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04/28/10(Wed)17:24:14 No. 221852XXX Well
growing up I had extreme self confidence issues. But I kept them to
myself, never told anyone. Grew up with a lot of friends (had my "15
minutes of popularity" even) but never any love interests. I literally
never tried to get with any girls, but that's because I always told
myself that some girls are into shy guys who wait for someone to make a
move. Big mistake. Now in college, and I was anti social
my first two years. Like, I never left my dorm as a freshman/sophomore,
and I never left my apartment when I moved outta the dorms. But
this past semester (from fall 2009 to today) I actually made some plays.
Started throwing parties at my place, started going downtown with
people (yes, even girls!) but I still was never able to make plays. I
don't have a problem talking to girls nowadays, but because of my issues
growing up, I have no clue how to even go about starting a
"relationship." And the kicker is that I'm actually good looking.
Or at least, since I got contacts and cut my hair. I get smiles from
random girls all the time, and I have no problem meeting a drunk girl
and making out with her all night. But I never know where to go from
there. My biggest fear is when the moment FINALLY comes, I won't
be able to get it up. Throughout my "wild" semester this year, one
constant has always been that when I'm grinding with a girl, or making
out with her, I simply can't get hard. Dunno if that would change if I
could get her to my bedroom, but it bothers me. I also stopped
fapping so I can literally force my sex drive out of hiding. I'm
23. tl;dr, fucking eh dude. I wonder how many people are in the
same boat I am?