I'm 15 and i'm suffering from major depression. It all started with me using tobacco which i got grounded for. Didn't learn so much from that and did it again. Got busted again and so on. So finally i started smoking weed and went home stoned. My foster mother could see it in my eyes and that got me grounded for two weeks. Two weeks at my fathers motel. no school, no computer and no social life. I cried myself to sleep for a week and i didn't see the point of life, at all. I wanted to kill myself but i didn't have the guts to do it. It was supposed to be for a year and a half at first but i don't know what made my dad change it to two weeks. Any ways, i'm back to school and i am around friends now. But there is a little problem. I'm literally inside a box. I have to be home at 6. PM, may not do anything that boost my mood in daily life such as, parties, concert and such stuff. My day is now all about school and cigarettes, yes i still smoke and i'm trying to quit. But this is not a life. Tobacco and school? And suicidal thoughts also come to my mind every now and then, my mood is always blank and sometimes i want to cry for no reason at all. My confidence has lowered very much and i don't think my friends like me anymore. Now i'm staying at my real mom's and there is nothing to do. Feels bad. I also got a text from my foster mom which i bare much hate towards at the moment. It said how much she loved me and it was all for the best. So /adv/ am i overreacting? should i talk to someone? what should i do, my life sucks and there is little i can do about it.