This thread is depressing, please delete.

I am pretty happy everyday.
Not trying to insult you op, bu people usually say shit like this are pretty spoiled.

Go out to some rural places. you will realize what a nice environment you live in.

>>5823771
Just because someone has it worse than you doesn't mean you aren't allowed to be sad.
Fuck off.

This is relative to cosplay and lolita... how?

>>5823787
How is any thread here related to cgl spoony?

>>5823779
get off my back punk. I am just trying to offer op a different perspective. beat off man.

>>5823771
you are fucking retarded on so many levels

>>5823787
also lol implying most shit posted on cgl is on topic

>>5823800
>Sound like a middle school child fending off a bully

Taking off any sort of identification because I really don't want to worry anyone that knows me here. I've been playing this game of "you can't do anything stupid now, you've got ____ to look forward to!" for several years now but it's gotten to the point where even my usual cheer-up things like music and fandom aren't working anymore. I've got a convention coming up in two weeks and I don't want to go. I'm so excited for it and seeing friends but then I realize I only get to see them once a year, I haven't got any friends around me, and I honestly don't think I can handle the depression that's going to hit me once I head home and realize it'll be a full year until I do this again.

It's just overwhelmingly depressing and I've actually thought about trying to access the roof the hotel I'm staying at Saturday night and just jumping from it. At least then when I die it'll be with happy memories. I'm close to just not going to the convention at all because I'd rather deal with letting my convention friends down than having that feeling of total happiness and excitement one moment and then overwhelming and crushing depression when I'm saying goodbye and heading home. I just can't do it.

>>5823818
just don't go.. if your depression was really serious it would be the one thing stopping you from going in the first place because you just wouldn't have the energy

>>5823811
>HAHAHAHAHA YES IT DOES!!!

>>5823829
Guess so. It must just be in my head.

I know how that feels op. Honestly, I wouldn't care too much about it. I think as we grow older there are just more things to worry about and such. And like you have said, you still laugh from times to times.
So, it is likely you don't have depression.

I'm happy for a lot of reasons.

>>5823859
What he said.

I'm alright.

Awe it's okay OP! Things will look up, you're just having a rough spot in life. Everyone has these and trust me things get better! I was diagnosed with major depression and chronic anxiety many many years ago and I know how tough it is. There have been so many times where I have wanted to give up and I did for a bit, but you just got to push through! Things get better! I'm the happiest I have been since I was a kid. There are still days where I find it so hard to do even the littlest of things but you just have to know that you are strong enough to continue on and you CAN do it. Try to find what makes you happiest and focus on those things. Just take it one step at a time. It will work out!