you require PROCESSED CHEESE
it does not die

I rarely leave my house.

I am fat
I am smelly
I can't greentext
I am a perma noob
and forever lolcats

>pissed off look is my neutral face

I probably look like Kratos when I am actually angry

if you know the behaviours that are causing aversions to you, why don't you forcefully change them? just stare at people when they talk to you and constantly think about your last fapping session so you don't look angry/constipated all day

>pissed off look is my neutral face

God I fucking know this feel

People say I need to stop looking so "intimidating"

HOW? This is my normal face, Its not like I'm expected to maintain a grin 24/7

>>1521075

I can't. I'm phsyically incapable of maintaining eye contact. I get sweaty and start trembling and fiddle with my fingers.

Plus I am boring and uninteresting so I don't know how to have a conversation.

>pissed of look is my neutral face (why god why)
>respond with one word answers or just shake my head like an aspie

I know these feels all too well, OP.

>>1521023
pretty much all that
i'm decent looking and not fat, but i'm just so stand-offish and just naturally despise most people.

i hate talking to people
I HAVE NOTHING IN COMMON WITH THEM
fucking pop music, fucking playing guitar, fucking vehicles, fucking sports, fucking vidya.

nothing.
NOTHING.
I DON'T EVEN HAVE ANYTHING IN COMMON WITH THE FUCKING VIDYA NERDS. FUCK

>>1521144
That's mental, not physical. Just work your way up. Aim for 1sec, then aim for 2. Don't stare dead into their eyes though. That IS creepy.

>Petite female
>Wear lots of dresses
>Polite and quiet

Sounds great, right? Until...

>Constant hostile expression
>Jerky movements
>Spastically awkward
>Always zoning out, I can just stare at a wall for hours
>Anemic-ly pale

god damnit! I'm like if a 12 year old Dakota Fanning dyed her hair darker and started doing crack

I'm what others consider boring. Oh well...fuck em.

>>1521230

>Constant hostile expression
>Jerky movements
>Spastically awkward
>Always zoning out, I can just stare at a wall for hours

sounds just like me

>6'1", broad-shouldered, /fit/, angry looking
>social skills and personality of an insecure 14 year old girl

>>1521210

Well what are your interests?
You have to like doing something...

>what'd ya do on the weekend?
>oh just, um, stuff. like watched a couple of movies and studied for _____. you?

They do, but I always end the conversation pretty quickly.
I guess I'm just not comfortable talking to anyone I don't already know unless I'm with friends.

>>1521230
I like you already. But you would never love me like I love you. WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU?

they do talk to me, and then stop asap, for most reasons in OP.

what's annoying is when people don't know you and still react negatively the second they interact. do people have some sort of aspie sense?

>>1521230

you sound pretty cool actually

To fix the hostile look (I used to get this a lot) Try to groom your eyebrows, I know it sounds silly but that is the biggest unintentional downfall. The social anxiety part is tough, but I met a girl on runescape a year ago when I was still playing it, we met each other in "real life" a month ago. We were both fairly socially awkward, but together we are socially awkward as a pair. Find a girl from the internet that isn't 110% insane, or just find a bro on the internet so no drama ensues.

>>1521265
I don't know. I don't know what I want to do in the future. I don't have any aspirations. No dreams.

I have a sick sense of humor, so I guess I enjoy 4chan. I enjoy browsing the web - yay. Metal music.. but no metal shows in my area. Graphic design was fun to me at one point... now I am unable to do that. Universe shit. Weed. Casual FPS gaming.

Kinda boring, mundane shit. It's like whenever I talk to somebody, they seem bothered to talk to me. Conversations are always one-sided. Fuck that shit.

I think the main reason is because I prefer one-on-one relationships over a horde of acquaintances, and one-on-one social situations over social gatherings.
This means I get left out very easily, while still maintaining a few very close friends.

I'm really attractive and it intimidates people.

No, but seriously, my friends would all ditch me if I weren't a pretty female.

>>1521323
This is me, I hate fake conversations with multiple people, I like heart to hearts.

>that feel when girls actually talk to you
>they try to initiate conversation with you
>some express blatant interest in you
>call you "cute" among other things
>try to get physical contact like hugs and sometimes even a quick kiss on the cheek or the neck
>NEVER reciprocate interest because I have severe self-esteem issues and depression for several years
>don't understand how anyone could possibly find me attractive even though people have told me that I am
>feel worthless, miserable all the time
>feel like I'm incredibly boring to talk to, constantly put myself down and feel inferior to other peopel

Wasted opportunities...
if only I could have possess some sense of normalcy to take advantage of all this attention...

But at this point I just want to slink away into the background so people don't bother me (get really nervous and unsettled when attention is given to me)

Just keep watching movies and interviews of actors. Try to act like an actor. It sounds hard, but if you put your mind to it, it will eventually play off.

>>1521349
I know the feel of the last 3 greentexts and below. Shit sucks, at least girls find you attractive enough to initiate conversations with you. It could be worse, you could be ugly.

I honestly have no clue. I shower, I shave, I wear deodorant and clean clothes, I try to be friendly. It's like I'm fucking cursed or something.

>>1521337
I thought such women only existed in romantic comedies aimed at lonely nerds and losers?

No offense, of course.

>>1521373

I think I am disgustingly ugly
but you're right.
i don't have it half as bad as some of the anons here

i don't deserve to mope around

>>1521349

>don't understand how anyone could possibly find me attractive even though people have told me that I am
>feel worthless, miserable all the time

I know these feels way too much

>grew 12 inches in high school, become tall and lanky
>never gotten used to my frame, awkward as a result
>still hang out with friends from high school who were star athletes
>know everyone through someone whenever we go to a party
>they know everything about music, sports, and video games
>never introduce me to people that their talking to
>forced to do the cold approach and that "get to know you" chit chat
>as a result, people prefer to talk to my friends rather than me
>cycle continues

It's weird. If I'm by myself out in public, I can approach and talk to just about anyone but put me with friends and they always have the wittier or more clever line.

>>1521384
The uninteresting one that they keep around just because she's female? That's the antithesis of all Hollywood movies. I have to be interesting, but a wallflower.

Here's a tip: Look at a person's nose when talking to them if you want to fake eye contact. They can't tell the difference.

>They do talk to me
>Realize I'm incapable of holding a conversation
>Don't bother to talk to me again.

>>1521422
>The uninteresting one
>Opinions

But I mean come on, how many movies are there where the loser gets to girl because "he loves her for who she really is" or something like that? I don't think it's that uncommon.

I eat processed cheese.

This is why I'm a virgin.

>i have a hard time maintaining eye contact
>with women
>they think I'm sort of psychopath because I don't look them in the eyes

Other than that I really don't have a problem

>Everyone has always assumed I'm either pissed, tremendously gay, a drug dealer, or on the verge of going postal when they first meet me
>Later say I'm pretty much the total (if not dry) bro
>Well whatever

>>1521479

Literally the shittiest forced meme

fuck off

becuase of this op was responding to another thread it got closed.

>>4395153
the very fact your asking how proves your not commited to this other wise youd just do it and are either a)trolling b)finding a way to come out with your problem c) a faggot who doesnt understand the gravity of what your thinking of doing and talking about.

to give you the benefit of the doubt id say of a building op, i wanted to kill myself at one point i ate very little, barely drank, locked myself in my room forced myself to sleep hoping id just shut down, then when freinds of mine (after not hearing from me for ages saw the state i was in and called a ambulance did the help i did infact need badly come.

>>1521466
You're thinking of movies aimed at females, not males. Even then, that's a stretch. I'd have to be pretty ugly to be considered that sort of archetype.

Movies directed at a certain demographic tend to validate that demographic. Movies directed toward meek, nerdy guys tend to have a beautiful female who falls in love with the protagonist (who is a meek, nerdy guy). Movies directed toward meek, timid women have a meek, timid female protagonist who manages to change a "bad boy" (albeit a passionate one) into a stable man.

See: every single Michael Cera movie and A Walk to Remember.

There are no movies directed toward people like me because people like me don't go to the movies for introspective emotional journeys.

>>1521387

You're not ugly if they are initiating contact with you.

I'm ugly. Girls cross the street to the other sidewalk when I walk towards them (and I turn to see them back on the same side down the road)

In college I sat alone all the time because no one wanted to talk to me. The girls because of how hideous I was and the guys because they didnt want to be associated with me

also sit alone in classes with tables

>Be 26
>Never had single friend (male or female) ever.

>>1521517
This is absolute fucking bullshit. I apologize for women who do that. Unless you're carrying a knife or a gun on your person, unless you're all walking around in a shady area downtown, that is an extremely rude thing to do.

I would like to say that I want to walk down a street with you.

>>1521538

if it was a shady area I'd probably fine because no one could see me

and no, you don't want to walk with me

>>1521581
>and no, you don't want to walk with me
What, are you going to shank me? Push me into the road?

Don't be an idiot anon, I would love to go on a stroll with you.

>>1521512
I thought it was a common cliche in high schooler movies.

Maybe I'm not remembering correctly.

>>1521619
Maybe you're right and I'm wrong.

>be actual autist, people think it's weird as fuck that i seldom make eye contact
>have relatively happy neutral face until age 14 or so, where i basically stopped trusting everyone. pissed off neutral face as a result
>in the rare occasion someone talks to me, i always fuck up the response. every fucking time.
>the few people who share interests with me are also socially awkward aspies and neither party ever approaches the other
>have no friends in uni, which sucks because making friends requires having friends, which requires having friends, which requires having friends

god damn this capitalistic nature of human socialization

>>1521627
Eh, who knows.

Well, good luck with your lot in life, anon.

>>1521600
Not the one who you were replying to, but "Don't be an idiot anon, I would love to go on a stroll with you" made my day.

It just sounded so funny and cute at the same time.

>>1521673
Oh, I won't need it. Good day to you

>>1521685
Really? No matter how rude I try to sound on the Internet, someone always calls me cute. It's actually quite infuriating.

>>1521303
wow. i've never felt so exactly the same as someone else

>>1521713

Not to break your spirit but there is almost nothing rude about your post. I'd even say that it's pretty uplifting.

Heres a little story for yalls

>Was pretty quiet and socially awkward in highschool
>start to get some self confidence in senior year
>nothing to do during lunch so you walk circles around the hallways
>Always see this legit aspie standing up against his locker by himself all day everyday
>I decide to spruce up his day and once a day I would give him a little cheesy one liner like "you have a winning smile and a great personality"
>might not sound like much but after a while i would see him get noticeably excited when he saw me walking by

>>1521713
That's.. actually cute.

Sorry, ahaa..!

>>1521303
>listens to metal
>wonders why he has no friends

>>1521810

if you go to a shitty community college being a metal head will get you tons of friends

>never smile, never laugh, pissed of look is my neutral face (why god why)
>always avert my eyes when people try to talk to me
>respond with one word answers or just shake my head like an aspie
>always by myself
>zero friends, socially stunted faggot
Me too. Why the fuck am i like this? Did something happen when i was young?

People talk to me, its just that they don't tend to go out of their way to.

>>1521787
I'm very disappointed...

>>1521798
You are the bane of my existence.

>>1521829
>You are the bane of my existence

It still doesn't come across as hostile, though..

>>1521023

http://www.wrongplanet.net/postt112787.html

I'm picking up some attention whoring in this thread.

Because I over-think shit too much and fuck up my reaction when I'm being addressed to.

An example:

>At a park sitting in a circle with some guys and chicks from university drinking wine.
>I'm rolling a joint
>I notice two chicks and a dude are whispering and looking at me.
>The guy goes "Gee, anon, do you use any hair products, your hair always looks so nice?"
>I respond "nah just water"
>He turns to one of the chicks and says "Don't you agree that anon's hair looks great?" They all giggle. "C'mon, Anon, tell me your secret."
>Not sure if making fun of me, motherfuckers...
>"It's probably just grease from my scalp that keeps it this way, man"
>"Oh"
>Everybody shuts the fuck up. Awkward silence for a long ass time.

Maybe he was just complimenting me? Because I do happen to have nice looking hair and a good haircut, not greasy at all y_y

>>1521881
Er, fuck you and I hope your entire existence is full of inescapable ennui that eventually forces you to accept the meaningless nature of life, but at a young age, so that you're forced to live in total emptiness for the rest of your life?

>>1521918
Post a picture of your hair. I really want to see now.

>>1521953
:3

Is that seriously how you threaten..? Jesus Christ, you are absolutely adorable and I wish to have a weeaboo moment to glomp you.

>>1521953

seriously.......talk dirty to me

>>1521987
That was vicious, though. You're ugly? Nobody loves you?

>Quiet and awkward
>Pale and slightly gothic looking without trying
>Never talk to anyone

I've been told by my brother that I often look like I'm one wrong look away from chucking a Columbine, which is ridiculous because I don't condone shit like that at all.

People used to talk to me sometimes in class... I was still quiet and awkward but yeah, if we were going to be working in groups people (mostly girls) would invite me to join their group, or ask if I wanted to be their lab partner. Then the gay rumors started up and the things about me being a Satanist and just some really ridiculous stuff and people stopped talking to me all together.

>>1522004
That wasn't vicious, that was like a posh person trying to offend someone.

I know you hate it, but it's.. cute.

I already posted in this thread but I'm going to again and not stating what my previous post was. So, for some reason I was just scrolling down my facebook wall and seeing all the shit that was on it. I ran into a section where in that time in space I was totally infactuated by this on chick, I still blame it on her because she flirted with me hardcore. Well she was like flirting with me during the one class we had together senior year, then after the semester was over she writes on my wall that she's going to miss me and what not then suggests that we should eat lunch together. I freak out and not know how to respond, fucking spaghetti everywhere. After like me not responding all night she says something like "all right just ignore me then that's fine :(". i then come up with some bullshit about not knowing what my friends would think about her eating lunch with us and she gives more sad faces and I feel like a total beta fuck bitch and I just shot myself in the foot. I ended up messaging her on chat and this when on for like 5 months and I got the feel that she eventually lost interest which I don't blame her for. I specifically said one time that we should hang out and she said yes and nothing ever happened. All I can really do is laugh about all the spaghetti on the floor at this point, but man was I fucking clueless, if I see her during the summer it'll be weird. If you read this whole thing I appreciate you hearing my story and please don't make the same mistake.

>>1522048
It's not cute, it's posh.

>>1522059
Exactly.

Which is why it's a-dora-ble.

>>1522079
I'll have to step up my game with regards to insulting people, then. You just wait. Next time we talk to each other I will make you cry.

>>1522098
Anon, please, now you're just making me blush.

Yep, introversion/social anxiety/average looks/brooding demeanor/low self esteem/no social life

The sad part is I've actually tried to fix this shit to no avail.

>>1522106
No, I'm pretty sure that I'm making you cry.

>>1522098
Daaawwww I could just eat you up :3

>>1522106
>>1522118
Hey guys watch us derail this thread because we're huge faggots

>>1522118
No, I'm not.
Why don't you come over and check for yourself?

>Be pretty attractive dude
>Used to be ridiculously aspie.
>Three girls on their knees telling me I could do anything I want and I just turn around and walk away.
>Girl calls me hot version of her friends boyfriend, grin and walk away.
>Tonnes of opportunities missed.
>Now that I'm not as aspie and a shit load more confident these opportunities rarely arise.
>Very few girls in any of my classes since I'm doing hard subjects.

What the fuck man. I have like no friends that are girls and if I make a facebook everyone will know.

Do I just wait out the rest of my highschool days? Feels like I'm missing out.

Well this thread got retarded as fuck.

>>1522150
It all started with this.. >>1521035

That was the end of the beginning.

Dude, get your hands on some shrooms or 4-AcO-DMT. Trip balls and put your life in to perspec. The world will become your own fucking matrix so you can slay infinite pussies.

>>1522127
I understand now. You're all trying to make me even angrier!

>>1522129
Don't worry too much about it. Another one just like this one will pop up in around half an hour. Sage to your heart's content.

>>1522134
...
That's creepy. More than a little bit.

Probably because everything about me says "Don't talk to me" from my looks to my mannerisms. That's good though, I don't want random people talking to me in the first place.

>>1522166
>creepy

Bitch, you're on 4chan. Deal with it.

>>1522166
(I'm 134)
Still, not a single offense was taken.

>>1522175
You make a fair point.

>>1522180
Wasn't aiming to offend you, just asserting the fact that you're creepy.

>>1522192
I'm still not offended..

Try harder, love.

Captcha
>affectionate teware

>>1522211
I was never aiming to offend you, moron.

>>1522216
But you have to learn.

>>1522234
Learn what, exactly? That I'm right and you're wrong?

>>1522242
That you have to learn to offend someone.

You can't be a posh, sensitive twat all your life.

>>1522251
Haha no, I was just being mild for your entertainment. I can be quite a horrible person when I want to be.

>>1522263
I honestly don't believe you. Prove it. Offend me.

Nosey twat, stop looking at my spoilers.

Because I'm boring as fuck for most people.

>>1522273
I can't bring myself to do it, you haven't done anything to deserve it.

>>1522287
Then you aren't a 'horrible person' when you want to be.

You either are or you aren't, it doesn't really matter if the other deserves it or not.

Stop already, for the good of the fucking board.

>>1522299
But I don't need to be a horrible person right now.

>>1522329
You do realise that everyone else on this thread just got up and fucked off?

We're the only ones here.

We could do whatever we wanted to do.

this has been happening since my mother started seeing an abusive insanely angry fascist to add on the depression on my life just to question the lifestyle results (implying involving yourslef is 'putting up with it') and threatens to kick me out because of it.
I now understand the upbrining of people with shallow psycho projecting power hungry parents, but this guy is some cancer that intruded its way into my already downhill life.
I cant make a single reasonable or logical defense that are just expressed through me against any of the self gratifying insults and threats without being threatened further.
Ive now lost the value of reasoning justification, people are and will be born to die or abused to the point.
I also now understand the family murder stories ive heard about on the news.
This will not end well.

>>1522340
Er, no. There are still people here. That doesn't change anything, though. I refuse to intentionally offend you.

>>1522363
LET THEM WATCH.

Why? Don't say I don't deserve it, apart from that, why won't you?

>>1522375
That's honestly the only reason. I have no need to berate you for anything, so I won't.

>>1522375
>>1522380
Fucking stop already.

>>1522382
This.
You're embarrassing to watch.

>>1522382
>>1522387
>tfw I've been samefagging this whole time

I was getting to the good part, aswell.

>>1522396
>implying that's any better
Go to bed anon.

>>1522400
-sighs- It's only 8am. Fine.

>>1522380
I'm going to leave you in the aftermath of this derailed thread
I'm going to go. Bye.

We live in a society where men can get their penis flipped inside out
and pass their faggot behinds off as women but if you're dark skinned, no matter how friendly, smart, etc. you are, you're a social pariah.

>>1522427
Except that's wrong.

No really.

The few times I heard someone saying something about my appearance is that I look too serious.

I don't know if its a good thing.

>>1521230
Pale is hot.

>>1522438
>>1522438
Not where I live at least.
I literally can't go 1 day without someone saying some stupid shit about how
dark I am.
Then they go on and on about how gays get bullied SO much.

bad breath

>>1521282
>WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LOVE ME LIKE I LOVE YOU?

>2012
>Cannot into affection

basically everything you said OP but im very attractive to most girls and i feel like they are expecting something from me because they are always looking at me, but it makes me insecure because im unsure of what to do because so many girls want me to talk to them and i dont want to talk to EVERY girl. so i just end up feeling like a loser for not taking an opportunity alot of people dont get

There's got to be a bit of effort on both sides. Yes, for some people this come naturally, and for others it's almost like fighting your brain's natural chemistry. But if it's something you really want why not go through a bit of suffering for it?

>never smile, never laugh, pissed of look is my neutral face (why god why)

Yup, pretty much this. I especially hate it when girls say I need to smile more.

"Bitch I'll smile when you suck my dick."

>Look extremely angry a lot of the time
>That's just my neutral mode
>I have an amazing face, no really, this thing can stretch to take on almost any shape it wants
>My facial expressions look fucking painful, like I both sat on then shat out an adult porcupine
>I have a terrible smile and laugh
>I have a sense of humour that can only be described as 'derisive' and 'violently sporadic', I will laugh at little jokes or sayings that aren't funny with the full force that my lungs will permit
>Girls initiate conversations with me, and I am fine and civil for a while, until my personality kicks in and I scare them the fuck off by cross-examining their harmless bullshit with ruthless logic and sniping undertone

Comes in handy if I actually don't want to talk to someone, actually had that happen once:
>Pretty ugly woman and her pregnant friend approach me and my friends in a pub
>Not a problem
>She starts talking about sexual shit with people she has just met
>Okay these chicks are crazy, I want out
>The ugly one comes onto me for some reason, maybe because I was telling her to fuck off, literally
>She persists and says I could do anything to her if I wanted
>Make up something along the lines of "My fetish is to dress up like a cow and shit all over your tits."
>"Yeah, definitely, can I drink your cum, too?"
>My friend went out for a smoke so we followed him, leaving me free to run away, literally

Not that 'alpaca ass fork' but it really wasn't my intention. I am slightly less rude than that to people I genuinely want to get to know.

>mfw I'm exactly like OP

Except that I have a few friends, except they're in none of my classes so I usually end up sitting alone. And what's more I have a boring, gravelly voice that makes it sound as if I'm super serious all the time, so whenever I try and make a joke people don't realize I'm actually fucking joking. And when most of humor revolves around talking about how much everyone thinks I'm a serial killer etc, a serious tone doesn't really help

Bringin' the threeeeead back from the deeeead, YEAH

>Standing at bus stop
>Old lady standing at the other end
>Young girl walks to the bus stop from my direction and stands right next to the old lady
>Obviously trying to get at far away from me as possible

i must just give off a weird vibe

>>1527388
Bravo, thats the spirit, now you only have to say this loud so that she can hear you.

Lately when walking down the street i train myself in compassion and selfless love, whenever i see somebody old, fat, ugly, sick whatever i smile at them and try to emanate as much positive energy as possible.
Whenever i see a beautiful woman i turn on my rape face. NO REALLY. I think about the last time i had good sex and stare her straight into the eyes without blinking while wearing an obvious porno smile. I don't know how to describe it, it works flawlessly when i think about sex, but i can't force myself to smile like that.
Most woman freak out, when they do i smile at them.

Training is fun, i catched alot of hot glances from woman, my goal is to get them hot and horny without me speaking one word.
And you know what, it works.
So if i can hypnotise myself and those woman with my positive thinking, what are you guys doing with your energy?

i was drinking, saw this thread, then laughed and spilled rum and coke in my eye. WHY CANT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHT OP?

But seriously, just smile. its kind of amazing how well people respond to smiley people. its not a science. either youre a creep, or youre a nice person. And seeing as everyone on here is a creep... youve got nothing to lose.

>tfw super /fit/ and bishes always mirin, but don't talk to me. only stares.

>tfw I could be alpha but too aspie to be alpha

>>1521810
Who needs friends when you have satan?

>awkward
>bad with small talk
>looks
>dat serious facial expression
>mumble too goddamn much
>i end up coming off as clueless and sleepy all the time to cover for awkwardness.

>Neutral expression looks angry
>Very dark, almost black eyes
>Look people straight in the eyes
>They bow their head down and keep walking or doing what they were doing.

I just want some friends and I can't muster up the courage to talk to a random girl, ever. It's pretty obvious they're trying to avoid any kind of eye contact with me.

>>1527951
Or maybe she is the weird one.

I go out of my way to not be near people, esp. strangers, because I am weird.

So you are perfectly fine my good man

>>1528261

>mfw this is my goal just so i can troll women with my buff awkwardness

Pissed off look
I NEVER make eye contact EVER, and when I do, they just turn away, even adults
Socially awkward

>>1528417
And now that you know the reason, you can change it. Force youself to smile to an random female or whoever and be astonished by the reaction.

> or stay alone forever

No idea op. people just seem to have a natural aversion to me.

I'm a bit of an ugly duckling, I suppose. Throughout my early childhood up til like 10th grade, I was ugly in terms of my looks, my hair, my clothes, etc. Nowadays, I've been told I'm quite handsome by numerous people.

The problem is I still have the mindset from before I "became handsome." I have no self esteem to speak of and all my problems stem from this. As a kid, I did my best to blend in to the background and not stand out at all. I still have this as my subconscious philosophy, so to speak.

It's weird now. When I'm walking around campus, i regard myself as just another face in the crowd that nobody notices. But then I'll go hang out with a friend on one night and he's with a friend of his that I've never met before, but he recognizes me from around campus. People have apparently noticed me in their huge lecture halls and in crowds walking to class. It always catches me off guard because I don't even consider myself worth noticing and remembering.

and I'm too socially retarded around people I don't know to make anything of it.

>Kind of social, love to talk with people but don't really open conversations myself
>Socially awkward sometimes apparently. I do have my own ways of saying and doing things which seem to weird out a lot of people, I wonder why.
>Love black, griefing and twisted humor. Like to tease and gross out people. Love to use kind of grave jokes with an absolutely neutral face, often leaving people wondering if I was serious or not. A lot of them don't seem to like it as much as I do
>Seemingly I have a neutral face that looks like I want to obliterate this disgusting world
>I've also been told I intimidate certain kinds of people with sheer presence due huge size and pre-mentioned facial expressions
>I am also fat

I relate to most of this stuff. Not sure what the remedy is. Hopefully, just patience. Get some things about you that are cool and realize that you matter. Like, I really enjoy writing and making my own music. When I start doing it for real, I'm gonna reppin for y'alls out there. The misfits. Take care.

you guys are like a clone of me... fuck a year ago i would have thought i was the only one.

spend free time here, surrounded by bros, people who feel what i feel, outcasts who dont fit in can be outcasts together now :)

better than nothing

People actually just choose not to talk to me. If I talk to them, they give me one worded responses or head gestures. Then they wonder why I'm always so quiet.

>pissed off look neutral
this, only I look high. When I'm not specifically trying my eyes are always practically shut
LOL ANON DO YOU SMOKE WEED?

people actually say "ANON" I look and they just laugh at the look on my face when I looked at them :(
>feelsbadman.jpg

>neutral face is mean looking
>can't laugh or react emotionally to anything
>usually when people joke around, it's lame as fuck, can't find anything funny
>even when people do talk to me, it's usually kind of awkward, and I end up not liking them anyway

Just want to get a nice enough paying job to live alone comfortably. Fuck other people, they complicate things. I know I'm not better than everyone else, I still don't like most people one way or the other.

>dat feel when due to shit in school you suspicious of anyone whos nice
>even more when they express interest/compliment you
>fuck this gay earth
>even online
>fuck this gay internet