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10/28/11(Fri)16:17:26 No.149695In middle school >get
laughed at because of my glasses,high grades,shortest guy in class,
very skinny, girls would look at me like a creep and often expressed
their disgust towards me >become
shut-in, realize I'm not gonna be a part of any group, confidence lost
forever.Also realize that no girl will like a creep like me >always envied the tall, good-looking guys that didn't gave a fuck about studying >only reason I wasn't beaten is because of the teachers that gave me most of their attention
So high school come >summer passes and I gained a lot of height, become average looking >want
to forget about my bitter childhood, this means I have to ride a bus an
hour just to go at my high school from another city.This means I lose 2
fucking hours of my day just sitting on the bus >meet
new class, I'm still the social, crippled nerd.Good grades, but manage
to find 3 friends to which I can talk, laugh, share my random thoughts,
but I live so far away that I can't hang out with them but at least it
becomes bearable >girls laugh at me,
constantly asking why I'm so alone, if I ever held hands with a girl,
giving me that cold bitch laugh, that evil smirk and pity look I hate it
so much.Get told I'm ugly.Why can't they leave me the fuck alone? >to polite and shy, meaning most of the guys just laugh at me at every opportunity >get
seriously depressed, panic attacks, mood changes very abruptly.From
time to time all the hate, rage, despair and sadness build up and I need
to cry as soon as I get home >always hope the bus I take will have a crash and kill me in it >think about death as the best thing that could get me out of this constant loneliness, depression,rage |