Maybe you answered your own question? You said you're sick of being fake, maybe if you start acting more like yourself you'll feel better.

Also, don't let being depressed get to you. It's easy to get caught in a loop, being depressed because you're depressed.
OH GOD I'M SO DEPRESSED -> OH MAN WHY AM I DEPRESSED -> OH BECAUSE BLAH BLAH BLAH -> OH GOD I'M SO DEPRESSED ABOUT THAT

Maybe you should declare this a turning point. That now you're going to stop looking back on what problems you may have had and start living the life you want.

You can turn your life around, you just have to take action and do it.

then kill yourself already

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I seriously am considering ending my life as well.

>>2454009
>>2454009
The more you hesitate, the less likely you will do it.

Seriously... I don't understand the suicide mindset. If you're that depressed, take all the money in your account and just fucking drive as far as it will get you and start over. Brand new. You are losing your car so don't let them have it. Maybe you can go live with another anon or someone you know on the internet temporarily and learn to change your identity so you can get a new job without getting the car taken away. It wouldn't be that hard if you actually cared enough to do it...
So I don't understand why you would be sitting here posting this thread when you have so many options available. If you truly want to die, take everyone down with you. Experience drugs first and maybe go fuck that ugly bitch you know your friends would laugh at you for but just so you get laid before you die. Soooo much to do when you have nothing to live for. Shit, I wish I had nothing to live for so I could do all the things I actually want to do.
If you have around $1,000 you might as well try to leave the country and go to like Sweden and rave the rest of your life. That's what I would do if I wanted to leave this world.
You have so many choices and I'm not trying to talk you out of this, but seriously... Live a little you pussy.

>>2454040
knee jerk answer. Not true. Sometimes it builds on a person, and out of nowhere, they do it.
To the OP, start with some Neitzche
Choose between active nihilism: apathetic refusal to participate due to the meaninglessness of life
or active: liberation due to the removal of moral and epistomoligical yardsticks
if you are still alive, dive into the literature from there

>>2454072
I really wish I had more than 3 dollars in my bank account.
I mostly want to kill myself because I'm a horrible human being. I don't respect my parents. I hate people in general.
I have considered leaving to just about anywhere, but lack of money makes it extremely difficult.
My car also doesn't have plates.

>>2454115
Join the military.

>>2454082
Nihilism is for faggots, get some Absurdist literature up in here, stat.

OP, ignore these assholes. They don't know what they're talking about.

I've dealt with depression before; it's horrible. What you need to do is go out and find a therapist or psychiatrist. Don't be worried about feeling like an emo or pussy. A therapist will do great things for you mentally. They'll eventually bring up the possibility of medication. Personally, it's worked wonders for me (Wellbutrin XL) but works different for every individual. Do these things and you'll be on the road to recovery. It'll be long and difficult, but goddamnit it is worth it in the.

Life is worth living, you just need to fight the depression that's fucking it up.

Your problem is that you're far too short! Try making yourself taller with this!

>my video games and systems

from the looks of it you have some extra junk. You need to fucking strip down everything you dont NEED and start from there. Get a fucking job ya stupid fuck collect come cash on a meager living and bing bang boom, you got youself some night time schooling. Not like you are on minimum wage WITH a fucking kid. That kid is what kills ya. If you are single, you can go anywhere in the country and bullshit as much as you need to for a 80 hour a week job to collect cash.

>I want to kill myself.

Seriously, get help immediately.

Call this number: 1800 SUICIDE

>>2454009
Don't do it. I'm sure you're not as worthless as I am.
I feel like a fucking hypocrite.
>>2454130
I have thought about it. Maybe if they put me in the front line with a chance of getting killed. But they don't put girls in the line of combat, last I heard. Is that right?

>>2454130
fuck you, absurdism is sexed up nihilism for those who still want magic in their lives.

>>2454166
I wish getting a jobs was as easy as you make it sound.
I never have the right amount of experience.

>>2454082

i love your response... i'm going to archive this for a project i'm working on. friends of the suicidal lack resources on how to help them, how to respond directly... this will be useful.

>>2454186

Read Waiting for Godot, then we'll talk.

>>2454115
This is pathetic, get a real reason to kill yourself.

When my mindset sways into a paranoid/schizophrenic/stressful/unexplainable state my organs cause me physical pain and this has happened daily for the last two years.

Get it over with, if you're worrying over your possessions. Grow some balls, and do it. You have 3 dollars to fill your tank. Sit in your parent's garage with it on.

>>2454202
I should probably explain that more.
Well, I see that were I live, all the jobs I could get are taken by people who shouldn't even have those jobs.
Let me explain so I don't sound like an asshat. I speak, read and write English perfectly well, I'm a citizen, I'm bilingual, I'm proficient with computers, etc. These people don't have any of these qualifications, but still manage to get the job. Which makes me even more of a failure.

You could kill yourself, or you could do whatever it takes to feel better.

Once you've exhausted every single option, then you are justified in killing yourself.

Exhausting every single option would take the span of your life.

So get your shit in gear, get help if you need it, and stop being afraid and judgmental and full of your ego. Let it the fuck go.

Dont kill yourself. Listen, you are better off existing than just dieing.

Go talk to someone who can help you.
Ive been where you are, I felt the same exact way. Get help, for real.

If you need to talk to someone who isnt a doctor, my email is rradioface@gmail.com, but seriously, I think you should talk to a doctor.

>>2454232
Not getting a job =/= failure.

Seriously everyones gonna be out of a job soon, don't pin your success and happiness on employment.

>>2454218
So what would you classify as a "real reason"? Getting fired for no reason? Bankruptcy? Being disabled? Losing my eyesight? Seeing the person I love die in my arms? OR maybe being grounded from the mall, or being called names on the internet?

>>2454217
Read La Nausea...even though it's existentialism and in french.
Look don't turn this into a literature off!
Also thanks for the suggestion, and read it I shall.

>>2454254
I suppose.
But it's been pushed in my mind that it does equal success and happiness since early childhood. It's just how I was raised.
I know we all have will power and our own mindset. It's just hard to get passed it and think otherwise.

>>2454262
Hoohaha, I still can humor myself.
Not to brag but; 280//20 vision without contacts in(technically blind).
Entering the 5th year of a relationship that was everything until this year. (and not for some "bawWW" ass reason, we we're very much in deep love then watched each other turn into different people now that we've moved out together. And we're not who we thought we would be)so i've seen this girl die in front of me; with her a part of me. We're still together which is the saddest part. I want her to see my corpse when it's done.
I actually have a job at a call center for a bank, I listen to every worst financial situation you can think of and don't feel the slightest empathy.
I'm not addicted to drugs, i'm in fact way overly sensitive to any. And disabled? I've thought of every single possible mental/physical illness that could be connected with my mind that's causing my body to be ill. Unless I have early stages of cancer. But i've given the quacks a swing at tryng to figure out what was wrong and they've failed. I've come to realize a sick mind = sick body, it's something i'll have to live with. If this is life, i'm not willing to participate.

>>2454186
Absurdism is nihilism that makes sense, because it takes into account the human condition and doesn't cut out the percuilarities of humanity compeletely.

>>2454409
>absurdism
>makes sense
You'll have to elaborate
the peculiarities of humans are inconsequent, unless maybe you want to focus on the perception of meaning completely from the point of the mind

>>2454312
Well yeah, if you resign yourself to your upbringing.

Stop resigning yourself and change your fucking mindset. It really isn't that hard.

>>2454395
You're not living.

Go out and live.

This
>>2454174
and this
>>2454146

You could also try asking God for help. Couldn't hurt right?

>>2454735
God? You best be trollin'.

Why, if you love your parents enough to be disappointed that you "let them down", do you think killing yourself would make them feel any better. All emotion aside, how would you feel if you invested X amount of years into raising someone only for them to kill themselves because things got rough?

Get over yourself and keep fighting.

Have you tried getting psychological help? Shit works.

>>2454781
Hey, turnin' ta JAYZUS is kinda traditional.