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01/21/10(Thu)18:44:20 No.7215375when
i was younger, my mom cheated on my dad alot. which is why for so long
my relationship with my mother had been incredibly strained. we're
working on it now that i'm older and my parents have been divorced for
some years now, and it is getting better. but for quite some time my
dad was pretty much the only parent i had. it was him at the
performances, at the open house nights, at the awards ceremonies until
my mom realized that she couldn't party every night and actually wanted
a part in mine and my brother's lives. i guess i really just want to
make him proud. he loves telling everyone about how proud he is that
i'm working hard to try and live out my dreams, and is constantly
showing off work that i've done. there's artwork i've done over the
years in nice frames at his house, programs i've coded on a flash drive
so he can show people what i've done. sure, we've had our arguments,
and having been in the military he was rather strict while i was
growing up, and sometimes he wonders what i see in my boyfriend, until
i told him that my boyfriend reminds me so much of him: supportive,
caring, there for me, wanting nothing but for me to be happy. my dad
may have not been the perfect dad, but he did try. i just feel like his
relationship with my brother is sometimes charidad and sometimes
dragondad. then again, my brother is pretty ungrateful and kinda a
general dick, and he doesn't know when to shut up, and my dad can be
pretty harsh sometimes, but still.
i feel terrible for my
boyfriend though. there is basically no father relationship for him,
since his dad was an abusive asshole. i really feel bad for him, and
for those who don't have a good relationship with their fathers, or
have some sort of positive father figure in their lives. |