Shit's complicated. And call me a nazi but I want them to carry my genetic background. Although not so badly.

>>7579917
FUCKING SAME. Right now though he's playing LoL though. Let me know if you find out something useful ~_~

>>7579919
That's sweet <3

>>7579896
Err... I didn't mean to make you feel bad. I'm sure YOU'RE enjoying the thread. And people always want a reason to bitch or tell something about themselves. So someone is getting relief out of this, I'm sure. I just saw this dude who claimed "afterlife".

>>7579917
>>7579879

Proof that video games are ruining society.

Ladies, throw his games out. This shit just ain't natural!

>>7579645
I read a lot of fanfiction too, I usually have phases that I go through where I'll read a really good book and for two or three months only read fanfic from that book, then move on to another book and do the same. This usually is only with harry potter -esque books. My latest obsession was the Percy Jackson series. HOT DAYUM

>>7579973
Jeez, why don't you just stop being bitches and leave him if it's that bad?

I'm an aspiring artist. What are your feelings on the importance of fine arts in the world? Do you think that it has any value? I personally think the collective populace doesn't care about real problems, and that art is one of the best ways to express the need to change.

>>7579959

Speaking as the guy who saw his dead grandma and started a shitstorm that lead nowhere, threads like this are the best thing about this damn website.

I remember once I wrote something to somebody on this. A little while later they said they memorized and saved the whole thing and that I had made, quote, "A big impact on my(her) life". So this shit obviously does help people, in some weird way.

>>7579995
Because I'm not interested in leaving him, I'm more interested on working something out that makes us both satisfied.

>>7579950
>>7579919

Seriously though, I used to be addicted, but quit around 10 months ago. While it wasn't the main reason we broke up, I lost my one and only girlfriend after retreating into that game.

Fact is, it's fun, but it never stops. It's like a soap opera, or the sports season. You need to sit down and talk with your bf about this, tell him about your feelings and your needs, emotional, sexual, whatever.

If he insists there isn't anything wrong, repeat yourself with a calm voice and the force of thunder. If he won't see sense, leave him. If he doesn't see sense after that, he's a lost cause.

Good luck femanon, and godspeed.

>>7579995
Because I love him and I owe him a lot.

>>7579959
Well, /r9k/ers are a diverse, interesting group of people. And, as I said in >>7578825, I love hearing stories, I love talking to people anonymously even though I'm pretty awkward in person. I love all the things you can do with the concept of anonymity. It draws out the human in people.

I like bestiality!

>>7580020
If you're not gonna obtain that photograph somehow, then yes, it did lead to nothing...

And that's YOUR fault.

I am secretly not as fun as I seem.
I really hate going places and being with people, that's one of my biggest secrets. My life style? I never eat alone. I love books and history, to the point if I am watching a really good show on the history channel, I'll blow you off. My best friend, he is really my only constant.
Secrets?
My brother is my heart.
I care more about my cat then people.
I'm scared of the real world.
The strongest person I know is falling, and there is no hope for any of us.
/rant

>>7580032
Well shit, maybe you just aren't worth as much to him as he is to you.

Might aswel just get the game and join him in it if you need him.

>>7580031
What else could you have been doing other than WoW that pissed her off enough to leave you?

>>7580045

D:

You mean I won't get to argue with a bunch of bitter atheists about the possibility of life after death!? THIS IS A FATE WORSE THEN TORTURE!!!

>>7579997

Art is expression, and expression comes from a creative drive that those who have it cannot stop. Most people don't understand higher art at all; to understand you need to be educated, to know why something is good. Most people just enjoy art because it resonates with them on a personal level.

Either way, art is a brilliant thing. I write poetry myself, amatuer and very niche. I find the idea of expressing my thoughts about something only a handful of people in all the world could understand very satisfying.

>>7580073
Great, be a massive faggot about it.

You claim you saw your dead grandmother appear in your photo, and you expect us to just accept that without doing something perfectly reasonable like showing is the photo? We're not even directly blowing you off yet! We even assume the photo is genuine and ask you to show it at some point in the future.

But fine, be a dick. You don't want to make an effort, you don't have to and I can't force you. Way to be...

>part of the problem.

Whoo, it's been 3 hours...I suppose I should wash my dishes now. Like last time, if the thread is still alive tonight I'll be back to respond to more posts.

This and the last one were really fun threads, guys. Thanks for sharing a lot of interesting stuff. I don't know if there should be a part 3 or not. What do you think?

Well, bye for now!

When I was younger I isolated myself and ended up interested in stuff my father was. He was worldly inventor who died when I was 18. So now I know all kinds of uncommon things, and own all kinds of esoteric stuff. I've become the go-to guy for everything with people I know. I also recently worked hard to be outgoing and social, so I now have a reputation as some sort of awesome eccentric badass.

The flip side of that is that essentially becoming a "retired engineer" in your teens really fucks with you. Not much contact with women, few friends my own age (I was once told by a woman in her 50s that I'd make a really good old man,) and I didn't go for an education. The stuff I learned about doesn't have a lot of demand by itself so I'm underemployed. Those things didn't bother me until recently. Now I see my old interests from an outside perspective and don't know what to think. Not just the practical stuff, either. Sleeping alone has become particularly painful.

None of my friends know that side of me. I'm not down about my future, but fixing all this shit gets aggravating after a while.

>>7580072

She didn't leave me, rather, we drifted apart after I realised she was a compulsive liar and subsequently became jealous of her relationship with her best friend. There was also the fact that I was nervous about having sex (my best friend got his gf pregnant at 16), so we didn't do it as often as she would have liked.

I regret my behavior, but I've learned and moved on, and I know it takes two to make or break most relationships.

i am broke. like, i can pay my bills but if anything at all extra is needed i am fucked. that includes something as cheap as $40. my boyfriend recently lost his job and is not really making much effort to find a new one. he claims he wants an open relationship but doesn't let me fuck anyone. and i've never told him this, but he is bad in bed. i love him so i tried to help him learn, but he doesn't seem to want to. now i just schlick after he's done fucking me. because i love him. i don't actually really want to be with anyone else, he just keeps picking incredibly dumb or fucked up girls who i hate and need more attention than me. and last night he slept with a straight guy while drunk.

before i met him i was a member of a bdsm personal site. someone contacted me on there recently and asked me if i would let him fullfill a fantasy he has by letting a friend pay him $200 to fuck me and we would split the money. i will never tell anyone, but i am seriously considering it. if i can find a place other than our apartment and i don't have to do anal and can use a condom, i think i may say yes.

>>7579997
Art is the only thing that matters, as things are right now.

>>7580082
>>7580082

What do you mean "higher art"? Like, shit in museums that have 3 splatters of blue paint on a black canvas?

>>7578376
except for the jacking off, this. all the role models i have are male. i can't think of any woman i aspire to be like. shitsux

>>7580131
I agree with you completely. You seem like an intelligent person.

>>7580082
Out of interest what kind of a niche?

Threads like this are highlight 4chan experiences for me. :) Thanks, Bell. You're a good moderator.

>>7580156

Essentially you have two kinds of art...

One kind follows a certain set of rules and forms, be it in poetry, music, painting or otherwise. This is the sort of art that it requires knowledge of the artform to appreciate.

The other kind is that which anyone can do, which is through expression.

Ultimately elements of the first type break through in amatuer art, because most of the "rules" are a reflection of human nature.