Real loneliness is a pain.

Every night I sit alone in my room, I have tried to talk to people, but they never respond. When I sit alone, I hug my pillow, I imagine it is a girl. A girl that loves me. A girl that loves me back. A girl that I love.

I cry when I do this, because of the pain in my chest.

>>2970438
God help me I lol'd so fucking hard.

I've been in a long-distance, fairly serious relationship for the past four years. I think it's about to end.

The thrill of potentially being single is outweighed by the sheer unfamiliarity of it all, and it kills me because I know if he was here in person, we'd be working it out.

I'm spending Friday night on /r9k/

That's pretty fucking lonely.

>>2970450
I am glad it entertained you.

Long story short, I'm too goddamned shy.

I don't entirely mind being completely alone - no friends, never talk to anyone, nothing - but I'm now running into problems because I don't know basic social skills.

>>2970458

Somewhat similar here, except it was about a year, then without a word, after things seemed to being going perfectly fine, she stopped picking up the phone, changed her email, deleted me on MSN, etc.

I still have no idea why

>>2970402
>your loneliness
>your social
OP, one of these is correct, and one is incorrect. If you can tell me which is which, I will spare your life.

>>2970458

I hope we never get like this. Fuck.

I love this girl to death. If I went back to having nothing, I would finish the job. I'd actually use one of my nooses. God damn.

Hard to make ronery into a story. Uncomfortable talking to people, I look down on pretty much everyone, only a small number of good friends who do not live near here. Very poor communication skills, body language is a foreign language.I did have one girlfriend for a few months over a year and a half ago.

I'm on 4chan Friday night, that says it all.

My situation doesn't lend well to finding a girl.

I dropped out of college. My job is in a cubicle in which I never get to see any other humans except during my 15 minute break. I'm not old enough to go to a bar yet. I live in a rural area where there's basically nothing to do for fun besides going to bars or staying at home.

I'd either have to resort to internet dating (not happening) or picking up a girl at the mall (no fucking way I can build up that much confidence).

not really that bad looking but skinny as hell, awkward as hell, and I don't identify with many people. I don't have much of a problem with it but if I watch some like romantic comedy or something then I feel really lonely for a while.

Never had a girlfriend, I don't think I'm ugly or anything, just been to damned scared to ask.
I have like, 1 good friend who I'd actually care if I lost, he's proly lurking in here now, but I don't think he'll suspect who I am.
I don't understand emotions, body language, or anything subtle, people talk about these things I do and I don't know about them and have no clue what I'm talking about.
girlfriend?
hah
all the girls I know have me firmly in the friend zone, and I'm still nice to them. fuck
and I can't communicate
I say like 5 fucking words a day.
And I live with my parents.

Funny how all this ronery shit isn't insta B& by the Robot. Hasn't it all been said before?

For me, it's simple. My early life was spent being treated poorly by others, so I have no respect for others. Despite this, I'm not that bad of a guy. I'm just not noticed. I'm really tempted to simply piss someone off, simply to be acknowledged. How pathetic is that?

every day is the same thing over and over again like a movie without any characters and no dialogue stuck on repeat, just going through the motions ad infinitum.

i dont talk to anyone anywhere. today i was taking the bus home from class. i got there late and was out the door 5 minutes before class ended to avoid the rush and people trying to make small talk with me. on the bus luckily one of the single seats was open so i was able to sit and be alone, no one else's eyes across from mine to stare at me or look at me or even worse flirt. i hate the flirting the most. i hate it because im too pussy to do anything, i can't bring myself to man up and talk to her.

today a guy asked me for the time on the bus and i just mumbled no and turned away. he tapped me on the shoulder and i just freaked out and snapped on him yelling at him to get the fuck off me. after i realized what i did 3 seconds later i stood up and bolted for the exit and hoped the next stop was sometime soon. im mortified at myself and who i am.

im lonely because i know it would hurt too much to let someone into my life. there's a tiny piece remaining in me somewhere that wants to be with someone. any time i get a feeling like that, that rush when you lock eyes with her and there's nothing but lust in them. i crush that feeling as quickly as possible. it can't do anything but hurt me.

23 years old
never had a girlfriend
never kissed a girl
only have one friend that I talk to regularly, but I don't trust him very much.
I do the exact same thing as this guy with the exact same pain >>2970438
not only am I too scared to talk to people, but I don't know what to say
so even if when I try to overcome the fear, I'm at a loss for words
I'm also too picky probably. I know a girl that made it obvious she liked me, but I wasn't really attracted to her, so I pushed her away. I kind of regret it now, because at least she wasn't fat.

In one of my classes we were put in permanent groups, and I got put in a group with a girl I like. I don't know how to talk to her about anything outside the subject matter though. I tried looking for her on myspace to see if I could find out if she has a bf, but I couldn't find one. either she's using a fake name, or she spells her name differently from the common spelling. Or maybe she doesn't have one, but that's unlikely. Oh god, she's so cute, and I wish I could do something to get her to like me. Even though I hate that class, I look forward to going to it just for her. I have until the end of the semester, but knowing how much of a failure I am, I don't think I'll make a move by then. sigh...

>>2971096

What are you in high school or something? In a few years you'll never see her again. Just ask her out sometime, and if she says no you can be her friend or avoid her. You'll feel better having taken the chance. Trust me.

What is there to say that hasn't been said already? No significant other, no friends, I spend as little time with my family as possible.

There's no one.

>>2970887

You're a real weirdo.
Everyone should avoid people like you.

>>2971165
>23
>highschool

no, I'm in college (don't ask, just leads into a longer story about depression).

Since I have a class with her and have to be with her in a group, I'm afraid to do anything that might make things awkward. But if I wait too long, I'll probably never end up doing it. And she usually leaves class pretty fast and goes straight to her car. Plus, what if she already has a bf? I don't think I'm her type anyways. She brings her laptop to school and I saw her desktop before, it had a picture of some band i didn't recognize, but they looked scene-ish. I'm nothing close to a scenefag.

Never had any kind of relationship.
A couple years ago some guy asked me out and I said no without a thought. I had really high standards, but I'm so fucking lonely I've lowered them now greatly. It's kind of pathetic when I think about it - I'd rather pretend that I'll find someone perfect rather than be content with the reality I've been given.
People tell me I'm good looking all the time, but I'm too strange. But when you're trying to build up confidence, people tell you not to change how you are. So should I just act? I've never been this sad in all my life, but . . . it can only get worse, I think.

>>2971334
>>2971334

A hot looking robot? Unless you have a visible deformity you can get in a relationship with almost everyone on 4chan. Just don't search anymore honestly, don't even think about it. I am sure that one day it'll come to you.

>>2971354

Thanks for the reassurance. It really helps.

>>2971369

now where do you live?

>>2971334

If you're a girl, and you've even remotely decent looking, you have nothing to worry about. Sheesh.

I'm incredibly nervous around people I like and try so hard not to come on too strong that I end up seeming distant and dickish. I just want some friends.

Life was great. We had so much in common, we would go out to the movies and watch the latest action blockbuster and we'd play stupid games together on her DS and read each other's books and watch each other's torrents. It was great. She had this fuggo fat friend who always hung around her and cockblocked me. One day I was talking about threesomes and the fuggo piped in and said she would be keen and we managed to convince gf to go for it. The fuggo wasn't my ideal woman, but it was to be my first threesome, and with two girls (I use that term loosely) so I was happy as a pig in mud. The experience was underwhelming, the fuggo wouldn't let me touch her and kept jabbing me out of the way to get a shot at my gf's pussy. the night ended up pretty stupid, I came, she came, fuggo made some hog noises while grinding herself on my gf so I guess we all got what we wanted. This is where the story goes bad. My gfs fuggo friend takies more and more of her time and turns her against me, I try to be noble and manly and don't give in to her. Fuggo fat cakewhore jello ass cunt stole my GF! WHAT THE FUCK? My GF, whom I adored, left me for a fat, pigfaced dike. She had been cheating on me with that ugly slutgut cunt ever since we had the "threesome" and didn't think it was cheating because she was a girl and just exploring her sexuality.

>>2971601

Of all the things to do. Fuck that makes me so sad. I haven't had a relationshit since, I just can't bear the thought of anyone doing that to me. The worst thing is is that I still like her and would take her back in a second, and hate myself for it eternally. So ronery now, I don't talk to women unless they talk to me and make no effort to create anything worthwhile. I've let a few opportunities slip by now, and I can't bring myself to care. I've been broken twice now because of cheating sluts, and losing the last to a fucking chubby lesbo bitch was the proverbial straw that broke this anons back.

Funnily enough my gay friends tell me to go brokeback as men are better than that (and all other pro-gay shit) and I really would, but I don't, scrap that, CAN'T think about other men that way. So I'm fucked, well, if you consider no fucking anymore fucked.

>Stupid field too long shit. Made me split the post.

>>2971603
lolol
sucks man, but then you know that fat pig woman still knows how to touch another woman better than you do

>>2971601 here

>>2970402
>If your social at all, don't tell us your story. This is specifically for people currently lonely.

Whoops, disregard that. I suck cocks.

We've been friends for four years. She's always confided her darkest secrets and fears to me, and has always been supportive and loving. Six months ago we began to date, and it was wonderful, but I she's not the most outwardly affectionate girl in the world. I knew that when I asked her out. Slowly, though, I got more frustrated, like a little boy when he wants something, and demanded it from her.
Earlier today I put it to her that we weren't close enough, just a day after she'd confided in me about an issue that defined a lot of her life. She was hurt, and upset, and when she tried to break up with me I frantically started bringing up reasons why what I'd said was her fault, in the hope that she'd take some blame and we could talk it over together. It backfired, she's miserable, and she thinks everything she touches becomes ruined and broken.
I've been hovering between her myspace and facebook for seven hours now, for signs of her. Not much luck yet.

I've ruined the closest relationship I've ever had with impatience and selfishness. Don't pity me. I don't deserve it.

if anything this thread made me realise how great my life is by contrast. thanks!

>>2971622
Yeah. It's pathetic, I'd like to find out what happened, it was over a year ago, but I couldn't stand it if no drama happened so I'm ignoring it.

I used to have a hard time talking to people in high school, assholes picked on me, but at the age of 20 I've generally gotten over it.

I've never been interested in woman, only enjoy one night stands with guys who like control, but i could never care to have a relationship with any of them. My only choice is to be alone, which i guess i'm okay with.

I've gotten a better handle on conversation, I've found the trick to it is to sort of turn your internal dialog off and to simply talk in a instinctive like state of mind. If I over think; small actions become exaggerated and I seize up.

Even with a firm grasp on conversation I rarely find the sheer will to be around people for long. I'd say about 30% of my free time is spent with friends.

It's not so hard being alone, once you learn to rely on yourself for happiness you can finally be free. I suppose it's easy for me to say this being a great looking guy who just can't seem to enjoy social interactions, at any point i could easily peruse a long lasting friendship with a number of people. I just don't care to.

This universe is odd. It seems likely that when i die i will probably return to the same nothingness i was before birth (I wasn't sitting there saying "Man i'm bored. Wish i was alive!"), so chances are i won't remember any of this, it basically didn't even happen.

I've barely had a social life since high school. I'm too dumb and lazy with no real goals so I never went to uni. Basically been working and sitting at home for the past 5 years. I used to have a friend that did it with me, but he got a girlfriend and now has a life. I still see him from time to time.

anyway I got real lonely and depressed and lost my apartment and job, so I moved back in with my folks and have been basically living in my bedroom for the past year. I'm sick of it though. I've started working out lately and eating better. Once I get a job I'm gonna go cling to that friend and make him take me places and maybe I'll get a life.

my only problem is I'm still a virgin. I have no problem talking to girls or anything (unless the topic shifts to me and my life), but since I got no experience sexually I know I will be shit in bed and that might fuck up my chances of keeping a girlfriend. Thinking about getting escorts or picking up ugly chicks (while drunk) just to learn the basics.

I'm a normalfag trapped in a roneryfags body and I'm gonna bust out of here someday.

I was going to ask her out, but then she met another friends brother at a small party, they really hit it off.
I want them to get together because that guy is awesome, and im (contrary to my appearance) an emotional wreck. so yeah, fuck me for putting other people over myself

>>2970458
>>2970601
Spoiler: Long distance relationships are going to fail.

Not able to feel lonely or whatever you weaklings feel.

Only girl i ever loved moved to fucking america! The kicker is that the week before she left she sent me an email telling me that she loved me, how her heart will break if she doesn't see me again etc. I had four years to ask her out and i never had the balls, and turns out she was just as in love with me all along.

High School has been over for two years now and i still see my friends once a week if that, university is filled with conceited cunts and people i'd never want to be associated with. Bars and clubs are filled with hollaback girls and faggots.

I would like to have companions but i don't like people - it's hard to explain, i'm not exactly an outcast, i'm always told i'm funny and good to be around but it just seems like i can never make that intimate connection with somebody. except that one girl...

I find most people to be shallow and disappointingly petty, and my problem is i tend to tell it to their face. Especially women, most of them think they are golden gods if they look halfway decent, and the uglies and fatties just cling to the attractive ones to mooch off their left over charisma.

Sorry for the disjointed rant, i just wrote it as i thought of it.

I'm not the bizarre "can't make friends" type, but all 5 major groups of friends in my life, I've managed to drive them off an alienate myself from them. The latest four person group just sorta drifted all wackily apart when two of 'em started dating and wee saw less of them and over a few months it started to feel like nobody was driven to actually see anybody else. It's shit. I'm back to a sum total of zero. Before that, I basically had about 6 people i've know for like a decade, and we played a lot of DnD and just hung out on holidays like new years, but they brought in this new guy who basically was an asshole and specifically seemed to have it in for me and my "it's him or me" turned out to be, well, him.
Same with the group before that, after 6 years of the five or so of us hanging out, one guy I just had finally had it with his emo, hypochondriac, whiny , bitch ass ways and fits and temper tantrums. "Him or me" again got me, huh, dropped from the group. And they kept my ex.
Yadda yadda, same with all the other people I've had in my life.

I'd rather be one of you withdrawn types.

>>2972432
Let me append that story also with the usual "There are two girls in my life whom I will never, ever, ever get over."

>>2972432
Looks like you arent very kind with newfags.

>>2970601
>>2970458
Fuck, same here. Only thing is she did it before. I didn't hear from her for a year or 6 months ( dont remember) and then she finally signs on msn and we talk and sort things out and we're back together. Turns out she moved back to the UK which is even farther than she was before and she wanted me to move on because she realized she would be too far away. I made her promise she wouldn't do that again without talking to me first. Also we were planning to meet; she was going to fly over here and stay for a few weeks. Things were going great. Then once again, a year later (which is now) and blip, I haven't heard from her in almost a month. Txted her numerous times before calling her to find out her phone was off, left a voicemail a couple of weeks ago. I'm hoping her phone is dead and she can't find the charger or she moved back to Canada because she said she was going to around this time and she just doesn't have a phone or pc yet. Yet somehow deep inside I know that it is false hope.

I'm SOCIABLE, but not social. I feel lonely. I don't like the friends I have, and they don't ever talk about anything other than clothes and anime.

I want someone to debate and discuss things with me, will let me take care of them keep them happy. Knowing that I'm readily availiable to them at anytime.

I'm embarrassed that I have no one and never have had anyone to tend to, and I go to sleep clutching a pillow. Even when I'm just fapping, just holding onto something feels nice.

>>2970458
>>2970601

...That depresses me. If anyone can do me a favor? I have a situation slightly similar to both of these. He just...stopped talking. Nothing amuses him. He doesn't talk about anything with me anyway. Ever. Not even the things that he likes doing. I just don't want to let him go. But I think he does. Is there a way for him to talk with me again? Renew his interest in me? I just think the distance is getting to him; I'm uttertly shocked that there's ZERO conversation to be had now. I get so depressed telling myself, "I've lost him," you know?

>>2972559
get webcam

>>2972499
Those blips are her fucking other dudes but she'll be back for emotional support, don't worry, girlfriend!

My story is pretty much like the rest here, I suffer from avoidant personality disorder.

What depresses me the most is I'm told I'm a good looking guy and I'm not not at all overweight but I can't even join a conversation with people or go out anyway with people because I'm unsure if people like me and fear rejection.

though i'm not overtly lonely, it would be nice to have some companionship. sure i have my BROS, but it just isn't the same as having a girlfriend.

I have no friends. I haven't had friends since I was 16, and I only met them when I was 13. I'm a virgin, I've never held hands or kissed or had a boyfriend or been asked out, or anything.. I have panic attacks when I try to talk to people offline. I don't leave my house because social interaction scares me. Instead, I just waste away on the couch...

I'm trying to get better. I've been reaching out to unfamiliar family members and have been shopping for a therapist. But I'm so bad at talking that I usually freak out and run to the bathroom to cry.

My biggest fantasy would be to have a birthday party. One where people actually came because they wanted to... I had a few 'parties' when I was a kid. My mom told her church friends that I didn't have any friends, and they brought their kids over. Their kids beat the shit out of me.

I always seemed to get beat up every time I tried to reach out as a kid. I was seeing a counselor when I was 8, who told me to try to reach out to the other kids in my neighborhood. I rode my bike down to the house of a twin brother and sister, nervously told them I was new in town, and invited them over to play. They beat the shit out of me and drowned my pet bearded dragon in lamp oil... then stomped on its body and lit it on fire in my bathroom.

After that, I moved to a new school mid-year. I was always moving, because my mom thought that I might find ONE school that I'd fit in at. It never worked. The teacher arranged for some of the honor roll students to take me on a tour during recess. They knocked my teeth out and threw me in the dumpster, locking it and banging on it for what felt like hours... "Haha! Is that the garbage truck coming? Have fun in the trash compactor!"

My family isn't much better. I like to cook... I usually make dinner for my parents. I made cookies along with dinner about a week ago, and my stepdad said to me, "Wow, [Anon]! You'll make a wonderful wife for NO ONE some day!"

Hahaha... ha... ;-;

>>2972631
I'm dyslexic too if you can't tell.

>>2972638
Oh my god.
Why would they do that to your poor lizard?

You make me want to hug you.
I'm a girl, by the way.
Not a creepy guy.

We can be friends if you want.
:3

>>2972638
I'm a creepy guy, we could be 'friends' if you wanted.

>>2972671

Kids are just horrible. They're not capable of real love or compassion, they just copy what they see. I guess they must have been from a really shitty home.

I'd like to be friends, but I'm not very good at talking.

>>2972567

You think that'd work? I mean, like, how is that going to have him talk to me more? Not to be rude, I just mean, like, "OH HAY I CAN SHOW YOU SOME TITTAYS NAO WHILE WE TALK" but that's not, (Or shouldn't) make him talk more. What do I know though? /r9k/ knows what the hell it's talking about; I'm just some chick trying to make it work with an internet dude that doesn't like her.

...Oh God. GODDAMNIT.

>>2972638

Wow that's sad.
Are you like really ugly or have some psychological issue that make people wanna beat you?

No but seriously, it's pretty damn sad that this shit keep happening to innocent people.
Same thing happened to my girlfriend, she kept getting beaten up by her parents and people around her and as a child and teen she was sexually abused, one time her father saw it happening - but ignored helping her and pretended it had never happened.

If I could, I'd kill everyone who hurt her.

>>2972638
I fantasize about marrying a shy girl like you after being cheated on by vapid whores I thought I was in love with. Someone to like "hide out" with on weekends and make snark comments and giggle about the world/media/etc.

I know in reality it doesn't work which is why I haven't had a relationship in literally years despite others' insistance.

So ronery.

Wheres courage wolf for you guys?

Most people here are missing the point: You only live once, and you are only this young once. Ask that girl out, talk to your friends. If you are this ronery, you have nothing to lose right? My philosophy is that there isn't anything in this world (if you are 18-) that can make you sad or scared (aside from academics) concerning people. People come and go, and so do emotions and events, so do reputations. You have nothing to lose. FUCK YA!

>>2972703
Well, my if you ever want to talk my MSN is ceilidh94@hotmail.com

I'm kind of young and stupid and I'm not very good at consoling people, but you know. It's always nice to have someone to talk to.

Never really been bothered by being alone. At primary school I used to get attacked by other kids, so I usually read instead. In addition to that teachers would shout at me for finishing work ahead of the rest of the class(!). This might sound big-headed, but it wasn't difficult to do since the town probably contains the largest population of inbreds in England.

I've been a bit of a fuckup since then. Let something like OCD take me over for a while but it's pretty much under control now. It's pretty easy to 'act normal' around other people for a short while if necessary but it's still impossible for me to hold a conversation without almost giving myself an aneurysm. Plus, being around others for too long usually makes me exhausted and very irritable.

That said, loneliness can hit you pretty hard once in a while. It's beem doing that right now for a variety of reasons, but it'll pass soon enough.

>>2972721
I don't know. I'm not fat or anything. I don't like how I look, but my self-esteem isn't exactly the best.. I've been trying to improve how I look, but I have no idea how to use makeup and dressing up in general freaks me out a bit... People have looked at me when I've dressed up before, and it made me feel like I was being 'hunted' again, like in elementary school. I posted my picture on /r9k/ a while back, asking how to be normal.

I had a HORRIBLE stutter as a kid, and leg problems. The stutter's mostly gone now (it only comes back when I'm scared), and working out has helped with the leg problems. I stand a little funny.. not totally weird like it used to be, but I fall over if I stand normally and I have a tendency to randomly fall over when I walk.

That's terrible about your girlfriend. I could never understand how ANYONE could ever want to hurt someone else... There should be a license to breed.

>>2972724

Could you HONESTLY ever love someone who was so fucked up they couldn't talk to you without freaking out and crying? Normal people shouldn't limit themselves to people like me... Sure, you've been cheated on, but you can talk to people. You know how to love. You're scared, but you could open up if you really tried, you could go find a normal girl who's worth your time.

>>2972732
>there isn't anything in this world (if you are 18-) that can make you sad or scared (aside from academics) concerning people.

I'd really rather not get the shit beaten out of me again, if I can help it.

>>2972742
It's okay. I wouldn't really need consoling, anyway.. nothing ever comes out right when I try to talk.

>>2972420
This sounds, looks, and reads exactly as if I had written it myself. WHAT THE FUCK?!

Every relationship I've been in, it's just constant mindgames from the girl. It's to the point where whenever I get involved with a girl, I end up pushing her away without realizing it because I know it will just end in drama and bullshit anyway. The only serious relationship I was ever in, I was with her 3 years and was completely in love with her, and after it ended I found out she didn't give a shit, and she got with some other guy right away. I guess I tend to be attracted to the wrong girls. I'll have girls beautiful girls after me, and my friends will be jealous, and I'll just be like "meh" and just avoid them completely. Being the nerdy type, I never really have anything to say that would interest a female, I'm pretty much socially retarded.

As far as friends, I really only have 2 close friends that live nearby. Most of the people in my town just suck entirely, so the friends I do make are always out of town or out of state. Plenty of acquaintances, people find me likable and are always trying to talk to me at work, and I just avoid them completely.

My immediate family is great, but I guess I never spend as much time with them as I should. As far as relatives are concerned, I had a cousin I used to be really close with throughout my childhood, eventually we drifted apart, I don't even know why. I want to start talking to him again but it'd be awkward, and I'm not even sure he wants to talk to me after just pushing him out of my life completely.

It's winter here, and cold as balls and there's absolutely nothing to do. I'm hoping this summer to do a lot and start being more social, and stop letting past failures dictate the future.

>>2972787
future self? is that you?

Well, I live with my girlfriend but, you know, besides this I feel alone. I moved to a new city...new job...a fresh start being a employed man and not a homie. This, I expected, would be a new age in my social life.

I was wrong.

In the job (more than 100 people there) noones hardly care to even say "hello" to me. Noone but my boss, a fat asshole whose company, I think, makes me look stupid, cares about me.

Not even a single gamer...no otakus...noone.

If I ever had a single friend in my birthplace now I don't even have that and I realize, now I know who I work with, I'll never have another one (my life is home-workplace-home-workplace).

Yes, I have my gf...guess I can't complain because y situation wthout ses would be even more painful. Also, having a gf working where I work (I can tell you there are HOT women there) makes me, at least, believe that even if they don't notice me I don't care....of course not even I can obtain any calm from that since I know they'll never find me interesting and/or fuckable.

Bah, I hate this.

You're told you're social all your life. Humans are social creatures.. Is this the reason we all cling to this notion of social 'normality' in such a way? Can we really not be happy just..being as we are?

Well, no, we can't. Because of comparison.

I always compare myself to images, or pictures, or fucking ideas of fun, and people portrayed as 'party animals' or those who 'live life to the fullest! Yeah! Hi-5!"

Good for you faggot, you bungee jump.

These seconds and minutes continue to pass me by. Hours, even. One more second I spend in my room alone is no less valid a second than any other, or anyone else's.

I know how futile it'd be to interact, because all you have is a face and a voice...is that really enough to trust, to love?

It's logically doubtful, but still we hope. I hope. Why..?

We not only cling to normality, but as a result, reality. This plane of existence isn't any less valid than seconds spent dreaming, but we still love coming back here, to pay our taxes and call Dubai to sort out our bill discrepancies.

Eventually, other people, and my lack of capacity to speak to them won't matter. Nothing will. I birthed this universe by being born, and it'll die with me, to me.

All is a matter of interpretation. Loneliness taught me this, and I believe it'll one day be the ultimate strength.

>>2972774
Honestly? Why not, I think everyone wants to take care of someone it makes them feel needed. What do I think would honestly happen in a real situation? On a bad day I blow up over something innocuos ie:"quit being so dramatic over fucking pasta", which wouldn't be fair to her and I'd regret but the feeling would linger and push her back into her shell. Without communication the relationship breaks down, etc. That's why it's just my fantasy.

As far as normal, there's just people functioning in society and people who aren't. Who's crazier, you or that highly-functional sociopath? I'm pretty sure hyper-sensitive people are at least empathetic and wouldn't callously fuck you over or just walk away.

Throughout highschool I was always drawing attention from the girls, and I mostly ignored them to shyness and insecurities. I was always teased growing up and found it hard to relate to people. I was a stubbornnaive, sometimes arrogant little prick. Also a goodlooking, and warmhearted individual Should I live in regret of the past? I don't care, fuck it! I'm 19 this is the last of my teenage years the last time I'll be able to fuck! AS A TEENAGER! and I'm tired of being lonely! I've been lonely most of my life, I'm going to go out make change happen and lose my virginity and fooly cooly!!!

>>2972638
>"Wow, [Anon]! You'll make a wonderful wife for NO ONE some day!"
Holy fuck I laughed so damn hard, your stepdad is awesome.

What's there to say? You've heard it all before. High school was full of unsavory characters who were flat-out wrong in what they said 100%, refusing to examine their words while turning their "wit" against others for no reason. And college was full of people who just wanted to laugh everything off and get on with their getting of grades. Through it, my superiority-complex-induced depression and fear of others matured through a lifetime of no social contact perpetuated my social isolation (not just from the nonexistent friends, but from classmates, teachers, and family members).

Nowadays I learned how to have a verbally-open relationship with those I'm expected to be close with and open around, but I'm still completely emotionally isolated, an isolation which has subsequently extended to myself as I become less and less aware of my own emotions.

>>2972774
Post more pics!! NAO!!!!

I'm alone because I'm smarter than most people. Unlike most of you however, I've got a (law) degree to show for it.

I'd like to have a relationship some time though, if only to just experience what's it like to wake up next to a girl on a Sunday morning. Let alone sex. I've had a girlfriend a long time ago when I was 16, but that didn't go further than just making out.

During high school I belonged to the cool-kids group but outside of school I preferred to be alone. At uni I didn't even bother to make new friends, so for the last five years now I haven't really spoken to anyone at all. I'm a real loner and as a person I'm 'happy' ...but yet, I feel very lonely sometimes. It's very confusing.

Girls at uni don't like guys like me, I'm a short latino who has to compete with tall blond guys. I'm not social enough to make up for my shortcomings, so I'm kind of screwed. I've given up on love and I'm just focusing on my future as a lawyer. My happiness comes from the things I can buy; I love playing my piano, riding my motorcycle, photography, etc. It makes my life worth living.

Ladies and gentlemen, my life in a nutshell.

I'm only lonely when I'm fapping. I go back to being completely content when I'm done. I don't think I'm capable of friendship deeper than talking to people at school about school (college). I enjoy being around them when I'm around them, but I have always hung out with myself and I like it that way, except when I'm fapping

Hooked up with this girl at a party two days after I broke up with my ex. Was with my ex for one year.
Gonna tell girl I hooked up with that i actually I do really like her when I've had a chance for the dust to settle with me dumping my ex.
Oh and girl I want is one of my best mates ex's, but he dumped her after like two months, and she flirts back when I flirt with her, doors open for more fooling around at more parties too.

>>2973079
Maybe you're alone because you're an arrogant prick. Just a thought.

>>2972703
>I'd like to be friends, but I'm not very good at talking.
this is who I want to be friends with. we could be like animals and go on adventures and only talk when there's a reason to. why does everyone enjoy talking constantly?

After reading this thread, I decided I'd give some words of courage to you all.

I used to be a roneryfag just like you all. Depression, fat, ugly, anxiety disorder, I had it all. Almost no friends and felt like shit and cried myself to sleep, you know, the usual.

But you know what. I got over it all. Now I have more friends that I need. I am in a relationship and I feel that I might actually be in love.

You all sound like kind people, you really do. You just have to get over your issues. It's gonna be hard, and it'll take time (I struggled for five years, I still have some problems but they're pretty minor) but it is possible. Trust me.

Shyness can be overcome by simply talking to people. Even talking to people online does help you. Participate in those MSN or AIM threads and get to know people from around the world. Everyone has problems, no one is perfect. Learn that you are just like everybody else, or more like, everybody else is like YOU. There are bound to be people who like you and want to talk to you.
I'm not bullshitting you in any way now. I'm taking the time to write this because I see myself in everyone of you. And I know what it's like.
Don't try to convince yourself that being alone is alright. Just don't. I am fairly certain that everybody needs somebody, some just need more than others.
You don't have to make awesome deep friendships, just contacts to other people will make you feel better. Friendships and relationships will happen on their own if you take the time to get to know people.

TL;DR you might as well read it, lonely anon. Do you have anything better to do after all?

Good Luck anons, I'll be cheering for you. Get yourself together, because you deserve better.

My highschool life was terrible. I was constantly abused. Hit for no reason at all, or teased for being "different". One time I was in the bathroom combing my hair, then some random guy just came in there and threw a trashcan at me. I had to drop out of school because I became suicidal. I was glad to be out of school, but I missed out on getting a proper education.

And I had only one friend. We known each other since elementary school. But he ended up becoming an asshole like everyone else as he got older. Now I hate him. He always tells me "Just be like everyone else, you see how far being weird has gotten you" What an asshole!

To make matters worst. I have no experience with girls. Ive never had a gf, never kissed a girl, never hugged a girl. To be honest, the only time I ever touched a girl was when she was handing me a pencil and our fingers kinda touched a little. Girls tell me Im "cute" though. But that Im just too weird.

Despite what Ive been through, Im not depressed. Im really content with my life. If I didnt have my loving mother to help me out I would be a wreck.

>>2973106
Yeah well, at least my arrogance can be justified.

It's hardly the issue though. How I think or feel does not reflect itself into the way I interact with people.
I may have no friends and be lonely, but I'm not socially retarded.

>>2973079
I don't think it's because you're a short latino. I think it's because you are the other kind of unattractive. I would not be friends with you

I was teased in primary school but once I hit high school, idk what happened. well, I did beat up that kid but I didnt get any more confident or anything.

shit just started rolling off of me, rather than sticking and being personal.

as a result im popular now but I dont really like who i've become.

>>2973144
>not socially retarded
yes you are. you're worse than me haha

>>2973148

Woah! Thats some deep shit.

>>2973148

Sounds a bit like me.

>>2973122
You truly are a kind anon.

>>2973150
No...no I'm not. How I am in my personal life does not reflect itself into my work life. Not in the slightest.
As long as I can maintain that, I am anything but 'worse than you'.

>>2973225
oh you're right. sorry my mistake

>>2973144
You're not that hard to figure out, my friend. You're the intellectual, who by no intention of his own, is unable to relate to his peers. It is because of this superiority complex that you keep to yourself, and focus all of your energy on your career. Even in such overwhelming success, you remain unable to form any meaningful and lasting relationships.

Great story, but we've all heard it a thousand times over.

>>2973239
So what's your argument there? That my story isn't unique?

uh... 'ok'.

>>2973255
My point is that people like you invent their 'problems' in an effort to manipulate others into thinking you're actually a good person. You won't establish meaningful relationships with an elitist attitude.

there seems to be some fellow loners here.I am pretty much socially awkward as i dont know what to say or what to do at times.in uni i seem to have become "that guy".i wasnt like this before but now i am in remorse in what i have become and i dont even know why and how this has happened. i know i dont have superiority complex.day in and out it justs the same crap i go through

I lost my girlfriend 2 days ago on a trip to the beach with some friends i dont feel sad or anithing i am a good friend with her at the moment but i am hollow emotionally

>>2972732

So do I just confess my love to this girl I have a crush on who I'm sure doesn't like me back? And if she rejects me, I'll just go ahead and rape her. Is that what you're trying to say?

>>2973079
Hello anon. You distant yourself from people and still feel lonely?
How I see it, you have a superiority complex. It's awesome that you're intelligent and are doing good with your career. It's also very great that you have hobbies you enjoy. I respect that.
But even though you like to be alone, it is good to have some contacts to other people. I'm sure you will make lots of friends in no time, you just have to learn to respect others as equals.
Because that is what we are. I respect you even though your posts give out an air of arrogance. I respect the fact that you very well are more intelligent than me, but that does not change the fact that you and I are equals.
In the end, people need people. Of course, there are exceptions, but the fact that you sometimes feel lonely, proves that you need people.
I hope I didn't offend you. My only intention was to give a word of advice. Go out and meet people, make friends.
Have a good day, anon.

>>2971308
Don't do it man. I know it's hard to forget a crush but having somebody that you see everyday once it turns a liability (eg. get dumped) makes it awkward to go through your daily life. I had a gf which I had a class with, plus to make it worse the same tutor. She's the flirty type, did it with almost every guy in college and I actually fell for it. I feel like such a tool. After a while she dumped me for reasons unknown. She said "it's my fault, sry" which is utter bullshit. Felt miserable for months even after trying to erase almost all her existence in my life. Problem is I have a class with her everyday and it sucks. To make it worse, knowing that I'm the jealous type, the bitch always (and I do mean *ALWAYS*) suddenly turn up her bitch volume talking to other guys, desperately trying to make me just that. It pisses me off every time. Shit sucks.

>>2973383
My superiority complex comes from the fact that my intelligence is all I have. It's the one thing I can cling to, the one thing that compensates for my flaws. It's what a superiority complex is all about and I'm sure you understand that.

The loneliness is just a side effect of a superiority complex I can't go without.

Also, since you seem to make a point out of it: as long as I can't relate to people around me, I cannot see them as equals.

Anyway, I'm not going to argue my situation anymore, I never intended to, but I'd like you to know that this >>2973206 was me.

>>2973492
Hello again anon.
It seems that you understand your problem very well. That is good, you know the source of it, which will make it easier to solve.
I did jump to conclusions a bit there in my previous post, and I apologize for that now.
I do not wish to argue either, I wish to discuss the matter and try my best to help you. I realise I might not be the best help but I'd like to believe I could be of SOME help.
I still think that you should try to make contacts to other people. Get to know others, learn about their lives and their problems.
You don't have to cling on your intelligence to hide your flaws. Everyone has flaws, but life's all about recognizing them and trying to fix them.
You're talking to me like an equal now. You are obviously completely capable of doing it.
Do it more. Good things will happen.
I hope all good things to you.

>>2972638

This entire post made me really upset. :(

>>2973492
PRETENTIOUS FAGGOT DETECTED

KILL YOURSELF

>>2970715
>I'd actually use one of my nooses.

wait, you have more than one noose? what the fuck do you do, collect nooses?

>>2972338
brotip: you can suck in bed, and it won't matter, most women will be happy to teach you(ALL WOMEN ARE WHORES AND LOVE SEX, REMEMBER?). and if not, they're not worth hanging around with.

>>2972638
OH MY GOD. I... thanks, you made my life seem a lot better. I'll be your friend. <3

to all potential roneryfags:

go to university. move out away from your parents after school and get some share accommodation. live the life of a poor student and meet those in a similar situation

helped me.

>>2972638
Oh my Anon. You have gone through a lot in your life.
You should get medication for your panic attacks, they sound severe. Therapy is also a good thing, as long as you have a therapist that is on the same wavelength with you.
You should try writing down what you feel, as I see that is easier for you. An understanding therapist would let you communicate with notes too if you wanted.
You sound like a nice person, and it upsets me you have been forced to go through all kinds of traumatizing things. You definitely deserve better. Not all people are bastards like the ones you have met.
Also what your dad said is completely inexcusable.
I hope life will get better for you. Best of luck to you.

I do my best to never interact with people around me, but unfortunately I am forced to because of how society is works. When people try to start up small talk with me I give them the most basic and empty answers I can so they feel uncomfortable and leave me alone. I've learned overtime how much people just love bright and cheery attitudes and positive emotions, so I act like a cold emotionless robot at all times in public and it works like a charm. I know some of you dislike the "crushing lonelyness", but it's really the only time I can feel truly comfortable.

I wake up. I go to class. I take notes. I go back to my dorm. I play games and watch movies and anime, then I go to sleep at 3 am.

This is my daily routine. It's been my daily routine for the last few years now. I'm simply too lazy to go out and socialize. It's too much work for not enough rewards. I used to play 40k and D&D, and that at least got me out of the house every three days to go spend 6 hours at the game store with like minded people, but they closed down and the nearest one is 40 minutes away. The hell with that.

Of course, seeing as how I've gone years speaking to very few people other than my parents, I've gone somewhat delusional. In my mind, I've created the perfect girl, and if I feel lonely, I just imagine her and me spending time together. Like watching a movie with each other, going out, or just falling asleep on each other. I'm pretty sure that this girl has completely screwed with my standards, and now if I do actually go out to meet someone, I'm going to be comparing her to my perfect girl.

I'm fucked.

>>2973775
>I know some of you dislike the "crushing lonelyness", but it's really the only time I can feel truly comfortable.
here here. if I felt around people the way I do alone, I'd love people

>>2973327
>in uni i seem to have become "that guy".
I was just called that the other day and didn't think much of it until this post. I'm "that guy" too, anon

>>2973823
>In my mind, I've created the perfect girl
That's actually a great idea!

Thanks anon, I will never be lonely every again! <3

OP here. Just woke up, and I felt glad to see this topic get some posts.

And then I read it. Seriously, if you think lonely means not having/being able to get a girlfriend, you're an immense idiot. That's like people calling themselves hikikomori because they stay in their room to play video games a lot.

I guess /relationships9k/ really is true.

Someone here said move out of the basement. I would disagree.

I'v always had friends. I'm funny and outgoing, and usually have a few different social circles going on.

I finished university 6 months ago now, and moved to a new town for work.
I meet no one. I dispise the people in my office, there are 3 women in an office of 1000.
This is a problem because I broke up with the girlfriend due to distance a couple months ago.

I basicly feel like my life has colapsed. I try so hard to make friends, but although a few people like me and invite me out, or round thier house, I actually dont like them.

Every day, I lay in bed, watching myself get later and later for work in the hope I can get fired and move back into the basement, near my friends.

Shit sucks. I see my ex in class every day and when he's smiling and looking down at his lap, I know he's texting the other girl. I know that it's not me making him laugh and be happy and it really blows. Makes me wanna rage hard in class and throw a desk at him but it also makes me wanna curl up under my desk and cry bitchtears until class ends and I don't have to see him for another few hours.

>>2974127
I would observe that if he left you for another girl, he is cleary a dick who you shouldnt be upset for losing.

Think about it for a minute. When people are dating, and feel pretty strongly for eachother, which you clearly did or you wouldnt be mad, thats a big thing.

Relationships are not like cars. I sold my car last week and traded up. Doing this with a boy/girlfriend is just wrong.
Its treating the other person like a comodity - like a pretty dress or some cornflakes.
Not like a person that you are supposed to care about.

The fact that this is common makes me wonder if I should be trying to find someone at all.

>>2974203

Hey brah, if you knew this bitch in real life she would friendzone you just like all the rest. Stop being a white knight faggot.

>>2974127
if you've had an ex you are clearly social to some degree.
what the hell is wrong with you people. can't you read.

OP again. Apparently you guys are clueless.

I've already posted once in this thread already, but do you know what's been 'good' for me as far as social things go?

A confession: I do have a friend (whom I've known for the best part of a decade). She is the personification of all that is social. Knows everybody on campus from porters to the people at the sandwich shop and she gets along well with them all. She's popular and her connections open up a world of exciting opportunities that she (and most other people) would otherwise miss. Not only that, but just by being with her, communicating with other people is made so much easier for me. It's weird.

I've tried to pick up on what she does to try and help myself 'get out there' more but all I can really tell is that she's pushy and unafraid of annoying people (though she rarely does).

It all goes against the sort of thing I would usually do, so I'm terrified to try it out when I'm by myself. On the rare occasions when I have tested this, either my brain goes into emergency shutdown as soon as I start the conversation or I mess up completely and offend/confuse somebody. Either outcome leads to me running for the nearest exit as soon as I can.

You'd think that instances like that just confirm that being alone and happy is better than going out into the world and meeting people who'll knock you down, but is it true? Is it not true? I've not been sure for quite a while.

>>2974278

nah, women can be total introverts, but as long as they leave the house, some douche bag will hit on them.

>>2974467

Me again. Clearly 'good' isn't the right word here. It was when I first started typing up, but the focus of my post changed slightly. I'm not sure what a more appropriate word would be now. Possibly 'eye-opening'? I don't think anything could ever convince me to be more social, but being able to portray myself as a more normal person to others is the key. There's a difference between the two concepts in my head which is difficult to define.

What a coincidence, I was just reading some of the old journal-type writings I did starting from age 17 on to my current age of 23. The very first stuff I wrote sounds unnervingly like the pretentious, egotistical, childish "I'm the first one to ever think this stuff" angst shit. I mean, it's just so hard not to be a cliche, especially when you have no reference point to avoid. Part of it, I chalk up to immaturity and standard teenage rebellion, but the thing that turned my tone from "I hate myself even though I'm better than all of you" to "I don't know anything, what's wrong with me" was the death of my brother. Partly, it was that I got infused with a heaping helping of reality in seeing how similarly others act when they're distraught; also shame over how bitterly I thought of my loving family. But looking back it makes me wonder if my later insecure modesty is feigned; if I'm just trying to avoid thinking of myself as the cliched, naive, arrogant, self-righteous, narcissistic prick that I am. I know I'm high-percentile with regards to analytical thought, but I just don't know where reality ends and delusion begins.

I'm constantly sabotaging myself, as if becoming better of myself is somehow doing injustice to that loneliness I felt as a kid. I merge legitimate fears of cold, uncaring masses with bottled-up desires of emotional intimacy, creating a persona unsuitable of being seen. And I'm afraid of being blameworthy of burdening others with my unfounded, unreasonable, self-sustained weight.

When I was a kid, there would always be a couple of outcasts who flocked to me. I resented being patronized like that (or so I felt) and treated them like crap. As I grew older and relationships became more explicit and voluntary, mine remained self-neglected. I've never had a friend of my own and I never express my feelings to anyone. I don't know if there was ever an environment where I could have thrived in, but all I know is I only have myself to blame.

>>2975009

That probably applies to more people in here than they'd think.

hahahaha, you ronery motherfuckers

I'm in a single college dorm, I do things like go to the gym, throw darts (at a dart board) or play bass guitar to pass the time when I not on the internet. I can't play sports to save my life, baseball, basketball, football you name it, I suck at it this is important because my college is loaded with jocks and meat heads. Whenever someone asked if they me to join them in a game I decline and walk away because it better to look from the stands then to be know as the failure on the field. This turned into a severe lack in social skills. I still give the head nods and hand waves to my dorm neighbors to not be completely anti-social but I know I'm alone. If I broke my neck rolling out of bed one day no one would come to check on me, they would just know a room is soon to be vacant by the smell...

>>2975271
Try to pickup a new hobby such as skateboarding, it promotes independence, its a great work out, and its impossible to really get embarrased by it. You can only progress if you want it and its easy to tell who just started and whos been at it for years. Also most skaters will help teach you the basics, its just up to you to execute it.

>>2975329
actually I already tried the skate boarding in high school. Failed pretty hard at that too. I couldn't balance myself for anything and fell off every time. Although now that I think about it I was decent at bowling maybe I'll try that again one day.