Wanna get out of my current job for something else. Been lookin', but no luck yet.

Migraine. I miss my GF and the internet sucks tonight.

Legs are sore from Cheer practice, but I am so glad it started. I have trouble motivating myself to work out as often as I should, so having two hours a day of structured exercise time is really helping.

Also, I am hungry.

>>5142107
Why is she so beautiful?

>OH MY GOD, OP ASKED ME A QUESTION! I HAVE TO JUMP TO ANSWER IT IN ORDER TO ADVERTISE MY OWN EXISTANCE!! I NEEEEED ATTENTION!!

This is a cosplay board, faggots. quit getting trolled.

>>5142105
watch a movie!

I have real problems regarding the way I view men, most of the time I'm ok but sometimes my memories of being cheated on, all the stuff they say about girls when they think they're on their own and so on comes flooding back and I start to really hate them.

I know it's not healthy, but sometimes it gets so bad I just don't want to be around them at all.

>>5142112
Because she is Allison.

That is the only answer I can offer, dear friend.

I'm kinda contemplating suicide, so I'm roaming cgl so I can sit and wallow in self pity for being poor and unattractive.

>>5142133

I want to get her pregnant.

>>5142160
Keep your unclean hands away from my Queen, pleaseandthankyou

>>5142116
Don't bother trying to reason with /cgl/. People here are so addicted to seeking out attention that trolling them is like moths to a flame.

>>5142165

But she is of ripe and fertile age...

>>5142165
she's nothing but a bleached out ano skank

>>5142112
because you are lonely

>>5142184
Not for you though.

WHY CANT I FIND A JOB

WHY CANT I AFFORD SKYRIM

WHY IS ACCOUNTING SO HARD

What the hell I'm going to cosplay.

>>5142189

Take that back.

>>5142190

Oh...

>>5142203
COSPLAY SOMETHING YOU LIKE GOD DAMN IT.
FUCK YOU MY PROBLEMS ARE MORE IMPORTANT.

Need a job, I don't even care where I have to work I'll take any job. It's better then just coming home from class to do nothing all day. But everyone is like "Oh, we hired several people for our holiday shopping season, but we'll keep your application on file".
>mfw

A boy~*~*~
c:
He's a traveling violinist and he wears glasses and he's superrrr cute. But I dont get to meet him until Fall :c

I finally landed my dream job... My supervisor said I was doing a great job so far and I'm really enjoying myself. I'm so happy I could cry...

>>5142197
>WHY CANT I FIND A JOB
Cause you're a douchbag and would just piss off your co-workers

>WHY CANT I AFFORD SKYRIM
You suck at saving money and can't prioritize your funds for shit. Boo hoo, you can't afford a video game, either nut up and save or just don't buy it or pirate it.

>WHY IS ACCOUNTING SO HARD
Because it involves sequence of numbers which don't always involve doubles, ergo number strings you have no interest in

Waffles.

>>5142222
Which orchestra does he play with?

>>5142230
>WHY CANT I FIND A JOB
>Cause you're a douchbag and would just piss off your co-workers
I'm a pretty swell guy in person.

>WHY CANT I AFFORD SKYRIM
>You suck at saving money and can't prioritize your funds for shit. Boo hoo, you can't afford a video game, either nut up and save or just don't buy it or pirate it.
There is more behind that than at first glance, and I'd rather not go into my finances.

>WHY IS ACCOUNTING SO HARD
>Because it involves sequence of numbers which don't always involve doubles, ergo number strings you have no interest in
You know me so well.

That I've rapidly become obsessed with Deadman Wonderland

holy fuck i want a day off.

next day off is thanksgiving. spending thanksgiving with Wes. family is 2500 miles away.

>>5142256
>thanksgiving with wes
you gotta fight for your right to food

the art portfolio is due for submission and i haven't got one shit started. fuck my life.

the death of my younger brother a few weeks ago. i'm an only child again. and i'd rather not be, because i did love my younger brother dearly when he wasn't being an ass.
the homework i have to catch up on from missing school for a while for that. nothing like going to school across the country.
wanting to cuddle someone really bad because i'm kinda an emotional wreck right now. and i'm exhausted from not sleeping much and a cold.
the fact that just when i thought i was over my ex, all this happened, and he came over to comfort me, and my feelings for him picked back up.
shit kinda sucks right now. my parents and i don't have an autopsy report yet, and because he was a minor, a small investigation is going on to determine the exact circumstances of his death. we've got a general idea, and it seems a freak accident, but we're not sure yet.

I got put on 12 months unsupervised parole.

I do anything illegal, I go to jail. Yipes.
Kids, don't shoplift.

I have fighting games on my mind. That, and a really close friend who I play vidya with on a regular basis.

>>5142278
dude, wth did you take?

>>5142274
Do you ever find yourself breaking down and crying randomly?

I have a lot of shit due next week for school and I'm a lazy ass about starting it this week. I have a paper and a "reference notebook" to do. I plan on starting it tomorrow but I'm lazy as fuck.
My boyfriend and I need to have a talk about the way he balances spending time with me and spending time with his friends. After a year and a half of dating, I should be a bit more important than I am.
Also, I need money. There's too much shit I want and I don't have enough money to get it. Bath and Body Works has their holiday scents out, so god only knows I want ALL OF THEM. Skyrim comes out Friday (along with the ever so fucking glorious 4 disc soundtrack that I want more than I want to breathe) and then AC:R a couple days after. Plus, I have to pay rent and bills. Hopefully, my parents will be awesome and get me both games for Christmas...

>>5142310
about 20 minutes ago actually. scared my roommate a bit, but she knows what's up.
it's just been a long couple of weeks.

Feeling all kinds of out of sorts. Right now I just kind of want to work and study until I completely break down and then see where I can go from there.
Also just kind of want to lock myself in my apartment and never deal with people face to face again... Mandatory attendance sucks.
/Moping about waiting for paint to dry

Just realized I'm not very good at anything.

Made a list of damn near everything I do from hobby to work to every day dealings.

>>5142356
How are your communication skills?

>>5142372
Bahahaha.

Horrible.

I'll give you a couple of examples:
Up from a few months ago until recently I made it a point to start speaking louder since people mentioned I'm really quiet when talking. I thought I was doing pretty good since it sounded like I was almost yelling inside my head (like when you listen to yourself talk). Turns out I'm barely audible.

You know that new personal assistant on the iPhone 4s? It can't fucking understand me.
>Call Dad
>"I'm sorry, cannot find That."
>Find nearest Mexican restaurant
>"Sorry, couldn't find nearest smoker stop"

Mostly boyfriend's work-related problems (he's Army), and the ever-present fear of deployment lurking in the back of my mind. Nothing I can really do to affect any of it, I just wish I was better at cheering him up. It's shocking how the military visibly ages you. I saw pictures of him from three years ago, at age 22, and he looked ten years younger. Granted he looks his age now, but still, that's an unhealthy amount of stress.

Oh, and there's almost no food left in this apartment and I need to go over my finances before I do a shopping trip. Medical bills messed me up this month something fierce.

feeling pretty amazing right now, working on one of the most elaborate models i've ever built while listening to hotblooded music has got my soul on fire!

>>5142471
You WOULD be fucking an army dick huh...

I've been eating the same damn shit every day for 2 weeks straight and now i'm tired of it.

I'm having sugar cookies and pepsi for breakfast since i can't bear to eat it anymore. Sigh so unhealthy.

>>5142478
Not sure what your butthurt is over, but whatevs. The reasons he joined the military are complicated, and he essentially had no choice in his situation. He's getting officer or getting out (has less than a year and a half less), and dislikes stereotypical military. As someone who swore never to date military (grew up sorrounded by Marines from Camp Lejeune), he's not your typical military guy. Quiet, shy, reserved, but defensive when it comes to those he cares for.

He's a good guy, makes me happy, and that's all that matters, really.

BF send me a text that said "wuv you :3" last week. Ignored it. Yesterday he said "love you" in person as we hugged goodbye. I don't "love" him... what do?

>>5142523
communicate to him that you dont love him?

>>5142504
>grew up sorrounded by Marines from Camp Lejeune

I use to live there too until my family & I moved to IL
Sage for random post

>>5142528
I LOVE YOU CLAY NO HOMO

>>5142541
Yeah, I live in Wilmington. Fortunately most of the idiot-variety Marines only venture here on weekends, and there is no good reason for anyone to ever go to the hellhole that is Jacksonville willingly. Ever.

Also sage for off topic.

>>5142557
Wilmington is a pretty nice place, use to visit the mall there alot when I was tired of Jacksonville lol. But yep those young Marines always causing trouble for somebody, it's been almost 3 years since we've left Jacksonville & I'm hoping once we move back in Nov 2012, it's a bit different.

Bump

I feel like a cross between starfish and Lavender Brown (you know, "I LOVE YOU OMG *cling*") whenever I see my boyfriend. We don't really see each other much, since we're both in school, and he has a job and lives rather far away. So, I get really fucking happy when I see him and just want to hug him and kiss him and tell him I love him. I feel as though I am smothering him. I just.. I really adore him. I do everything I can for him, even doing his homework assignments when he's sick and worn out, and being as kind as I possibly can with him. And yet, perhaps, it feels as though I am not nearly as important to him as he is to me. I don't expect him to share my clingy, always wanting to be by him attitude, but it hurts when, after giving absolutely everything to a person for two years, you don't seem to be very important to him.

He rarely texts me first, rarely speaks to me first; he's incredibly more involved with his friends with me, which I understand, but it upsets me somewhat to know I'll always be the last priority; we're great together when we're alone, but he almost always seems to be ignoring me the rest of the time.
I love him, but he upsets me sometimes. I know I am perhaps too fearful of abandonment, but it's only because I don't want to lose the most influential, important person in my life.

First world problems, I know. But it's on my mind. Also doing a lot of self analyzing; figuring out why I have these problems, these tendencies. I've discovered I'm too much of an emotional thinker; I over-think/over-analyze people and situations; I have a permanent guilt complex, and I'm very self-centered. No, I'm not happy about this, but I'm working on changing it.

Sorry for the tl;dr post.

>>Ex-best friend contacts my sister to get me to unblock her
>> Bitch better be apologizing
>> nope, turns out she crazy bitch is having a kid with my other friend, who moved out to calgary to be with her.
>>tries to insinuate that *I'm* the asshole for un-friending both of them. (apparently I hurt his feelings)
>> no apology
>>instead justifies herself by telling me I need a 'kick in the ass sometimes'
>>MFW
Bitch please, you told me that you wished I would get raped in some dirty alley. after I was supportive through all the times you whined to me about your crazy ass mother.
Fuck you and your baby, you crazy bitch, I don't need that shit.

>>5142439
Applecarefag here, we are working on that.

>>5142528
That didn't end so well for you though, now did it.

Anon: tell her you're not there yet and that you want to give love time to develop. But do it right away. If you lie or wait (or both /ahem) to say something, she'll probably break up with you.

I wanna get MW3 but can't decide which system to get it for :>

I have a paper due 18 hours from now. I just finished page 2.

Oddly, homework and school are the only time I'm holding it together right now. I've been having bad fatigue and constantly sick for the longest time, last week the doctor found I had a parasite and killed it dead. I'm still recovering from the medicine, but I'm having the most energy I've had in three years.

At the same time, my psych meds aren't working as well, and suddenly waking up is really overwhelming. I'm not sure what I really want to do with myself, and there is so much piece picking up to do. I need space to figure myself out, focus on school and work, and otherwise I'm not really coping with anything else.

I've just been a husk up to this point. I've slept on an average of 14 hours a day. I don't know what to do because it's all been struggling to get by, be happy, and get enough sleep.

MOTHER FUCKER

ghetto job aps can suck it
have to start looking for a new one because my neck is all fucked up and can't lift car shit around for 50 hours a week

filled out an app for a job i would be likely to get.

pretty sure i forgot to put my name- phone number- etc on it

FUCK EVERYTHING I'M GOING TO BED

because I can't re submit it and look like a dumb ass

I'm afraid my depression and anxiety disorder are getting worse.

>>5143028
Fear is the mind killer.

>>5142892
>parasite

This is my worst fear.

What did you have?

I'm so hungry.

I either can't stomach the smell of food or throw up everything that I eat. Unintentionally, of course.

Like the mental/emotional strain of this break-up isn't enough, by body needs to react to it as dramatically as possible.

I kind of want to choke my ex right now even though it wasn't his intention to make me horribly ill.

>>5143056
that happened to me during my last breakup, anon.....didn't eat for 3 days because the sight of food made me want to hurl. hugs to you.

I just worked 11am - 8:15pm and I am FUCKING TIRED. I stupidly ate vast amounts of peanut butter M&M's though so now feel sick and not ready to settle down for sleep

BAKA

i'm happy because i feel like i can move on with my life. a good friend of mine who lives far away lied about having cancer (and a lot of other things), and for a while i couldn't get angry. i was just sad and shocked. i thought i was going to lose her physically because they said she was in a coma, but then the truth came out. i'm happy she's alive, but this isn't the way i expected my grieving process to go. i got angry today, and i feel like i can finally move on. just letting it all out felt good. actually, i let it all out by sewing furiously and i'm almost finished with two of my kigurumis for yulecon.

What's on my mind at this exact moment?..

>To make spaghetti_O's or not.

Other than that, figuring out when I'm actually going to start making my cosplay.

>>5143063
>making kigurumis
>not mentally preparing yourself for skyrim
ISHGDDT

Just bitches being bitches

>>5143077
if you think about it the minutes turn to hours.
did you get the special edition?

>>5143092
I got it on steam. So no. Fucccccccccccccck. Why do I have to go to classs and sleeeep and homewooorkk and partiesss. ALL I WANT TO DO IS FUS ROH DAH.

• I'm looking forward to my Pinkie Pie and viera wigs coming in
• I'm looking forward to a trip to JoAnn's after class tomorrow to get more yarn
• my right calf is sore from 3 hours of ballet today, hoping I didn't pull something
• got asked to wear a thing at a thing for a thing, only agreeing to it because it's being held on a college campus and I wanna hit up that library
• 11.11.11 SKYRIM
• is there life after Skyrim? (Note to self: do not let ass become one with couch)
• still feeling pretty awesome from my acupuncture session this afternoon
• I need to sleep now so I can be awake in time for class

NaNoWriMo.

I procrastinated too much during my anniversary and now I'm typing like a motherfucker to catch up.

>>5143111
aww look you got trips.

AND YOU DON'T NEED TO SLEEP. PARTY WITH THE DRAYGUNS.

but don't neglect your schoolwork young man.

>>5142841
yeah but that has entirely to do with my making bad decisions with who i date and not how i communicate

I got my girlfriend pregnant and I'm thinking about bailing on her (we live in different countries originally).

>>5142523
That feel when you don't love your significant other but stay with them because you hate going through all the breakup shit.

wondering why I was able to effectively kill the last thread I posted in >>5142281

first time on /cgl/

>>5143189
I could've sworn lying falls into the 'problems with how you communicate' category.

>>5143393
not being able to say "I love you" at the same time your significant other does, in no way means you do not deeply care about them.

sometimes it takes a person a bit longer to reach those feelings, and when they do, they can then safely return the words back.

>>5143396
i dont think you know any of the specifics anon

>>5143393
Whore.

>>5142703

>>5143398
That's very true. However, I was talking about when you've fallen out of love with someone, but still care just enough that you don't want to make them cry.

>>5143402
I'm a guy. Thanks to society's double standards I can't be a whore. I'm either a self-sacrificing stoic or an enormous faggot, depending on who you ask.

>>5143417
the "self sacrificing stoic" depends on how attractive you are

>>5143420
Nigga what?

>>5142100
I'm with you, anon

I met a girl at a photoshoot, and really liked her. She's all those romcom cliches. Smart, funny, mature, etc
We've been keeping in contact, and she recently came out of the closet. She also hinted strongly that she liked me.
I finally got up the courage to ask her out when she invited me to her birthday party. Her sixteenth birthday party.
I knew she was still in high school, but with the way she looks and acts I assumed she was a senior.
Now I just feel like a perv and a pedo, even though Im not going to pursue a relationship any more.

>>5143449
Hey, there's nothing wrong with fucking girls who are <18, don't listen to the feminists.

Most femanons approve too.

>>5143393
Not quite my situation. I like him as a friend, and sort of wish we stayed that way because I can't reciprocate his romantic feelings at this point.

He caught me off guard when he asked me out, I splurted out a yes, didn't give it much thought, figured my feelings for him might blossom in due time (like >>5143398 mentioned).
His physical intimacy makes me sort of uncomfortable (although I accept it, I don't want to lead him on but I'm too passive, gdi) - not sure if it's shyness, or I don't like him. I guess if I really did want to be with him, I wouldn't be thinking about breaking up so often. I can't see this relationship being very sustainable. I’m worried that my thoughts are restricting the relationship. Should I hold on a little more (slow it down), or break it off before there's more damage?

I should probably mention that I also like girls (maybe more so than boys, which would in fact solve this issue, but I've no fucking clue where I stand in the sexuality spectrum and wish I thought about this more in high school).

After reading stuff like this http://www.themarysue.com/anime-con-sex-offenders/

I get really sad, is Katsucon gonna stamp a "Crystal Meth Addict" sticker on my badge or something?

>>5143510
>>5143393 here
As someone who's been in his fair share of failed relationships, it sounds to me like you should end it. If you have doubts like that, don't have romantic feelings, and are uncomfortable getting physical, it's not going to work out. Just be honest with him and yourself and be friends, if that's all it really is.

>wish I thought about this more in high school
You can't be expected to know what you want at that age anyway. Just pursue who you like, labels and spectrums aren't really necessary.

My throat hurts like fuck, and it becomes worse the more I talk. I honestly think I might be coming down with strep throat

>>5143535
Thank you for the advice. I was leaning towards that direction, just needed a little push.
If it is meant to be, maybe we'll both realize before it's too late. If not, time to move on.