I do the same thing, but with internet and video games. Except I don't have school. Or work.

So basically my entire life is escapism. It's working out well.

Mine too. It's keeping me from getting a job or going to school. I'm just a pathetic worthless escapist peter-pan NEET and I'm unfit for this world.

There's no positive twist at the end.

>>159443
>>159447
We should form a suicide cult.

>>159464
And make an eroge?

>>159447
>>159443

I've always wanted to ask this to some escapists. Where the fuck are your parents, arcanines?

>>159464

Might as well
It could be not suicide, just... like... a real escape

To better lands

;_____;

>>159503
Supporting me and my NEET life. How else could I live like this?

>>159503

Down the hallway right now, sleeping

They think I'm looking for a job, though I think they know something's up because it's been a couple years

>>159503
Divorced, mom worked as a nurse and was there 60-70 hours of the week, when she got home she was too tired to do anything other than go into her room and sleep.

>not choosing one series and losing your fucking mind in them
But seriously, I think I'm going crazy,
I was hiking in the mountains with my dad and I heard a predator bird screetch
and I was sure a fucking hopper was coming down on us so I dived on him and started yelling
It was rather hard to explain. . .

>>159512
I see. In case you feel a desire to change your ways, here's a question... do you think your parents are to blame (totally or partially) for your NEETness?

>>159516
And they haven't asked you about it or showing signals of said suspicion...?

>>159530
Hars situation. How old are you arcanine?

Sorry if this is bothersome. There was a time in my life where I took some steps toward escapism, too, so I'm curious.

>>159596
>How old are you
19. College + work.

>>159596
>do you think your parents are to blame
Only to the extent that they're not kicking me out because I don't have a job. Everything else, including the decision to drop out of school and quit work, has been mine alone.

>>159596

They bring it up all the time, they're just beta parents, they have no energy to be forceful and they wouldn't want the social stigma of kicking me out

I feel like a piece of shit for it but there's no fucking good option, people would complain if I killed myself too

>>159640
Are you me?

I want a job but only so I can support myself, in order to support the hobbies that I escape with.

For some reason I'm stuck in some kind of existential crisis. Everything is pointless in the end, space is nothing but void, man can't even unite in order to form a common purpose.
I just feel like nothing is worth anything. I want to get away from here.

I would have suicide long ago if it weren't for the people around me I have lucky enough that still love me.

>>159586
I think you are fucking crazy
Eagles or even hawks don't even sound remotely like Hoppers

>>159720

...wow anon, I think I am you. I have gone on about that same perpetual existential crisis before too.

It's the ultimate demotivator. And there's no good choice. All actions are fucked and ultimately pointless, and inaction is an action in itself that makes everybody hate you for not being whatever they expect you to be.

>>159765

I have been reading a lot about existentialism lately and order a few books. I just need something to help me, not sure what can to be honest.

https://secure.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/wiki/Absurdism

Apparently it cooks down to 3 options.
> Such a realization or encounter with the absurd leaves the individual with a choice: suicide, a leap of faith, or recognition.

> For Camus, suicide is a "confession" that life is not worth living; it is a choice implicitly declaring that life is "too much." Suicide offers the most basic "way out" of absurdity: the immediate termination of the self and its place in the universe.

Sometimes I feel that is the choice I want to take but I can't because of people around. I'm just plainly stuck.
I'm too NEET to get a job since I feel what I would be done with just end where I started, get a job in order to support my hobbies that allows me to escape from my job.

I feel like just throwing my hands up in the air and flip a table sometimes.

>>159840

Interesting. I briefly looked into it before, also some other things. I started reading some various philosophy thinking maybe it would open me up to some new bulletproof mode of operating in the real world.

Of course, it never worked. I can't seem to stifle my emotions, or even find a proper balance with which to stop the war between emotion and reasoning.

I get those impulses too, though a lot of the time I just simply want to completely withdraw into myself, to just lie down somewhere and do absolutely nothing, and keep doing .

Ya, basically the same.

Even if my life were better, I really can't imagine wanting to go to clubs or fuck women more than what video games and television offer.

I wish I could live in the real world, but I spent too long in the fantasy and I'm not sure I can get out.

Well, the worst part is that I'm not totally sure I want out.

So what do you guys escape to?

I find that I like either vast fantasy universes, or real-world stories that involve depraved, unhealthy, indulgent emotional states (like incest, especially incest laced with deep guilt), or just general failure to cope

>>159419
Pretty much the same, though 4chan and some vidya tends to fill in for books.

That and drugs when I have them.
Recently ran out of MXE, which is going to suck until I can get some more.

I have realized that although I could probably get a job, move out, work out and maybe even get a significant other eventually; I don't really want it.
Doing nothing is easier.

>>159503
Live in their house, I think my mum is starting to get annoying that I am not even trying to get a job.
Not sure about my dad, I think he may just be alright with the fact that I haven't offed myself yet.

Him being destroyed by it and my own cowardice are the only things really stopping me.

>>160238
Any place or style that is foreign. I like reading works from or set in Eastern Europe and ancient East Asia because they're so different from what I already know.

I tend to read anything surreal or absurd as well, because books in that style require a lot of my concentration and usually have images that stick with me for weeks afterwards. Very easy to lose yourself in them.

>>160282

That's cool. I guess I lke that foreign feel too. I've been looking for a good immersive fantasy novel lately.

>>159419
>be autistic version of OP
>lose self in designing RPG combat systems for days at a time

Please kill me, my life is shit ;_;

>>160351
I don't really read fantasy that often, but here's the /lit/ fantasy recommendations list if you want to look through it for recs or anything.

Sci-Fi-esque world in which there are many different creatures and factions all of which have different "morality"
First there is the Imperial Federation which is a race of humanoids from a planet called bulbion because they had, in the early days, created a mighty tower in which they created metropolitan area containing all the world's people. They can only be referred to as being short, pale, all red eyes, and jagged teeth. They are essentially a militaristic Fascist society developed from an old republic that was overthrown by the army. The army used to be civilians, but they perfected warfare through cloning and finding the perfect combination of genes in their race and they had no empathy and killed all whom they were told to by the cloners. This was the W generation (So say you were clone number 200 of the generation, you would be 200.W, pronounced Two Hundred Point Double-you), and over time it grew to take over the entire galaxy. By this time, any remnants of the original race were gone or lost in some foreign worlds. The Federation at this point was almost entirely run by and controlled by the clones except an elite caste which were simply darker grey, indicating they deviated from the "perfect gene", but they were about to enter a stage of corruption. When the Federation entered the X generation, the clones no longer just took orders, they gained personality in a different way. They had all been raised in tubes in which they learned everything they needed to know, but when the X generation began, they began seeing the developments happening: for no explainable reason, the young ones learned from the programs with different speed, level, and form and this is how they entered the X gen. It was in this generation, at the peak of the empire, that they found earth, and while they thought they had just found another planet to conquer with no sentient or even intelligent life, they would meet their greatest enemies and causers of all wars from now on (go on?)

>>160238
Usually worlds in pseudo-medival world settings, places where technology took hold and things are more simple and community-oriented.

> Play Fallout: New Vegas
> That sense of adventure
> That connection to people
> that feeling like you actually have a purpose

>>159443
Sounds pretty chill. Can't wait until I'm done with getting my degree, so I can sit at home and chill for a few months until I get up my ass and get a job.

Those months are going to kick so much ass, man. Imma smoke weed and play vidya all day long!

>>160522

No job, buy weed, wat

>>160695
NIGGA I HAVE MONEY IN THE BANK

I HANVE TONS OF CASH, YO!

I RULE THE DOLLAR, MAN! DON'T WORRY!

This. When I first played Deus Ex I didn't want to leave, JC Denton's life was about 1000 times better then mine and a whole lot more interesting.

>>159419
I know that feel. I like playing music about worlds that I've made up or playing vidya so I can escape from this world. I'm alright with it however.

>>160414
I do this a lot, but I don't even have any knowledge of programming, I just imagine what the game would be like in my head. It was great when I used to play DnD as I would make massive campaigns with proper boards as maps for the dungeons and errythang. Then my best friend moved and everyone else in the group kinda gave up.

Guys, it's so easy to escape to another life when the one you're in seems sub-par.

You want to live in these romantic-as-fuck worlds about exploration or power play and men doing what men do the manliest? Yes, I've been there; yes, it makes you feel like I have some sort of sense in an otherwise meaningless existence.


But I can tell now *real life* is infinitely better than any of the escapist stories you try and make yourself a part of... Real life is the single fucking greatest story ever told, and each and every single person who embraces it and pushes themselves to experience it will come out with their own story, their own universe to live in and explore, with the added bonus that everything they are doing is *real....*

I envy the ability to escape so easily from your shitty real life. It's probably better than to be anxiously aware of your own failure all the time without seeing the possibility to change much.