If you can't find a cliff, just drive onto a wall or a gasoline truck.

Troll. Post pictures of your scars.

Only world class arseholes would kick their kid out of college after such an event.

>>6853803
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I would like to urge you to reconsider, but I suppose you've already put a lot of thought into it.

Best of luck to you in your next life, champ.

>>6853835
zzzzz...lemme see if I can find a camera around here somewhere...give me a few minutes.

okay got a camera, took pics...have to start up my netbook, what the fuck kind of camera doesn't have a mini USB port on it but some weirdass strange port...

>>6853822
you have to make sure the gasoline truck explodes though for maximum effect. you could you ensure it exploding?

So what, your parents are paying for everything, you have a girlfriend, and you're doing okay in college?
I fail to see why you're suicidal, other than you being a gigantic whiny bitch.

>>6853893

You better have time stamped it as well. Don't think I am stupid enough to fall for "let me spend ten minutes looking up surgery scars on Google".

>>6853895
It probably wouldn't explode.
Just drive 200mph and hope for the best.

Sorry for shitty quality, hard to take a picture when you've been up 2 days in a row and it's at that weirdass angle =/

here's the other side.

>>6853911
Fuck I'm an idiot, should have remembered. Sigh. Well. idunno why surgery scar pics would have beds in the background, I'm too tired to go and get something else.

Anyone else have any better ideas? =/...I just wish I could let her know that I didn't mean to hurt her with this before I do it....

EXIF data:
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Image Date: 2009:12:30 08:50:49
Flash Used: Yes (Auto, red eye reduction mode)
Focal Length: 6.7mm (35mm equivalent: 38mm)
Exposure Time: 0.033 s (1/30)
Aperture: f/3.1
ISO equiv: 64
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Seems legit.

I don't think you should do anything. I say you try again at your college

Get some sleep, idiot.

Dude don't kill yourself over this. Your parents are assholes. Can't you explain them that the D was an error on the teacher's part? Can't you discuss that with your teacher?

Imagine you have kids, or just one child. And he decides to take his own life.

Imagine how fucking bad you'd feel, how you'd think it was your fault because you just weren't there for him.

Imagine the same sort of feeling that your close friends will get.

The emotional damage you're about to inflict to all those near to you should make you think twice you selfish prick. Damnit, just continue with life and make people happy. It will make you happy.

>>6853952
I can't. They're cutting me off of it - not paying for it anymore, and I have no money, and can't work right now because I'm still in recovery. I could go and live at someone's house - maybe - but...I have no money. I used up all that I had on contributing to the last semester of school I had. My parents paid a bit of it but I paid for most of it, they'd be paying for this whole semester, but they're not going to.

They're basically kicking me out of their lives like they're done with me.

Kill yourself instead of trying to get attention from here. In reality you don't need advice, you're just too much of a pussy to kill yourself.

Also, get barbeque briquets and smash them up a little. Then light them on fire. Take them with you to a small room (like a bathroom) and seal all gaps and holes with duct tape. Wait a few minutes and you'll start feeling sleepy...
This is called a charcoal-burning suicide. Google for more information.

Don't do it OP. Don't end your life over some shitty things that are happening to you right now. Why would you even consider doing that? Man the fuck up and take control of your life and pull through it all.

>>6853803
My advice is don't.

Set a date a few weeks in the future when you can do it if you want to. People find that freeing, and can get on with enjoying now - because there's no pressure any more.

Also, killing yourself over collage is pretty lame - you have an entire life to go still... Just runaway somewhere - do a Christopher McCandless and sell all your shit and go travelling. If you've got to the point you'd kill yourself, you're at a moment when you're free enough to do ANYTHING you could possibly imagine.

Being dead is just dull

Okay I am willing to believe you are probably not a complete troll (could just be some dude with surgery scars trollan).

Your family are either colossal arseholes or are just freaking out and being retarded. If you are not chronically ill (why did your lungs collapse?) I don't see much of a reason to kill yourself. College isn't the be all of life and neither is your parents being dicks. You need to get some sleep and spend tomorrow figuring out why you need the approval of other people to keep going in life.

Post a link to your local newspaper's website so we can see the news about you. At least somebody will care then.

fuck them, do your own thing. things can only get better (unless you start getting into drug dealing and stuff and get limbs cut off. I don't advocate it)

travel, if you dont have money for planes, pack your bags and wander through a far away town and start a new life

>>6853964
Told my parents about that, and they claim that I could have known about it before the release of the grades.
>>6853967
I don't give a shit about what my parents think, they can fucking burn for all I care, I've tried everything I could possibly do to live up to their expectations and they kicked me in the face. As for my friends...they're the only regret I would have...but if I get kicked out of everywhere and I'm a poor homeless 18 year old who can't work because he's in surgery recovery, I'm basically worthless. What am I supposed to do with my life?

>>6853971
Uh huh. And how old are you? You're supposed to be self sufficient at 18 anyway. You're just a spoiled brat.

So people all over the world are starving, living on the streets, have terminal ilnesses, are orphaned, and you're going to kill yourself because you can't pay for college? What the fuck, man. At least be grateful that you even got a chance to go to college in the first place. Many people don't have a chance like that in their lifetime.

OP you need to go back to your school and get the grade you're entitled to, your parents are being petty but that's not your fault it's theirs and certainly not worth doing anything irrational over.
My parents threaten to kick me out and say hurtful things but I don't blame them for being insensitive assholes it's just their nature, don't let their lesson be the loss of a perfectly fine son, let it be a large serving of humble (asshole) pie when they realise that you actually had earned the marks they (considering your injuries) unreasonably expected of you!

>>supposed to be self sufficient at 18

Only idiots working blue collar jobs with no future believe this.

>>6854008

As I said, make others happy. The girl you're seeing, you're making her happy. That's why life is worth living, helping others and enjoying it when people enjoy you.

And what about other Family members? Can't you stay with them. If you have no-one to go to you pretty much fucked up in the past bro, you're 18 ffs.

>>6854008

So because you can't work while you recover you want to die? Stop being a self-pitying fool. I have thought about suicide but I had damn better reasons than that I needed to not work for a few months.

>>6854008
You could always put an end to this. Only a complete faggot liar would say life is worth living, it's just hard work with occasional happy moments. They're rare and definitely not worth the pain and suffering. Killing yourself will free you of the continuous pain, but also the ability to enjoy since you won't be feeling anything anymore. I mean, do you want to keep living like a dumb retard trying to walk through a glass wall or do you want to free yourself?

>>6854008
Did you discuss the D grade with your parents? Did you say that you couldn't know you'd get a D and expected an A? Why do they care for the D so much if you told them you normally would get an A and are more proficient in that class than the teacher? Can't you ask the teacher to write a signed note or something explaining the situation?

I don't want to come off as rude, and I am genuinely sorry for your situation, but it seems that you kind of have this attitude: 'Damnit got a D, must be a mistake. Damnit, my parents will kick me out because of that, that sucks.' You should try to fix your situation instead of being depressed. I know it sounds easy for me, but still. This should not be left like it is. It is an error that should be correctd. You just kind of go with it, if I were you I'd step to the school and demand that the grade is fixed. It's like getting carjacked and saying: 'fuck I lost my car', but not going to the police to report the crime.

Tape down as many A1 sheets of paper in a grid on the sidewalk under the highest building you can find. Jump from rooftop and aim for the paper.

Profit.

>>6853803
Last time my parents acted like that, i got pissed the fuck off, and threatened to kill them if they wouldn't stop being assholes. Worked for me. But then again, i'm a big guy.

>>6854191
You don't even have to be a big guy.
I'm a small guy who never goes out and only stays on the computer. My parents fear me way more than they would if I was a big guy.

>>6854222
>>6854191
If your parents weren't complete retards your aspie asses would be freezing to death in the street.

Lol Adam STFU and gimme my E

Don't do it. Just don't. You still have friends, and you even have a girlfriend. Things are still good for you. You have people around that care about you. At the moment, life seems tough and you feel like giving up is the only option, but that's not true. Grit your teeth and bare it for a while. It's worth it, trust me.
I was once down that road. I once truly believed that suicide would be my only option. I didn't do it, and guess what? Now, five years after, I could not be happier with my life. I'm studying something I love, I have friends who would sacrifice themselves for me, I have a family who supports me.
Life can change, bro. Trust me on this one.

I say this every time someone here asks for suicide advice, but have it again.

Jump in front of a train doing at least 30.

Or, lay your neck on one of the tracks, or whatever you feel like. It honestly does itself.

im starting to think they should make a suicide board. then i would have to see this crap over and over again.

Come move in with me. Bring your girlfriend. Stay until you get your shit together.

;_;
Your pic made me go pet my dog.

people have gone through and survived worse situations than yours, just appreciate what u got cause its damn sure better than most people's.

>>6854467
Me too. I even nuzzled with her.

Hmm.
Well OP. It's all up to you. I'd say don't do it, but in the meantime, it's your choice, as it is your life.
However, crashing into a cliff probably won't kill you unless it's the friggin' Grand Canyon.
Light up a propane tank inside of your car or something.
Make it memorable.

>>6854477
that's dumb. no matter how bad you have it, there will always be someone that has it worse.

I skipped a lot of class in high school and flunked out of one year because I was completely depressed and I was also sick of being picked on. When my mom found out, she and the rest of my family yelled at me and placed the blame on my laziness. It was like they were completely oblivious to the fact that I didn't care about failing because I spent every day thinking about ways to off myself. Yes, failing that year was my fault, but screaming at me and calling me selfish and lazy probably wasn't the best approach if they wanted things to turn around.

If your parents are anything like my mom, she probably won't give a shit about your health issues, mental or physical. "If you don't do the work, you're lazy". Try to level with her anyway. If she doesn't understand, then fuck it, let whatever's going to happen just happen. You'll drop out, get a shitty job, and maybe you'll do something else. Also, see a shrink if you can. I tried to get a referal from my PCP but she basically just said that she didn't believe me.

I'd strongly suggest talking to your teacher first and getting your grade changed.

If that doesn't work, make sure to mention both them and your parents in your suicide note, so they all feel properly guilty.

Kill your parents, make it look like an accident or a break in or something.

If you get away with it, you inherit.

If you get caught, you can kill yourself anyway. And if you don't, your food and shelter and education problems are solved.

>>6853946
leave her a not that says you are sorry. post a pic of it.

OP: My brother commited suicide about 3 years ago now. He had tried half a dozen times before via overdosing and hanging. One time, at christmas, I went into his room to find him comatose, choking on a pool of his own vomit and making a wheezing noise that still haunts me to this day. The days following that were spent with the doctors telling us not to expect him to survive. He made it through that, but still managed again a few months down the line.

Dont kill yourself. Stop thinking about your own misery, and think about your family for a moment, even if they are being dicks. It will completly destroy their life, and no amount of time will ever make it any better.

My mum regularly has breakdowns, saying it was all her fault and she should have done something for him. She then accuses me of not doing enough, since I was the last person to ever see him alive (I stayed at his place for a few days before it happened). My dad has retreated so far inside his emotional shell he pretty much cant acknowledge his first born ever even existed.Not to mention the effects it has had on me. I was in uni at the time, had done a foundation year and was starting the first year degree level. I was having a great time, made loads of friends, and was finally pulling myself out of the soul crushing horribleness that was going to an all boys secondary school.

>>6854648
My brother died right before I was due back for my second year (third year of actual uni due to foundation year). It completly fucked me up. Ive become a huge introvert, I struggle to maintain friendships due to sheer apathy. I have no drive or motivation, and I am haunted every day by knowing that I didnt do enough to help, that I could have done more. For my 21st birthday, I had a complete breakdown and had a fit of raging anger / uncontrollable crying in front of most of my friends.I didnt graduate my degree with everyone else, I had to take an extra year out to do my exams because I simply couldnt cope. I never even bothered to do the graduation day celebration.

I never sleep well. I dont have nightmares about giant spiders in the kitchen, I have nightmares about family members berating me about my brother, my brother dying etc. Every time I wake up, im filled with a sense of uneasy dread because of my dreams. I am very tired.

So in summary, dont do it. Sounds like you need help, so get help. This isnt the answer.

>>6854648
sounds like he attempted suicide 3 times, and each time his family yelled at him for being selfish.

>>6854648
>It will completly destroy their life, and no amount of time will ever make it any better.

I think that's the point here, OPs parents are completely and callously destroying his life. (Assuming OP is telling the truth, of course.)

Life blows. I wish I could bring myself to a quick painless death.
If you were my best friend, I would just help you do what you wanted, and wish you luck in the afterlife if there is one, and our last wish would be that we would meet again on the other side.
At least not here. Not like this.

>>6854720

Oh.

Well if thats the case and hes not just being a whiney faget, then feels good man.

ODing on cocodamol or something like that? Cant be that hard, celebrities die all the time from mixing prescription drugs.

>>6854648
>making a wheezing noise that still haunts me to this day

Fuck year failure of the cortical respiratory center!

I have a friend with epilepsy, when he has a fit his cortical respiration control gets knocked out and he does that brain stem driven weird ass breathing. It is quite freaky.

You fucking idiot suicide is an illusion, death gives no relief because you just fucking cease to exist and you are not fucking conscious to say "yay no more suffering!", you die in pain and pain is the last thing you feel, you can only get relief while alive. And of course there is always the horrible possibility that there is some kind of christian God that will send to hell for what you did, is very improbable but who fucking knows. In the end YOU CAN`T NOT WIN.

>>6854771

Ah, I thought he was wheezing because there was this black tar like vomit he had vommed up everywhere, and he was face down with it being kind of sucked back in.

Woudnt surprise me though, since he was so unconscious it was classified as being comatose and he nearly died. His brain must have been like "Feels bad man"

run a line from your car's exhaust into the cabin, it's much more peaceful with a far lower chance of failure. You can go off an average cliff in a car and survive unless you live in the Rocky mountains or any other particularly mountainous place.

ONCE YOU LOSE STAKE IN LIFE AND TRULY BECOME SUICIDAL, COMMITTING SUICIDE IS BY FAR THE MOST BORING THING YOU COULD POSSIBLY DO.
Think of all the murders and rapes you could pull of with no worry about the consequence.
YOU ARE INVINCIBLE NOW

>>6854910
yeah go for cho's high score

find something you hate in the world, besides yourself. preferably something wrong or unjust about the world and carefully plan how to tear it down and then how to rebuild as something good. but first get some sleep dumbass.

Go volunteer at your local Humane Society, stop being so self-centred you fucking asswipe.

Before you pull off all this shit, answer me this:

WHY AREN'T YOU APPEALING YOUR GRADE, DUMBFUCK?

Hey OP, first off having a continual illness like that must be aweful. Having to continually halt your life for something beyond your control is a pretty bad situation.
Please don't kill yourself, speaking as someone who has tried to off themselves at around the same age as you for similar reasons it is completely pointless and will only hurt the people that love you. (i dropped out of highschool because of colon cancer and i spent a long time recovering where i couldn't go out or work, i ended up becoming a recluse, all of my friends moved on except for the ones that i made in the cancer ward who mostly died). Anyway i tried to kill myself a couple of times and failed pretty hard. I eventually realised that i had to be a man and take control of my life. Once i had recovered i got a job, moved out, took night classes and finished my final year of highschool with a pretty good score. I'm now in the middle of completing my uni degree and my life is pretty good, all things considered.
Your depression is partly a result of all the hormones messing with your brain right now. once you become lucid again you realise that suicide is pretty pointless and not going to resolve anything.
In regard to your problems, try to reason with your parents and say you will try harder next semester. If they are still unwilling to help, get a job and spend a year saving for college, or go part time.

OP if you wish to kill yourself that is your choice and nobody elses. You decide your own purpose in life.
Aurelius once said
"Hippocrates, after healing so many sick people, became sick himself and died. The Chaldeans prophesized many deaths, and yet their own dark prophecies caught up even with them.

What does this mean? It means that you have boarded your ship, you have set sail, and that you have made it to your destination: now step ashore.

If, on one hand, you go on to another life, that life will not be lacking in gods. If, on the other hand, it is mere unconsciousness, then you will no longer be at the mercy of pains and pleasures as a servant to this earthly vessel."

Dude, get the grade fixed, it's that simple. A school will not prevent you from fixing errors in your marks. Otherwise they 'd be open to being sued by anyone this happened to.