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    22 KB Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:06:23 No.2131340  
    Goodnight, /r9k/.

    See you all tomorrow.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:06:48 No.2131341
    Good night, sweet robot. *smoooch*
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:08:20 No.2131346
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    You're not gonna light up the night with us?

    But... But anon...

    I'll miss you...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:08:42 No.2131349
    Nighty night brobot :3

    Someone please come snuggle a lonely femanon?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:08:42 No.2131350
    Not if I see you first.
    Sweet dreams...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:12:10 No.2131375
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    >>2131349

    Mfw nobody responds
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:13:23 No.2131388
    Sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night feeling like something is crawling up my butt. This really uncomfortable ticklish pressure in my anus. I wonder what's up with that.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:13:51 No.2131389
    >>2131388
    You have worm bros

    don't kill them

    they come out at night
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:14:16 No.2131391
    >>2131349
    *tucks you in to bed*
    Sleep tight, sweetheart. *smoooooch*
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:14:16 No.2131392
    >>2131375

    That's 'cause girls have cooties.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:15:44 No.2131397
    >>2131391

    ;~; Marry me?

    bloxforlove
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:15:50 No.2131398
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    >>2131375
    >femanon

    You just HAD to make it clear you were female, didn't you?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:16:01 No.2131400
    >>2131349
    Only if you put out first.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:16:59 No.2131402
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    >>2131349
    consider yourself snuggled
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:17:11 No.2131406
    Go away, fag-lord.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:17:13 No.2131408
    >>2131398

    Well.. I want a boy to snuggle me.. ; ~ ;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:17:25 No.2131410
    >>2131398

    Girls need attention like we need food and water, dude.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:18:39 No.2131421
    >>2131349
    >Thread derailed

    In record time, too.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:18:55 No.2131427
    Posting from my bed.

    >that feel of freshly washed high thread count sheets and a king size comforter on your high end king size mattress.

    >that wondrous feel

    >>2131349

    I'll cuddle the shit out of you. I've got plenty of room.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:18:56 No.2131428
    >>2131402

    Th-thank you, anon. ; - ;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:19:54 No.2131436
    >>2131397
    *clears throat*
    >Hush, little baby, don't say a word, Dada's going to buy you a mockingbird...
    Rest your weary eyes, my dear. :3
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:21:09 No.2131444
    >>2131427

    Queen sized bed? :3

    >Am also in bed
    >Delightful clean sheets
    >Thinking about cuddling
    >My favourite feels
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:21:26 No.2131446
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    >>2131428
    it's a lonely world, i know. here's another snuggle for you.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:21:42 No.2131448
    >tfw you've stayed up for 24+ hours and finally crash into your freshly made bed after a warm shower.

    12 hours of sleep, here I come.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:22:38 No.2131455
    >>2131444

    King 8]
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:23:56 No.2131468
    is it selfish to want someone to hug and protect?

    I just want a female to cuddle..
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:24:06 No.2131471
    >>2131436
    >>2131446
    >>2131427
    >>2131402

    >Shedding tears due to internet love
    >2012

    Why am I so ronery :(

    Thank you anons <3
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:25:06 No.2131479
    >>2131455

    Are you a wizard? *o*
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:25:23 No.2131481
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    >forgot to do 2 weeks worth of homework for a BCA class all weekend
    >it's due tomorrow at 11AM

    IT'S REDBULL AND METH FOR ME ALL NIGHT, BABY!

    FUCK YOU ALL
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:27:58 No.2131500
    >>2131481

    I laughed so hard for some reason.

    laffbloox
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:28:50 No.2131504
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t_qPTyy4itI

    sweet dreams anon
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)04:29:12 No.2131506
    >>2131481
    >want to do classwork way before it's due
    >never do it until last second just because you can
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:29:17 No.2131507
    W-will someone stay up with me and chat and snuggle? ; ~ ;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:32:04 No.2131521
    >>2131507
    Gimmie a chat device and you can watch me tweak out on caffiene.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:32:13 No.2131522
    >>2131468

    How is that selfish? *snuggles*

    That's sweet!
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:33:42 No.2131530
    >>2131521

    Type "snugglebro" into omegle common interests and hit text?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:35:05 No.2131533
    Or we can start a late-as-fuck tinychat comfy-room

    The only requirements are that you MUST be comfy as fuck.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:35:19 No.2131534
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    >>2131507
    another snuggle? you're lucky i'm such a pushover.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:37:05 No.2131547
    Reporting in for ronery duties.
    this song is killing me
    please respond
    ;~;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:37:18 No.2131548
    >>2131534

    Ohgod... that image... oh god :(

    I just want to hug everyone who's ever had those feels ; ~ ;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:39:18 No.2131551
    >sister-in-law is ordering fast food from this drive thru joint in the passengers seat
    >leans over me onto my lap to see the entire menu
    >I havent had this kind of contact with another person in over 8 years
    >barely resist a compulsive need to just hug her and never let go

    I just want someone to hold onto, /r9k/...
    I just want...


    ;_;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:40:17 No.2131558
    >>2131551

    I'll hold you, Anon, I'll hold you!

    :)
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:40:30 No.2131561
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    >>2131551
    I'd hug the fuck out of you
    probablyneedsblox
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:41:18 No.2131567
    >>2131548

    I've silently browsed this trainwreck of a thread with all the spaghetti flying around, and I can't really contain it anymore: Please shut the fuck up. You're a colossal fucking mong and your very presence on the same internet that I am on causes embarrassement of colossal proportions. Your bullshit, pathetic cutesy smileys (which are a huge faux pas on 4chan to begin with) coupled with your whiny, spineless drivel make me want to throw up.

    Shut up and fuck off.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:41:22 No.2131568
    >>2131551
    I know that feel, bro...

    God, I really wish I didn't.....
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:41:37 No.2131570
    I have to write a fucking symbolic story in two hours.

    NIGGA YOU DON'T JUST WRITE THIS SHIT DOWN, YOU GOTTA GET THE INSPIRATION, YOU GOTTA FEEL THE PASSION AND PUT EMOTION INTO YOUR WORDS

    I NEED TIME

    THIS ISN'T FUCKING MATH

    HOW CAN I MAKE THIS GUY REALISTICALLY DEVELOP IF I HAVE TO RUSH IT? I DON'T LIKE PUTTING MY NAME ON -SHIT-
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:42:30 No.2131577
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    Oh.. apparently stranger didn't like hugging tonight....

    ...

    ; ~ ;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:43:40 No.2131586
    >>2131567
    We're having fun, and we're containing it to one thread.
    I don't see a problem.

    You can reply if you wish, but I won't respond.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:44:29 No.2131590
    >>2131567

    It looks like you need a hug Anon.

    I'll hug you :)

    please respond
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:47:40 No.2131604
    >>2131577
    Just hugged a stranger on omegle, hope it was you.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:47:54 No.2131607
    >>2131570
    DAWG THATS WHY THEY TELL YOU NOT TO POSTPONE UNTIL THE NIGHT BEFORE, YOU NEED TO TAKE YOUR TIME WITH THIS SHIT
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:50:36 No.2131617
    >>2131604

    ...Did you say that you were here to deliver a hug?

    Awwww anon :')
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:51:38 No.2131622
    >>2131479

    Nope.

    Just self employed
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:52:10 No.2131625
    >>2131607
    MOTHERFUCKER I NEVER FOUND THE GOD DAMN INSPIRATION

    THERE'S ANOTHER STORY I'M WRITING ON MY OWN TIME, I SIMPLY PUT IT TOGETHER BECAUSE THE IDEAS WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COME TO ME WHILE I'M TAKING A SHOWER, WALKING, LAYING IN BED, WHATEVER

    I WISH I WAS LIKE EVERYONE ELSE, PEOPLE WHO STRAIGHT UP DON'T CARE OR THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO DON'T KNOW THEY'RE TERRIBLE
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:52:43 No.2131630
    >>2131622

    >Job
    >Snuggles
    >Delightful sheets

    ...Marriage?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:53:12 No.2131633
    Speaking of The Smiths...
    http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rIyXJxPFVz4&feature=related
    have a listen, lonelybros
    please respond
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:55:07 No.2131641
    >>2131633
    I love them.
    Have an awesome day/night, Anon.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:58:14 No.2131659
    >That feel when it's nearly 5am and you haven't slept
    >That feel when you just want someone to hold before bed
    >That feel when you'd at least like someone to kiss
    >That feel when you'd settle for someone to text
    >That feel when you just want to love

    These feels, man...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:59:07 No.2131666
    >>2131641
    Thank you.
    Made me cry a little.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)04:59:54 No.2131670
    >>2131630

    That would put a real damper on my ability to enjoy being a bachelor while all the old acquaintences burden themselves with children and mediocrity.

    Cuddles and righteous fucking for days though.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:00:13 No.2131672
    >>2131659
    All of those feels..
    I know them...
    Even the East Coast feel...
    I might not be the prettiest but let's cuddle?
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:00:44 No.2131676
    >>2131659
    >that feel when you just want someone to love you as much as you love them
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:02:10 No.2131685
    >>2131676
    That unrequited feel...
    I know it well
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:02:27 No.2131688
    >>2131672

    I'm a girl but I'm in for some friendly cuddles if you are.

    no homo.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:02:54 No.2131690
    >>2131685
    One of the worst feels.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:03:16 No.2131693
    >>2131688
    I'm totally okay with that.
    Platonic snuggles are fine too.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:03:46 No.2131698
    >>2131685

    Even if it's not completely unrequited.. Just knowing that you love them more.

    Kissing them and being able to feel it. Never wanting to let their had go while they pull away...

    The worst fucking feels...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:03:56 No.2131700
    >>2131690
    I agree, tripfriend.
    It's tiring and overwhelming.
    Nothing makes it stop.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:05:27 No.2131707
    >>2131700
    All emotions begin to feel overwhelming and tiring. Or they're more prominent when they stay negative. Sometimes, I think memory removal could be a good thing.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:05:39 No.2131709
    >>2131700

    Welp, I'm sad now.

    I have a stuffed monkey with me.. maybe he shall rid me of these feels...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:08:04 No.2131720
    All this talk about fucking and virgins and whores and misogynism, and all I wanna do is have someone in my arms at night.

    That's it. Someone to be close to.

    I love you, /r9k/. You're the next best thing, I mean it.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:08:51 No.2131723
    >>2131707
    There was a time in my life when I would have taken a forget pill without a second thought.
    Now I don't want to forget.
    Even though my memories, and even present living, is painful, I don't want to let it go. I'm just so tired of feeling. So tired of wishing for something that seems impossible.
    I tried today to let go of something I've been feeling. I tried really hard. Step one was drinking it away but it didn't work. Step two was talking myself out of it and rationalizing to myself that I just wasn't feeling it. That also failed. I've given into it, but it fucking hurts.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:09:44 No.2131730
    >>2131709
    No mere monkey can shield you from the feels.

    >>2131720
    I love you too, Anon.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:09:47 No.2131732
    My only problem is that I'm highly schizoid. Other than that, I'm a decent, friendly guy with nice qualities and values, a good living environment, and a promising future.

    I'm alone, but not lonely.

    At least most of the time. ;_;
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:11:46 No.2131749
    >>2131709
    Better than having a King-sized bed and being the only occupant.

    >>2131720
    >that feel when you don't even want sex and just the warm embrace of somebody else

    >>2131723
    You sound like me right now. I've drank it away and tried to rationalize it and nothing works because the memories and thoughts are still there and it won't get any better nor improve from here on out.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:13:06 No.2131758
    >>2131730

    But... but my ex said that if I ever get lonely or scared I should hug the monkey and all my pain will go away...

    So many tears...
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:13:34 No.2131764
    SORRY TO INTERRPUT YOUR FEELS BUT IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR A DISTRACTION TONIGHT BREVIK TRIAL IS ON LIVE RIGHT NOW

    http://rt.com/on-air/breivik-trial-terror-live/
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:17:20 No.2131784
    >>2131749
    I just wish that I could stop somehow.
    It's not good for me or the other party, I'm sure but this is just speculation.
    My bed is too big and my mind races. I can't control these feelings and it's eating me alive. I try to put it to good use, attempting to focus it into something productive but for the life of me I just can't focus on anything else. It seems that I'm broken somehow, that I think too much, feel too much.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:18:27 No.2131791
    >>2131758
    Bitter and empty lies. The only salvation from the feels is love or death.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:19:31 No.2131797
    >>2131784
    Jesus man you really are me and I'm sorry for that. My mind has no speed limit and constantly races, bringing up the worst memories and delusions that it can create. I can't put a stop to the thoughts nor a blockage. They have free reign and rule my life. It'll occupy me for a year or even longer and I'm not even at the halfway point yet. I dread my future.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:21:16 No.2131810
    >>2131784

    Oh how these familiar feels gnaw away at the very core of my soul..
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:25:18 No.2131834
    >>2131797
    I have the opposite problem. I'm optimistic about the future because I feel that I will someday get what I deserve, but I'm setting myself up for bitter, crushing disappointment.

    >>2131810
    Want to talk about it?
    ;~;
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:28:36 No.2131854
    >>2131834
    I... used to hold that same outlook. Karma and such. Nothing good has really ever happened to me (that worked out). And nothing will.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:34:10 No.2131888
    >>2131854
    I can't help but to hope. If I give that up, I have nothing left. I've only ever wanted love. I know it's too much to ask for and the universe isn't just going to help me out with this one, but fuck man.. I need it. I need someone to see past this exterior and truly love me. I do it for others, why can't anyone do it for me? When I look at others, what other people may identify as flaws, I see charm and something that sets them apart from the rest of the world. Something unique and beautiful and entirely theirs. When I explain this to people they look at me like I've grown two heads. If there's anything I've earned, it's for someone to look me in the eyes and tell me they love me.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:42:38 No.2131940
    >>2131888
    Ugh. I want that so bad. I had it once. I think. I don't know how the opposite felt. How she still feels. I had a taste and I've never had it before and that reinforces the desire for it. I don't want to lose it and go back to loneliness. The pangs strike too true. Just shoot me dead now. All I want is to be treated the same way I treat others. Is that so bad?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:46:45 No.2131962
    >>2131940
    Apparently so. I would love for someone to show the same concern for me that I do for them, or to get past their insecurities and just be happy with me. Thanks for talking, tripfriend. I just wish I could stop crying.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:48:15 No.2131973
    >>2131962
    I'm here for you. No seriously, most people I know online come to me for advice and guidance. I'll never know why. Sometimes I wish I could cry but I've since taken up other vices.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:51:32 No.2131992
    >>2131973
    Care to elaborate on your vices? I'd take them over the crying, methinks. And if you'd like, skype in email field.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)05:52:56 No.2131999
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    >>2131764

    That fucking neckbeard.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)05:57:00 No.2132021
    >>2131992
    I'm a retard or Cloudflare is blocking the email field from me. My vices currently are just over analyzing a situation which probably isn't a vice at all. I just think too much. And generic physical masochism which I never thought I'd resort to. I need better things to get my mind off... well, things. But that's not an option currently.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:01:21 No.2132045
    >>2132021
    I already overthink everything and am too big a weiner to resort to any sort of physical masochism. Well fuck, looks like there's no way out.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)06:03:16 No.2132063
    >>2132045
    Depends on the choice you make as far as masochism goes. I think I'm an (unintentional) emotional masochist and a physical outlet is a nice difference even though I constantly feel like shit no matter what the situation is.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:04:32 No.2132072
    You guys are the best. You are always here, even when my friends are not.
    See, I am an introvert so It's really difficult for me to open up to people.
    I am sure most of you know that feel.
    I can't easily talk about my problems to anyone.
    But I can always rant about my shitty problems/issues here and no matter how stupid they may be, there are always people who try to help, or to just sympathize.
    I also enjoy doing the same. I read every single post to threads like "write a letter to someone who will never receive it" or "get it off your chest".
    Sometimes I cry.
    This place is so cathartic. It makes me feel.
    I adore every single of you, even the ones who always try to make other people mad.
    Even the tripfags, I love insulting you guys, even though deep in my heart I think you're pretty awesome too.
    PS: Sorry about my stupid grammar mistakes. English is my 3rd language.
    Have a nice day/night. You're all special to me.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:07:22 No.2132093
    >>2132063
    It's never worked for me as pain (physical and emotional) just pisses me off. I never feel any relief from it.

    >>2132072
    I love you, Anon.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)06:09:09 No.2132104
    >>2132093
    What have you tried?

    >>2132072
    If you give me a few minutes, I'll make a throwaway r9k email for people to talk/vent/etc in confidentiality. r9k is my own sanctuary.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:09:20 No.2132106
    I just got back from the gym. I was rained on during the cycle back. Came home to a dark, messy house thanks to sister.

    I need a hug ;-;
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:14:20 No.2132142
    >>2132104
    Admittedly not much. I've cut a few times, once to see what the fuss was about and a few other times afterward to see if I still felt revulsion toward it. I'm in pretty large amounts of physical pain daily (pinched nerve, arthritis, etc.) and realize that it just pisses me off. Self-harming makes me feel physically ill. I've also done piercing as an attempted outlet, same revulsion.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)06:25:02 No.2132195
    >>2132142
    Sorry, a bit preoccupied. r9kventing@gmail.com if you're interested. Cutting is okay and the firey feeling from your arm's cuts feels nice. What all is wrong with you or is it just that? That's unfortunate and I'm sorry for you. I get queasy too so I can't go too far.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:30:11 No.2132228
    >>2132195
    I'll keep that email address in mind. I write a lot of things that never get sent so they'll probably end up coming your way.
    I have an extreme vitamin d deficiency so my bones break really easily and my skin breaks down if I'm not careful with it. Sort of looks like acne but it isn't. That's the only other thing wrong with me really besides a personality disorder that I function well with. Most people wouldn't know that I have it unless told. I really appreciate the concern. I haven't felt it in a long time. Thank you.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)06:38:37 No.2132278
    >>2132228
    Go for it. However long you like them.
    Brittle bones or something? Can you get any of that treated or... anything? I hope my acne fully completely clears up someday. Which personality disorder is that? I fear that I have one. Sure. Like I said, I'm here for anyone.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:43:41 No.2132308
    >>2131834
    >>2131834

    Sorry for the late response, I was changing my shirt for school. I didn't sleep a wink last night... I don't remember the last time I slept. I think I woke on Saturday.

    I'm a normal kid. I go to school some days... other days I sit at home and think or sleep or cry.

    But when I'm at school, you'd never know that I'm depressed. I smile, I laugh, I voice my opinion, I even eat lunch with friends sometimes.

    But inside I'm lost. I'm confused. I'm tired of these superficial friendships. They're just the people who are there every day. They're the people who look like me. It makes sense for us to say hi to each other in the halls.

    I've never once gone out with them after school. They know nothing of my past. Of my pain. Of this empty, lonely feeling... of this great unfulfilled need to be loved.

    I feel hollow.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:52:08 No.2132345
    >>2132278
    I take 4000 iu/day of vitamin D and it's just enough to keep me from breaking. I could have osteoporosis treatments but I'm at an increased risk of infection and it doesn't do any good in the long run. I'm kind of just stuck with it.
    I have dissociative personality disorder. It makes me forget chunks of time but I've found a coping mechanism that works. I just write a lot, take notes of important things, keep an appointment book and have worked on remembering things that happen. When the episodes happen it feels like nothing is real, like I'm in a dream or something. It's like everything is hazy, even sensory details. It happens a lot when I'm under stress.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)06:53:52 No.2132353
    >>2132308
    I feel your pain, Anon.
    I felt all those feels in high school.
    It doesn't get better until you really connect with someone. Those people you cherish your whole life.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)06:54:28 No.2132356
    >>2132345
    Doesn't seem like too good of a thing to live with. Would you rather be dead?
    That's what I believe I have. The derealization is growing daily and my memory is suffering for it. Too bad that bad events replay themselves like movies but I forget everything else. Stressful situations are remembered in better details. I do make notes of things like if I want to ask somebody something and they're not online, or I write a long message but leave it alone for say a day in case I remember more things to add. Some things help and some don't.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)07:00:22 No.2132384
    >>2132356
    I struggle with that question daily, though not entirely because of purely physical problems. It sucks having to be super careful all the time because just falling can break bones or if I got into a fight and got hit, whatever got hit would almost certainly break. The personality disorder doesn't bother me at all anymore and actually kind of comes in handy. If there's something I don't particularly want to remember, I'll leave it out of my notes. If I'm reflecting on the day it's kind of a mindfuck when I leave the apartment as I can never remember driving anywhere. I went to the bar today, only remember being at the apartment and bar, no in between.
    If you think you have this disorder, learning to lucid dream helps. It's the same principal only you're awake and instead of changing your scenery you can remember things that happen. Reality checks will soon become your friend.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)07:03:37 No.2132399
    >>2132384
    Understandable. You're physically fragile. Like holding a piece of delicate china 24/7. I can kind of remember what I do daily but since my days mesh together and I usually do the same thing every day, the same stuff usually happens. That's what makes it hard to get over anything since I constantly dwell and brood daily. No habits to get me out to fill my head with other memories. I think I've tried to lucid dream before and never got anywhere. Was always curious to know why you're not supposed to look in a mirror..
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)07:05:40 No.2132412
    >>2132399
    You don't look in mirrors in lucid dreams because it makes you hyper aware that you're dreaming and you end up losing your grip on the dream world and your dream body so you wake up. That's why my reality checks are only my hands or reading something twice.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)07:06:39 No.2132421
    >>2132412
    So you can't see yourself in lucid dreams?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)07:12:46 No.2132457
    >>2132421
    It's possible, but usually in third person or you'll look different than you do in reality. When I see myself in dreams, it's how I perceive myself rather than how I usually look, if that makes any sense at all.
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)07:13:33 No.2132463
    >>2132457
    Makes sense because dreams are -you- so you'd kinda see what you want to see, in a way. That's good to know though. I always wondered. What are fun things to do in lucid dreams?
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)07:17:05 No.2132481
    >>2132463
    Depends on the person. I prefer to cuddle, have sweet loving moments, hang out with Julian Casablancas or movie monsters/vidya characters/anime characters.
    Sometimes I unconsciously build the perfect life and relationship and when I wake up and realize it's not real I just can't stop crying
    >> eeyore !!9lZaZkipt0u 04/16/12(Mon)07:17:38 No.2132483
    >>2132481
    You gotta stop torturing yourself like that.
    >> Anonymous 04/16/12(Mon)07:19:20 No.2132490
    >>2132481
    I know.. but when faced with the possibility of having everything one wants in the world with no consequences, you tend to take it. Well, I'm off for the night. I'll email you my skype later.


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