>mid 20's female
>fat
>stretchmarks all over my tummy
>acne scars and ugly face in general
>no friends, no job, live with parents
>never held a boy's hand, never kissed or had sex
>social anxiety/phobia, depression etc.
>failed suicide attempt and cutting scars

>>1785759
You sure you don't have adult ADHD? You might have chronic low levels of dopamine.

>>1785759
doing it wrong, females cant be lonely, stop trolling

>mid 20's male
>no friends, no job, live with parents
>have girlfriend, stopped getting joy out of the relationship
>planning suicide attempt

>>1785759
Lose weight and watch how guys suddenly want to fuck you.

>>1785759
HA HA
SERVES YOU RIGHT, YOU STUPID WHORE

The worst thing about me is that I have a rather attractive face. My features are good and I basically won the genetic lottery.
However I'm a lazy cunt and don't keep myself in shape. I wear shit clothes, don't use make up and only shower when I leave the house.
I've never had friends and oh god.
I've wasted my whole potential of ever becoming a well adjusted member of society.

The only thing I'm good at is science but fuck that. I'll just work some depressing 9 to 5 job until I die.

>>1785865
Talk to me. blue_fish@eml.cc

>>1785777
I just took a look at some of the symptoms of low dopamine so probably yes.
>>1785786
I wish I was trolling.
>>1785813
How would I explain cutting scars and the rest? I'm just crazy damaged goods now.
>>1785840
Yes, I guess I deserve it.

It's funny that OP's picture has the word "lie" on it. Probably reflects what most of these assholes post here.

>>1785883
why? o.O

>live deep in the woods
>no one lives within miles of me
>smoke dope & play vidya all day
>shoot guns when im bored
>only human contact is when i go to the grocery
>there is a cute asian/white girl who works there

>>1785786
>>1785813
>>1785840
you guys should kill yourselves. She's just a person in the same situation as you, but female. Just because girls have been cruel to you, it does not give you the right to be cruel to girls, especially if they are not the girls that wronged you.
I don't normally respond to these posts, but something about the all-caps rustled my jimmies

>mfw im such a fucking loser that even though i have no suicidal inclinations my family/acquaintances have repeatedly asked me how often i think about ending it all

>>1785865
>>1785911
Take a chance for once in your life.

23 F

>social life
Don't have one, I only have one real friend and work acquaintances

>work life
Doing very well.

>romantic life/sex life
Doesn't exist, never existed. I'm almost 24 now and I got to the point where I just can't picture being with someone, I'm too detached from my humanity and broken for that.

I should stop coming to /r9k/, this place is just making me depressed. Better go back to /a/, /jp/ seems to share many of my feels too.

>plain, plain, plain femanon
>boring and average and plain
>get made fun of for everything I like
>nothing important or interesting about me
>really clingy
>bad at talking to people, making friends
>unbelievably awkward

>>1785919
Where do you live? Sounds fun.

>>1785925
I know that feel. The girl i like told me she worries i might kill myself.
Nothing like that to make you feel like shit.

>>1785964
upper peninsula michigan

AIM: jozeffranczak
You know you want a friend ladies

> Male, 20
> 2 "proper" friends, 3 others who I now resent/have no strong feelings for either way
> Lost virginity to one of the above friends - a shallow experience
> Got friendzoned by another of the above friends after a year of on-off intimacy and being led on
> Never had a girlfriend
> No job
> Not particularly close to family
> Haven't been interested by anyone I've met
> Have an offensive, dark, dry sense of humour that almost always makes a bad impression on others
> Yearn for normal relationship with a woman like Richard Harrow
> Dip constantly between some form of confidence and defeating levels of self-worth
> Feel that a nuclear holocaust/suicide would be desirable at this point

>>1785960
Oh God, I've met my twin!

>>1785954
Shit I know this feel as a 24/m.

I'm even too afraid to go to a bar. Noone to go with anyway though. But I just can't even take that first step because I feel like such a fucking alien to it all.

>woke up, isp is fucked, too much ping to play vidya
>sit around reading wikipedia articles about nihilism
>think about how pointless my life is and all the reasons i should just kill myself.
>dad breaks my door in, screams for ten minutes and kicks my cat because i used a butter knife he cleaned to make a sandwich.
>wonder if i should kill my dad
>oh look its 6 pm and i didnt do anything today
>cat will not come out from under my bed.

this, r9k, is how much of a shitty insecure loser i am.

>>1786040
Hey there twinsie, how's the average plain Jane life treating you?

Posted this in another thread

Male
Can't even green text Play CSS 6 hours a day
Suck at it
Have a few friends irl but I actually hate them
Have one female friend who I'm beginning to hate
I like it when people hate me
Kiss less virgin
Acne
Have been told by a few people I'm the ugliest person they've ever seen
Pretty skinny
Weak
Pretty much crap at everything, though above average intelligence
Do I even need to mention kiss less virgin
Get angry all the time
Not funny at all

Despite that I have no illnesses or disorders. I can't wait until I die.

I'm a female shut in.
Or well, I go to school. But I have no friends and so I don't really speak to anyone or so - I just attend my classes.
And then I go home, do nothing. Most time is pathetically spent on 4chan since some years back.

And this is my life.

>>1785954
>I should stop coming to /r9k/, this place is just making me depressed
I know that feel.
Then I gave up on life and came back.
But while I was gone I felt so much better, for just a little bit.

femanon here...

>insecure
>kinda beta (i have those alpha years, maybe 2 years)
>kinda depressed, have a severe pms every fckin month
>kinda nerd for movie, music, literature. i have obscure interest for those
>virginfag
>rate my social life from 1 to 10? wud be 5 now. used to be in 8 - 9, also used to be in 2
>used to be fat, acne-ridden, dull but now im clearing those up & become kinda attractive 7/10 girl. wud be 8/10 if i become 14 pound slimmer
>fuckin lonely, minimal social contact everyday
>still in uni in my age now (24 this year), estimating myself wud be graduate in 2 years later
>awkward, fuckin beta [/whine]
>have several guys like me but no one really make me like 'em, inb4 still single virginfag till now
>tfw

>>1786173
>kinda beta (i have those alpha years, maybe 2 years)
This reminds me of "It's Not My Fault I'm Not Popular!"

>>'1786195
so thats a manga title. i'm gonna try to sneak read it (i'm into anime/manga/vidya but not too much)

>>1786173
>that feel when fuck you

you have dudes who like you... i mean unless they are fat and ugly fucks you might as well fuck them even if you don't like them
don't complain about being a virgin when you have a route to not being one...

spring break booya
>havent left house in 8 days now, havent spoken a word in 5 days (mom called)

heh

>>1786195

so thats a manga title. i'm gonna try to sneak read it (i'm into anime/manga/vidya but not too much)

yeah those alpha years, im especially can reach alpha state when im kinda drunk

>>1786173
you are a dumb piece of shit and should kill yourself

WHY WONT YOU KILL YOURSELF

>>1786173
insecre but
>thinks she is a 7/10
>has an average social life (5/10)
>Have several guys interested in me but I am forever alone because none of them is good enough.
>Woe is me

And women wonder why they are hated on this thread.

Male, 21 years old.

Somewhere after high school everything just...fell apart. I would get a job, then lose it. Last real work I had was in Sep 2011. NEET since then. Haven't had a friend since 2007. Never had a girlfriend, still a virgin.

Came down with a pretty sever depressive episode in 2009, turned completely into myself, haven't really been able to overcome that since. I no longer trust my own thoughts because half of the time I believe I placed them in my head deliberately to justify my shitty situation. Then I call myself out on my own bullshit and the self-loathing grows.

Struggle to even imagine myself in a work place, or with friends or a girlfriend because I've become so used to being completely alone. Live my life in daydreams and long inner monologues of self-hatred.

Actually have decent genetics and an attractive face, but so unconcerned with my appearance and to a certain extent my personal hygiene that this doesn't count for shit.

Hate myself for the awful life I lead, consumed by guilt and anger for causing my parents concern. Thoughts of suicide only fuel my self-disgust.

>tl;dr utter failure too scared and self-defeating to live up to his own potential.

>ugly female
>no worth in society whatsoever
>kissless virgin
>starve self to remain thin but still can't change face
>only skill in life is maths but never went to uni because why bother if you're ugly
>still in love with classmate from college
>friends have moved on
>too cowardly to an hero

>no friends, kissless virgin, ect.
>shut in for over 2 years.
>literally don't leave my bedroom or talk to anyone for weeks at a time.
>eventually have to go to community college part time to appease parents.
>failing out due to extreme social anxiety.
>most days i skip class to sit in a parking lot for 3 hours.
>have panic attacks whenever i'm in public/near people/someone tries to talk to me.
>probably going to be homeless or dead soon.

Hi.

Does anyone want to be my friend?

... anyone?

>>1786298
>mfw i see that coming down the road at me (highschool junior fag here)

>>1786254
It's really short, but I find it really funny.

>>1786261
>>1786288
>>1786292

yes maybe it seems that simple for ya.. like what normalfags thinks of the /r9k/ here, that people on /r9k/ are simply loser. but isnt that simple for real. im not exaggerating what i've said tough, but what i am here, still a betafag and depressive as shit. complaining, yes sometimes. but somehow i can accept that im not one of those normalfags. girls can be bounded to a situation like this too

and nope i never friendzoning boys

>>1786298
>Thoughts of suicide only fuel my self-disgust.
If you disgust yourself so much, why don't you kill yourself? :)

>>1786298
>>1786318
>>1786298
>mfw ill be all three of your friends

>>1786326

It isn't a nice place to be, young anon.

The world is lonely, the people are indifferent and the inside of your head turns out to be a malicious, untrustworthy place.

You'll know how I feel when you realise there isn't anyone to blame but yourself, but you still don't change.

>>1786318
Sure I'll be your friend girl, post contact info.

>>1786298
i'm already feeling that, i mean i test into the top 1% on everything and i always hear about how great my future will be, but im so fucking self destructive and my grades aren't shit and i know im heading for a dead end but i cant seem to stop myself from walking of my own free will towards it

>everything seemed to become better in my life
>first time i have sex my fucking dick rips ( yes )
>now i have to get an operation to fix it
>the waiting line is 8 months
>all that..... semen....have never been so horny and every boner hurts like a fucker
> feels like my appointment is in 8 years

>>1786369
>The world is lonely, the people are indifferent and the inside of your head turns out to be a malicious, untrustworthy place.
It's still capable of being a warmer, more welcoming place than the real world, though.

>>1786318
Sure, I'll be your friend anon. I know social anxiety sucks, but I'm sure you can overcome it somehow.

>>1785960
same here, sis. same here. i don't get it why there are some guys who seem to be interested in me.i am so fuckin' boring that if i were a guy, i couldn't stand being with a girl like me.

>>1786173
You remind me of Chiharu from Boys on the Run.

>in high school
>work with schools camera group
>school is having its band and/or orchestra preform that evening,
>decide to stay home.
>have a thought that if i went I might bump into a girl and might be able to get closer to her and/or get a date or something
>realize that I was fooling myself, I felt i was too disgusing and greesy to get/recieve such things
>decide to stay home

>be 18 year old female
>no IRL friends
>go to class, come straight home, sit on computer
>all friends are online
>usually do nothing but browse 4chan
>fat
>ginger
>3/10 looks wise, jew nose
>no passion
>just got first boyfriend two months ago, constantly afraid that he will break up with me once he realizes how much of a loser shutin I am
>socialize with people in tinychats and omegle to fill the void
>scared of talking on the phone or on skype
>stutter
>never talk in class, sit quietly or put my head down
>my only best friend ever turned out to be lying to me about having a terminal illness a year ago, no new friends since then
>bullied
>hate myself

>>1786413
Because they don't care that you're boring. But they do care that you have a vagina that they can put their penis into

>>1786458
>my only best friend ever turned out to be lying to me about having a terminal illness a year ago,

Aw shit girl I think we've talked in the past. Unless this is common.

>>1786479
And naive guys just want welcoming company.

>>1786487
Probably. I've been on this board for years.

>>1786458
>mfw ill be your friend

>had a lot of friends growing up
>best friend moved and stopped talking to me for some reason
>mom and step dad going through divorce
>depression
>stop calling my friends to hang out
>eventually they stop calling me
>have trouble making new friends

And here I am. I don't go out with anyone, or hang out with people at school. Some days, I barely talk to anyone.

I doesn't really matter to me as much, but I sometimes get worried about what others think of me, especially my mom. I don't want to disappoint her, but judging by my less-than-perfect grades and lack of social skills, I probably already have.

>>1786356

I simply can't understand why are you depressed/lonely and shit.

>rate my social life from 1 to 10? wud be 5 now.
>7/10 girl.

>fuckin lonely, minimal social contact everyday
>awkward, fuckin beta [/whine]

You see, people who are awkward/fuckin beta can't reach even a 3/10 social life rate, ya know?
You are not this, you are a whining bitch.

Why don't you give a chance for one of those guys who like you? Choose the most inteligent and be the normalfag you are,

I'm as insecure as the next person, but extremely shy. I have trust issues and it takes me awhile to warm up to people, but once we know each other, you're my pal forever. No boyfriend or girlfriend, I'm not rushing for one, if the right one comes along, then sure!

>>1786314

I sort of doubt you're much good at maths, women never are.

>>1786450
>fantasize about geeky girl I might Like,
>realized last time I saw her I came off as a horrible person.
>we don't share any classes, so I would have to go out of my way to talk with her, which is awkward.
>she probably isn't even that geeky, and lacks common interests

Geeze, r9k is especially beta tonight... While normalfags are out with their friends or girlfriend, we're at home, alone, on our computers

>>1786564
normal fags have no place on 4chan im glad there gone tonight

>>1786314
I'd be your friend. I like math too. And Evangelion

>>1786501
Why would I ever want to trick a naive guy into hanging out with a boring girl such as myself? I wouldn't want to do that to someone.

>that feel when you're trying to make a single godamn friend on a thread of people who are talking about having no friends and they all ignore your posts

>>1786517
I'll be your friend, too, if you want.
Do you like watching stuff on stream?

>>1786590

I'll be your friend; do you have MSN?

>>1786564
>>1786574
...man, you guys are right.

>19 female
>I have a small voice and i get really nervous talking to people. My boyfriend usually does a lot of it for me when it comes to ordering stuff etc.
>I usually spend all my time at home, bf is my only social life
>self esteem is in rock bottom
>can't start conversations with people besides him
fortunately, i have good genes so people just view me as she shy cute type than an antisocial loser

>>1786587
>yfw you realize that you're just being escapist because you fear social interaction and justify it by thinking you are doing them a favor
if you're going to hurt people by shunning them at least shoulder the fucking blame

>>1786590

The tenuous connections that some of /r9k/ share can hardly be called a friendship.

What do you expect them to say?

i have a great body... sadly i have an awful face with small beady eyes, big donkey teeth and a god forbid roman nose with huge nostrils....

dat feel when boys see me from behind and think im a total hottie.
dat feel when i turn around and they realize im donkey from shrek.

>>1786599
>>1786598
no msn, do either of you have steam?

>it's funny how we don't do anything to improve our situations, yet we complain anyway.
>it's kinda neat how we beat ourselves up for what we don't have and ignore what we do have.
>it's also somewhat comical how we keep the same routines even though they make us miserable.
>it's also quite humourous how we delve into escapism to forget how shitty of a person we are, and when we are forced to face our circumstances we just long to go back into dream land.
>what could improve our situations i wonder? maybe there's something that we're not seeing. hmm.

i've been at the bottom of the barrel for a long time. ive had some fucked up emotional problems and i've been addicted to some awful ways of thinking. im starting to come out of it, and i have to say that a huge, huge part of it was the unwillingness to take responsibility for my life. i just covered my eyes to my problems that i didn't know how to face and tried my best to forget about being myself.

>>1785865

>I've wasted my whole potential of ever becoming a well adjusted member of society.

>>1786298

>utter failure too scared and self-defeating to live up to his own potential.

Oh god I know these feels.

>fuck up once, spend 6 months correcting your error

>>1786644

>Implying I'm enough of a normalfag to game

I have a computer that can run games well, I have a PS3 hooked up right next to me and lots of games, but I still waste away my hours on /r9k/.

>>1786646
it's so easy to just write yourself off and say "i'm that guy, i'm the one that can't do anything. all of these people around me, they're above me. i'm just a terrible person. i'm just terrible at everything. i'm so fucking stupid. i'm incapable of being loved. i don't know what to do, there are so many things wrong with me. oh well." really, you're just avoiding taking responsibility, because changing things takes effort. you're not looking at it objectively, but you don't even care. it's easier this way, to just assume you will fail. you stick with it because it's safe and this is what you know. this is what you've been doing for as long as you can remember. the theory is, that if you kill your hope, you kill your expectations and things won't be so bad because you make yourself believe that the good life isn't for you. but your hope will never die. your hope will never die. people who are like this don't want to admit that they are a person like everybody else, and are capable of moving closer to happiness. the possibility of changing your life is scary. but admitting you could be capable means that you have to do something. there are a whole lot of reasons why doing something and moving forward can be hard. sometimes, apathy is a defense mechanism. if we will ourselves hard enough, you can make yourself believe just about anything.. on the surface. deep down though, you know something is very, very wrong. it takes some thinking, endurance, courage and a little bit of humour, but you can do it. however if all you do is run, you will never improve.

>>1786605
Bah, the subtitle didn't show up, should have said "It's very relaxing for some reason." Oh well.

>>1786644
Steam is repriserecord.
I don't have a lot of games, but I'm always on.

>>1786619
i find something great about butter faces, they don't seem too bad to me, plus sexually speaking you have several options
>lights off
>paper bag
>doggy style
also, ill be your friend too

>>1786615
When did I ever say that I wasn't taking the blame?

>No friends
>No girlfriend
>Kisslessvirgin
>No current job
>No money
>At least I'm in school part time
>Guarantee I'm the most beta in here, unfortunately

it sucks to be short and a guy.

I'm such a loser I cam get giggling-rolling-on-the-floor drunk off of just two mike's hard lemonade's.

Yreeeeeopppp. I have pickles and mikes and its st oattyz and im watching madagascar and itz hot and douchebaqgs are playing music outside.

IM A LADY.A

>betafag virgins trying to talk to ham beasts

>>1786727
short chicks have the advantage

>>1786745
I fucking love hambeasts. I have turned down wonderful girls to court socially awkward shutins.

>>1786727
It's not always a bad thing, it depends on your attitude to it.
The first guy I ever really liked was short and plain and ridiculously thin but he had such an amazing personality that I only really find short men attractive now.

>>1786663
Does anybody care? Whatever

It's okay if you don't know what to do, and it's okay if you're scared to move forward. it's normal if you really don't want to do some of the things. do your best, and maybe you'll just find your way one day. but if you're going to live, then you're going to have to keep going forward. the more you move forward the easier it gets. of course you don't HAVE to, but honestly i would rather be dead than stagnate my whole life. if you are stagnating and disagree, then you're just cowardly clinging to life without wanting to live, because you're too scared to die. what a disappointing waste, either way really. one is just dragged out longer. how you live now just looks better because you're young. there's romance in being young. but what if nothing changes and you get older and older. what if you watch as the days and weeks and years go by, watching everything around you change.. except yourself. you, just hiding from the world in this bubble of safety that you've created. you will feel the shame and pity from everyone around you. you will feel jealous and resent yourself even more for letting yourself think that everything is alright, for allowing yourself to be lulled into this pseudo living for so long. what an awful way to live. the shame of it all.

>>1787025
heh, i'll also say that any "friendships" made here won't last. it's funny, not because i'm a jerk, but because i assumed the connections i made like this would last too. they won't die out of awkwardness or massive disagreements, but you'll all just lose interest after awhile. you know it to be true. and if not, you'll find out like i did.
some of you will be "busy", and will eventually feel like talking to you is a chore. you won't have anything in common besides being what you would call "losers". but that isn't enough. it won't make you friends.
others will be desperate and lonely, but also will become disinterested (whether they admit it or not). the reason they press on is because they have nothing else and will claw at anything and everything to keep themselves from drowning.
you need to work on yourselves and become a better person before you get friends. people must look inward before they venture outward. you need to experience a life that's... More than this..

>Meet girl on Omegle Video
>She's absolutely gorgeous, think she's a GIF at first
>We start talking every day
>She has the coolest personality ever
>Really chill girl
>Artistic, poetic
>Actually talented, not a pretentious tumblr slut
>So fucking intelligent
>Notice that she's online all the time, never talking about friends
>Find out she lives 3 hours away from the nearest city
>Lives in a very small town with nobody her age
>Doesn't drink or do drugs excessively
>Doesn't have school because she's on the March Break (the Canadian equivalent to spring break, I'm told)
>Is a shy girl due to lack of interaction growing up
>This is the kind of shit that only happens in movies

She's 17 and I'm 26 but holy shit this girl is perfect.

And I own her.

>>1787116
hurr idealization will bite you in the ass, friend.