I ate an entire turkey. I am really really stupid.

>>5177320
Food, because it's not quite time for thanksgiving dinner yet. #firstworldproblems

Boyfriend has been sleeping with other girls without protection and then sleeping with me. I don't know what to say or think anymore, I'm terrified.

I am so fucking stuffed. And it's great after a day in the kitchen.

What sort of things were you expecting on thanksgiving OP?

>>5177333

Dump him and get tested.

And I'm not thinking about Skyrim and sewing and punching some guy in the kidney.

I just got an email telling me the gift I bought my boyfriend for Christmas has finally shipped so I'm really happy. I can't wait to give it to him because I'm sure he'll love it.

>>5177333
1. Kill boyfriend
2. Get tested for stds
3. See gynecologist to make sure you don't have trich cause you can come up negative on tests and still have it.

Found out my Grandmomma's brother might have prostate cancer. She is torn up about it.

>>5177333

I third the dump his ass and get tested.

>>5177342
see >>5177333

It's going to happen to you one day too.

Putting together an immense fan project, so much pride man!

I helped like 8 people ace a test and now they're all super happy and want to take me out somewhere.
I just wanna be left alone because I'm shy.

It's 1:13am.

I went to bed at ~8:30. I woke up again by 12. I am now going to be awake for the entire night. This keeps happening; I haven't had a good, solid nights sleep in weeks and I'm starting to make mistakes in the lab at Uni.

I don't want to take sleeping pills in case I become dependant on them; I also don't want to be using Alcohol etc to get to sleep, because that's really not healthy.

Got Pedestal later today, so maybe spending all night playing at a fetish club will tire me out enough to reset my sleeping.

Waiting for my friend to reply & see if she's picking me up to go shopping early in the morning. I hope she doesn't forget because Im trying to get my little brothers some games they want.
Sometimes I don't know why I take offers from her she screwed me over at cons, hasn't paid me back for food (because she suddenly forgot her money) & I can't help but think she'll come up with some excuse like "Oops I Forgot to pick you up, even when I was the one who asked you to come shopping with me"

So, my ex dumped me a few months ago, but there's been a lot of "I like you and I want to come back, no I don't drama" and it's taken a toll on me. But, I decided to say goodbye and I'm trying my best to do my own thing.

Problem is, this has now lead to the ex's close friend and I getting extremely chummy. He's a notorious playboy, and I've known that for years. The thing is, I do like him, and he's saying all the right things right now. Normally I'm not one for the whole "casual messing around" thing, but I'm heavily considering it now.

Must.not.eat.until.monday.

I'm in the days I retain liquids before period, and I have a little job that involves showing my body in bikini, so celebs would guess my weight. after monday, i'll go back to my normal eating.

I'm planning how to maim my ex boyfriend. He's going to fucking pay for how he's treated me.

>>5177419
>Normally I'm not one for the whole "casual messing around" thing

I don't think that's a good idea.

I work 11:30PM-10AM today for Black Friday. I was only supposed to only work 8 hours but my manager didn't give me the shift I requested and when he changed it he added 2 hours which also put me into overtime. When I asked for something slightly shorter he gave me a speech about how ungrateful I am.

I barely got any sleep and I've been having constant anxiety attacks. If they think I'm going to be my normal happy self today they have another fucking thing coming.

>>5177333

ok asian doctoh shit time.

hiv/aids is incredibly difficult to contract, even with unprotected vaginal intercourse; the activity with the highest risk for contracting it is anal sex due to the vascularity of the rectum, hence why it was called a "gay man's disease"

Honestly, most stds (except for a few e.g. hpv) show up pretty early but hiv is an exception. Most health organizations recommend that you get an hiv test two to three months after an incidence of unprotected sex since the ability of the virus to be detected depends on the individual.

Don't do anything with your boyfriend or anyone else for three months; go jerk off or something in the meantime and tell him to go get fucking tested as well.

Feel free to look up everything I've mentioned. Most of what I learned was from cdc, kaiser, and talking to a few general practitioners I know.

/end asian shit

ALSO PUNCH YOUR BOYFRIEND IN THE DICK

I can't even watch TV anymore because of this asshole.
Everyone is in love or heartbroken, and it just reminds me of what I lost.
Someone has or had somebody everywhere I look, I can't fucking get away from it.
I have to excuse myself to the bathroom at work when I see a couple registering for their wedding so that I can go cry in the bathroom.
Everything I do is something that WE did, now it makes me nauseous just to think about it.

I know I'll get over him eventually, but can't this speed up instead of seeming getting worse?

I'm so lonely. I want to go out and be social, but since final assignments and exams are coming up all my friends are busy (my courses this year are all lab-heavy so there's not much homework for me to do). I'm too shy to go out somewhere alone.

Boyfriend has been yelling at me a lot lately. Mostly because I'm not ready for sex, and he is. Hurts my feelings. And on top of that, he accused me of flirting with a mutual friend (which I never did, I just treat him like a good friend, which he is).

Oh, and I have polyps in my sinuses. So until the ENT tells me I'm fine, I have a little fear there, too.

>>5177438

Yeah, I know. It doesn't sound like a good idea to me, about half the time. I've noticed I've been warming up to it, though. I'm not sure how I feel about that.

I can't decide if I want to get the $200 PS3 tonight

I already need to buy Christmas gifts and I'm also going on an upcoming trip to NY, so I'm not sure I'd want to drop $100 along with my parent putting in $100 for it (it'd be a Christmas gift for me). Feels like I'm never going to be able to save a decent amount of money because of the season, and they'd also be losing out on money they could use for the trip...

I'm almost done with this book.
I'm Black Friday shopping for my mom at a small ass WalMart.
I get to see my friends/boyfriend tomorrow!

I hope nobody gets food poisoning tonight. The date on the evaporated milk can I used in the potatoes might have said 2009 on it.

>>5177492
Don't do it. Don't ever have sex unless you are ready to. Otherwise you'll regret it and resent him.

My first boyfriend did this to me. Broke up with him. No regrets and now have an awesome boyfriend.

>>5177492
Seriously. Do not let him pressure you into sex. You will regret it. My ex-boyfriend back in highschool was sexually active and I was (and still am) a virgin. He kept pressuring me to have sex, even to the point where if he was really in the mood he'd message me in the middle of the night and tell me to meet him in the park nearby so we could do it. In a park. On the ground. For my first time. I ended up kicking his ass to the curve after he came over one afternoon to watch wrestling and he actually pinned me to the bed and tied my wrists to the bedpost and then tried to just do what he wanted to me. I didn't call the police but I threatened to and after he let me go I dumped him and kicked him out of the house. And the whole time he was blaming ME for it! For not being available to fuck when he had wanted.

If your boyfriend is yelling at you for not putting out, dump him. You're not ready for sex and he's only making things worse. He obviously cares more about getting laid than your feelings.

>>5177492
That's a dick move on the part of your boyfriend. If you aren't ready, you aren't ready. He just needs to accept it. Making you feel bad about it, is just fucking ridiculous.

>>5177495
I don't think it's a good idea...

Have you seen either, Friends with Benefits, No Strings Attached, or Love and Other Drugs? It probably won't end like any of those movies is what I'm trying to say.

I have recently come into the decision and understanding that I need to see a doctor about my depression and start medication. Most likely for anxiety as well. I have no idea where to even begin because I've seen a doctor maybe...10 times in my entire life? And I'm in my mid 20's.

Kinda flipping my shit in the same breath.

And if day to day wasn't enough:
After being particularly sensitive this morning about my appearance (I've gained weight recently and it's exacerbating my normal levels of self hate) and changing my clothes three times to hide myself more in layers, I practically burst into tears and hyperventilated after my boyfriend told me that there would be several more people at dinner today. (I walked into the other room to do it, but he knew I was mentally flipping my pancakes.)

I'm so sick of this shit.

Not sure if I should go Black Friday shopping...

What would I buy?

a) happy cus I just finished a freelance job that's basically the company paying my to make a portfolio pieces for their files.

b) dreading black friday. I work at lord & taylor. they have no dressing room limit. i work 9-6. kljdflkjslkgjlsgjljdfglk. luckly, I work in a department that is mostly frequented by old ladies.

>>5177492

As a male; Don't let him pressure you into it. In your own time; If he can't wait, then he's not worth it.

Nervous about Black Friday at my job tonight. I'm working 11:45 to 8:15 and I'm hoping it won't be too bad. My job seems to attract the worst extreme couponers.

>>5177564
oh man. isn't it great when you have to explain why a coupon won't work?

there always the 'regular and sale' coupons where I work and people get upset when it doesn't work on an item that says 'sale' but is actually a special or everyday value. :/

>>5177528

Bahaha. I don't watch chick flicks anyway, and I didn't think it would happen like how those probably end. That's not what I was thinking. But I've been so involved in my ex for what feels like forever, that I need to flirt and be with someone that isn't him.

>>5177572
As a customer, those 'coupons' suck. I know it's not your fault, but what's the sense in companies even issuing coupons when basically 99.9999999% of the merchandise in the store isn't allowed to be used with a coupon?

I'm one of those "asshole" customers who will leave a pile of merchandise at the register when the cashier tells me the coupon doesn't work - and I'm pretty good with reading the small print.

Well, what's on my mind is I'm wondering why I'm not playing Skyward Sword right now, I went into town tody with my therapist and bought Skyward Sword then got some hot chocolate with him.

>mfw they were sold out of UMvC3

>>5177585
Hot chocolate! I wish I had some right about now. With the little marshmallows.

>>5177471
Hey, so I can't call myself an authority on breaking up or whatever but I recently got over a break up myself and I know how you're feeling. Even stuff that is tangentially-related hurts to listen to or watch and it sucks because yeah, you just wanna get over it and get on with your life. I wish I could be there to just listen to everything you want to say because that helped me a lot, having someone to vent to.

But it'll get better, even if you're constantly reminded of him wherever you turn. It's just your brain playing mindgames on you because you've still got a lot of emotions roiling up inside. Whenever you feel like you're thinking about him, stop and try thinking about something else. Go out with friends and keep yourself occupied. Something that helped me was to keep thinking about how I wouldn't keep in contact with him for a while, and making that kind of commitment to myself got me to mentally distance myself a bit too. Hell, if you really have to, think about the negative traits of his to make him seem less appealing. Whatever it takes, you know?

Anyway, I hope you get over it soon! Stay strong and try your best to keep smiling. If you need a break to cry, then do it. You can overcome this!

>>5177585
>Well, what's on my mind is I'm wondering why I'm not playing Skyward Sword right now, I went into town tody with my therapist and bought Skyward Sword then got some hot chocolate with him.

That's pretty inappropriate of him to form a social relationship with a patient. It's really easy to take advantage of someone that way, which is why it's considered unethical.

http://www.stanford.edu/group/psylawseminar/Ethics.htm
>Topic 3.2.7 Therapeutic Boundary-keeping
...
>The unique position of power afforded by the psychotherapeutic relationship can be used in ways that are unrelated to treatment. Physicians must therefore limit the relationship with patients to the therapeutic context.
...
>Professional boundaries limit both sexual and non-sexual behavior. Even the possibility of a future sexual or romantic relationship may contaminate current therapy. Thus sexual activity, not only with current but also with former patients, is unethical. Likewise, any occasion in which the physician interacts with a current or former patient in ways that may be a prelude to an intimate, non-professional relationship (e.g. as a date, intimate friend etc.) should be avoided.
...
>The rules guiding professional boundaries are context-sensitive. For example, social or business interactions with a patient may be unavoidable in a rural setting.

>>5177597

I figure that's how they work out in the movies. I don't know if I'll develop feelings for him or not, I really hope I don't. That's my main nervousness though.

>>5177591
I've been keeping myself surrounded by people and as busy as possible, but after 4 years and an engagement it's a little hard. It's already been a month, and I thought it'd be easier by now.

>>5177589
come on over, friend!

>>5177523
>No regrets

So it sounds like being a slut worked out fine for you in the end.

>>5177630
How much did you pay for that burando hot chocolate?

>>5177629
Oh wow.. Yeah, a month would still sound like a fast recovery from something that lasted for years. I think if you push yourself into trying to get over it faster, it'll end up frustrating you more because it's not going to just happen in a snap. It'll happen. If you're already doing whatever you can to distract yourself, the only thing you'll need is time.

>>5177617
I didn't really see it as a social thing, we were in the coffee shop as a kind of "do something out of my comfort zone" and get a reward thing. He got me to order the hot chocolates for us and give the money over, and at first he didn't give me enough money but I handled the situation well according to him. From there he left me to get our order and I had to interact with the woman serving the hot chocolate and asking if I wanted stuff on the hot chocolates etc on my own. He also wanted me to observe other people in the coffee shop to see that things aren't focused around me and the only one who is really focused on me is myself.

It wasn't really that much of a social thing but well, it was just easier to say we went for hot chocolate.

>>5177638
i'm sure lots of loonies & toonies
that is some high class stuff there

so many lotta deer jsks up on auction on the lj comm
should i buy the overpriced shit
or thrift at closet child
or buy the planned replica

>>5177645
I bet. I just drink the cheap stuff.

>>5177645
>>5177638
you know it

2 toonies at no frills, big spender right here.

>>5177648
fucking Lotta. Haunting me forever. dat blue JSK...

>>5177645
I think a can that size is like 6.99 in Canadian monopoly money.

>>5177617
Actually Anon, Lonleyfag has anxiety problems and has a fear of going out. In this case, it's part of his treatment for the therapist to do such. With patients that have a fear of going out, it is common for a therapist to do a task with them such as grocery shopping or other ways of confronting their fear head on.

Yes, a dual relationship should be avoided if possible, but always able, especially in the context of the therapy needed for treating this particular mental illness.

>Clinical Pysch Major

>>5177320
*not always able/possible
>>5177585
It's really cool you went out though Lonelyfag! I'm happy for you!

>>5177665

Elly. Can I level with you?

I find you really attractive in a whole bunch of different ways.

>>5177630
>>5177658
You...use that? I have those cheap little packets...with the pin head sized marshmallows already mixed in. Am I totally missing out on something amazing?

>>5177672
Nah, not really. Make sure you mix with milk though, it's actually a lot of better than with water.

>>5177669

>>5177668
Thank you! As with all the other times I've gone out, it was much, much better then I was expecting it to be, I just need to remember that and keep going outside and pushing myself.

>>5177673
Yeah, I'm a hot chocolate snob like that. Can't stand it with water.

Is it weird that I read these threads and have an unusual outburst of sympathy whenever I read about a girl crying over an ex, or an abusive boyfriend or whatever?

Girls are so damned sweet it's unbelievable.

>>5177585
>I went into town tody with my therapist and bought Skyward Sword then got some hot chocolate with him.
That's the spirit!

>>5177585
And all you need to do now is come down and play it with me and my cat! <3

>>5177679
I should stop drinking it though. Too much sugar.

>>5177641

What caused your break up Tim? You seem so sweet.

>>5177684
Thank you!

but
>no one commenting on them being sold out of UMvC3

Erryone be casuals

>>5177689
Sorry, I'm sat here with my cat cuddled up next to me and I'm playing Skyward Sword right now, your cat would have to be super amazing for me to want to move!

That i'm a failure at making friends and coming home has made me realise that. Everyone I meet at college I am awkward, over-apologetic with or they're all really freaking negative.

Coming home I just fit in so nicely with all my old friends and I just idk why can't it be like that at college too. :(

>>5177693
My cat has no teeth and a bent tail.
I'm sorry, if anything that's gonna make you want to stay away even more.

>>5177689
>She doesn't have Skyward Sword yet
It's fucking badass by the way

>>5177695
Don't cry man... don't cry... I... I want to visit your cat now ;_;

>>5177698
I'M A POORFAG LEAVE ME ALONE. I'll just cry over my triforce tattoo and Link blanket, don't mind me.

>>5177702
Oh, fine, you'll come see my cat but not me. I-I see how it is.

>>5177665
>psych major

Oh, whoop-de-doo. Everyone thinks they're a fucking wizard after their first god damn semester. Get over yourself.

>>5177706
That is out it is.

>pic related

>>5177706
Hoo hoo! I'm sorry, it's just so fun.

I'll come down to see your cat and alcohol cabinet, though!

>>5177714
>limited edition bros

>>5177718
Oh and I forgot to say
>DAT GOLDEN WIIMOTE

I really want to eat some sugar cured ham but I already had two slices and the rest is for my dad. ...I guess I could eat some carrot cake but meh. That damn is way too good.

>>5177718
>>5177720

>>5177714
>alcohol cabinet
>singular
Bitch please, even my nan has three alcohol cabinets.

>>5177718
Screw you guys, I'll be over here with my husbando if you need me.

>>5177722
Damn that's badass.

>>5177718
I assumed EVERYONE got the special edition because it was cheaper than buying a separate motionplus thing

>>5177729
YEAH I SAW THAT

>>5177734
shutupimtired.

I need me a Link bodypillow. That'll make up for when Blue isn't here.

>>5177729
If Link is truly your husbando I hope you got the 3DS and OoT3D on release and got that limited soundtrack with it, on top of that I would hope you are getting the Zelda 3DS as well. That's if you're a true fan...

>>5177733
I'm not sure, if everyone got it then well, I just don't feel that special anymore ;_;

just decided to start drawing again, super fired up and ready to punch a hole through the goddamn moon!

>>5177737
Yeah it's like 4am, I think most of us should sleep soon.

Also why not just get a Blue bodypillow?

>>5177739
Stop making me feel so bad, I wanna cry now ;3; I'm saving up to get the Limited Edition 3DS OoT bundle. If I can get that I'll be a very happy bunny.

>>5177748
Because I have no idea how to go about getting one of those. I have his shirt though, so it's good enough ;3;

>>5177739
>if you're a true fan
>miyamotosfacewhen

>>5177751
D'awwwwww, so cute :3

>>5177752
The amount of money Nintendo milks out of me, 3DS, OoT3D, limited edition Skyward Sword, will be trying to get the Zelda 3DS like Toaster linked above.

When do I get my medal Nintendo?

>>5177754
Right here!

I am apparently the only person I know who wasn't willing to buy a new system I didn't really want so that I could buy a game that I already own.

>>5177752
BUY ALL OF THE ZELDA THINGS.

>>5177753
Thank you, I know. Nah, seriously, I just miss 'em.

Threads back on topic now at least, what's on my mind is the fact that I wont be seeing my boyfriend until New Years instead of the start of December due to money and work arrangements. Boohoo. ;3;

>>5177756
>spent all my stars on wallpapers and stuff when I was young and stupid
>only have 1.5k stars now

;_;

>>5177392
And like I suspected my friend gave me some bullshit reason not to take me shopping with her, "OMG IT'S CROWDED, WE WOULD TOTALLY DIE". Bitch you been going out on Black Friday for the past 5 years of course its going to be crowded. I can't even believe I take her up on see offers when I know she's gonna back out at the last minute.

Sage for my first world problems

>>5177756
That shit doesn't even look high quality...

>>5177761
If I lived near you I would go shopping on Black Friday, well as long as we wouldn't have to go into any women's clothes places.

>>5177759
Back on topic for me too.

What's on my mind is sending my christmas gifts to my girlfriend over in America. I'm sending some mystery presents while she's sending me an adorable and really, REALLY fucking long hand-knitted scarf. And she's made a bow to match for her to wear with the remaining yarn.

I'm gonna wear it EVERY SINGLE DAY <333

>>5177762
Some of the stuff is pretty good actually. Compared to the Nintendo of America rewards these are god-tier.

>>5177760
They expire after like, 2-3 years anyway.

>>5177764
Awww thanks LF, don't worry it'd just be videos games and food shopping

>>5177768
>video games and food shopping

FUCK BRB AMERICA

>>5177765
Dayam dat's kawaii.

Long distance relationships for the win, you get to send each other presents and shit all the time.
When's she coming over?

>>5177772
Last week of March~

Planning on having us stay in Manchester for a few days, then travel down to London for an excellent couple of days of shopping, dining and generally being lazy together.

>>5177777
Woah man, nice er...Quins? Is that five?

Sounds awesome, super jelly <3

>>5177772
That .gif just reminded me I had a crazy sex dream with Jason Segal a few days ago...

>>5177783
Quaints. I checked em.
And it will be! If her dad can pay for the plane trip, though...

>>5177784
Pfftahahhaa

>>5177784
After seeing his dick in Forgetting Sarah Marshall, I can never look at him in How I Met Your Mother the same way ever again.

>>5177790
Me too, but I get the feeling it is in a different way that you are thinking.

Christmas stuff.
Going to Joanns tomorrow to buy more fabric
Sooooo much to make/finish on time for christmas, and things are starting to come together for every one I just need to get a definitive list for what I'm getting for everyone. It's got me a bit frazzled but it's fun, it makes me feel like a present factory, Ive already got a pile of completed things in my room that need to be boxed and wrapped.

>>5177797
I'm sending your card and present out next weekend, giving it plenty of time to arrive as the mail service goes crazy over here around Christmas time. Hope you like it~

I want to play Skyward Sword. But my mom bought it for herself for her birthday, and I'm not allowed to play it until she's done with it.
>>5177756
All the Kirby stuff. I don't care how cheap quality it is. Want.

I'm a ridiculous Kirby fangirl.

The dress I was wearing today was really sheer, but it came with a slip under it. But the slip kept rolling up. I had tights under but I really can't help but worry that my whole family saw my panties and think I'm crazy now. I didn't realize how see-through the dress was until after they left.

>>5177801
ffff I havent even finished yours yet. TIME TO CRAFT ALL OF THE THINGS.

But daw thanks Toastie. Your mega awesome.

I found out a few days ago I'm pregnant. My fiance has gone a bit cold and it scares me to be honest, he said he was ok with us having kids but now he's getting distant.

>>5177812
Fucking owned.

I'm going to see a psychologist next week and I'm terrified. My mother convinced me to go but I'm not sure if I'm ready yet.

I've become pretty disabled, I'm afraid of everyone and everything. I constantly feel like I'm being watched. In my house, I feel like someone or something is spying on me. I can't even sleep because when I close my eyes, I feel like it's there in my room, standing over me. I panic when I'm alone, taking a shower(I'm only comfortable if my cat is in the bathroom with me), walking down an empty hallway, an empty elevator...I just feel like something bad is going to happen, and like there's something else there with me even though there isn't.

I can't talk to people, except for a select few. I can't even talk to my own grandparents. I'm terrified of using the phone, except for text messages. I can't even order a burger at McDonalds. Even if I could, I can't eat in public because I feel like everyone is watching me and mocking me because I'm fat. Basically, if anything involves human interaction, I can't do it.

So yeah, I don't know what I'm going to do. Sorry for the rambling but here is pretty much the only place I'm comfortable talking to others.

Broke up with boyfriend 4 months ago, still feels shitty. A whole bunch of "I miss you, but I can't trust you anymore" shit. Don't know if I want to go back or try it with this newer guy I met at a con. No clue on what to do. Oh well time for some Doctor Who.

>>5177835
I went through something like that a few years ago. I was so isolated and stuck in my own head that I even saw and heard things that weren't there. Couldn't sleep without horrible dreams, had panic attacks to the point of being physically paralyzed for 10-20 minutes, awful stuff. I'm fine now, but it took years to get back to normal. My only advice would be to get some friends who won't judge you, either because they are fat too or just really nice.

>>5177835
I know that feel anon. I know I need to make the appointment, but am far too scared to do it.

>>5177812
>I found out a few days ago I'm pregnant. My fiance has gone a bit cold and it scares me to be honest, he said he was ok with us having kids but now he's getting distant.

Ha ha, serves you right you whore. Sounds like your boyfriend and you were a perfect match.

>>5177879
>boyfriend and her agreed it was okay to have kids
>pregnant with boyfriend's child
>whore
Stay classy /cgl/

>>5177835
>I panic when I'm alone, taking a shower(I'm only comfortable if my cat is in the bathroom with me), walking down an empty hallway, an empty elevator...I just feel like something bad is going to happen, and like there's something else there with me even though there isn't.

Oh, sorry about that. I'll try to be more discreet.

>I can't even order a burger at McDonalds. Even if I could, I can't eat in public because I feel like everyone is watching me and mocking me because I'm fat.

They are, but don't let that unduly upset you. It's just a fact of life that all fat people are instantly judged by everyone who sees them.

>>5177882
>responding to an obvious troll
Stay classy /cgl/

>>5177882
>implying it's her boyfriend's child

>>5177882
>Getting knocked up by her boyfriend

Oh yeah, she doesn't sound like a slut at all.

>Boyfriend panics and leaves her

Wow, none of us saw that coming, right?

Samefag having fun talking to yourself?

>>5177913
Elly would you ever have sex with me?

>>5177914
I have a sex phobia.

No joke.

>>5177919
Okay then, lets just cuddle and watch TV together

>this will never happen
;_;

I'm probably going to fuck up and lose my job for having an ED. I'm trying so hard to fix things before anyone finds out, but I'm barely making healthy weight. I can't lose this job, without it I will go nowhere in life and never ever leave the shitty town I live in. This job is the one thing I have to look forward to in life, but because I'm a stupid shit, It's all going to hell. If I don't do something, I know I'm going to end up in IP.

>>5177931
But it still sounds nice.

I don't know what to do Anon's. I feel like my dad is drifting out of my life. I don't have a mom and my dad moved away recently. He also started living with his girlfriend without even mentioning it or how close they were. He calls her family the in-laws and we never get a second to hang out like we used to. He travels for work all the time, so I hardly got to see him, now every second I share with his GF and don't even get to speak to him as it's always them two talking and I'm the third wheel. He went to visit me at college, at least that's what he said, and instead just traveled around the state with his GF and hung out with me for a few hours on day one and two. Then left right away. Now visiting him in his high-rise apartment that she shares with his girlfriend, that I found out literally when we walked in the door, and met the new family, that I found out I had recently aquired when I stepped off the plane. The pictures of us that he used to have are all gone too, he got rid of them and now there are pictures of his sisters and mom and his GF but I'm no where in sight. He always used to keep this embarassing cupon I gave him to sing one really awkward and embarassing song, he always said he was keeping it for my wedding day but got rid of that too. I just feel so shocked that he didn't tell me any of this. My dad was all I had, and now he doesn't care about me anymore. Wat do seagulls, am I overracting? I Just feel really sad and out of place. I want to go home right now and not spend another second here in his new life, a life that doesn't include me anymore.
I also don't want to talk to him about it, he hasn't found anyone since my mom, and he's given up a lot for me, so I don't want to complain about this of all things.

>>5177936
The upside to this however, is that I am making a conscious effort at recovery and my nails are no longer purple and I am not sleeping 12+ hours a day, every day. I still feel like a fat worthless piece of shit though. And it's hard not to go to my usual crutch, PrettyThin. I tried, but it triggered hardcore.

>>5177950
You are an adult. It is no longer your Father's job to make you the center of his life, and now that you are grown and independent, he is free to focus on building a new life for himself.

It probably feels strange suddenly not being the most important part of his life, but now, he can be a normal person with needs first, and a father second. He put in his time and sacrificed for you, and it's wrong to feel like his love for you is invalidated by bringing a woman and her family into his life.

If something bothers you, or you feel like you are being unreasonably shafted, SAY SOMETHING. But remember that he deserves to have his own life now, and it's time for you to find your own as well. It's normal, healthy process.

>>5178031
Thanks anon, that really helps :)

It really is true what they say, when you're in a relationship if feels like there are single people everywhere and when you're single, it feels like there are couples everywhere.

Hah hah, just me missing being in a relationship I suppose.

i might have just fucked things up with my boyfriend...

>>5178048
Why don't you get into a relationship?

>>5178051
Let me guess, you cheated on him when you were drunk?

>>5178048
My offer of making a fort out of your hair is still on the table.

>>5178055
No, he just completely adores me and he realized that I hardly like him. So he's kind of pissed right now... it's weird. Weird to explain, weird situation

>>5178052
I haven't met the right person yet?

>>5178056
Someone would have to make a trip.

>>5178073
Why are you in a relationship with him if you hardly like him?

>>5178077
like i said, weird situation. and no, its not because of sex

>>5178081
Translation: I'm using him.

>>5178075
But Boris, I believe I'm the right person, here, for our first date we go here and sit among the mushrooms!

>>5178087
O-Okay... ~

>>5178083
Ehh, thats what I'm afraid I'm doing. I suppose I don't want to give up and I want to see where this takes me.

Is it possible to base a marriage solely on the love/hate of food?

Wishing my doctors would stop talking to me about my depression and start drugging me up.

I'm too tired of remembering that my mother brought home abusive boyfriend after abusive boyfriend, that my cats were killed because of them, that I grew up without my sister because of them, that I hated my father because of my mothers' lies, that I repeatedly screamed at my ex because it was my way of dealing with the hurt instead of cutting myself, of throwing fits at everyone around me because the void in me doubled when he left.

I can barely even cry about it any more... I'm scared that I'm losing all of my humanity... and right now I'm stuck right here again playing my mothers' shrink because she keeps loading her bullshit problems on me when I can't even deal with my own.

I want to tell her to quit whining about the ex she dumped constantly contacting her because she always responds, about how she laughs at people that aren't 10/10's because she's barely a 5/10 herself, her wedging her shit into people who need help because woe is her and fuck every body else. She's just... so fucking selfish and stupid it's driving me crazy, but she's the only person aside from my doctors who I can talk to, and the times I want to share with her what I feel it does a 360 and is focussed right back towards her. 'I've been thinking about killing myself...' 'You know, I've had it bad too, like... for the past year I've been fighting to get my money back, and you know what they've been telling me?' Thanks for listening and caring mother... thanks for fucking listening and caring about the problems you caused...

>>5178108
Yes, it is completely possible.

I'm smoking weed to cure my insufferable nausea. I feel so guilty, but it is the only thing that works....

>>5178141
Don't feel guilty. You're using it for medical purposes, not to get high all day.

I love my best friend. I confessed to her last Spring at a con. Things were bumpy at first but got better later on. She's closer to me now than anyone else, though I don't think she thinks of me as that close (but I am a very close friend of hers now). We casually bring up my feelings without any awkwardness here and there, but it's usually used as the butt of jokes. I thought I'd eventually get over the rejection, but it still hurts. At least I got closer to her as a friend now. She's been in a relationship with some dude in Europe that she never mentioned to me at all because she was just so secretive about her relationship status, and they've been together for years, so I honestly don't think I ever had a chance.

>Made a mature post on something on deviantart that I disagreed with. I didn't say they were wrong. I said I disagreed and that I disagreed because of x, y, and z.
>Someone decided I was a weeaboo because of it and started being an ass.
>Responded calmly and maturely.
>Said that they had assumed by my post that I was a weeaboo.
>Looked back at my post. Don't see weeaboo.

I hate how people are now so quick to call someone a weeaboo just because they happen to be into series that some people loathe. I just disagreed with the comparison between it and another piece of fiction. I said why and pointed out the differences in the format of the different media. People need to stop being such special snowflakes >.> It's annoying as fuck.

My eyes are itchy as fuck.

Had to take my rabbit to the vet and it drained my savings. I've got $30 to my name and am thus far hopelessly unemployed. Honestly, some forms of sex work are starting to seem not so bad.

Also, Stephen Merchant. Because who doesn't like him?

>>5178211
Where does thou live?

>>5178211
Awww that's so great of you to care for your bunny even though you're not doing so well yourself. My family is often ridiculed for the extreme lengths we go for our pets in rough times. I hope everything gets better for you and soon

>>5178313

I love that little booger no matter what. Things will get better, they always do. Animal lovers unite!

I wish the sailor moon wands and stuff were not so expensive. My little sister made one of the wands out of clay this summer and I wanted to get her the real thing for christmas... but I can't afford $300+ for a christmas present.
I am in college mannnn, Its got me real bummed.

I would like to go shopping today but I don't like dealing with the large crowd of people. black friday bring out the worst in people.

>>5178582
They don't name it Black Friday for nothing, it's named after the savages.

>>5178572
Why can't you get one commissioned? Not the real thing but it's not made by Chinese child labor either.

got caught shoplifting- I hate my life

I'm tired of my work, but everytime I tell them I want to quit they manage to convince me... now I'm not sure if I should quit and be trained to become a hairdresser or continue this and see what happens..

It would just be SO nice to be able to do with my hair and body what I want, to be able to be home and not have to share apartments with girls that can't be silent for a change and let me read my book... but I'm afraid that maybe when I quit and I start training that I figure that it's not what I want... and then what D:

>>5178599
I don't know where I would start.. all the hand-made ones I have found while looking are kinda....off.

I must get better at saving up my money, especially since my girlfriend is coming here next summer. I wont afford anything, fuck.

Going home for Christmas in three weeks, and I have no idea what to expect. Literally, I don't know what will happen. When I booked the flight I was planning all sorts of things with friends, but now I wonder if I'll just end up sitting around by myself or running off in the middle of the night to help a friend. Anything could happen. It's almost a bit scary.

i'm scared i might have breast cancer. and even more scared to go and get checked.

I love girls.

I love everything about them, how cute, feminine and adorable they are. How nurturing and sweet they are. How they like baby animals so much and so on.

>>5178627
go now. get it early. save your life, stupid.

>>5178653
Seconding. Go right the fuck now. If they catch it early, it's not fun, but it's not life fucking.

i severely burned my entire mouth recently.
sheets of cheek skin peeling off, swollen lips, drooling all over, severely.

I've healed rather well aside from having little to no taste, having burned my taste buds off. However, i have a string of 7-8 canker-sores in my lower lip that are just kicking me while i'm down. the pain is tremor inducing.
I've been in pain for weeks now. I just want my normal mouth again.

>>5178608
>>5178608
>but I'm afraid that maybe when I quit and I start training that I figure that it's not what I want... and then what D:

This is the worry that goes through my head every day all day and really stops me from doing so much. You have to kind of snap yourself out of it, choose something and go for it.

I would heavily suggest trying to get some work experience to try and get the feel of any new industry you're thinking of going into. At the end of the day though, hairdressing is a real life applicable skill and you'll probably not regret learning it even if you end up doing something else when you're older.

I know hairdressers that have also gotten diplomas in various other areas of beauty, not all end up in salons. Some work on photoshoots (which you could get into easier with your experience?), film sets, colleges, working with wigs and stuff..

i haven't gone into uni in the last two weeks for reasons I'm finding very difficult to ascertain

I'm being haunted by Kanji and Kana characters in my dreams.

It's because I finally decided to take my self-study Japanese more seriously and have been learning 1000 Kanji in less than 2 weeks. And I plan to finish the other 1000 in the coming 2 weeks.

And then there's the actual course I'm following aside from the Kanji. Last night my dream ended with the particles は and が bumping into each other and exploding.

The dream itself consisted of me walking around in a school of which the students were made of Kanji. I interacted with them like I would with normal people. But it felt pretty weird when I woke up.

But at least I'm happy that I seem to be able to retain them so well.

>>5178700

1000 kanji in less than 2 weeks? How are you doing that? I want to be you.

I'm currently being haunted by kanjis, too, since I have a weekly exam. Still stuck around 200, I hate them with so much passion that I love them.

>>5178707
>>5178707

How I do it? The only way I can describe it is "through madness". I basically told myself: "Alright. No pussy ass bitching. No fucking procrastination bullshit. It's time to get real"

And by "get real" I mean, "learn 100 Kanji everyday". Like I said, madness. I basically "learn" 100 kanji from Heisig's book. And a few hours later I review them with Anki. While reviewing the older ones as well, obviously.

So it's basically learning how to read and write ~2000 Kanji in 20 days. I don't expect to be able to retain them all completely after just 20 days. But at least know the majority well enough, and through continuous use of Anki and of course studying Japanese, eventually "master" them.

>>5177585
I know now what santa will bring to you >:3

>>5177754
Me too. That 3ds brings out the want in me,

>>5178741

You're my hero.

I finally managed to get a job, it's the third day and my entire body hurts, but it feels good to know that I'm earning my own money once again. I'll begin to make all the computer upgrades/replacements that I needed, and then I'll start earining it both for cosplay and to move to the US next year!

>>5178784
Congratulations on getting a job at least. Make sure to take a warm bath or something to help with those aches.