>>1574992

WTF man hope you aren't serious

>bucket
>water
>slit wrist
>stick in water

I once tried to OD on my asthma medication. I took like 50 dosages. Didn't work obviously.

Kinda made my muscles feel all loose and sluggish, which makes sense as it's a muscle relaxer.

I don't have any cool methods to share, just wanted to say I know this feel.

>>1575107

Why the water, what purpose does it serve?

>>1575140
If memory serves me right, it keeps the blood from clotting at the laceration.

Up until about a month ago I had planned on making some hydrogen sulfide gas in my car and offing myself quickly and painlessly.

I'm in therapy now, and I wouldn't recommend suicide. But nonetheless, I completely understand that feel. I've been dealing with depression for probably 15 years and persistent suicidal thoughts for about 12.

>I wouldn't recommend suicide. But nonetheless, I completely understand that feel.

I feel ya, even though I'm neck deep in suicidal thoughts I could never recommend this course of action to anyone, but I wouldn't try to stop anyone either. I guess at the end of day we're all gonna do what we want to do anyway, regardless of what anyone has to say.

As a diabetic, I have enough ensulin to kill myself 100x over, but dying by hypoglycemic reaction I heard is like a terrible way to go.

I've thought of jumping off a roof, but the only one that I could potentially gain access to nearby is 13 stories, not high enough to ensure instant death on impact by a reasonable amount.

I thought about the hydrogen exit bag method, but I would need to go out of my way to get that, and would need a way to do it discreetly.

Wont bore you with the details on why ect.

inb4 only the weak kill themselves. dont give a fuck.

well i've decided to do suicide in a year or so when ive moved on my own and can do it in peace.

i was thinking of buying a gun illegally to do it

anon just out of courtesy to the previous anons who've posted here about their job involving cleaning up dead bodies

please let someone know so they don't have to find your rotting corpse a few weeks or months later.

>>1575321
>insulin*

first time i ever misspelled that fucking word...

>>1575348
haha, good point. If I were to off myself, it would be in the middle of nowhere so my body would likely decompose fully before I was found(if at all), or in a place were I would likely be found within hours.

I wouldn't want to make someone else have to deal with that shit.

>>1575363

I'm thinking about using a hotel room, figure it'll be only be a matter of time before room cleaning comes knocking.

>>1575321
Diabetic here too, tried killing myself a few times 2 by insulin. I took 70 units while I had low blood sugar and went for a 2 hour walk hoping my body would just give up but people noticed me staggering around and falling over on the side of the street and had to go to the hospital for a day or two.
2nd time I took 220 units but was around family when I started to go shitty and they took me to the hospital (I think they knew I was going to kill myself) and stayed there for a few days again, turns out with more and more insulin the effect is prolonged.

>>1575363
thats not a good idea because then the local town just has an unsolved mystery on their hands for a while. let someone know beforehand

>>1575405
I just couldn't do that do the cleaning lady, you know? Her life is probably shitty enough as it is. The negative press the hotel might get, ruining the other guests vacations, the fact that they have to like biohazard the room, ect.

>>1575437

Well someones gonna have to discover your body one day, suicide or not, just keeping it real.

>>1575414
Out of curiosity, type 1 or 2? I was diagnosed with type 1 around the age of 2-3 or something.

I think the lowest my blood sugar has been is like 20 lol.

I remember once as a child, I was really super fucking low at night, and I had the most terrifying abstract nightmare ever. I don't even remember much, other then these large like corrugated black...pipe things that were moving all around me. Hell I cant even describe it, because that might just be a manufactured memory. Just imagine the most pure indescribably terrifying feeling imaginable. Almost like a really really really bad acid trip.

Anyway, I basically woke up screaming and babbling nonsense, which alerted my parents and likely saved my life.

I own a shotgun. I've been meaning to pick up some decent ammunition that I can use, but I've been putting it off because I have to go out of my way to get it.

For the past year or so, I've been operating under the assumption that I would be dead relatively soon. Letting my life go to shit. Distancing myself from various friends and projects. I've been contemplating suicide for about 5 years.

>>1575450
This is true...

Although I think it would be more stressful to find somebody that killed themselves than lets say an elderly person who died of natural causes. Like the negative publicity side to it or something.

Do you ever think about all the anons who've posted in previous suicide generals and went through with it?

It makes me sad that all those Robots will never greentext again.
;_;

>>1575482

Maybe, but "old guy dead in his sleep" is base case scenario as far finding someone dead, who knows how we would die, you could end up scraped off the side of the road after a bad car accident for all you know. At least with suicide you have the opportunity to be as polite as possible.

>>1575466
Type 2, diagnosed as type 1 but a year later they tell me they made a mistake but I have to keep taking insulin for now because alternatives don't seem to work.
Lowest I have had so far is 1.9.
Never really had any dreams happen like that but I have had weird visions and shit while having hypos.

>>1575511

There was a thread on a /v/ about suicide, a surprising number of them knew gaming buddies online and off that killed themselves. Shit is bonkers man.

I guess some great people have done it. Either with guns or with drugs. I wouldn't do it. But then again, a tragic death isn't the worst way to go. I will not recommend you do it.

>>1575471

Same. I had one for clay target shooting in my youth and the only ammunition I had (until recently) was shot, naturally.
I visited my parents though and my father had some 'Super X' slugs from a hunting trip years ago (they live in rural Australia, if that sounds an unusual past time).

I've read about people losing the majority of their brain matter out the exit wound with slugs. The eventual plan is to go out to the middle of nowhere and do it, because you never know. You've got to have a time buffer of a few hours at least between you and a hospital I reason. People fuck it up sometimes and hit the wrong area, from nervousness or carelessness I suppose. You need time to bleed if you miss the place you're after.

The thing that stalls me though is that medical science is advancing daily. It would be a shame to kill oneself just short years before they cure whatever you're doing it over, then again health isn't always the motivator.

I will probably end up dead soon. I would want to take some clear way, without blood etc, so others won't have to clean much. But sadly there is no guarantee that things like pills will work. So i will probably just throw myself under train. It will work 100%, but it's kinda shitty for others who will have to clean it. It suck i just can't take a suicide pill, but nope, goverment think i have no right to decide about my death. So fuck them, have fun cleaning.

>>1575817
It's too bad it won't be the politicians that have to clean you up.

>>1575846
I know, but there is no other way i know that will work 100%.

The shitty part is I want to off myself NOW, but I can't - it would devastate my parents. The only reason I'm still going on with my life is keeping them happy. As soon as they're gone, I'm gone too.
As for the method, I'm not sure. I'll shoot myself if I can get a gun, but that's not likely. Might jump under a high-speed train. Might, if I feel particularly good at the time, rent a car and go on a long trip before suffocating myself with exhaust gas.

How can I get a gun without a license? It always troubled me, I have some money but I have no clue where to start looking for someone who would sell me a gun to shoot myself with.

I have many feels. I basically just soak up information, so, I've finally found the solution to not having a violent/disturbing death. Helium. It displaces oxygen, and your brain doesn't even know it. If your found too early, you'll be full retard. I'm not joking, you'll wake up full retard. I won't go into further detail on how to successfully pull this off, but google exists, so you know?

Read this

http://encyclopediadramatica.ch/User:OldDirtyBtard/Rational_Suicide
And if your going to kill yourselves you may aswell join the military, they can always use more suicide soldiers

>>1575926
military is a reat place for someone suicidal...

why the fuck should i join it? you think they will send me to some kind of war or shit on a suicide mission with grande in my teeth? you don't know what army is anymore kid

but it's like, I don't wanna be dead, I just want things to be better.

Yesterday afternoon I tried to kill myself using an Exit Bag. I put the elastic around my forehead, turned on the helium tank, and waited until the bag filled up. Previously (about a week earlier) I got to this point as well, but I panicked when I felt the cold gas on my head and took the bag off. I pulled the bag down over my head and breathed normally for about 5 seconds, then panicked again and took the bag off. Helium feels exactly like ordinary air to breathe, with perhaps a faint taste at the bag of my mouth.

In a few minutes, I remembered all the reasons why I wanted to kill myself, and decided to try again. This time I kept the bag on for at least 10 seconds. My arms began to feel weighed down on my legs. My head tilted backwards and rested on the top of my bed. I believe I was still conscious at this point. What happened next is difficult to recall. I vaguely remember thinking 'I want to take this bag off' but must have passed out before this thought was communicated to my arms.

>>1576226 cont.

Next thing I realise, my bedroom floor is gradually coming into view, as if from a distance. Some kind of noisy chord was playing in my ears (it sounded like the Jesus and Mary Chain, for some reason). After about 30 seconds this receded to a quiet ringing, which in 5 minutes stopped altogether. There was a strange taste in my throat, which lasted the rest of the day. I slowly remembered what I was trying to do, and was quite impressed by how close I had come to actually, really killing myself rather than just wishing for it to happen. But I didn't really feel like committing suicide any more that day, so I got up and carried on with things. I went to uni today, and tomorrow I'll go to work, but it certainly won't be long before I decide to try again, and next time, I think I really will carry it through to completion.

To anyone considering the exit bag method: this shit really will kill you. I probably only needed a few more seconds before total unconsciousness set in. Furthermore, it really is totally painless. If you are 100% suicidal, the exit bag will be a breeze. Even if you are uncertain/fearful about killing yourself, it will probably still get the job done.

>>1576232

Congratulations, you most likely just halved your brainpower.

>>1576272
I haven't noticed any difference in my mental functioning, nor has anyone commented on it.

I was the first poster to mention helium. I read the follow up and the very fascinating facts about exactly how that feels, when you have that feel. It came close, didn't it? That's some scary shit, and you knew it.

Yep.

Ever since having an accident where I banged my head pretty hard, I've been having thoughts of fearing death.

It's astonishing to me, when I see people like you who are seeking it.

I don't understand.

Don't you fear death?

The thought of non-existence, doesn't scare you?

Please guys, talk to someone.

I've felt like this many times throughout my life, since I was quite young. Attempted by hanging at 16, 33 now (birthday today in fact). I've felt suicidal as recently as a few months ago, and I'm sure I will again real soon.

For myself and people like me, it's a fact of life. But we don't fucking do it because we know that the only problem we have is our thinking. At some point you'll have a short reprieve, and you'll be glad you didn't do it. Pay very close attention to it and you just might have another. There's totally a possibility to learn how to have more of them, maybe even for longer.

For two years now I'm proud to say I've had more time not being suicidal than being; and today it feels pretty fucking awesome to be here.

>>1576382
If I talk to someone, won't that make me an attention whore?

attentionwhoreblox

>>1576400
A professional, preferably. But anyone you trust is good too.

It doesn't matter what it makes you, whatever gets you in the door, so to speak.

>>1576400
Just grow the fuck up and deal with your issues for fucks sake.

I'm 21, had no one my whole life, had a bad childhood, pure horrible teen years, made it nowhere in life and went into very heavy depression. But I got myself in the right mindset without drugs, without talking to anyone, it made me mentally stronger. Getting out of depression is all about willpower, but people like to just place blame and put other unnecessary obsticles in their way just so they have an excuse to not do anything about it.

>>1576410
That's essentially what I'm talking about, friend. You seem upset, why is that? I would also say you aren't clinically depressed, there's a world of difference. But if you are and managed to be successful, good for you.

Still, you seem like a dick.

>>1576348
>The thought of non-existence, doesn't scare you?

When you're dead you have no feelings or thoughts. You don't exist.

There's nothing to fear, and nothing to desire either since you won't feel the satisfaction of not existing.

>>1575151
Nah, shit can scab over in water too.

>>1576421
I still am and have been heavily depressed for at least 6 years. (Sad or depressed before that, very few happy memories.)

I have no friends, never had a gf.. all that typical forever alone stuff.
I completely fucked up my education big time, completely disappointed my parents.
Everything so far about my life has been horrible, but I'm glad that I had a roof over my head and enough food not to go hungry for half of my life.

I'm beyond sad, I know I have a plethora of problems, but I'm dealing with it. I'm looking for a job, I'm trying to get my full drivers licence and so on.

No one pulled me out of this mess, I had to do it myself trough willpower and nothing more. No one stretched their hand out to me.

Sure, if you want to be a weak little bitch and seek help, you can. But to me they're just enablers, telling you it's all fine, and making you weaker than what you could have been.

Depression is 100% willpower. You can, if you wanted to just sti, think, meditate on your thoughts and how you could change, identify the problems and force yourself to stick to it.

But people just like to keep digging in the whole they've made for themsleves because it's easier than doing something about it. And it becomes more difficult the longer it goes on.

Everyone is capable of getting out if it themselves unless they have serious chemical imbalances.

I've though about offing myself a few times. If I was going to though, I'd go to the a really busy road, and hang myself from one of the signs/lights so I was just dangling over all the cars, so people could see me as they drove to work. Then I'll be remembered.

>>1576382
>>1576421
If you're clinically depressed then it's entirely conceivable that you cannot "will" yourself out of a depression like that guy.

I'm not a psychiatrist, or have any real knowledge on cognitive science, but my opinion is, if you're depressed to the point of having suicide - for years even - then you're in a different class of depression than a person who is going through a rough patch and just feels shitty as a natural response to that.

Then again, I'm no expert.

The point is, sure, give it a try. Fight your depression. Even if you have the super duper bad "clinical depression" that nothing can seem to cure it - giving up and not fighting it isn't going to do anything.

I found a way to commit suicide peacefully and without much effort. Debating on sharing the method atm.

Never attempted suicide myself, but think about it from time to time like any normal person.

>>1576456
>Then I'll be remembered

Yeh, I'm sure you'll look back on it and be happy about it when you're not existing.

You clearly just want attention, man.

>>1576465
The whole sleepin' gas and mask thing?

..all the depressed people here already know the easy methods of doing it. It's not as if you're protecting them or some shit.

>>1576462
suicidal thoughts*

Still trying to decide what to use as an accelerant for an incineration.

Gasoline seems so..tasteless. Something more exotic than say..butane,

>>1575916
>If your found too early, you'll be full retard. I'm not joking, you'll wake up full retard.

I'm a retard already, so it won't make a difference.

>>1576348
I've thought about this quite a lot and have come to conclusion that before you were born, you have absolutely zero recollection of your time in the womb, cave men, dinosaurs, the big bang or any other time period or existence before your birth. When you die, it'll be exactly the same experience, you won't have any recollection of the future or any form of existence for the entire length of time.
That's why I don't believe in an after life, there was nothing before so there won't be anything after.

>>1576466

Are you that stupid? Why would a dead person want attention?

I mean I don't want to be forgotten, I want to make an impact on someones life, whether it's negative or positive.

>>1576454
K, man I get you. Thing is, that's really all you do in therapy as well. I think it's pretty great that you have the willpower you do, but not everybody does. Some people need a hand to get started, that's really all therapy was good for. For me at least. Some people are seriously fucked, and they need a shit ton of help or they don't stand a chance.

Besides, all I really said, was that's it's good to talk to someone. Just once,even. I didn't say anything about going to therapy or taking drugs.

You seem like kind of an angry guy. And if I'm just gonna be angry all the time then fuck it. Doesn't sound like it's working to well. I'm trying to be happy.

Most important thing I'm saying is I've felt this way before and I don't today, and that's all that fucking matters.

I've got more tosay about the military and whatnot if anyone wants to know.

>>1576498
I'm saying that it doesn't matter how you do it since it won't matter in death. Nothing will matter.

There's no point in putting effor into anything if you're going to kill yourself.

thread obviously is tl;dr

what are the good methods to an hero?

>>1576503

Sure, but I'm alive now and still have a conscious decision in it, and this is how I wanna go

>>1576499
>you have the willpower you do, but not everybody does.
That's the thing. You don't develop or earn the willpower.

You simple have to tell yourself you do, be in control of your mind and thoughts. Anyone is capable of it, sure.. it's not super easy since there's so many problems in the way, but they're what you make of them. You could convince yourself they're nothing, that they cannot stop you from getting on the right track of though.

>Some people need a hand to get started, that's really all therapy was good for.
You're right. Some people are in a lot worse situations and are unable to do it themselves at that time, they're capable... but it's not likely they'd just turn it all around on their own. A lot of people over estimate their depression too.

>You seem like kind of an angry guy.
Sorry, I'm just cranky because I'm sleep deprived.. and I'm on /r9k/ and /v/. Rage is all I can feel at the moment.

>>1576531
>Sorry, I'm just cranky because I'm sleep deprived.. and I'm on /r9k/ and /v/. Rage is all I can feel at the moment.

That's alright, bro. We all know that feel.

I mean, essentially I agree with you. But, I think all therapy really does is help you figure out the ways to help yourself. For some people that's pretty difficult.

You still have to do it all yourself, or as you pointed out, nothing's really happening.

Also, drugs never worked for me. I've only tried two and the both made me feel worse. Occasional weed in moderation has been good at times, though.

>>1575321
Dying by hyperglycaemia might not be so bad. You could just buy a ton of sugar and a ton of bottles of water and mix it with a lot of sugar. The higher your blood sugar gets, the more you'll want to drink, and the more you drink, the higher your blood sugar will get.

I once passed out from high blood sugar before I knew I was diabetic, and it wasn't so bad.

>>1576520
My personal favorite is walking into a river, or any pool of water, and taking a deep breath. My body struggles for life and I know that these tendencies are only mental and therefore menial and flexible.

I have done it many times and always do it when I feel suicidal. It is refreshing

>>1576590
I don't have doubts about therapy. It helps people who belive they cannot do it alone.

Glad we agree, anon.