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08/04/11(Thu)08:00 No.7208435R,
The
time with you was epic and certainly educational, but the timing of
your departure left a hole in my soul that took years to repair. You
shattered my self worth, my desire for life, and left me with a constant
wall around myself that, for a long time, prevented anyone getting
close to me. Even now part of me shudders at either close physically or
emotionally contact, unless I am absolutely in control of the situation.
You could of chosen many options to end it, but you choose the
moment I was incapacitated to sneak out of my life. When I am cripple,
dazed, confused, and far away from friends or family, you left me. Why
then? why not a day, week, month, year, or several years before then.
Why at the one moment that I needed your help unconditionally (the only
time I ever needed your help for anything in our lives) did you do that
to me.
You must of been born and bred a coward to do what you
did. Not a grain of integrity, compassion, or care in your soul, and to
think that at one stage I had imagine you as the mother of my children.
The only plus side is if we had been married or had children then you
would of taken everything that I possessed. Coming back to looted
apartments and emptied joint accounts, was the home coming I had looked
forward to after a long illness.
My life now R is much better
than when you and I were together. I am richer, fitter, and have female
company when I desire it. I was glad to find out that these days you
live with your mother (childless and partner-less), although you are now
at an age many would consider "past her sell by date" so I would
encourage that you turn your life around or else you will end up a
barren old spinster.
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