>>12498463 (OP)
You're 17 and you smoke too much weed.

Problem pin-pointed and solved.

OP, has anything bad happened to you recently? Is there something you may be trying to put out of your mind? Or is there something you've always wanted to do that you're avoiding?

>>12498476
Idk what it is, I'm not avoiding anything (at least nothing I can think of)
I play drums to relieve stress, my friends always do or say things to make me happy and my family loves me. I'm not having any girl problems because I've learned it's not worth to mope over a girl especially when you're only 18. Every day I come home and lay in my bed and I'm just like "fuck" idk why.

>>12498504

It could just be a passing phase, OP. If you're stressed out, that shit builds up without you really knowing. My suggestion is meditate, you know, look inside yourself and see if there's anything you can fix from the inside out.

Other than that, OP, all I can say is find someone to talk to. Nobody really knows why some people become depressed.

>>12498463 (OP)
I was exactly the same as you at 18. Word for word. If you're entirely like me, you've got 3 more years of this shit. So get comfortable.

>>12498560
When did you notice it going away ? How was it after for you? Thinking back can you find something that might have caused it ?

>>12498463 (OP)
Hey man, I know what you mean.

Ive got a loving family, awesome brothers, and fantastic friends. Ive always had tight bonds with them, and ive had childhood friends I'll remember for life.

Im musically and artistically talented when I feel good about what I'm doing. I can motivate myself to do my schoolwork every night, and I'm a hard worker.

I've been told I'm good looking, and I've had pretty good fortune with girls.

But, there is a dark place inside of me that feels like a fucking trap every time I start thinking about it. I'm pretty sure I had some form of depression as a kid (teenage years). Now, I can glimpse it every once in a while, but I block myself from it. I know its still there.

I have no fucking idea why I felt that way sometimes...so shitty you feel like you're never going to get out of it, the whole world is fucked and you just have to wallow in it.

I know everyone always jokes about the kid who says "oh, Im so sad and angry and depressed look at me", but when you're actually experiencing it...jesus christ.

For me, the only way to not acknowledge it, to avoid it, is just to do things you care about, every day, and dont stop. I throw myself at my work. This allows me to get away from that feeling of depression.

>>12498463 (OP)
you're messing up your brain chemistry with weed

>>12498463 (OP)
I had the same sort of thing getting out of high school. It's fluctuated, gone and come back several times since then. Now is one of those times.
>>12499817
This. Finding something rewarding to work at helps, even if it's only rewarding in saying you've done it for yourself. I myself am in a place where I don't even feel motivation to do that either though. It definitely is a feeling of being trapped.
>>12499834
>>12498474
Don't wish to turn this into stoner thread. How much is too much though? I smoked nightly for awhile. Two and a half weeks clean now. I'd like to think once a week isn't bad. Weed's had to have benefited some people right?

>I'm a musician

Get a real job and at least you won't feel empty.

Limit the drugs bro.

>musician
>smoke weed

There's your problem. You took advice about a "carefree life" from fucking retards. Go to college.

>>12500072
>Weed's had to have benefited some people right?
That's the dumbest justification I've ever heard.

>>12500193
And "you're messing up your brain chemistry" has to be the most scientific argument I've ever read as well. Wasn't so much justification as it was an up front question. Lets not turn this into a pro or anti marijuana thread. OP posted for advice not for straight-edged high-horsery