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08/03/09(Mon)13:23:13 No.4950341![Report this post](4949706_files/stop.png) ![To Thread Start](4949706_files/arrow_up.png) 5AM - 8AM HALF half conscious, beer hang over
8:49
EAT A MANGO, WAFFLE, CUP OF GREEN TEA, TRY NOT TO CRY, browse r9k and
slate.com and weather.com (sunny without clouds - fuck)
10 am
brew EARL GRAY to hopefully take a shit, which insists on teasing my
colon and rectum, this eventually succeeds around 11, my chest and
bowels ache with sadness, physical sadness
11+ MOM WAKES UP, I
ASK HER WHAT SHE IS GOING to do with her day, spend about 10 minutes
talking with her and trying not to cry (she doesnt know, im not trying
to be coy, the suffering is private)
12:30 MOM COMES HOME FROM
TRADER JOES, i eat a cup of greek yogurt, some buffalo jerky, i try not
to cry while i sit there with mom, who eats bread with katamal olive
hummus (oh, trader joes! you can make any old idiot feel like a
discerning gourmand!)
12:50 I SOMEHOW FOUND THIS LINK WHICH HAS THROWN ME INTO A DEPRESSIVE SPIRAL http://www.scifitv.com.au/Blog/2009/07/jake-lloyd-exclusive-ten-years-after-ep-one/ (i found it on Seth Stevenson's twitter, my favorite slate.com writer [i hate twitter] )
1PM - PRESENT i
want to do some pilates to work off the 6 Negra Modelo beers from last
night that are coagulating around fat centers but i when i get up to
walk i want to lye down and cry
i am reading a lot about Jake Lloyd right now |