So /r9k/ i have worked myself into a dilemma, and it is the problem of pretending. I have put on a major front for my college year that i am a gangstar and from the streets, where i really play video games and listen to music that the archetypal gangstar wouldn't listen to.No girls notice me for they think i have my own shit going on, and ghetto girls don't like me because i'm obviously a poser. I can't simply stop because i would be devoured by the horde of teenage ego.The world has been my battlefield everywhere i go, the indifference of people not affected mounts around me. Maybe you cannot yet hear it, for the soil is not your own. But you will, you will.
I'm a white girl who loves all things hood. Just be yourself and don't worry.Don't stress about it. And listen to The Chronic. It'll calm your nerves. Smoke more weed and play more video games.Hope this helps.
/r9k/ = self-interest
>>7346519How does it feel to betray your race?quartichbloxfuckingskank
Looks like my thread has gained some recognition now due to the appearence of a female. Fucking representation of Humanity right here.
>>7346519You miserable whore, I wish I met you, I could punch you in the face and retain my honor
its your fault for being stupid enough to buy into a shallow stereotype.
>>7346473OP is a closeted black nerd that has to put a front of a living stereotype in order not to be perceived as "acting white". There are plenty of black nerds out there, you may feel that you are alone but you are actually not. Just get a social life outside of school if you can.
>>7346613That is actually pretty accurate, this is Op by the way.
>>7346623I do play video games, into anime and watch a lot of British television via torrents, and read plenty of non-fiction books.I'm not into football nor religion, even though I do listen to a lot of hip/hop rap I don't listen to the radio anymore. I listen mostly to video game music, and other genre's of music.
>>7346705I just hate the fucking hostility i face by every potential gang member when i go to college. I feel like they all just want me dead. If they were gone from the area (which is why i went to the college in the first place, to get away from them) then i would really enjoy college and life as a whole. But everytime i leave the house i, as many other east london teenagers, have to employ there apathy masks due to these fucking jackals.
>>7346758Oh, I see that you live in East London, and they actually commute to that college from that area?! God, why?Do you feel unsafe in your college in anyway? If so I suggest you transfer to another college that does not have that same gangster mentality.
>>7346812It's not that easy, if i move to a different college i will have to adopt whole new curriculums and possibly lag behind so much that there wouldn't be any point continuing. This will contradict to my hope of being an engineer and moving to a nicer area, instead of stagnating and being surrounded by hate. People might see east london pales in comparison to other regions of the earth and ignore it completly, but this is the hive of all cultures, and the result has turned grim. I not have the mindset that this is as good as life gets, regarding all alternative choices as having extremely negative implications.
Are you an armeinean faggot from the suburbs of Michigan op?If so I'm going to beat the fuck out of you later this week you pussy bitch.And you still owe me 150$ you fucking faggot.
>>7346964No. If your read the thread, OP lives in East London, England. >>7346894How many years do you have left in your college education?
>>7347243About 1 and a half.
>>7347253Do you have a social life outside of college?
>>7347306No, i am completly devoid of a social life.
Just be yourself for fucks sake. Who cares what other people think, it doesn't matter. It seems like being someone you aren't is making you miserable, so just cut that shit out and act natural.
>>7347386So what you do is you go straight home after college and play video games right?What you need to do is to get a social life outside of east London.
>college>still thinking being a gangster is cool
>>7346473I'm in a similar situation.I wasn't attending college for about a year, and then I met this girl. I told her I was attending College B, but then I was accepted to College A. She attends College A. If she sees me in College A, then the jigs up and she'll know I was lying about College B.So now I have to go to all my lectures in disguise. I use spirit gum and a fake beard. Once the security questioned me and asked for my ID, but I look completely different on it so I told them the beard was for drama studies and pulled a bit of it off to demonstrate. Close call. I can't wait til she graduates.
>>7347684fucking lolgoddamn can't you just say you transferred or some shit?