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02/03/10(Wed)15:11:26 No. 7367344 Fuck...so
long thread, i have no time to read all this now. Shortly: i'm with you
OP, i have some friends and so, can do small talk with people (but i
see truly no point in it) and whatever...But fuck this, no one can
understand me properly. There was a guy, my friend, who was able to do
this, but he had to move to the opposite edge of the country, which
left me alone in the circle of idiots. Sometimes my loneliness is just
killing my will to live, but then I realize that it's the only way
until I meet someone who will understand me fully. I know it is
possible. What is the worst thing i became oblivious to people,
and i absolutely dont care what do they think about me. And at last I
must cope with my sociophobia and shyness. That's really sad, guys. Also,
I could literally die for that girl which I love, but I'm always too
awkward to talk with her about something that is not complete, trivial
shit. Life hurts, and if there would be any solution , not including suicide, cos suicide is fucking idiotism, i would try it.