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07/30/09(Thu)03:51:00 No.4905904I
love my parents, but I am very "rebellious" I guess. But in subtle
ways, like I don't go out and get drunk every night and dye my hair
blue or some crazy shit like that. I sit in my room with basically a
shitload of computer equipment that I purchased myself, because I have
a very good job doing web development and I try to be as financially
independent as possible.
This is partially for their benefit.
They are very deep in debt, and I don't want to be a burden on them. I
mean they still buy groceries and of course pay the house bill and
utilities and blah blah blah but I pay for my phone, and whenever I
want to go out to eat I pay, I usually pay for them too.
My dad
has asked me if I "respect him" before, like he feels bad that he
wasn't strict enough with me when I was younger. I guess I am just an
argumentative person, I argue like that with everybody and I have a lot
of opinions, it has nothing to do with him as a person. I really feel
bad about the relationship I have with my parents, even though
superficially there is nothing really wrong with it. I guess I only
feel bad when I examine bad moments that I have had with them over the
years, and I just had another bad spell with them a few days ago. That
is natural though, right? It's not like it has been some overshadowing
aspect of our relationship. Yes I've done the getting caught with
weed/getting drunk thing but not like overdone it.
Anyways,
introspection aside they seem to be okay parents. It's about what you
can expect. I mean yes there are things that they did that I very do
not agree with, but they stayed fucking together (which is more than
fucking half the people do these days) and they still seem to love each
other, so I doubt they will be splitting up before they leave the
earth. So I guess I am pretty lucky, I need to think of a way to show
appreciation to them. |