I've been married for seven years, /b/. She's moving out at the beginning of June. This is not the first time. It is, however, the last time. We married when we were young, 21. We have three kids. We have almost nothing in common except that the way we loved each other was ludicrous in its depth and intensity. We just can't seem to live together. We fight, all the time. About a year ago she was diagnosed with fibromyalgia, which to me explained her steadily declining sex drive over the last five years. This is separation number five. We've both made our share of stupid, marriage-ending mistakes. I am by no means innocent, but I've never left her. I took her back each time she left. The last time I told her I couldn't do it anymore and wouldn't take her back. We fell back into sleeping together after a week. A few months later she wanted to move back in together. We waited for about six months. Finally, satisfied she was committed to making it work, I moved into a larger apartment and invited her to come with me. Three months later she told me she couldn't do it anymore and was moving out. Each time she's left, it's hurt less. This time I asked her if this was really what she wanted. She said it was. Each time we've split, she's found someone to fuck within a few weeks. I will admit that I cheated on her a few years ago. She's done the same. Overall, our marriage has been happy. It's been wonderful when it was good. It's horrific when its bad.

(inbf the game bel air etc)

I'm lonely /b/. We haven't had a functional relationship in months. The merry-go-round nature of the relationship for the last few years has left me stripped. I can't seem to find joy in anything. I love games, video games, table top games, board games, pretty much anything. I love to read. I love to draw.

And yet, I have trouble enjoying anything I do without someone to share it with. My life, at least the last third of it, has been defined by sharing the things I love with the person I love. She never really liked video games, but she would play the tabletop games I ran. I haven't slept alone for more than a week in the last ten years. It feels wrong to me to look for someone to fill that space because our divorce isn't final.

Further, frankly, my confidence is pretty shot. I'm a 30 year old, out of shape divorcee. I haven't chatted up a girl in ten years. In fact, I purposely avoided talking to women for our entire relationship because I didn't trust myself and I didn't want to deal with her jealous streak. I have no idea what to do now. I go to work. I come home. I cook. I eat. I sleep. I go to work. I just don't know what to do.

Thanks for listening /b/. I don't expect sympathy. I didn't come here looking for advice. I expect to get flamed. I just needed to unburden myself.

fag

And no belair, game, etc. Legitimate OC post. For what it's worth.

>>230422950
ohai there

>>230423084
wtf?

>>230422406
>Brags about his 'achievements' and how long he has been here
>Stopped reading.

Newfag in disguise.

>>230422950
An hero is not an option.

>>230423381
Wasn't my intention to self-glorify. More an attempt to preface my statement with my acceptance that I'd be flamed / called a newfag / labeled cancer etc etc etc

sup

un-piss-offable OP is a... something that would piss him off...

Hey EFG, did you know that your mask has nipples on it?

Oh ho. It's been a long time since I've seen you post. Sorry for your shit. Have you heard from Shii recently, btw?

>>741749

>>230424558
France > america

I think probably I am not who you think I think you think I thought you think I are.

i.e. I don't know Shii >.<

Also, I am, pretty much, un-piss-offable.

Classic EFG! Oh we've missed you so. Sorry to hear about your life troubles, but maybe it really is time to drop the divorce bomb. Then go find yourself a quick and fun fling to boost your confidence before getting back on the saddle relationship-wise.

OK OP, fuck the ex, fuck your hobbies. You have coworkers? Ask/invite yourself for a bar night or restaurant night, bowling night... whatever. Do some outside shit to make you feel ok. When confidence gets a bit higher, be a man and ask for help from your friends/coworkers for girls they can bring along for double date/hang out. Get phone numbers if you like them, don't if you don't. If they want to go out, it's better than what you had. In fact, "rejection" by one of these girls is better than the shit you went thru. You actually acquired balls of steel for going thru what you did. Go use them.

>>230425796
This. Some of us are still around EFG. We remember. We're /b/rothers.

You're lucky to have found love.