Oh, and people could stop thinking I'm a weird, unrelateable and undateable creep. That'd be nice to get away from, too.

I know that feel, bro.

But it's mind over matter; I can tell you this by experience. You've lost old friends, but what's to say you can't make new ones? And how exactly do you know they're friends unless you can relate to their pains?

You see; all roads lead to Rome & there are many ways to feel pain. Everyone has their burden, but true friends are the people who, in spite of their burdens, want to help you out with yours. If you're willing to do the same, take the people who worry about you & see why they do; perhaps they also experienced depression before & can relate with you.

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I can sympathize with the feeling about others thinking you're strange and not wanting to associate with you.

Anyways, as somebody who suffered from heavy depression (and I still do to a degree) for 7 years I have found the best cure to be simple exercise. It'll make you feel better mentally because you are given a chance to take your mind off of everything, and you will feel better physically.

Go ahead and kill yourself though, I guess cutting short the amount of life you get to enjoy will fix all of your problems. How do you know if there is a heaven? What if it will be like before you were born? Do you remember that?

OP, shit sucks. I have days where all I want is for everything to vanish and stop making me feel like shit, but you've gotta deal with it. Get yourself a gym membership or take up running ... Just get yourself physically active and clear your damn head out - then try and decide on a course of action.

>>11127012 (OP)
You're doing fine because you're still here. Nothing is too late or too little.
I'd give you a hug, but the whole internet thing

>>11127050
I have talked to people who have also gone through some bad stuff. I honestly don't know how they got through it. I think I'll feel better in a couple of weeks when the semester's over, but it's concerning to me that I've had violent and self-destructive thoughts this semester.

>>11127012 (OP)
1800 SUICIDE. I know it's not much help, but it's something.

>>11127058
I did exercise for a bit. I need to more since I'm gaining weight. It's hard to have the energy to do anything at school (I live on-campus and my car's currently being worked on), exercise included. The whole place is just depressing.

And you're right about the afterlife. I can't know what's out there, but some days I feel it has to be better than this.

>>11127096
I'll try to summon the courage to talk to my counselor about this tomorrow. We've already talked about my failed relationships and violent thoughts and hating school.

>>11127058
And you have no idea how much that image applied to me. nb

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>>11127137
During the summer I was mostly alone. High school was over with and everybody I knew was preparing for University while I sat at home without friends or anybody who wanted anything to do with me because I was taking a year off. Instead I spent my time working a shitty minimum wage job in which people barely speak to me despite my best efforts to relate to them.

I felt like shit. Do you know what I did? I took up interval training and did it every week. I've got a strip of forest behind my house and I sprinted as fast and hard as I could one way, jogged back the other way, and then did it again and again.

Do you know what it taught me? It taught me that nobody is going to help me push myself to become greater.

The feeling of being completely breathless and spent from pushing yourself as hard as you can taught me that the process death is not something I am looking forward to.

The world around you is only depressing if you let it be. Overcome that shit, dont quit because you believe in some stupid fucking afterlife that may not even exist...You'll end up there in 80 years anyways and never get to enjoy life again.

>>11127137
Why not call it now?

>>11127197
I probably should, but that would be a long conversation to someone I don't know. The counselor knows me fairly well at this point. Maybe next time things get serious?

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Bro, really. I feel you (well, mostly up until a point). I've kind of been there. I've had a full year of depression that ended only recently (like, say, 5 months ago). At one point I was so angry at myself and everybody for the socially awkward piece of shit I was that I took out a kitchen knife in front of my parents and try to slash my wrists. Went to see a shrink for about three sessions after that but decided that that wasn't the answer. I just decided that it was time for a change and became more confident in who I am, what are my morals, my likes, my dislikes, my aspirations, et cetera. Then, shit got better got my first "real" girlfriend, lost my virginity (at 18 and 1/2). Now, out of the clear fucking blue, everything seems to be going pretty much my way, I've calmed down, I've started listening only to the people I see as role models to myself, I've met a cute girl that liked me for a long time now (and I had no fucking clue) and things are getting better.
To TL;DR it: things really do get better, and I do believe that this life was given to us for a purpose (and I'm atheist, lol).