I'm glad I don't like the taste of alcohol because I know if I did, I would never spend a waking moment sober.

I'm going to poop in your butt.

>>8152815
No one is really born to like the taste of alcohol. You gradually learn to appreciate it, until you love it, and then you get to a point where anything not containing alcohol is just bland and boring.

I can't drink the nights away since i spend most of my pension money on coke and rent.
Pee in bottles/5 hours/ I dont.

I bought enough food and liquor to last me till Wednesday when I'm forced to leave my apartment (laundry day). Noon is the best time to go outside since normalfags are at school or work.

I'd say the average /jp/ regular is far more likely to fall into alcoholism. Most of us contemplate suicide daily, so ruining your body isn't really a problem.
There's nothing quite like being drunk, disregarding everything you hate or don't like to think about, and just being content with life, even if it is for a short while.

Here I am, still, forced to live against my will. Fuck it all, I don't want to do anything, everything seems absurd, fuck fuck fuck I don't want to leave this chair.

Ok, I whined enough of it.

>>8152830
Coke as in cocaine? I didn't realise we had people on harddrugs here.
I'm pretty sure there are a lot of alcohol lovers in here, a few stoners as well, but I wouldn't have guessed people here were posting while stimmed to the brim.

>>8152841
To be honest, I'd shoot heroin if I knew how to get my hands on illegal substances.

>>8152848
Well, that's the thing, you wouldn't expect the average /jp/er to know how to get drugs. I mean, it's not hard in the slightest, but it requires some networking. Which requires going outside and socializing and meeting new people.

>>8152848
>>8152853
You can buy it on Tor.

>>8152841
Yeah, cocaine. I dont know how many neets around here do it. Its probably the only reason im able to keep my monthly income. Im unable to go to school, but if im high on coke im able leave my home, assist tests and talk to people. So my life this past 2 years has been, going to the shrink , get some kind of paper to give to my teachers saying i have a tendency to lock myself at home, and slowly advancing through college by assisting only the tests. All ofe this while on cocaine.
I dont even care about my education or future, but i stop getting money if i drop out of school.
Since coke allows you to confront everything, im pretty sure most of /jp/ would find it very addicting.

How much sleep do you get on average?
Do you go to bed at what is deemed a "normal" time, or do you just sleep when you're tired and wake up when you wake up?

>>8152871
It IS very addicting, even as a recreative drug. Using it to get outside is pretty damn hardcore, but pretty much the best thing the average /jp/er could do to get shit done.

Also, you're able to sit at home and do fuck all for school, only popping in for tests? I need to know your secrets.

>>8152853
I live in Argentina, all i need to do to get a new dealer is walk 5 blocks, and ask the transexuals prostitutes who is dealing in the area.
Altough, i admit that my first sniff was provided by a friend who i used to see 2 or 3 times per year. Luckly i asked for his dealer cellphone before he gave up on helping me.

>>8152900
I'm lucky that my cousin is a major drug addict, so whenever I need something, I can just give him a call and he'll fix something up with his dealer. I just don't like being alone with a dealer, so I'm glad I've got someone I can trust with me at those times.

I always wondered if prison is bad,
I'm almost at a point where I'm forced to take on a job and live by myself but that seems too hard.

Whereas in prison it seems like all you do all day is nothing at all.

Then again I might be just stupid and uninformed

>>8152873
6 to 8 hours a night, pretty standard. I have to work to pay for my alcohol and stuff, so I usually have 6 hours of sleep before going there, and 8 when I have the day off. I just feel like it's such a waste of my day sleeping for 12 hours or so. I'd rather be awake and drunk.

>>8152887
I just study 8 hours every day for a week before the tests. But the willpower comes from the cocaine.
I find the addiction strange, i can stop doing it for a month or two without effort, but when its time to start a new semester, or deal with something, im forced to buy some. Last month, my sister who i hadn't spoken for 2 years sent me a mail saying she was moving with our mom (1 year since i last spoke to her) because her housband had a bipolar attack and tried to kill her. I just called my tranny, got 25 grams, and spent the week at my mothers house like it was nothing, pretending i felt something for them besides guilt and social obligation.
Coke is also much cheaper, i can get 5 grams of decent coke for 15 dolars.

>>8152914
You pretty much do nothing all day, but you'll be bullied a lot. There are people in there for rape, murder, drug dealing and robbery. An otaku is not a safe thing to be in a prison.

>>8152914
Prison's fine if you know how to fight and can act alpha. You may never have a problem, but you are fucked if you have one and can't defend yourself.

>>8152908
My dealer keeps hitting on me, saying that i let her/him fuck me i can get some of it for free. To bad she is not a moe trap our i would gladly accept. Once in a while, when i go to her house, she still has a beard shadow.

I sleep all day, waste time on /jp/ - watch anime, play games in the time I'm not sleeping. I rarely do drugs because, as some have said in this thread I would have to leave my house and network and actually socialize with people which I'm afraid of. I don't even drink that much anymore, I just don't feel like it so I've lost that outlet.

Over all I'm tired of being a hiki but I'm afraid to stop because if I do I'm afraid there is never going back and I'll be a normalfag slave to the system and hate my life even more than I do now.

OP, that pose, that expression, I swear I look exactly like that right now, it's almost scary...then again I guess we could call it an educated guess.

>>8152955

Same here.
Just felt like saying it is all.

I'm not sure if I really belong here anymore.
I was a hikkikomori for nearly six years, until I was eventually forced to leave my house and get a job. But I still can't identify with anyone in the real world, I won't speak a word to any of them. But the worst part is, I feel like I can no longer come on here and identify with the people I called my only friends for so long. My socialization now is, believe it or not, worse than it is has ever been. I used to be able to spill my soul on 4chan on a regular basis, but now I can't. Because I have taken the first few steps into normalfaggotry. I have soiled the hikkikomori name I once held onto with such pride.

>>8152998
>>8152955
It's the perfect example of the average /jp/er. Which is why I chose it as the thread starter.

>>8153000
Hey, no biggie. I have been working for about 3 months now, because I have bills to pay, alcohol and cigarettes to buy.
I just pretend my co-workers don't exist and carry on with my work, never so much as meeting their eyes. It's depressing, but when I get home and crack open that bottle and sit down and browse, I feel at peace again.
Work is horrible, it should be forbidden.

I've been able to keep up the "normal person" act for a few more months, but I'm starting to slip up in places. It's only a matter of days before they find out...

>>8153016
I have somehow managed to completely hide the fact I'm such a loner to everyone I know. Sure, they know I can be a little weird at times, but they have no idea how bad it is.
I can socialise pretty well with my friends, because I've known them for years. I don't even have a hard time at parties, for some reason, I even kinda like meeting the people there and talking while enjoying a drink.
But when I'm back home I just shrink back to my pc and contemplate suicide. It's really weird because on one hand I'm a massive social-recluse, fearing even to go to the supermarket across my house, but on the other hand I'm this cool dude at the party that talks to everyone.
I think I might have some sort of disorder. Or I might be imagining one half of my life. Though that would probably count as some sort of disorder.

>>8152809
I kinda know that feel.

I'm a social-recluse, but by choice. I really really hate people. I'm actually very good at talking to people and socializing, but it's a huge pain to have to pretend to be something I'm not in order to get people to want to talk to you and then have to put on all those faces in order for people to care about you.

So I just rejected society. I actively talk to maybe 3 people and always sit here contemplating suicide. I don't think those 3 people even take seriously how much I think about killing myself because my attitude generally seems like I'm exaggerating or joking because I'm good at joking, but fuck if I can even figure out a reason that I live.

Hopefully I can get into making this VN to try to find some enjoyment out of creating things...

I feel bad for leading such careless NEET life. All I need to do is submit some paperwork and the government gives me enough money to last me a month. Meanwhile people work their asses off just so that a worthless loser like me can leech off their tax money.

I'd do a favor to everyone if I just killed myself.

>>8153043
You need a reason to live? I just kaeep going for the fuck of it.

>>8153053
I could do that if I actually enjoyed life.

>>8153060
You overestimate life. Not a lot of people actually enjoy life.
Married couples who haven't loved eachother for months keep going for the fuck of it (or most likely, for their children), salarymen keep going for the fuck of it, poor niggers that haven't had anything to eat but mud for two months keep going for the fuck of it. Not a lot of people have a nice life.
You have money. You have a bed. You have all the free time in the world to do what you want to do.

I know it's hard to see, even I hate my life right now, but you should realise it's a pretty easy, simple life, however unachieving it is. There are so many people in the world that should commit suicide because their life is just too sad or horrible to live through, but they just keep on trucking. So why shouldn't you?

>>8153060
Schadenfreude is the fuel of my fire, I guess. I giggle like a schoolgirl whenever I see something bad, like a dinged up car, or someone trip, or any number of things. I even laugh at my own misfortune, it's just too funny.

>>8153074
I have no money and I'm a poor nigger who lives in government housing because combine my entire family is far below the poverty line.

Everyday I turn on my computer and try to motivate myself to use my creativity and talent I've built up learning how to draw and program to try to create the worlds I want to create but lack of motivation because how much I do not enjoy life prevents me from doing that so I sit here and post on 4chan all day to try to forget I exist so I don't kill myself.

I wonder why I don't though. I don't enjoy life. I don't enjoy anything. I'm not satisfied with this bullshit "just go with it" because it feels meaningless. I have nothing to be content about and I may never get anything if I continue on like this.

I just don't see how I can continue to exist this way without going crazy. I'm already probably extremely twisted mentally because of this shit...

>>8153100
You don't enjoy a single thing on the Internet? Not a thing? Fuck, I can't imagine living like that.

In the East depression has never been a problem. The poor learned to enjoy whatsoever little they had, and the rich learned that having the whole world at your feet means nothing — you have to go in a search for meaning, not for money. And they had precedents: for thousands of years people have gone in search of truth and have found it. There is no need to be in despair, in depression — you just have to move into an unknown dimension. They have never explored it — but as they start exploring the new dimension, it means a journey inwards, a journey to their own self. All that they have lost starts returning. The West needs very urgently a great movement of meditation; otherwise, this depression is going to kill people. And these people will be the talented ones — because they achieved power, they achieved money, they achieved whatsoever they wanted… the highest degrees in education. These are the talented people — and they are all feeling despair.

Make it a point: whatsoever — sadness, anger — whatsoever — depression, unhappiness — be with it. And you will suddenly become surprised that if you remain with sadness, sadness changes into a beautiful thing, sadness becomes a depth. If you remain with anger, not thinking about, just being with, anger is transformed; it becomes forgiveness. If you remain with sex, sex takes on a different quality; it becomes love.

Remember this: Whenever you are depressed, wait for the moment that the depression goes. Nothing lasts forever; the depression will go. And when it leaves you, wait — be aware and alert — because after the depression, after the night, there will be a dawn and the sun will rise. If you can be alert in that moment. you will he happy that you were depressed. You will be grateful that you are depressed because only through your depression was this mint of happiness possible

Why do NEET threads seem to turn into depression threads? I've been NEET for a few years now and I couldn't enjoy life any more than I am right now.

Recently applied for the dole. It's a bit scary signing on, but also surprisingly easy. I just wish I could have a bit more money so I could get a flat or something. I hate living with family. My only goal in life is to live by myself.

>>8153140
Because as the thread progresses, the posters become more and more drunk, and that's when the true feelings come out.

I used to be completely satisfied with my NEETdom, yet in the end, I need money, so I HAD to get a job, and now I'm only a NET. I still love my time alone though, I just wish I didn't have to work in order to be left alone.

If you guys are really this depressed I do recommend at least reading a few of Osho's books. They aren't self help or new age books... I promise. Once you read a few you will see what's up.

You can get most of them for free here: http://www.oshoworld.com/e-books/eng_discourses.asp

I would at least give it a chance: You don't have to if you feel you're happy as you are.

>>8153140
This isn't the life that we, as a species, have evolved to live. Most of us are NEETs because we're depressed or depressed because we're NEETs. Being stuck up inside all day makes me depressed, but it also makes me feel content with how my life is. Sort of a double-edged sword, really.

>>8153112
I wish I could be in education/training. I really want to go to Feng Zhu but I'll never be able to afford it.

Cest la vie.

>>8153145
Unfortunately, I can't read more than a few pages of a book without feeling tired and frustrated. Which is odd because I read image boards just fine.

>>8153165
Search "Osho" on YouTube.
He's never actually written a book, they are just inscribed from audio/video of his talks.

>>8153000
You belong here as long as you enjoy the same hobbies as we do and don't shitpost all over the board.

This thread just proves that the "NEET legion xD" faggots are new to this board, there's like 5 NEET threads already, in the good old days people would not make a new thread without looking at the catalog and making sure that there isn't one already.

Go back to /a/ please.

/jp/ is for Touhou and VN's not a blog about your lame and boring life. It was acceptable when the people here where all /jp/ers but you are not one of us. Making NEET threads these days is as unacceptable as posting "autism" macros, they used to be funny but they were ruined by people from other boards just like NEET threads.

>>8153186
You have no idea what you're talking about. Fuck off.

>>8153194
Why the mailto: sage?

If you're going to defend a thread at least have some balls about it.
You're anonymous for fuck's sake

>>8153214
I sage because I don't feel the need to keep bumping the thread up to the front page everytime I post.
This is a fundamental part of posting on /jp/.

>>8153214
>Why the mailto: sage?

Jesus christ,shut the fuck up and go back to your board moron, you just proved my point.These threads are now full of idiots from /a/. They are not acceptable /jp/ material anymore.

>>8153214
Lurk more.

>>8153236
>>8153239
He was obviously a troll.
Now can we get some actual conversation in this thread, instead of complaining about the lack of conversation?

>>8153186
Oh get off your high horse. We've had these threads since the board began--in fact, they're one of the very reasons it was created. moot even joked about it with the whole "NEET/Hikikomori General" thing.
> there's like 5 NEET threads already,
Mind linking them? I can't see any.
I don't see why it bothers you anyway. We have 160 slots for threads. God forbid this one made a HOMU thread get purged.

Logic states that loners are more likely to fall into addiction.
Is there anything you're addicted to, /jp/?
Alcohol maybe? Cigarettes? Drugs even? Please don't say drugs, I'm worried about you, /jp/.

>>8153272
The internet

>>8153252
>>8153186
>>8153214
>>8153194

FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT! FIGHT!

>>8153272

Maturbation

>>8153272

Sugar and the internet.

>>8153272
My addictions vary, but my mainstay is always cigarettes.

Never managed to get an alcohol addiction, but this isn't a bad thing.

>>8153272
I am an alcoholic, and I usually smoke a pack of smokes away in two days or so. I also smoke marijuana sparingly, though I'm not addicted to it in any way. Just a way to clear my mind and calm down.

Also, yes, the internet ofcourse. Though, a better term would be "distraction".

>>8153272
Shitposting.

>>8153272
League of Legends.

It's not even a good game.

>>8153252

Here retard, were you looking for X/General? This isn't /v/.

>>8150601
>>8151493
>>8150748
>>8152038
>>8151973
>>8151015

Is it normal not to remember what you did the day before? It's not like anything worthwhile happens to me but I'm sure I watched or read something yesterday yet I can't recall a damn thing.

>>8153301
I never know what day it is or remember what I did all week. I honestly can't tell you what I did yesterday, the days blur together. Looking at the calender right now out of curiosity, I just realized it's 4 days until my birthday. I probably won't even notice it though. Everything is just one big blur.

wow why are you guys whining so much? You don't like socializing... well if you are NEET and Hiki why aren't you happy?

I've been "half" hiki for over 2 years now and I'm completely happy with my life. I pretty much lurk /jp/, play VNs and watch anime every single awake hour. I get money from my country's government(and my parents), only spend money on food and internet, and only leave my apartment twice a week.

>>8153311

Nobody cares.

>>8153301
http://www.memorylossonline.com/summer2001/depression.html

>It is also well known that depression impairs the ability to create long-term memories. It really comes down to a lack of attention and concentration, explains Constantine Lyketsos, MD, director of neuropsychiatry at the Johns Hopkins School of Medicine. For example, a depressed man agrees to meet a spouse or friend at a certain address. An hour later, he realizes he has "forgotten" the address. But perhaps due to a lack of attention and concentration-a hallmark of the depressed mental state-he never really formed an enduring memory of the address in the first place.

>>8153312
>"half" hiki

There's no such thing, idiot.

>>>/r9gay/

>>8153318

I've had memory issues my entire life, though.
It's not like I was depressed when I was 8.

>>8153316

Hey you, quit being a jerk! This is a NEET thread not a bitterness general.

>>8153312
Relax. Some people don't like socializing because they either are incapable of doing so properly, or don't like to socialize with people who don't share their interests. I understand this completely why this may make one lonely.
However, there are some of us who simply don't need the companionship (I myself could take it or leave it, I enjoy it, but don't need it), like yourself.
Not everybody's the same.

>>8153330

Life is cruel, nerd.

>>8153332
>I understand this completely
Crop the "this" out of there, I don't know where it came from.

>>8153332
Oh, I'm sorry if I seemed angry. I see your point and for some people that may be the case, but it seems like people here say they hate to socialize but still hate being NEETs and I think that is contradicting.

I keep a few loose sheets of paper on my desk and write down stuff worth remembering. Sometimes I take a notepad to bed so I can write stuff down if I wake up in the middle of the day.

>>8153348
I bet it wouldn't happen if we had a /jp/sie mansion.

>>8153186
/jp/ is not just for VNs and Touhou at all. Where does anywhere say that?

It's about any Japanese culture that could be construed as entertaining to an geeky audience. Read the fucking title. It does not read "VN and Touhou Culture". This place used to be Japan General and there's no reason the content should have changed.

I am sick of this board being taken over by autistic manchildren who can't seem to discuss anything other than their narrow range of interests. I don't even know what there is about Touhou to talk about.

>>8153361

>/jp/sie mansion

A mansion full of fat weebs drunk on the computer all day?
Heaven!

>>8153371
I know, right?

>>8153371
A house full of cute traps with the mind of pervy little girls.
Heaven!

>>8153364

I said they used to be good and acceptable, but they are not anymore, they are full of people from /a/ and /v/ now.

>>8153312
I'm depressed because I have absolutely no money.

>>8153386

Nobody cares.

>>8153386

*ahem*

>>8153397
>Drrr people are starving in Africa so be happy

>>8153397
And now you realize that those kids on that image are probably dead already, from hunger.

>>8152900
Hey faggot, I live here too, in a little town, and we don't have those kind of fucks.
Well, I'm sure there are a few and all, but overall this area is pretty calm.

But hey, what do I know, I just go from home to university (10 blocks away) and back, so I can't really say I know shit about the real world.

>>8153407

>little town

I'm sure that has nothing to do with it.

>>8153403

>absolutely no money

I'm sure you have enough. You can afford luxuries like a computer, electricity, the internet.

>>8153318
No wonder my life seems to have gone by muck quicker lately

>>8153397
I was arguing with some bleeding heart faggot about international food aid. He was saying it's our responsibility to feed all these people despite the fact they'll vastly outbreed whatever resources they have available. They're the pinnacle of welfare queens.

Absolute moralists are illogical and irritating.

>>8153397
This is one reason your sad neet life is a blessing

>>8153312
Ashley?

>>8153439
I'm pretty comfortable letting people die, myself. It'd be nice if everybody could be fed and happy, but I give zero fucks if they don't.

>>8153437
It's worse when you realize you can't remember what you've done the last years...

>>8153461
not even close...

>>8153464

I'm even happier letting people die knowing that if they were alive they would just complain endlessly about their life.

>>8153473
It would probably end at some point.

>>8152830
How can you do coke and not drink alcohol?

>>8153523
Easy. Smoke instead.

I just want to enter Gintama world and live with the gang, no matter if they have no internet or money, I just want to live adventures with them all. Real life is so god damn boring, and real people are so god damn annoying and boring and "normal". I don't want to grow old, and see that I'm just another ant. I'd ask for just one year with them, and then die. That's much better than a long life of this.

There, I said it.
I know I'm pathetic, fuck you.
I'm gonna go play persona 2.

>>8153530
It takes a lot of balls to say that, anon.

>>8153465
I know what you mean, these last three years for me have felt more like a long summer vacation than a third of a decade. I can't even remember anything important I did yesterday.

>>8153530
Gintama is technically a NEET too. I don't think it would be much of an improvement.

If I only had some money or a job, just a little bit of money...

>>8153550
No it doesn't.
We are all anonymous here, so you don't need balls to say anything.

Look:
I once tried to fuck my dog.

I didn't need balls to say that. Because I have no name here. Because I can be the next poster, and you wouldn't know. I am just a name, anonymous, just like you, just like him, just like we all. I don't exist, we exist.
And that's the truth.

>>8153550
says the person whos HELLa good at polishing balls xD

>>8153589
I hope it was a bitch.

>>8153598

>>8153530
It's not world is boring but you.

Well i just went to buy cocaine, took me 2 hours in bus to travel there and back and only 20 seconds to give the money and recive the drugs. I need to get a dealer closer to my cave.

>>8153674
Ops, the thread clearly when to shit while i was providing myself with drugs. I'll remove myself to read the newly translated volume of Punpun. I hope you survive the shitposters fellow bottle-pissers and floor-shiters.

>>8153674
I fucking hate that. That's why dealers suck. Dealers make you come to them. Friends with connections come to you, no charge.

>>8153674
I only smoke weed but I lucked out with my brother as my dealer.

If he wasn't I probably wouldn't smoke due to lack contacts / effort required

>>8153530
This.

>>8153530
I felt depressed as i read Majikoi, one of the times they are at the secret base, just chilling, without electricity, doing nothing, not even beeing funny, just relaxing and knowing they will allways have their friends besides them.
Reading a vn in the dark never felt more lonely.

>>8152873
>do you just sleep when you're tired and wake up when you wake up

you've described it perfectly. god damn, I thought I would never find a person who would understand

>>8153000
>I have soiled the hikkikomori name I once held onto with such pride.

I guess that's what I'm also secretly afraid of. I'm afraid that if I go outside and socialize, I'll turn into a humongous "normal" faggot, with even less close people that I had being a hikikomori.

>>8153034
You're just an attention-whoring normalfag.

>>8153999
This does not happen.
For one thing, as long as you aren't all bragging about it here, there's no real problem, and for another, if it helps you feel better about your life in any way, it can't really be a bad thing.

You won't stop liking your favorite things, you'll just possibly start to like others that aren't board relevant.

I just... want to say something. Maybe someone will share this feeling and... well, nothing. Nothing good can come out of this, but I will still post.

With the release of Skyrim, I was finally able to go back to escaping consistently from my life. Before Skyrim was anime, which for me ended more than a year ago, and before that was Ragnarok Online. But when it's time to go to bed, shit gets real. After 10+ hours of playing, when I close the game, I suddenly feel how I haven't talked to anyone near my age/outside of family in months. I feel how I've done nothing all day, and I feel how the abyss (getting kicked out equalling sucide/having to get a shit work/losing what's left of my sanity) is one day closer. This shit feels worse than if I hadn't played at all.
It's like the whole daily quota of depressing feelings gets delayed and compressed into an hour or two of suffering and desperation before falling asleep.

>>8152821
No matter how much I drink the stuff, I can't get used to the taste. The only alcohol I can stomach is sweet wines

>>8154104
I know that feel bro
I know that feel

>>8154104
I know that feeling. You could try playing Skyrim in your head. That works for me sometimes.

>>8154104
Myself, when I watch anime, I just forget, for 24 minutes, about everything.
When I'm not watching anything, then I'm playing a game; I forget about my life, I'm WITH the characters, running around and doing shit, caring about what's happening in the story.

The shit comes when, say, there is a huge storm and have to turn off everything.
That's when I realize I'm totally alone. Not going around killing monsters and having fun, not surrounded by perfect friends and adventures; but alone in my room, doing nothing except waiting for the time the light comes back to sit down and forget, once again.

>>8154125
BROFIST.DLL

>>8154130
Learn to write and make terrible self-insert stories. You'll never be alone again.

>>8153002

>>8153523
I'm addicted to dope & other similar opioid drugs and haven't touched alcohol in almost 3 years. A lot of drugs turn your stomach right off alcohol, especially opiates.

I don't and won't ever understand coke addiction though. If you're not waking up dopesick, how can you claim you even have serious enough cravings to keep using it? It's like being addicted to masturbation or the internet, you just enjoy it too much.

>>8154125
That's a wonderful idea, thanks.

>>8154130
>there is a huge storm

Like an ion storm? Where do you live that you have to turn shit off during storws?

>>8154148
My monitor is waaaay bigger than that, fake-kun.

>>8154160
Its pretty much that. You start hating dealing with stuff while sober since its much easier with coke. You start thinking something would be much better if you snorted a few lines (Right now for me, reading the new volume of Goodnight Punpun has that effect). Its a psychological addiction, you start depending on it whenever you are feeling down or anxious.

I'm not a NEET (oh god) but I still get no sunlight.
Leave when it's dark in the morning, come back when it's dark in the evening.
And where I go is a basement lab.
So I guess I'm still a basement dweller.

>>8154160
It's got its own feeling of withdrawal, though I'll completely admit it's nothing compared to being dopesick. Coke was a lot easier to kick than heroin.
Coke's problem is it leaves you jonesing, which can easily drive you into bingeing.

>>8152809
I'm stuck between dimensions of NEET and normalfag.
I almost never go out, but I have a job, but its in my parents' company, but its consisted of three people and we can barely make the living. And all im doing is arranging documents and other simple tasks, thus no development at all.

So I dont have spare time and I cant play games or vns because of that. And despite being busy like a usual person I'm still rooted to the same place without specialisation or money or contacts or anything. Its already two years since I started to stash everything I saw on /jp/ but I have yet to play/read/watch it.

And I dont see a sunlight, because sun appeared for like two days since july, and the view from the window just shows the wall of the opposite building.
Isnt it ironic, I cant go out even if I wanted to. It would be so much better if I never was interested in jp culture at all.

The hardest part about living like this is the soul crushing boredom. It's been months since I've watched an anime series or read a VN. The games I play no longer entertain me but I still play them because I have nothing else to do. The music I listen to is getting stale

>>8153016
This. I can act like a normalfag on command, so long as people don't ask too many questions about me. It usually works, but as soon as someone asks what I've been doing all this time, or what I like to do in my free time, I slip up. How do you answer that, as a university student who just watches anime and plays videogames, while reading the occassional novel?

>>8156061
Video games are mainstream now. Just say you play call of duty or some other game normalfags like to play. Make sure it's not multiplayer or they might try to play with you

>>8156061
how do you end up still talking with people? I mean, in a fashion where they ask you first.

>>8153679
It doesn't help that most dealers are poor students, at least where I live. None have a car.


>>8154104
Even worse is when that feeling is so strong that you cannot sleep.

I suppose you could learn lucid dreaming, and live out skyrim in your dreams.

>>8156072
University.

The past few years I mostly made friends with the druggies, since they are easy to relate to if you share the same drug of choice (usually weed). Also they tend to be non-judgemental.

Since this summer though a lot of them transferred out to other schools, and I don't really make friends easily.

>>8156085
I dont remember people in university asking me what am I doing. Mostly because we didn't have anything to talk about at all, excet the univercity tasks. So relations were the usual, but once we all graduated, I never talked with anyone there even once. I'm not sure what am I supposed to do to actually make friends there and why. It sounds so obsolete anyway.

It's "scary" because i can relate to most people from this thread.

captcha: andpaak Related

Why are so many of you contemplating suicide?

Why place a gun up to my head and end all of it, when I can turn water into wine and then walk on it?

>>8156081
I just woke up. I couldn't sleep at 2AM, so I took the easy way and went back to playing Skyrim until 6.30AM, when I finally felt too exhausted to continue.
On my last minutes of sleep I fought kung-fu vampires who dropped loot like in the game. It would be awesome if I could control it at will, not only when I'm half-asleep.
The sad thing is that when I'm finally fully conscious again, my imagination gets sealed and I can't fantasize about anything at all. I hate this shit.

>>8156215
You could really use some marijuana.

>>8156234
Surely the way to feel better is to donate what money you have to Mexican cartels.

Just finished reading the Welcome to the N.H.K. manga. I think I like the manga Misaki more than anime Misaki. I wish I had someone like her in my life.

Why oh why won't an angel appear and save me from my hikikomori ways, /jp/?

>>8156804
I feel like you

>>8156804
>>8156818
she didnt seem like a particular angel to me, and the main character wasnt really "saved" by her or in any other way in the end. Did I miss something?

Also it feels kinda strange when you are several years older than him and everything is still the same.

>>8156825
> she didnt seem like a particular angel to me
That's why I liked her. She was selfish and manipulative and had huge problems of her own, which made her more likeable. In the anime she was a bit too innocent and altruistic.
> and the main character wasnt really "saved" by her or in any other way in the end.
He was saved by the POWER OF LOVE.

>That part where she goes into S mode
Oh god my dick

Knock, knock, knock.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4lpM4mXJlxc