I'm a 26 year y/o kissless virgin with never had friends before. I'll spend hours laying in bed staring at the celling doing nothing. I probably have NVLD or Assburgers.

>>2321252

I'm guessing its you, Dead Banshee?

I've been diagnosed with ASPD, there's no medication for it.

Sometimes I find it hard to tell the difference between my dreams and reality and one day I'm probably gonna drive my car along the sidewalk or something thinking I'm asleep. That's just my awful sleeping pattern though.

I suspect I have adult ADD. I have some of the symptoms for the impulsive type - can't concentrate anything for a while, restlessness, yet I share the symptoms for the inattentive types - procrastinate, unable to multitask and prioritise. But something just tells me I lack focus.

Dysthymia, Depression, ADD. I take wellbutrin. Im in a place right now where I must accept I my not become a PhD... All I have lived is a live of the mind and I feel intellectually and professionally isolated.

I did all I could, got into a MA program, have an apartment, had a job (lost it due to my last bout of depression), made friends (though few), even had a gf. Yet its all crumbling. Its tough when all you see in the world is suffering. When ones intelligence makes it difficult to accept simple consumerist joys. I think about an heroing a lot.

>>2321258

No? Why did you delete your post?

during my later teenage years I started to struggle with depression, lack of motivation, anxiety, all that shit. I quit my job and dropped out of college, and the time I spent with friends or going to parties I felt like they all shunned me. The very idea that someone would like me for who I was seemed a joke.

My parents didn't really mind at first, I'd saved up a lot of money and had always done well in school, and they thought it was okay if I wanted to "live a little". Eventually, they caught on and my father insisted I would go see a doctor he knew or I'd be out on the street by the morrow.

This doctor was very into alternative medicine, despite being a regular doctor, so they took a lot of blood samples that were tested for shit "normal" doctors don't usually look for and some other tests for food intolerances. After a few weeks, they came back, and they showed a lot of chemical imbalances, vitamin deficiencies, high concentration of heavy metals in my blood and intolerances to dairy products and processed sugar/flour, which coincidentally happened to be very well included in my diet. In the doctors words, my stomach struggled to digest these products, and eventually others, and my body snowballed into a state where it no longer could produce enough of the necessary proteins and shit to keep it running. I was put on a lot of vitamin supplements, and some others to supposedly help "cleanse" out the heavy metals and a lot others too as well as a plan for a new diet. At this point I thought it was all bogus, but my father monitored me so I had to stick with the program or he'd kick me out. I'm not sure if it was placebo or what, but it didn't take more than a month before I began feeling different, my will, motivation and self worth started returning, and in 6 months, I was back to my old self.

>>2321451
that's really weird, bro
I'm surprised you didn't just get a prescription for zoloft and a swift kick in the ass on the way out

Not sure what I have but the symptoms are: extreme paranoia, depression and social isolation.

I've been "diagnosed" with ADHD but I mostly just acted out the symptoms because I wanted free adderall.

I was rather successful for a period in time, had a live in girlfriend, ran my own company... but I was also doing a huge amount of opiates and meth to keep myself together. Most people fall apart when they become junkies, I fell apart when I STOPPED being a junkie.

No friends, no employment, just 4chan, booze, legal speed, and cycles of insomnia and oversleeping. I swear to god I can hear the neighbours laughing at me... pretty sure they got root on my computer when I was running WPA for a few hours that one time instead of my normal DoD compliant EAP...

Jesus. Fucking. Christ.

>>2321451
>>2321491
My post is the latter... I just started a gluten free diet. Really hoping that it makes as much difference as it did for you. Still feel like I'm using it as an excuse for a greater underlying issue.

I'm sure I have something, I just don't bother finding out what that might be.
When I tried I actually lied to my psychologist and made myself look cool and perfectly adjusted so..

Aspergers and Depression. AS has no meds, and I haven't responded well to any anti-depressants.

I have to do what I can with strict diet and exercise. It helps the average mood but not the troughs.

I'm still not opposed to trying out the remaining meds.

>>2321500

Well it wasn't the diet. The diet prevented things from getting worse, but it was getting all the mercury out of my body and restoring the chemical balance that fixed my head. I took about 12 different supplements 2-3 times a day for those 6 months.

>>2321253

You're the guy that works at a convince store don't you?

>>2321684

Yep thats him.

I have BPD and attachment disorder.

I'm also at high risk for Schizophrenia, and sometimes I hear/see things, but I don't really want to tell anyone.

I take antipsychotics for the BPD and to reduce the risk of Schizophrenia. The worst side effect is that they make me gain weight. I've always been obsessed with fitness, and it sucks to gain weight even though you eat healthy and exercise well.

Was diagnosed with clinical depression some time ago and they prescribed pills for me. Stopped taking them after about 2 months. I'm pretty sure i was misdiagnosed.
The biggest issue i have, however, is the paranoia i constantly feel. That feel when everybody's glance holds furtive contempt, always hear your name spoken by somebody, check atleast four times to see if the apartment door is locked. It's fucking horrible because it makes speaking to people you don't know on a deep, intimate level a very unpleasent experience

I have horrible agoraphobia, amaxophobia, GAD, and occasional depression. Since 2009, I've tried many different medications with no luck, in addition to daily exercise, as well as hypnotherapy. I think I'm fucked for life. My doctor won't prescribe any medication outside of his small comfort zone, and the ones he will give me haven't done anything.

From what I've read, I could be suffering from depersonalization/derealization attacks. Luckily, they only happpen when my brain has fuck all to do, e.g. lying in the bed.

how many of you get cluster headaches or headaches often?

scizdoid but i have no real proof.

Likely just chronic depression and some form of social anxiety.

My parents thought I was autistic when I was little. Apparently I stopped talking after my first few words. They brought me to a doctor, who confirmed I was not autistic and could speak perfectly fine.

I suspect I just stopped talking to my parents because I was a smart kid and realized they were fucking assholes early on.

chonic illness here.

probably rittled with disorders here.

certainly dysthmia, and i suspect some minor ADD.

what does your brain feel like if you guys have suspected disorders?

I *think* I do. But how am I supposed to know? I can't crawl inside someone elses head and think through their thoughts. I have nothing to compare myself to.

Odds are my claim of mental disorders is just an excuse. It's most likely all of our claims are just excuses. Simplest answer is usually the right one, or however it goes.

bipolar explosive 1 my pills feel like they are work most of the time

Yes I do have one, schizophrenia. Kinda sucks. It mess up your life pretty badly. I'm doing better than one could expect though, heck probably even better than the average robot. 22 y/o, no relapse since I stopped taking my meds (Risperdal 6 mg) 2 years ago, currently studying, living alone in a pretty nice appartment, virgin but hey, at least not kissless.

>avoidant personality disorder
>generalized anxiety disorder
>panic disorder
>major depressive disorder

All diagnosed. Currently taking escitalopram 20mg a day and clonazepam 2mg a day.

biopolar possibly, i don't know.

Bipolar 2. major depression. Seroquel Zoloft and trileptl. It helps a lot and greatly improves my ability to contribute to society.

some sociopathic tendencies.
unsure about any real "Diagnostics" but I do have hallucinations, but I don't /want/ them to go away so I refuse to go see a doctor about it.

Odd you should bring this up, I just set up an appointment with a psychiatrist today.

One time I was on a plane, then had an odd strike of the purest fear you will ever feel. Imagine this; a lion jumping at you, just before his teeth make contact with your throat. That feeling. Then under this influence of fear, I start to get dizzy. But still in intense fear. All I remember was saying "I... I don't... feel... good" then I just fall down
Suddenly, the room turned black. I don't mean like I was blind, I mean like, the lights went out.
The plane became empty. Suddenly, I just start losing my mind

Suddenly hear a loud ring, followed by "ANON! ANON!"

I've had episodes like these often. I also have VIVID flashbacks and vivid random experiences. For example, I'll suddenly remember questing in WoW, as if I was in the game. Remember snuggling with my girlfriend so intensely that I could smell her perfume and everything.
I'm not sure if I am crazy or going to die.

>>2329032

I'm >>2321923

I am never going on a plane for the rest of my life because of fear of something like that. At least in a car, I can ask the driver to pull over. There's no escape on a plane. I would rather die than have a panic attack in the air.

I may have some personality disorders.

Perhaps i just consider my disorders to be a part of my personality and don't want it tampered with. I like my disorders, without the main one i would be a sniveling little loser who whines about being alone. Maybe you should think about how you can use your "disorder" to your advantage before you go off spouting about illogical crap.

i do not know, i might, i might not.

Pretty sure have Schizoid Personality Disorder.
Refuse to take medication because I have a pretty singular mind and turning that into foggy mediocrity doesn't sound appealing. So reality will never measure up to my expectations. At least I'll always have my imagination.

>Have borderline personality disorder
>Take carbamazapine
>Medication makes me feel better generally and have less OMG HAPPY to OMG WANT EVERYONE TO DIE but I have less fun on it...

I've decided to get diagnosed.
I'm both scared and thrilled about the outcome.

Used to take lots of Lexotan as a teen.

I'm depressed all the time but I don't get treatment because it's the source of all my dark powers

Depression, and Depersonalization disorder. What a doozy. At the personal request of my mother, I've refrained from being medicated for depression, and as far as I know there's no medication for Depresonalization disorder.

>>2333783
Here bro. Thank me later.

>>2328168
How long have you been on them for escitalopram buddy?

I was on 20mg for about 6 months and I felt less depressed but hated the tiredness and lack of proper feels. I went down to 10 a few months ago and it's crazy how much of a difference it made.

Male, 27 years old, far below poverty line, single, and holding a part time job as a janitor. Avoidant personality disorder, generalized anxiety disorder, and I have a universally revolting paraphilia. But that's normal for me. Everything has been diagnosed by a clinical psychologist.

I'm currently withdrawing from Klonopin, with an inadequate supply of 2mg tabs of Xanax to help for 'rough' times. 6 years of taking 8mg of Klonopin a day, and now nothing but a fast acting benzo that lasts for 45 minutes.

Suicidal thoughts are constant and pushing into reality. I would have to make it an 'accident' to save my family from feeling hurt, angry, and ashamed.

I'm losing my shit.

Ever felt like you have all personality disorders at once? Honestly, I think I fit the requirements for at least half of them.

I meet all the criteria for psychopathy except lack of fear.

i have a lot of fear on this unknowledgable subject...oh boy.

>mental disorder
Unless you are referring to something crippling, no such thing.

Everyone is different, everything is subjective.

>>2339138

they do exists numb nuts.

Thought-blocking. Typically it's a sign of schizophrenia but it's been going on for three years and I haven't showed any other symptoms. It has gotten worse but the time being it pretty has stayed the same.

At first started out as I was talking the words would slowly start to escape my heads.
>Yeah, I go to school up in Massachusetts. I really like what I'm studying, because...I, challenge me...and uh. (Forget what I was about to say, but not was I was saying before.

Then I would stop abruptly in the middle sentence with little to no memory of what I was talking about.
>I was actually born in Connecticut but I do-

Then it got to the point where I would forget what I was even talking
>Yeah, the test was kind of easy I was ab-. (Silence, I just stare at the person waiting for them to say something so we can have a conversation)

Now it's at the point where I would forget the question
>So when were you born?
>I was born- (A second after that I immediately forget the question)

23 years old femanon here.
I have been diagnosed with Asperger's and seasonal affective disorder. According to the WHO criteria, i also suffer from schizoid and schizotypal personality disorder, and I have a mild form of schizophrenia. I don't want to go to doctors, actuslly I havent told anyone about it and it would probably be a big shock for my parents, but I an not sure about what to do because they might completely freak out or not care at all, I don't know.

I have schizoaffective and add disorder. i take antipsychotics (haloperidol/haldol) and a sort of anti-depressant that doubles as anti-add (bupropion/wellbutrin). I don't really notice the negative side effects of the medication. I don't feel my brain rotting away

think I'm getting schizophrenia or something like that, I see and hear shit.

don't really care but I don't want to tell anyone because I hear they can pull your license. I think it's a stress/anxiety thing for me since the hallucinations usually appear at work. Gonna try and get on some antidepressant/anxiety meds without bringing it up. The figures are really starting to fuck with me though, getting kind of paranoid always thinking there are people around.

I have adhd I was diagnosed as a kid but ended up getting off the meds, I fucking hated them. walked around like a zombie, couldn't enjoy anything.

I got my attention span under control for the most part, usually through sheer force of will.

Hyperactivity has been driving me crazy recently though. I can NOT stop moving. ever. if I do I feel like I'm getting pricked by hot needles everywhere
>constantly finger drumming or tongue-clicking or leg bouncing
>always nailbiting, lip biting etc

still better than taking adderal though

My mother sent me to doctors because she was worried about my mental health, they basically told me it's fine to hear voices and see things, as long as I don't act on them. Also they said I probably have aspergers, and didn't even diagnose it. (I don't think I have aspergers at all). I also am overly superstitious and often think things happened when they didn't, such as thinking people told me things, I bring it up in convos and they have no idea what I'm on about. I once thought my mother told me she was Jewish and I believed it, and when I did actually have a girlfriend I constantly thought she was cheating. I think I should get a different doctor.

worried about myself to really go out and get it checked.

add among others mang.

I don't give a fuck about mental disorders.

Without them i would be still average at best intelligence wise.
And then i have low EQ.

Wouldn't make much of a difference.

Spent about 1 week in a psychiatry , closed station.
Didn't say much.

I have extreme paranoia, auditory and visual hallucinations, an addiction to violence, little impulse control, can't value life and can't connect with people, even family on an emotional level.

How would you know when you're hallucinating? How can you be sure the things you're hearing are in your head and not just blaring from the neighbour's TV?

>>2345275
Images like giant humanoid figures walking towards you
Sounds like screams that seem like they're right by your ear.

>>2321296
>Its tough when all you see in the world is suffering. When ones intelligence makes it difficult to accept simple consumerist joys. I think about an heroing a lot.

I can relate a lot to this... I no longer enjoy anything. I just can't consciously reason why I should do anything because there is nothing I like. Nothing to motivate me, I just don't give a fuck about anything.
Throw in a sleep disorder as well I guess, it is now almost 3am and I probably won't sleep anytime soon.

how many of you also have low IQs and minimal intelligence?

anyone from the UK know anything about personality disorders?

I'm almost certain I have Schizoid Personality Disorder, and since schizophrenia runs in my family I'm probably right. I don't take meds cause I'm looking to go the army college route in life, and that would hinder my plans for that and owning firearms.

>too scared to get it/them properly diagnosed
They're not too scared to get them diagnosed, they're scared of going under the scrutiny of someone who actually knows what the fuck he's talking about because they'll get told that they suck as a human independently of any sort of neurological disadvantages.

I take Adderall but most people nowadays who think they have some disorder are just armchair neurologists looking for an excuse for their flaws, a gimmick to complement their boring personality, or both. After coming off of a year of doctor-prescribed stimulants and anti-depressants, I realized that I hadn't felt real, human emotions for a long time. All you're doing is numbing your personality by telling yourself that you have these disorders. It scares and disappoints you to imagine yourself as a genuine person. Stop it now before you regret it.

>>2347912
>looking for an excuse
Yeah, most likely. Still, either call it a mental disorder or I'll continue in my funk until I kill myself. It is what it is.

Professionally diagnosed with depression and anxiety. I used to take meds for it but I stopped cold turkey 2 years ago. I decided that I did not want to live my life on drugs and I haven't looked back since then.

>>2347648
the NHS doesn't cover mental shit so don't go

>Psychopathy.
As a child, I always knew there was something else wrong with me besides ADHD.
I knew I had traits associated with psychopaths, but was in denial of actually being one up until very recently.
I became a little obsessed over studying the condition after watching the first season of Dexter and identifying with him in too many ways to ignore.
What really solidified my self-diagnosis was finding the blog, "Psychopathic Writings", which is updated every few weeks or so by a psycho who has been professionally diagnosed.

>>2353425

that psycho killed 3 people? what's that about, do you know?

I think I'm a hypochondriac, which by default would mean that I probably am!

>have no illnesses at all
>be genetically perfect

life is good

genes are good, but i still wont have children.

>>2353425
>Self diagnosis of psychopathy

Well, aren't you just a special little snowflake.

faggotfaggotfaggotfaggotfaggotfaggotfaggot

I have autism, but wouldn't really consider it a disorder because neurotypicals look like a bunch of struggling animals to me.

Schizophrenia and depression, not too special. I smoke weed to help the depression, but it doesn't help the schizophrenia, on the contrary. No big surprise there though.

I got schizophrenia, but it didn't break out yet. It only effects me when I smoke weed.
The sickness will overcome me in most likely one or maximum two years. I randomly hear voices which dare me to do stupid things.
Sometimes I feel like I have to kill myself for pleasing them or at least make them stop.
My doctor already gave me the medicaments so I can start the therapy as soon as it overwelms me.
Sad, but true story.

>>2357495
>it only effects me while I smoke weed

Everyone gets symptoms of schizophrenia while they smoke weed, if you think you have schizophrenia just because you get a little paranoid or start hearing things while high, then you don't have schizophrenia.

I don't don't have any dental misdaughters. I know this becuase Santa told my parents I have inputs.

Sometimes I black out and find myself holding a knife or holding an animal by their throat or something. Almost killed some guys dog once. Once minute I was looking at a barking dog and the next I was holding it in the air by it's throat. Doesn't happen much so I don't really have to worry about it.

Only anxiety. I'm actually a very happy fucker, but anxiety crushes every aspect of my life, and as a result it makes me depressed. I literally shake when driving a car in populated areas, and I need to smoke weed or take anti-anxiety medications to help prevent anxiety white-outs.

I'm pretty sure I have some form of psychosis. I don't want to get diagnosed with it. It's fine anyway, I can mostly keep it under control.

I love to imagine the world without any people. Being able to do anything, go anywhere and not have to deal with the obstacles of other humans, i'm sure that's not normal.

>>2357617
I don't mean I would enjoy it for a bit either, but that's how i'd prefer to live my whole life.

it's very clear that i have schizoid personality disorder, especially after reading salman akhtar's phenomenological spd profile (which is what convinced me that it's a disorder instead of just extreme introversion) but i don't see how diagnosis or therapy would help me. as i understand it personality disorders can't be 'cured' -- a therapist can only help you minimize your fuckedness so you can function a little better in society.

also i recall reading some literature saying that spd is particularly resistant to therapy.

i don't see any reason to 'open myself up' to some nerd who's getting paid $100/hour to pretend to be my pal as he coldly analyzes my weird pathetic issues based on the knowledge he gained from spending 500 years he spent learning pseudoscience

i'd talk to salman akhtar though, seems like a very insightful guy

>>2357531
Retard. That's not funny. I know what's from the weed, and what not.

I believe I have depression, OCD and paranoia. I havent got them checked out because reasons.

>>2357531
What if you feel less paranoid while high? Does that mean that your normal state is crazy?

>>2357617
>>2357645
I know that feel. Goddamn it'd be peaceful.

>>2357829
I've always wondered this. Sometimes when I get high I start to freak out because I reflect on how I normally act. Maybe i'm over thinking it, maybe i'm batshit insane.

>>2358044
More likely you just can't handle your drugs. No shame. A lot of people can't handle their drink, they lose their temper and become uncontrollable. Same basic gig.

>>2357797

If you only get it while you're high then its the weed making you schizophrenic you idiot. And no, you obviously can't tell. If you were schizophrenic you'd be schizophrenic all the time, not just when you're high on a drug.

I want to sleep forever. I feel like my life is a nightmare. My dreams are so warm and inviting. There's this place in my dreams that always dusk. The lights all have this perfect halo around them. The air tastes cool and refreshing like it just rained. Sometimes I've got a girl with me and things are alright.

Then I wake up and my whole day is shitted. Reality isn't enough for me. If I could hit a button to eject me into my dreams I would. Fuck this Gay Earth.

>>2358057
I can handle my drugs. I've done many, at high doses. Don't make assumptions. But I guess it was a stupid question as it only happens after i've smoke ridiculous amounts, 10 successive bowls ridiculous.

how many of you have low intelligence and think it would be wrong to reproduce?

>>2359491
If you had a low intelligence wouldn't that mean you would consider something like that less?
Do you see black people contemplating whether they should?

I'm worried I might be bipolar, I react completely differently than a lot of people, I find things funny or depressing that apparently shouldn't be, also, my train of thought is incredibly hard to follow, I feel as though it's almost complete nonsense, I haven't met anyone else who understands the way I think or naturally express myself.

I'm doing fine without any medication though, I don't see any reason to go see a therapist.

my mental capacity has been noticeably worse.

>>2359491
I have high intelligence and I don't think any of you should or will reproduce.

>>2367592

Might want to give us proof to this "high intelligence" of yours.

deperalization, which isn't a disorder, but it's painful.

Oh my, here is my list

>Social anxiety
>Obsessive traits (not really OCD, though)
>Avoidant personality disorder
>Either cyclothymia or Bipolar II
>Mild Aspergers
>Mild ADD-I
>I am afraid I am developing schizophrenia. I am becoming progressively more disorganized and paranoid. Also, I hear people saying stuff in word-less music which I understand is not a good sign when combined with everything else

really bad personality disorder, yup.

I've spent a good chunk of my life institutionlized. It's not very clever or cool or hipster. Trust me. I see things and jump to conclusions. I hate to be touched. By anyone. My mom is sweet and good intentioned but her hugging me is like I'm being burned alive. I just want to be left alone and live in a one room apartment and never leave. I hate sex. Unfortunately some guys do want to fuck me for some reason. When I feel eyes on me I want to shrink away and die. I went to get a reuben the other day at the deli by my house and didn't make it. Two fucking blonde cunts kept eyeballing me and smirking. I carry a knife on me at all times. It took all of my self disipline not to slit their throats. I really wish I could watch them get gangbanged by a bunch of smelly disgusting orderlies and see how self assured they were afterwards

>>2374429
You really need your own thread.

Reckon I've had a bit of mild depression for a while now. Some days it affects me more than others. I've been trying to combat it through exercise and eating better, which has definitely helped (especially the exercise). I'm constantly unhappy or upset though, it just ranges from moderate to heavy really. I never show it. I like putting on this facade that I'm an emotionless, hardline male but a lot of the time I become a weeping wreck.

I used to be very OCD but it's gradually lessened. I'm still nutty with order and other things though.

Finally, I have no idea what this is, but I regularly have conversations with both myself and other people who aren't there, like telling them anecdotes, asking questions or even arguing. It's mental, but I can't help it, I even find it therapeutic. I'll act out imaginary scenarios ranging from, say, telling my roommates about my day to imagining I'm discussing future plans, issues or other things with a girl I really fancy as if she was my girlfriend. It's odd and a bit pathetic.

do you people with a lot of disorders have no friends or life at all either?

>>2377276
No. I have friends, but it's probably not your typical thing.

normalfags with mental disorders general?

>>2380133
Why do you say that?

simplequestionblox

I think I might have major depression but that's not exactly a serious condition.
I just stay in and study/lurk becasue socialising generally makes me unhappy/exhausted.
I don't feel a need to make it better; I figure even if I'm unhappy I'm better off feeling like the best use of my time is to be studyng.

>>2380293

read the thread, nothing but normalfags.

I definitely have an anxiety disorder, but I don't want to go back to the shrinks. They have too much authority over you.

>>2383399

what was it like for you when you were at the shrink?

>>2385803

not him, but it's awful. I felt like i couldn't even belong to the people I was with.

headaches, i don't care if that isn't a disorder if it feels like one to me.

I consider myself fairly normal/successful, but with that being said I do have 2 diagnosed mental illnesses.

>1. Manic Depression: treated with drugs since age 16
>2. Anxiety Disorder/Depresonalization: treated since age 17

Both of which made it difficult to stay positive and interact with people on a normal basis, but I worked through it with a combination of medication and keeping myself busy.

The effects of both are much greater when I'm not busy, but with work, gym, and school I have been able to lead a fairly successful social life.

If anyone has any questions regarding either, I'm willing to answer questions as I've been dealing with both for about 1/4 of my life.

>>2388952
Chronic headaches certainly is a disorder. Heh, it could get really bad if all the aspirin you keep poppin' gives you a stomach ulcer.

>>2389030
What medication are you taking for anxiety?

>>2389980

Yeah, but i don't take medication.

>>2385803

(poster

Nothing in particular except they judge you and you have to choose your words tactfully because if they "deem" (subjective) you as a particular disorder they have power over you, e.g they can send you to the nutfarm if they thought it was necessary.

Keyword is don't throw words around liberally and lay off the hyperbole. I've never been threatened with that, but I have a close friend who was interviewed and (mis)diagnosed him with manic depression and sent to the psych ward numerous times. They tried to keep him in as long as they possibly could too.

Chronic depression and anorexia binge-purge subtype.
I'm medicated for depression (prozac) but the ED is a fight.

Sometimes I worry that I might be bored out of my mind. I see myself from a different angle like a dream and I do a reality-check only to realize I'm awake, and suddenly I don't recognize my surroundings, don't know where I am, only where I should head toward, the next second everything could be normal again. At other times I've experienced some minor visual and sound-hallucinations. I had Insomnia ages 6-19 (21 now), it ended after I collapsed and woke up in a psychosis. People have also told me since age 9 or so that I've looked incredibly exhausted/depressed/dead.

On official records though, I don't have anything, but my psychologist/psychiatrist/psychosomething suspects the three big sellers (add, bipolarity and aspergers) after just answering a few questions from a form. The mental healthcare-system sure is efficient and great.

>>2395684

>On official records though, I don't have anything

>psychologist/psychiatrist/psychosomething suspects the three big sellers (add, bipolarity and aspergers) after just answering a few questions from a form.

So you have already been to a psychiatrist and you still haven't been diagnosed? That seems odd.

>On official records though,

This is easily the worst part of dealing with these people. They slap a label on you indefinitely, and its even worse when you don't even have that particular disorder they label you with.

>>2321296
I relate very strongly to your words. And the worst part is that i hate life, i'm miserable and i an terrified of death and loneliness, i'm currently having headaches from the effort to not cry and fall into a panic attack.

>>2396803
I've only seen her three times though. Last time she sent me home waiting for a letter that will invite me to some expert on bipolar disorder who's supposed to confirm/deny, and I guess I will get a diagnosis after that.

I'm a bulimic with borderline personality disorder
>that feel when you'll never be anything more then some guys crazy ex

I don't get it, for a board full of "foreveralones" there seems to be a lot more people normal than shut ins. Was I fooled?

>>2389030

Does the medication affect your life activities such as those you described? I take it you probably take benzos because of bi-polar.

>>2399279
It's become for a place for normals to visit with their friends to laugh and gloat. And then copy what they read to facebook so everyone else can laugh at it.

Uh, no-one should post here, really...

I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was young. I wasn't really hyper though I did and still do have an issue with attention span. I typically get massively bored when doing crap I don't like and will more than likely just stop and move on to stuff I do like.

Beyond that I haven't been diagnosed with anything though I haven't seen a shrink since I was 13.

I have an OCD with even numbers. I find myself talking to myself when alone and frustrated. I have also found that when getting drunk, I will randomly laugh hysterically for no reason.

I'm pretty sure I have hodgkin's lymphoma, getting an open biopsy in a week.

Oh, you mean shit that isn't real that babbies whine about?

aspergers and my inability to sleep if i do sleep its for 20 hours weed helps just hard to get my hands on anything but soap bar or skunky green when i would prefer a true heavy indica

>>2400679
this thread is for mental health issues, your cancer is killing /r9k/

Mild aspergers and social anxiety. Still think the aspergers is kinda bullshit and the psychologist didnt realise my awkwardness comes from my anxiety, and the fact I avoid social situations has left me a bit socially retarded. Was put on zoloft last week for my social anxiety but I dont think it's helping much, I'm just getting annoying jaw clenching, cant stop yawning and keep waking up really early and cant go back to sleep. It's actually making me feel more anxious at times, and the fact that I've heard you cant smoke weed while taking zoloft means I'm probably gonna give up on it soon.

>>2400842
The weed or the zoloft?

...

whats up with you guys saying you aren't social when you write paragraphs and paragraphs of information?

>>2403091
when you're talking to someone you can't erase what you've said to correct it or plan what you're about to say with a minute of silence right after you've had a question thrown your way. It is far more easier to communicate in this manner than it is verbally face-to-face.

>>2400822
lol
thisguyblox

>schizophrenic
>bipolar
>sperger's

couple other things but really only bother to remember the first one, it's usually enough of an umbrella to tell people I'm pretty fucked without going into specifics

how many of you with mental disorders and such also have no friends or social skills?

>>2405062

I was diagnosed within one visit to a psychiatrist when I was 14 for Major Depression and social anxiety and put on meds by my mother's advice because she was diagnosed and was readily to believe that I had her illness too. A textbook case of self-fulfilling prophecy, which I had unfortunately believed for many years until the damage had already been done.

I took medication, and I didn't have any friends because I was homeschooled but I have two close ones and both of them are bipolar(one since 5th grade in old state, one I met only a year ago.)

They are actually rather intelligent so I can relate to them more, but I have trouble relating to the average person my age because their interests/hobbies are uninteresting and to be frank, stupid. Haven't had any friends my age since the 7th grade (one of my closest friends I only speak to over the phone since then.)

diagnosed with a ton of disorders i wont mention.

I don't dare tell anyone about my shit cuz I think it's all drug related.

I see halos around people and objects, and have these weird moments where I get this odd overwhelming feeling and the world around me seems so bizarre. Also, suicidal but won't do it because I can't handle doing that to the people that love me which results in me being listless and uninterested in doing anything for myself or anyone else. I'm a total NEET too.

>>2388952

psilocybe mushrooms have proven effective at getting rid of chronic headaches for some... google it, tonnes of resources.

>avoidant
>schizotypal
>depression (diagnosed)

I medicate with heavy amounts of marijuana, alcohol and prescription painkillers that I get off of my nan

>>2408934

>>2388952
high dose b6 or b2 was suggested on fit for migraines, forgot which

I haven't been checked out, but I assume I have a mild case of depression (suicidal at times), mild paranoia (I don't socialize because of this), and/or paranoid schizophrenia (talk to myself, auditory hallucinations, paranoia).
It really sucks, I don't socialize at school at all, I'm distant with my family (including the ones I live with), and I'm failing most of my classes.
I have one friend, he's pretty beta too, but he gets girls.
>Worries he'll ditch me eventually
>Paranoia strikes again
>At least I can talk to myself

>>2409227
Same guy.
For the depression, it's textbook depression added onto suicidal thoughts. Sorry if it confused anyone.

anyone else here get head aches a lot? Might be from all the computer time.

>>2410346

I certainly do, but that my be because of my constant, unrelenting rumination.

>>2410346

Can you describe the headaches to me? like how intense are they and how long do they last?

I think I'm a sociopath. I don't want it confirmed.

I'm almost positive that I have seasonal affective disorder (SAD) which is basically just depression during the winter. Normally I'd hate to self diagnose but if you look at the symptoms:

>Hopelessness
>Increased appetite with weight gain (weight loss is more common with other forms of depression)
>Increased sleep (too little sleep is more common with other forms of depression)
>Less energy and ability to concentrate
>Loss of interest in work or other activities
>Sluggish movements
>Social withdrawal
>Unhappiness and irritability

I am the embodiment of all of those things from mid November through March. Seriously, I don't leave my room and sleep up to 16 hours/day. Shit sucks because it makes me really lethargic for the exams and midterms in the 1st semester, which kind of fucks up my GPA. No matter how much I sleep I always feel like I'm running on empty during the winter.

I have diagnosed depression and anxiety , also probably have avoidant personality disorder, I feel like it is getting harder and harder to think clearly and deal with simple every day things like talking to people. I'm on anti depressants and it makes my limbs shake and convulse randomly. :(

>>2333998
Hey there, fellow paraphiliac. What's yours?

Friendly neighborhood necrophile here. Diagnosis recently changed to disassociation, major depressive disorder and necrophilia. Completely unmedicated and recovering well with therapy. Doing remarkably well, going back to school, have only nine more months of probation... if I can just overcome my depression, nothing will stop me...

Also have severe, chronic headaches but they're likely due to stress and not from some horrific head injury or tumor.

>that feel when too poor to see a neurologist
>America, fuck yeah

Diagnosed with BPII, not taking any medication. I fucking hate meds, they turn me into someone else. Currently rapid cycling, probably because of stress from midterms. Fuck midterms.

>>2410346
You probably need a basic glasses prescription.
I got really fucking intense headaches from prolonged screen time until I got glasses.

i have a complete lack of drive and motivation and i feel like i haven't been truly happy for awhile, just going day by day. i also have a huge problem with focusing. because of all this i also feel very restless, and im constantly thinking of how much im fucking up. my mind seems like its just continually buzzing. ive been thinking of meditation or going to see a doctor but i feel like it may just me being a sad little pussy and trying to cover up my laziness and my lack of ambition to succeed. i dont want to see a therapist because of that but i really want to see if meds or their advice may help. anyone else have this problem?

>>2411132
From my experience, medication can do more harm than good, but therapy never hurts. There's a reason that you're unmotivated and lack ambition. If you feel as if you can't help yourself, go see a therapist. If nothing else, they might be able to help you figure out something you couldn't have done on your own.

I can't stress how important it is to be totally honest when you go, though. Tell them that you feel lazy and like a sad little pussy. Let them know exactly how you're feeling, and what's bothering you... they should at least try their best to help. You won't be any worse off then you are now if you give it a try, right?

>>2411180
thanks. i guess im just nervous right now as i absolutely nuked my first semester even though i knew i should have taken a year off due to shitty study habits of mine. i always say to myself that i need to change but when it comes to the school year i just get back into my routine of trudging to classes, writing down notes and then losing focus and just watching the day go by and not studying one bit. it seems like no amount of telling myself to man up helps with this either. even after the first term i knew i would get put into probation if i continued and i still fucking did it. i dont know when i just started not giving a shit and lost all my drive to succeed as i used to get pretty good marks in early highschool. probably when i started going on the computer alot more but for all the happiness and entertainment its given me (not to mention communication with friends) it seems like its not something i can just cut out. anyways im ranting like a retard right now and i know you're not a therapist. just needed to get it out

I have ADD, OCD mild BPD, and depression (all diagnosed), and I think I have schizophrenia.

>>2410921

No, i doubt that's the case. That doesn't even sound logical.

I'm always living in my own head. Even when I go out I can never pay attention.

too many to name at the moment bro

been diagnosed with a LPD but they have no idea what the specific name is.

I think I might have turrets syndrome
i have a tendency to blurt out random words out of nowhere
most people seem to be under the impression I' trying to by RANDUM
but im not
I literally have no control over it.

>>2416529
Ah, I've been somewhat curious about this. Not curious enough to do any real research, but, uh...

Anyway, can you feel those tics coming? Can you feel the words coming but then are unable to prevent it or is it just sudden, spontaneous, completely out of the blue?

>>2416578
completely out of the blue, without warning.
well its not as bad as yelling obscenities , just random words like banana or dog.

>>2416680
I don't mean any offense by this, but I would find meeting with you in person to be absolutely fascinating.

You know, if there wasn't my whole social anxiety and assorted problems to get over first... ahem...

Anyone here with mental disorders unable to socialize properly?

I've never wanted to go to a psychiatrist. Thought the idea of taking pills to lead a normal life would make me a fake person.
Decided I would fight through it.
I have a great job, stable in eveyr way, but almost no social life. I go out every weekend when I can but I fail to get a gf or even friends. I've met/went on dates with 4 girls but nothing has happened.

Then I had 4 panic attacks in one weekend.

I think I'm gonna take the therapy.

>>2420855

Yea, it unables me to do so.

>>2428867
The gold nuggets of Cap'n Crunch pelt the bottom of the bowl with a sound like glass rods being snapped in half Tiny fragments spall away from their corners and ricochet around on the white porcelain surface. World-class cereal-eating is a dance of fine compromises. The giant heaping bowl of sodden cereal, awash in milk, is the mark of the novice. Ideally one wants the bone-dry cereal nuggets and the cryogenic milk to enter the mouth with minimal contact and for the entire reaction between them to take place in the mouth. Randy has worked out a set of mental blueprints for a special cereal-eating spoon that will have a tube running down the handle and a little pump for the milk, so that you can spoon dry cereal up out of a bowl, hit a button with your thumb, and squirt milk into the bowl of the spoon even as you are introducing it into your mouth. The next best thing is to work in small increments, putting only a small amount of Cap'n Crunch in your bowl at a time and eating it all up before it becomes a pit of loathsome slime, which, in the case of Cap'n Crunch, takes about thirty seconds.

tons of disorders that keep me from being social.

I have professionally diagnosed extreme social phobia and mild depression. Shit really sucks because no psychiatrists in my area will prescribe anything beside fucking prozac.

>>2428867

In the Spanish conquest of the Incas, guns played only a minor role. The guns of those times (so-called harquebuses) were difficult to load and fire, and Pizarro had only a dozen of them. They did produce a big psychological effect on those occasions when they managed to fire. Far more important were the Spaniards' steel swords, lances, and daggers, strong sharp weapons that slaughtered thinly armored Indians. In contrast, Indian blunt clubs, while capable of battering and wounding Spaniards and their horses, rarely succeeded in killing them. The Spaniards' steel or chain mail armor and, above all, their steel helmets usually provided an effective defense against club blows, while the Indians' quilted armor offered no protection against steel weapons.

I posted this in another thread but it looks like it dying so here we go:

PTSD, Depression, Anxiety, Gender Dysphoria, Body Dysmorphia.

Social situations are rather difficult for me but I have a small group of very close friends that I hang around. I get extremely anxious when I'm around people but heavily depressed when I'm alone so it's pretty hard to find a happy medium. I'm almost constantly suicidal, pretty close to an heroing (will cam it, don't worry guise) Got molested at a very young age and then from the ages of about 6-11 my only friend (nobody liked this asshat so people automatically didn't want to be around me. Wish I'd never met him) started touching me, molesting me and getting me to suck him off against my will. He was a lot stronger than me and would hit and verbally abuse me and me being the beta that I was just took it (fucking hate my wimpy kid self). I saw him last night, I don't think he realises what he's done to me. Feels bad man. Because of that my body image has been completely fucked, my gender feels skewed (I hate having a vagina and breasts) but I'm not looking to transition into a male because of my aversion to the male body (I'm a lesbro funnily enough). I have problems with touching and hugging, there's only a few people that I'm okay with. It sucks because I'd really like to get with someone, but my Post Traumatic Stress response gets in the way and kills the mood.

I'm currently on Zoloft, gonna throw in some Seroquel next week. Not looking forward to it. Zoloft makes me really nauseous, dopes me out a bit and I can't sleep very well. I feel like its dulled my emotions a bit. I'm a painter/drawfag but I'm getting tremors and akathesia which makes it incredibly difficult for me to do anything right.

Don't have a job. Doing a design course but hardly able to keep up with it.

>>2431776

do you have friends, a girlfriend, a personality, and a job regardless?

my genes mix horribly with my mental conditions.

Diagnosed GAD here. I'm taking anti-depressants to prevent panic attacks, it works but I still have to deal with stress and insomnia on a daily basis.

Right now I'm so stressed I feel like I'm suffocating. Know why? Because of a fucking work placement. I know the person who will take care of me : she is one of the nicest and funniest person I know but I'm still stressed out of my mind.

Fuck you brain, fuck you.

i'm too scared to go to the office and get it treated.

>>2431886
That's pretty fucked up, right there.

>>2380133
I don't get this. I'm not seeing the normalfag in most of these posts.
Is it the people here craving social interaction but not manage it because of whatever disorders? Should they not want it at all?