2nd-5th grade: It continues, and the medication begins, and so do the psychologists and therapist sessions. So they give me Ritalin, Celexa, they even went as far as to give me Adderol, of course I almost killed myself with Adderol, shit fucked with my little mind hard. So they say I have ADD+ADHD, ha alright. It gets me out of homework for the rest of my life, so whatever I don't mind it too much. The Girl I obsess over changes schools, moves to the rich side of town.
6th Grade: Started hanging around with a friend who was in a gang, I wanted to embrace that lifestyle since I was "rebelling" or whatever my young-self was into at the time, of course I'm a dork at this point so that's a no-go. The bullies at this point have stopped, I don't know why, but it's stopped.
Sept 11th happens, some kid in the class makes a joke while we are watching the news and I object towards it and point out how much of a chode the guy is being, and the beatings start again. All of 6th grade I get my ass handed to me, Up to now I haven't had any female communication or interaction whatsoever.
7th Grade: I move from the big city to a smaller city which was adjointed to the latter, same school. Sweet, I'm now in a gang(More of a fighting gang, not a drug dealing type). So the beatings stop and that same year I jump the guy who made the wisecrack which started my 6th Grade reign of horror and beatings, so no more beatings from there on out. Sweet, I get so sit at the cool table now. So I get involved in the gang more than anything, surprisingly my lack of female contact up to this point has already done damage and I'm shy when it comes to even looking at a girl, so no activity on that front.

End of the Year I get expelled for Gang Activity

8th-10th Grade: I hit up a new school, it's peaceful and it has no gangs, very pacific atmosphere and I hate it. Finally decided to join the Army and I sign up; 6 years and $40,000 later here I am.

Basic Training- I've pretty much never ran in my life, so when I reached basic training I would get 22 minute 2 mile run times. This plagued me all throughout basic and gave me a label of a shitbag. I had no friends in basic, no person that I could rely on. Finally my Drill Sergeants smoke(punish with physical training) me so much that I can finally pass 60% of the Army Physical Fitness Program, which is what is required for the Infantry. This however was about 2 months after everyone else graduated since I was held over because of my pt score and the lack of it.

Get to my unit: It's been nothing but abuse and torture here, I've learnt the hard way that being kooked up in your house all your life and not having any social life will fuck you up once you are out in the real world. I was terrified of my squad leader and the insults and smokings didn't stop for a long while. So I finally got my shit together, I'm not a fuck-up anymore, I can do PT stellar(still working on my runtime though), and I've gained confidence through abuse and negative actions that my leadership has bludgeoned me with these past 9 months. I'm one of the most toughest soldiers here mentally because I know for a fact that I'm in the strictest platoon and the strictest squad, and there have been numerous others who end up calling hotlines or make deals with their Chain Of Command so that they can go to a softer squad, hell I've reached the point where I'm on a first name basis with my Squad Leader, and now I'm training for Ranger School.
So that's my story Grenadier 11B(M203 Infantry).

Now for my question, I have had no female interaction in my life, I'm still a virgin, I'm extremely shy when it comes to talking with someone of the female group, and I still from time to time think back on that girl whom I've been pretty much traumatized with, maybe because she cared for me when we were smaller, she actually worried about me and tried to protect me. Even as I type this it brings a tear to my eye and I wonder what she's doing now and I fantasize about living a life with her. All I ever get here is grief from buddies who give me shit for being a virgin and not having a girlfriend and being pretty much anti-social. I'm in desperate need for help, and I just don't know what to do anymore, I'm new to this whole REAL WORLD thing, any advice would be appreciated.

tldr; MY CHILDHOOD WAS HARD BUT I DID NOT COWARD IN FRONT OF THESE ADVERSITIES AND I BECAME THE IMPORTANT CEO OF AN INFLUANT CORPORATION.

God, I hope that tomboy you knew growing up turned out to be hot.

There is no way in fuck i'm reading all of that.

Op here, oh yeah and the fucked up thing is my rommate thinks I'm asexual or something because I don't get "The Urge" as he calls it, is this normal?

>>2041247
The tomboy is my girlfriend.
She just sucked my dick and told me she'll always love me.

>>2041262

I had a fucking sweet childhood, and I'm now going through college thanks to my parents.

Your life sucks.

You're in the army, every country's primary collection of rapists. Go rape some 13 year old Iraqi girl while the rest of the squad shoots her family.

Then demand that we support you for fighting for our FREEDOM AND DEMOCRACY!

I read it all.

You'll be fine. Be sure to let your outer shell break to show your shy side. Smile. Be a gentleman. Your troubled past before basic made you tougher. All you need is to meet someone that melds with you as a friend.

Maybe hit up the internets locally if you're in THAT bad of shape? I never tried it, but if other girls would bother looking online locally, surely they'd be the shy type? When it comes to where you came from, stay folksy, and tone down stories to not scare off the girl.

>>2041287
Your boyfriend is a homo, using terms like "The Urge".

Well being in the military should have given you some confidence, which is half of what you need to interact with women. But if not, try buying some new clothes, start being a little more particular about your appearance, get a new a haircut, etc. You'll feel and look more confident. Women tend to pick up way more on body language, so if you feel confident, you'll look that way too.

This is great, actually. I really enjoyed reading that.

Anyway, go to clubs and bars. Mention you're in the army and you should be sweet.

But when you said you've never had any contact with a girl, do you mean you've NEVER had any contact at all?

I feel for you, man. Minus the gang stuff, I feel like we've shared many an experience in parallel. My "obsession" girl is the same way, except I met her online in the 10th grade. Ever right up to the PT thing - I'm an overweight, out of shape sack of shit, and I know it, but I'm trying to better that, even if I know I'd never make the Army if I tried.

I will say this: you're applying for Ranger school. If you can forget her, you'll have one hell of a way to introduce yourself.

But if you can't, you have to find her, man. Find her, talk to her, tell her everything you told us. Let your heart guide you with her. If you and her hit it off, you'll have everything you've wanted for so long. If not, you'll finally be able to see it might just not have been meant to be. Either way, though, it's better than just going through life, not knowing, right?

If you're in the army, can't you just shoot someone and fuck the hole?

It's what armies do.

OP is Private Pile.

>>2041326
I've come to realize that stuff like that doesn't happen. Besides I'm stuck in New York when originally I'm from Texas. It's not going to happen. Still feels good to pretend for a while though. I can actually still remember her old phone number from 1st Grade, a bunch of other details about her too, for some reason I can still remember details about her person and life. Moreso than my own in 1st grade.

>>2041363
He should kill his drill sergeant then himself while seated on a communal toilet.

>>2041368
Fuckin' Christ, OP, I'm a Texan too (stuck at UT, get the same "are you gay/asexual?" shit because I don't like to chase after all the whores here).
What the fuck's up with this state - if you don't do your cousin, you never get laid?

You and I are so alike it's scary. I even have this girl's phone number listed as an emergency number on my cell, so if I get fatally wounded somehow, I'll be able to call her out of the blue and tell her one last time that I love her more than anything.

Melodramatic? Yeah. Romantic? You bet your ass it is.

>>2041323
Last time I talked to a girl was in 8th Grade. The girl asked her cousin if she could ask me if she wants to go out, and guess what happened? Absolutely nothing, I think we broke up, since I never talked to her again even though we were technically dating I didn't even talk to her, get her number, nothing of the sort. She was pretty attractive too, the shyness I guess. I just feel really awkward when talking to girls, and I wish I could pinpoint why.

>>2041395
My Drill Sergeants were all Airborne Rangers, I don't see the odds in my favor at all for a plot like that one.

NO, NO.

/r9k/ is not your emotional dumpster. there's therapists for a reason.