right now.
my boyfriend spent $600 on figma and doesn't have a job, and we're arguing about it

fuck it.

About 2 months ago. 3 days before I left everyone I knew and loved and moved 2600 miles away to a new place without a car or a home. Nothing dramatic, just a few surprising tears. I thought I was ready to leave, but apparently I wasn't.

>>4892967
>unemployed
>spends over half a thousand dollars on toys
>still dating

leave immediately

When I went to the ER Saturday, I was tearing up from the pain.

>>4892967
which figma this is important to know

>>4892967
$600 in one month?

>>4892981
entire haruhi collection, all bakemonogatari characters that have been released, and kirino
he already has the four main k-on girls

Yesterday I realized some things.
And good things they were not.

Last night, when I got rear ended on my way to dance class.

And this morning when I couldn't do anything but lay in bed because it hurt so much.

Atleast my truck is okay.

>>4892992

>I got rear ended on my way to dance class.

terrible joke in 3....2....

When I found out that my new dorm is a roach infested piece of shit.

>firstworldproblem.jpg

>>4892989
wow hes a faggot he could have at least gotten some RD or revols

>>4892998
Oh Samurai.
I read your post.
Then re-read mine.

I needed that laugh like you don't even know.
All of my love, all of it.

A week or something ago

'' why am i so ugly and untalented'' while my enviroment is quite different.
I get stared at on the street and the bus people talk about me and think that i can't hear them.
Oh well, such is life i geuss.

>>4893009

about a week ago when I got in a fight with my mom through text (She lives 8 hours away from me)

I said a lot of mean things about her divorcing my dad/abandoning me. I felt horrible about saying most if it, hence the crying, but it was definitely a little relieving.

Why do all these bitches cry so much?

>>4893022
Guy here, it's kind of cute when girls cry.

>>4893022
Because it hurt a lot and wouldn't stop hurting...?

I think you would have at least felt something in your all mighty tear ducts,

>>4893032
Whenever I see girls cry its because I did something to cause it.

"oh hows it going"
"oh well you know, were gonna have to split up"
"oh...."
"Youre crying"
"SOB SOB SOB"
"God damn it....

I started my senior year on Monday, and my school has a dress code. Since my skirt was a bit short, I wore a pair of these flowered leggings underneath, thinking it looked great.

Well it must have looked horrible because at the end of the school day I had about 5 black people (they tend to be the most catty people in my school) come up to me and ALL ASKED THE SAME THING , "Hey where did you buy your stockings? I like them" and returned to the same group. What got me was that I actually thought somebody liked them, so I gave them a geniune answer, "Oh! I got them at target! They were on sale! They had so many different designs!" But then when the guy in the group said it to me I just ignored him, but that made another girl in the group SHOUT FUCKING LOUDLY what he said again. So I just didn't look at her and just said "cool."

But....I thought it looked good :/ I mean some people complimented them and said they looked cute!!


So it was a mix of that embarrasment and getting a double blocked class where I don't fit in that led me feeling so bad that I took a 30 minute shower just so I could cry undisturbed :'(


I'm too emotional damnit....

>>4892989
>> No Aegis
>> No Saber or Rider
>> No Kos-Mos
>> Not even RD or Revos

Dump that motherfucker

This last Monday, when I had to say goodbye to my girlfriend after a week of finally being together.

Despite that, i'm happy. I got to see her. She's the wind beneath my wings, and i'm more determined than ever to work hard to see her again.

>>4892992
Ouch. That sucks a lot.

>>4892999
I dunno, I'd find living with roaches distressing.

>>4892989
Um...oh wow, good luck with your boyfriend. He needs a good reality check it sounds like.

I think I cried in my dream last night. It was weird.

Last week when my Gran had a stroke. Come to find out, she has a heart problem as well and probably won't be around for much longer. Feels pretty horrible, man.

>>4893038
I honestly like the tights. However it seems like they could look incredibly out of place or ugly mixed with some things.

>>4893040
that's... so cute ;_;

couple of weeks ago, was trying to sleep and missing my foreign boyfriend who i left behind in his country to return to my own indefinitely

>>4893038
That's awful, anon! I was going to tear up reading it. I'd slap those bitches for you if I could.

>>4893038
Lol, i geuss we're the same!

While i was walking towards the entrance of our school, there were a bunch of girls giggling and talking. I thought nothing of it, then one of them started to laugh and the other asked giggling '' Are you laughing at me?''
She pointed at me and said ''No! im laughing at her!''

I kept on walking after that thinking "ah i'm already used to it '' but i geuss i wasn't..

earlier today.
feelin' like a shitty, untalented, and ugly person. then i hurt my boyfriend with my insecurities. we talked it out. he's so great.

stupid problems be stupid.

>>4893017
at least you got it all out. :<
i'm sorry to hear that though, that sucks.

I had a fever of about 105-106 so the hospital threw me into the emergency room and shoved needles and an IV in me so I cried a little because that part fucking hurt.

For emotional reasons though? Umm nothing I can remember but I got really butthurt recently after talking to male friends. The conversation was about school and meeting people which somehow turned into girls they think are hot. They went on and on about super models and how perfect they were and pretty much ragged on average girls which felt great since I think I look average as fuck myself. I guess it just caught me off guard since they're my geek pals but even as geeks they have these crazy high standards. Oh well, I got over it.

>>4893055
sorry to hear that, anon...

Reading all your stories makes me sad, goddamnit.

I am reading this thread with rainymood(dot)com/ playing in the backgound.

>>4893055
OH right, I guess the last time I cried was when my grandfather passed away last year.

it has been... probably about two months now.

i tend to bottle things up, and then once in a while i go into full on break-down mode. just when things get to be too much.

but thats the only time i cry. and i tend to do it on my own, as not to disturn others with all my emotions.

Watching a video of Bom crying

The only time I ever cry anymore is from watching other people do it

>>4893047
Forgot my trip, derp. I've never seen one up close so I'm hoping that they don't make those nasty noises when they crawl.

>>4893055
Damn, that's sad. I'm sorry to hear that.

Hearing about everyone talk about their LDR makes me think of my boy...sigh. I feel for you guys, it's tough.

I can't really recall a time recently, other than two nights before I left for AX because some shitstorm was happening at home. Luckily Smoker kinda sorta talked me out of being gloomy that night. That, at least I was thankful for.

>>4893064
Dear, don't ever feel that way about yourself! You're a beauiful and talented young woman, and I must admit that I am slightly jelly of you! You seem so wonderful and sweet, and I feel like I'm not good enough to be considered your friend.

Today when my boyfriend got laid off and the fact that my job is safe :'( makes me feel shitty

I won't write out something long that will make me really emotional.

But the last time I cried was the other day when Jack Layton passed away.

>>4893133
i know that feel.

>>4893133
as did i. it wasnt even the day he died, it was the day after when the news was flipping between the coverage of his casket arriving at parliment hill and all of the messages people were writing at nathan phillips square.

the positive messages and seeing his family be so strong just killed me

>>4893115
y u so sweet? srsly? thank you. i'm the one who doesn't deserve to be friends with you!
let's hang out soon, okay? i messaged you about it on fb.

Just three weeks ago. My parents decided that since I'm disabled and unable to earn a decent pay anytime soon, they prefer my sister's boyfriend over me.

The last time I cried was because my bf refused to share a bed with me, and wouldn't say why.

>>4893184
When I actually finished The Labyrinth about 2 days ago. I never wanted it to end.

I cried at the beauty of Tree of Life. It's the best film of this decade. I don't need to watch any other film for the next 9 years, because I know that none of that will be as good as this.

I cant even remember the last time I cried.

I pretty much don''t have much emotions.

earlier today. i was watch mlp. idk why but it always makes me teary.

Today. I was in too much pain and nothing helped.

crying right now actually, but stopping. Just because of all the sickness around me, sometimes it helps calm your head to sit there and tear up. But you get through it one step at a time, I take care of my feelings and tears so I can stand strong for those in my family who need me most right about now.

>>4893240
I wish I had you as my family. I'm >>4893226 and all my family did today was yell at me.
Too sick to try and defend myself.
They probably are more grateful than they let on. <3 Keep on keeping on.

A week or so ago, thinking about where I'm going in life.
Shit gets too real sometimes.

>>4893196
did you ever find out why he wouldn't share a bed with you?

Earlier today I had to say goodbye to someone I've known since I was 6.
She's moving to another country for college, and the soonest she can visit is Spring break.
Saying goodbye is the hardest part. I'ma miss her

Watching HP7.2.

Yup.

>>4893267
He said he couldn't sleep, he wanted to sleep elsewhere. It really hurt my feelings, but he just thought I was being childish. I don't know, I thought people in relationships shared a bed and enjoyed it. I guess I'm a weirdo for wanting to cuddle.

>>4893252
Anon, I may not be able to hug you right now in person. But take one big hug from me. We all deserve some one to lean on sometimes, and theres always some one who cares some where. Feel better and keep your chin up. If you ever need to talk, and yeah I know I may be just some chick on the internet, but my aim's in that contact thread Matt posted earlier.

But feel better. You deserve it.

>>4893287
Oh sweetie, I'm sorry, I've given that pain out before.
You never know, though. I have a sleep disorder and really, really can't sleep with anyone else in the bed. I kick, I twitch, I (almost) wake up every 5-6mins, and I'm liable to start acting out my dreams. He might not have a severe disorder or anything, but sleeping problems can be very hard to deal with.
Cuddle with him 3x longer BEFORE bed time.

>>4893296
Thank you hun. The same goes for you. It's hard to be in either situation, and truly, you cannot always be the strong one all the time. Seriously, take some time for yourself whenever you can, it's okay to be the one that needs help. I wish you and your family the best of luck.

>>4893246
and double post, cause that made me smile.

being silly over a guy who's in love with someone else and they don't know. (and then said he had hated me for the past half a year or so and i thought we had been friends :/ (sounds like a sappy teen novel...)
just a bit of a slap tp the face

>>4893287
My mom sleeps on the couch or floor frequently since my dad kicks and she has a pain medical issues. It's not cause she doesn't like my dad, she just can't share a bed.

It's probably not personal?

The other night. Don't really remember. I have random crying spells when I feel lonely, even when I'm not.
Oh, mental issues.
I'm hoping I might make it another couple of days without random crying spells, but I can't promise myself that, considering what's going on. Missing the girl I love and my brother got kicked out of Job Corps, so he's back home. He makes me crazy tense all the time.

I'm crying right now after an offhand comment about my weight. I don't even think they meant anything by it but they might as well have said "Aren't you a little fat piglet?" I managed to keep it together in front of the group but now that I am home, I've just fucking lost it. It's created this hurricane of thoughts of how much of a fat slut I am. My head hurts, I can't stop cting mychest feels all tight.

My older brother called me a whore because I admitted to him that I had a one night stand at a con once. Feels bad to be honest. Like I've let him down.

>>4893352
feel better, anon.

>>4893306
>>4893322
We don't get to spend the night together very often. I wanted it to be special, and it bothers me how my feelings on the situation are belittled. I guess it doesn't matter how I feel, it's all about how he feels and what he wants.

It also bothers me because he's never mentioned anything before about medical issues and not being able to share a bed.

What's the point in having a relationship if I'm just going to sleep alone in a big bed? I'd do better with a body pillow and electric blanket.

About half an hour ago. My mother threw a shitfit because I didn't make her a coffee and left some crumbs in the kitchen last night. And by shitfit I mean, she lobbed a loaf of bread at me, screamed, threatened to punch me and broke a mug. Called me a an ungrateful bitch, to which I reminded her that I'm working for her full time at her shop, met with a "YEAH, 'CAUSE YOU'RE TOO FUCKING LAZY TO GET A PROPER JOB."
Yeah.

>>4893363
what the hell?

Tuesday. I had to put my dog to sleep. She had Lymphoma and her neck swelled up, so she was unable to breathe. I felt terrible watching her gasp for air while she slept, but there was nothing I could do. I dont wish that kind of pain on anyone

>>4893352
Your brother's being a jerk.

>>4893406

I think he's within his rights to call her a whore if she's misbehaving like that. Women need to learn to be respectful and pure again.

Don't follow media trends that tell you to be whores.

>>4893408

This is going to become like the Proud Asian troll isn't it? We're going to be treated to threads lambasting about how the only good women are the "pure" ones and everyone else is disgusting whores who are sexist and don't respect the men.

>>4893262
Wow, the last time I cried was basically the same thing. I was talking to a friend of mine about life and goals, and it started to hit me how horribly unaccomplished I am, and that I have absolutely no idea where I'm going. My friend did a very good job of comforting me though, and said he's actually impressed with the way I'm handling stuff. Such a sweetie.

>>4893363
This situation sounds like one my friend is in vaguely.

Smile.... one of the hardest things is having those words come to you from some one you love like your mother. But never take those words to heart, what matters is what you do with yourself, not words and fights made in the heat of anger. Finding a job can come with time, and it's good you help out at your moms shop.

I hope things end up better for you, these hard times are things that, though it's hard, we just have to push through.

feel better anon. I hope you do.

>>4893424

Nope. I mean it.

I hate the fact everything from MTV, Music to mainstream movies says that girls should be whores, look at the effect it has.

12 years ago, when my mom was in the hospital dying from cancer. Not at the funeral though. Weird.

I cried from laughter.

Scrolled through posts of G+ with random photos and gifs with my sister

Good stuff man.

captcha: flood abitio

Now. Basically my boyfriend's being a complete insensitive jerk and was making me question if the small things I ask from him are too much.

>>4893464
Oh, also, it was about 15minutes ago.

I have overactive tearducts (it earned me my nickname 'Sparky' when I was little because my eyes would always be sparkly with tears), so sometimes the slightest raise of my emotional levels can make me cry. Whenever I laugh at something, I cry. haha

>>4893408
Ummmm....are we watching the same media? The one I see is always telling me that if I have the unthinkable nerve to act upon my natural urges, I'm disgusting and undesireable. Which may be what people like you think, but it's a huge load of bullshit.

Oh and good luck convincing women to be sexless. It's fucking 2011.

>>4893425
I don't let my baw baw fuck my life episodes effect me too much since freaking out about it is at least proof that I care and that I'm passionate about wanting to be successful to a degree.

Thanks for the reply! Good to know I'm not the only nervous wreck out there, hur hur.~

>>4893513
No problem! People tend to think, "I'm the only one who's screwing up all the time, everyone else has their shit together". But really, most people feel like they aren't doing as well as they should be. So I doubt you're a nervous wreck, you're just normal and having the same worries we all have. Some react to it with actual tears, some don't.

>>4893332
Knew it.
crying now.

>>4893493
>Ummmm....are we watching the same media?

Yes, we are. We're watching the same media and advertising industries that turned Abercrombie and Fitch from a traditional clothing store into a store with sexualizes 15 year olds in about 20 years. The same media that says being a single 40 something woman who sleeps with lots of different guys is a desirable lifestyle.

What fucking media are you watching exactly? Or are you one of these idiots who thinks we live in a 'conservative and patriarchal' society?

>>4893580
Not the person you're replying to but:
The media I'M seeing sexualizes women, and then slut shames the fuck out of them.
So.

>>4893580
I think I live in a society where men heavily scrutinize what a woman does or doesn't do with her body, and it's impossible to win because you're always either a prude or a slut. I think I live in a society where men don't hold themselves to the same standards they hold women to. Does anyone expect you to stay a virgin until you're married? Does anyone discern your sexual promiscuity based on what you're wearing? Do you get slammed with words like slut and prude? No, you do not.

I live in a society where women are finally starting to wise up to the fact that they can have active sex lives if they want, and they don't have to be ashamed of it. If you're gonna turn around and tell me you're a virgin and you're gonna stay that way until marriage, good for you, at least you're not a hypocrite. But you are judgmental as hell. Have you ever tried not giving a shit what other people do with their genitals? It's actually really nice.

>are you one of these idiots who thinks we live in a 'conservative and patriarchal' society?

If you hate women so much, why are you here?

>>4893589
This. Don't fill every commercial and magazine with hyper-sexual images of women and then get all upset when real life women embrace and flaunt their sexuality. Besides, if every woman in the country woke up tomorrow and decided to become celibate and dress like nuns, would this make men happy? Fuck no.

>>4893589
>and then slut shames the fuck out of them.

Uh, in what exactly? Most of the major female orientated television shows over the past 20 years have been a "celebration" of promiscuity.

Where did all you feministing/jizzabel trash come from over the past decade?

Go suck a dick.

>>4893608
>and it's impossible to win because you're always either a prude or a slut.

Except it isn't 'impossible', sure, you can't please everyone but this doesn't mean all or even a majority of people see you in a dichotomous way. The reality is that most men do not like promiscuous women for long term relationships however, there's no escaping this.

>I live in a society where women are finally starting to wise up to the fact that they can have active sex lives if they want, and they don't have to be ashamed of it.

Yeah, and what a wonderful society this is.... Increased single parenthood, plummeting birth rates, rising STD rates, increasing numbers of young women doing porn...

>Have you ever tried not giving a shit what other people do with their genitals? It's actually really nice.

My problem is that you aren't satisfied with being sluts yourselves, you want to drag all women down to your level.

Fuck you and fuck the pornified, shit tier, crass culture you've created. I hope you're fucking happy you fucking cavernous cunt.

>>4893580
>Conservative
Maybe not. It's a very relative term and varies by region.
>Patriarchal
Yes, yes, a billion times yes. If you disagree, I bet you're the kind of person who also thinks racism is dead and gone.

I cired the other night; it was my grandma's birthday and she passed away last year. I prayed to god, that which i never do because I'm not very religious, and I askedg od to wish her a happy birthday and tell her that I think about her every day.

>>4893619
Why does it have to be so dichotomous?

You don't have to dress like nuns (although I do think women should cover their hair in Church if they go). You just have to stop dressing up like whores. There are fucking 13 YEAR OLDS who do this now. Where the shit do you think they got it from? The 'conservative' predominant culture? Hahaha.

>>4893624
>increased single parenthood
>plummeting birth rates

LOL what?
No really, what?
What?

>>4893624

Pretty sure you're just a really effective troll like I said before but dude, at least educate yourself.

Sexual revolution happened in the 60s, well before all of our time. You're several decades too late.

You know whose responsible for this culture? Your parents and their generation.

>>4893629
>Yes, yes, a billion times yes.

[citation needed]

Oh, and men occupying high level positions in society at a rate disproportionate to their population means nothing. What counts is whether or not they promote patriarchal values, not whether or not there are more men than women in a given position.

>racism

Define racism in a non-subjective, non-emotional way. Because the fact leftist twats are now applying it to everyone from developmental psychologists to population geneticists shows it means nothing.

As far as Whites go, 'racism' just means an expression of European racial identity. Fuck off back to your sociology class you loon.

Last week when I was listening to Hospice by The Antlers. That song bear...what me and my ex went through.

>>4893640
>Sexual revolution happened in the 60s, well before all of our time.

Yeah, I know it did. What's your point dumbass?

>You know whose responsible for this culture?

Jews.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eros_and_Civilization

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Herbert_Marcuse

>>4893647

That you're acting like this is some new thing. Point is it's not happening, it already happened. Your time frame is the last 20 years, try half a century ago.

I'm trying to help you troll better here dude. Effectively derailed the thread though, I'll give you that.

>>4893624
Holy fuck yes, I am happy. It's fucking awesome. You have any idea how many times I got fucked this last weekend? And I got eaten out until I came, shit was cash. And guess what, the dude's not my husband or fiance or even my boyfriend, just an awesome fuck buddy. Maybe if your ass got laid you wouldn't need to get your knickers all in a bunch over what other people do in bed.

>>4893636
Civilizations do not continue to exist if the most intelligent women do not have children. Sorry.

And single parenthood is like savages. Only filthy animals can't form a monogamous relationship.

>>4893655
I don't care you useless bitch. Life is all about time preference, you evidently have no ability to delay gratification (like a pig in shit). While you may experience hedonistic pleasure now, when you're in your 30s, childless and unmarried, THAT'S when it is going to hit you that you've wasted your life :)

Naturam expelles furca, tamen usque recurret.

Yesterday. My mom told me I was a failure. I've been laid off several times after working in atrociously abusive positions and I've maxed out every single credit card I have. I have completely and literally run out of money and I'm living on crackers and water. Oh, and I have a Bachelor's degree that's done SHIT in getting me a job.

I see no happy future for myself and spent the day in bed, contemplating suicide and feeling sorry for myself. I still don't think there's anything better in the future but I can't bring myself to be selfish enough to kill myself and leave everyone with my mess to clean up.

>>4893661
Annnnnd ...

Confirmed for troll ... because a woman's only purpose in life is to be Daddy's little princes, find her prince and start popping out the next generation of royalty and it's impossible for her to have a satisfying, meaningful or happy live otherwise.

Game over, folks. Get back to the tears and woe.

>>4893668

I said it was a troll three times now and it took you this long to catch on. Jesus fuck people, keep up.

>>4893661
What an ironic quote for you to end your post with.

>>4893661
And I should deny myself physical pleasure because? No really, other than religious bullshit, no one has ever given me a single, sensible reason to NOT have sex, so long as I use protection and I like and trust the person I'm with. All of which are so.

30's? Fuck man, my mom was like 40 when she had my brother and I. How is 30's too late to start a family? You really do live in some other era and are like, using the internet via a time machine. People live to be like 80 now, man.

>>4893668
>Sitting around and getting fucked: Important
>Raising the next generation of children: Unimportant

Feminist logic.

>>4893669
I honestly wasn't reading it until I saw that. I'm more interested in what happens next in the show I'm watching. Sorry.

Next time, I'll be more rabid in my drama-watching.

>>4893672
We need to have a talk about where babies come from, sweetie.

>>4893671
>single, sensible reason to NOT have sex

Sex is like anything that releases endorphins. The more you destroy your ability to delay gratification, the less able you will be to do so when you get married, hence why people with more partners prior to marriage are more likely to commit adultery, which is known as a sin among all the laws of Gods and Men for a good reason.

>30's? Fuck man, my mom was like 40 when she had my brother and I.

That explains your mental retardation at least. You do realize from 30 onwards the prenatal environment becomes increasingly more dangerous for a child right? Selfish pig.

>>4893677
Having sex with someone you couldn't see yourself marrying is pure shit-tier behaviour.

And you obviously don't plan on having children until 100s of men have had their fill of you.

Yesterday. I think the shock of my cousin's funeral approaching really hit me. He was one of my only relatives that didn't treat me and my sisters different for being a different race. I'm going to miss him so much it's really painful.

And I guess the depression of it all made me think about how life is so short, so I should have fun and fall in love,etc. But then I realized the guy I'm currently interested in is 26 and will probably never be interested in me since I'm only 19.

I'm thinking so negatively now.

>>4893678
Okay, I had an excellent laugh, troll-kun, but a few brain cells died in the process. I'm gonna ditch the thread now for my own well being.

About an hour ago.
I could go on forever on why. but the tl;dr: is basically
>parents out of town having a good time, left me in charge
>asked for no parties tonight since d&d had to be here so i could watch the dogs. siblings went lolpartytiem and ignored me saying no smoking since two friends are severly asthmatic.
>smoke in the house is so thick you can see it
>friends took it like champs, saying this was a one time thing and its the first session of this campaign so they can handle it
>accommodate them as much as possible, but eventually they are starting to look ill
>feel like a beta bitch since i wont call cops to stop party, want parents to have one vacation that isn't interrupted
>fucking beta as hell

>>4893684
Why are you so incapable of dealing with views that don't conform to your nonsense?

just now when some fag hijacked this thread

Last Harry Potter movie,
the end of my childhood

>>4893687

If you're in charge then beat their fucking asses and then tell your parents about it.

>>4893710
Would, but every time I try to stand up and fight to them I end up getting my ass kicked royally by them and their friends. Over the years, I've grown passive when it comes to trying to assert myself. I will tell mom and dad when they get back, but I dont want to ruin their vacation. Dad's very sick and Mom wants to enjoy what time he has left, and I want them both to have a good time together while they can. Telling them now would just make them come down her and ruin their vacation they worked so hard for

I always get emotionally invested in fiction so I cry a lot. Yesterday I cried when I rewatched the Samurai Champloo finale.

Jin made his first friends... ;___;

I bawled like mad on my last day in Windsor. Moving stress + SUDDEN CONSTANT FINANCIAL STRAIN + Now being in a long distance relationship piles up on a little OmenMachine.

Then there were panic attacks over stupid things yesterday, but that's not quite the same. The crying is more a side effect than anything.

I cried last night after having to ask my parents for help with the deposit on my new flat.

I study, but despite working part time and during the holidays couldn't manage the deposit and first month's rent up front. Hate feeling so useless and having to ask people for money.

Looking forward to the day when I can stop having to rely on people and make my own way in the world. Obviously not working hard enough just yet!

Can't remember the last time (I think it was about an issue with my self-esteem), but I almost cried because 50+ people died today choked with smoke because a casino was attacked in my city. Those were mostly innocent people that were at the wrong place and at the worst time.
Emergency exits were closed, so they died like trapped animals, suffocated and scared =(

Last time I cried was about two months ago when I was thinking about how badly things turned out with my ex-gf. She cheated on me twice, and now she's happy with somebody new. I'm sad that things turned out so badly, but I guess it's better that I'm gradually leaving both my good and bad feelings behind now.

I didn't actually cry but I sure wanted to.
Last night, I basically realised how lonely and depressed I am. I just want some friends to hang out with and talk about cosplay and shit.

A while ago, I don't know how long it was

I realized that most of my happiness comes from reading about others' happiness

This monday.
It's been an emotional month. So many things going on at home. Promises being broken, arguing with my folks,huge problem created involving the whole family and it's getting really bad.

I miss my sister. She moved and I guess I'm having a hard time dealing with it. She's the one I hang out with the most and we're really close. Playing Tomb Raider, Uncharted, Zelda and so on is not the same without her.

My phone is nowherere to be found and I probably wont find it. Tried calling to it several times, but I get to the answering machine.

Things are not going too well between my boyfriend and I.

Switch monday to now.

Couple days ago. Girlfriend and I are having issues. She claims to not be happy with me anymore, wants to break up. Some points are valid, but honestly, it just terrifies and confuses me. I love her so much, always try to prove so hard that I am there for her, willing to go to any length to please her. Except agree to a break-up. I honestly do not know what I would do without her.

>>4893840
I really know that feel, bro. I recently went through it with a boyfriend I was head over heels for. Try your best to make her see that you love her and want to make her happy, but if in the end she won't change her mind, just remember that things WILL get better. No matter how much you think this person is the only one in the world for you, it's not true, someday you'll move on and find someone you love just as much or more. I swear!

I had been drinking and rewatched Both Vampire Hunter D movies, getting progressively more drunk with each movie.
By the end of Bloodlust I was crying when Graf Meier Ling and Charlotte were in the spaceship because it was so touching. That and in the manga the ending is sadder. I cried bitch tears and actually was on the floor crying and then King Laughter came to visit and i was sobbing and laughing at the same time at how ridiculous it was that I cried but it didnt stop for a while.
Then I watched both Rebuild of Evangelion but Couldnt figure otu how to get teh subs working on the dvd for a while and then i had crazy double vision so I couldnt read much.

4 years ago when I left my girlfriend when I moved away (freshman in high school, beta phaggot)


if you are a man and you cry >1x a year you are a phaggot.

Listening to Modest Mouse-Little Motel. I don't know it just made me really emotional. I watched the video before that and it wasn't even about the video itself, it just put me in that mood you know and that damn song. I don't even know man.

Yesterday, tears of joy. I was down because of my parents, and my boyfriend encouraged me and somehow got me out of that mood. No one was able to do that until I met him. I really love him.

A few months back, when my cat had a seizure the same night I found out my father had died of cancer and my whole family had hid it from me so as not to affect my grades.

This very morning. I had a dream that my ex (whom I love very much) took me back.
When I woke up and it wasn't real it was like her dumping me all over again.

Many hugs to all of you.
Have a cute gif.

Yesterday, I BAWWWW'd my eyes out in my psychiatrist's office. I've been in and out of hospital, and been treated for mental illness my whole life. I'm finally giving up and I just can't take it anymore. I hate being a mess, I hate not being able to cope with 'normal' things, and I hate feeling like I'm getting nowhere with this, I hate not being able to do anything anymore (including cosplay) because I simply don't get enjoyment out of anything at all. Most of all, I hate constantly thinking about suicide and having seemingly random compulsions to kill myself. I really wish I had the guts to just do it :/

Crying right now... Just remembered the hurtful words my dad told me on Tuesday while he helped me move into my new apartment. That I was a failure and that I don't amount to anything. That he wished he had a different daughter. I just... I've always tried to make my parents proud and wanted to earn their love but I don't think I'll ever get it.

It also got me to think how worthless I really am. How I barely have friends and I'm not really going anywhere in life. I wish I could talk to some of my friends about my depressive moods but I feel even crappier because I know compared to a lot of people in the world my life is great. I just feel so worthless.

Haha, I can't believe I'm shaking now...

>>4893938
I wish I could meet you IRL. You are the geneder opposite of me.

>>4893944
Haha, I doubt you'd want to meet an awkward turtle like me. :C

On monday, I went to visit my grandfather (with my dad and sister) who is in hospital, as soon as I saw him, I died inside, he was as pale as a sheet and frail looking, as soon as he saw me and my sister he started crying.
It was hard not to cry, he had always been very healthy and active, possibly the heathiest elderly man in our family, but seeing him like that made me feel like a piece of shit for not visiting him before.
But the thing that makes me rage about this whole situation is that before he was sent to this hospital, he went to another one where he was treated for something different, and in that shithole he managed to get this virus that was basically eating the life out of him. (sorry for being so generic)

I hate when people around me are sick.
I hate visiting realtives in hospitals.
I hate hospitals.

Last time I truly cried like a baby was at my grandad's funeral, but I'm tearing up now just thinking about it.

I only got to see my grandad every other weekend when my boyfriend would drive me up to see my dad for the weekend and we'd usually visit my nan and grandad on the way back. That weekend we decided not to visit them, as we were both tired and just wanted to get home.
The next morning I got a call from my dad saying grandad was in hospital and wasn't expected to live much longer. I had known he had lung cancer for a while, but he seemed to be coping just fine. They live about three hours away, but my mum said she'd drive me up. Just as we were about to leave, my dad called me again and told me that he'd passed on. Apparently he was so drugged up on morphine he wouldn't of known I was there anyway. I still feel like shit every time I think about it, okay, NOW I'm crying like a baby again.

tl;dr I'm a horrible person, I miss my grandad ):

uh... the other day, when the guy i wanted to get back together with said it would be best we didn't.
what really blows is that nothing really went wrong, he just feels that "i'm not the one" and isn't willing to give it a second chance to see if he might be wrong.

Not cried for sometime even when my Arm was dislocated. I do have a tendency to complain a lot but I've not cried for goodness how long, stiff upper lip and all that.

last time i cried was two days ago, and it was because my boyfriend was making fun of me.

i know he doesnt mean it, but its really frustrating when i'm trying to be serious and he's not taking anything seriously and just jokes around and picks on me. ._. i was bullied a lot in school too, and am a pretty sensitive person, so it hurts my feelings really badly when i ask him to stop making fun of me and he wont.

It was about 3 weeks ago. Me and my friends were supposed to go to the Spa together, but they forgot to tell me the day and the place. So evidently I did not show up. Then they accused me of forgetting about the message they sent me, when I never received any message at all.

Cried so much I tought I could die.

>>4893996
Actually, I remember that thread, vaguely mind you. I do hope things have patched up since then.

an hour ago when my favorite JTV stream went offline for 8 minutes

About 5 minutes ago.Because I'm a delusional retaded, who's got no future, and my life is a mess, and I can only think about being a hero.

Right now. I'm putting my artificial tears in.

...You fucking ableists.

>>4894011
All streams did, they've been having problems with the chat for the past few days and tried to fix it, taking down the entire site with them

Fags

Serious cry? Last week because everything just piled on and I couldn't hold it anymore.

I teared up yesterday because I ended up looking at Yahoo's homepage to check my email, and they had the story about how a fallen soldier's dog just sighed and settled down by his casket.

I cried just this evening because I can't hold down a relationship.

Yesterday. Just dropped out of school for the 5th time. Realized I'm never going back and I will never graduate high school.

>>4894019
Hey, if you need to talk, AIM is in the email. Nobody should ever feel that way.

The last time I cried for any real emotional reason was a few months ago around some time last year when my grandmother lost her dog. She had him cremated and put in a little box with a picture someone painted of him behind it on her mantle. And a little poem. And a little statue with wings. It reminded me of a few years before when my other grandmother put her dog down because he lost the ability to use his back legs. FFFFFF- the tears are returning. Why do I have a soft spot for animals.

Today.

I have no problem moving out by next week but I do have a problem with my mother denying me the comfort of having a mother. Yes, I am 18+ but I'm gunna fucking cry when my sister beats me or my shit is stolen. It's happened ever since I was 15, piss off. I just want her to understand my feelings, why I'm more bitchy that usual and jesus christ, why I freaked out when she said it's normal for a 15 year old to do those things? Are you kidding me? I really wish I didn't move out because of this mess and I'd move out because I graduated, I had a good life with my own family and that I felt successful and confident.

>>4893938
You must be me.
I found it best that maybe I should move out. Now I know why my aunt decided to not speak to us anymore. My mom's batshit from unsuspectingly adopting batshit kids and my dad's a drunk. Just remember that you're on your own so focus on you for now. When they need something, reply but don't give them too much to rope on.

Wow, I want to hug all of you.

The last time I cried was when I was watching One Piece. 5 minutes ago.

my best friend was in a hospital bed unconscious and the doctor said he probably would live through the night. he had be fighting cancer for over a year and a half at that point. I just felt like he was such a good person and didnt deserve that kind of torture.

he ended up living and is still alive but in a vegatative state in hospice at home. its a hard things to watch/deal with. I know people have gone through worse but yea ;_;

Got my cat's ashes back from the vet today.
When I called my girlfriend to ask if she wanted to help throw a little funeral. She said no, she "always hated that fucking furbag" and by the way, "I dont like girls anymore. This seems like a good time to tell you that I've been cheating on you with a guy the whole summer while you were counseling at that stupid camp."

>>4895705
What the shit?

Are you serious?

God damn it anon. Why does bad stuff always happen to the nicest girls ;_;

My best friend and roommate has severe depression. Monday she had an episode. We went to the ER together because she was afraid she might hurt herself and I didn't want her to go alone so I went with her. I thought about losing her today and went to pieces waiting for a class to start.

>>4895705
Holy fucking shit, did you punch that bitch in the face? Or at least cuntpunch her?

I'm the kind of person that would do and does anything for my friends. From the outside, I look really popular and like I have a lot of friends, but it couldn't be farther from the truth. I've stared at this suicide hotline number for hours. I've never called it. My therapist thought I needed it. Said anyone with my past couldn't be well adjusted.

I always thought that if I had friends, I could take on the world. I have no family to speak of. I'm a push over. People walk all over me and I let them. Because I do this, no one is ever really my friend. Usually they just spend their time judging me and telling me all my faults, this is of course after they use me for everything I have. That's the few that have the guts to say stuff to my face. People wrote me off after an accident and I ended up in the hospital. The few that were left took out their anger and aggressions on me because I didn't put up a fight.

I no longer see the point in living. I have nothing. I will always be in someone's shadow and I will never have a true friend. The only thing that has kept me alive all these years is proving them wrong. I can't play this game anymore.

Today was the last time I cried because I realized how pathetic I am. I don't deserve my life.

Wednesday. Life's rough

>>4895705
..... My response. Fuck that asshole!!! Here's to her getting an STD from that dude

>>4896220
Hey. Call that number. Please.

If not that number, then mine. I've said it before, but nobody should ever feel like that.

>>4895705
I feel like my reason for crying is dumb now...

>>4896261
you're a pretty good dude.

>>4896220
areason.org
call the hotline, anon. give yourself at least that.

>>4896220
Call that number or don't quit. If you've been proving them wrong all these years then why stop now.

You were given a life for a reason. If you didn't deserve it, you wouldn't have been given it. Don't stop fighting for what you believe in and definitely call that number.

>>4896287
I'm only a good dude because I've been there. I know what it's like to feel like you've got nobody to turn to. I swore to myself that if I find anyone that is ever like that, I would be the person that extends a hand.

>>4896292
>>4896289
This.

>So we'll hunt him because he can take it. Because he's not our hero. He's a silent guardian, a watchful protector. A Dark Knight.

A reminder that no matter how implausible, nobility still exists.

>>4896220
I feel you. I've been there a lot of times before.

If you don't think that the friends you have deserve you, you need to get out more and meet new people. Got to new and different events, take up a new hobby. Until you find the right person/people. I'm still searching for someone who could be a best friend. I have a lot of good to ok friends, but I'll be honest I'm not sure a lot of them really 'care' about me either in the same way you're feeling.

I have hope I'll find the right people to invest my time in eventually though. Look forward to that rather than being sad you don't have it yet! I'm a doormat too. Shit sucks. You can learn to say no though.

Therapy has helped me. You need to talk. I'm currently doing hypnotherapy which is neat. I can't give you a reason to keep going, you have to push on and find one yourself. I am reading a book called "What's stopping you?" which touches on a lot of things that stop you from achieving a potential in general. Maybe pick it up if you can.

Depression sucks but you can learn to live with it.

About an hour ago, with happy overjoyed tears. Because i found out the person I love, has the same feelings. kdsljgdldfk

My life is shit, I have to move. My best friend doesn't give a fuck about how much she's hurt me, my life is in the toilet and she's just peaches and doesn't miss me or give a fuck about me at all.

>>4896301
hah, that's what makes a good dude

>4896325
straight up.

>>4896220
If I built my life around what others thought of me, I would have slit my wrists a long time ago.

From your datapoint and mine, we can probably begin to draw a conclusion that building your life around what others think of you may not be the best idea.

Find the things that make you happy -- you know what they are already -- and focus on those. For me, it's work. I work like hell. 70, 80, 90 hours per week depending on what's going on. It's not like I stop thinking about work when I come home, so really it's even more, but I'm not trying to brag here. I'm just trying to relate what occupies my time.

It's when your brain has a few spare CPU cycles that things start to get a bit dicey, right? The solution is to not give yourself enough time to feel lonely. Eventually you'll just forget what it was you thought you were missing, and you'll be able to enjoy the things you enjoy now all the more, because that nagging feeling that something is missing will be expunged.

You have a life to live. Go change the world. If your friends don't care about you, fuck 'em. Whether or not you kick ass isn't their choice. It's yours.

>>4896344
Cut her out of your life. You could do better. You DESERVE better.

>>4896418
You are amazing. Please, keep it up.

I'm just tired of being in love with my best friend.

>>4896577

oh, and today.

Last night.

It's all real stupid and nothing compared to the rest of the stuff in this thread, but it's getting to me.

There's this real cunty girl in my group of friends. She's not exactly mean to me, but she just has that real shitty whiny attitude. She also talks shit about some of the other guys when they aren't around. She's a huge attention whore too. If it's not about her, she'll make it about her. She'll overexaggerate everything she does and everything that happens to her just to get attention. On top of that, she's also one of those ROFL SO RANDUMB XD types. Extremely obnoxious.

She's also all over my boyfriend. She's always being all buddybuddy with him and it makes me sick. He says that she's just a good friend and it's not like that, but to me she's just an awful, awful person and I can't see why anyone would ever like her.

I started crying when I realized the only way I'll be rid of her is if I leave my boyfriend and all of my friends, who are my only and best friends.

>>4896629

You sound jealous bitch.

Upset I'm getting more attention from your man then you have been lately?

Reading this thread really makes me realize how trivial the things that I'm upset with are right now.

So what if this first from-scratch costume of mine doesn't look like it's got the money that I've put into it showing. I cried the other day realizing that I just don't belong in a community of cosplayers because I'm just that bad at it.

But yeah, quite trivial to the rest of you lost. Many condolences and hugs all around. Keep up the good fight, and I hope you can find the strengths and comforts to continue on.

Last time...

hmm. last I can recall was at my father retirement ceremony from the US Navy... The guy giving the speech was a SEAL spending his last tour in as a reserve center CO before getting out the next year himself... he only knew my father for a year before his retirement but he really knew how to speak...

Outside of that, I can't recall any crying in the last ten or so years... but I get close some nights... haven't seen the wife in 8 months... our work keeps us apart for long periods right now... won't see her for another month or so..

One by Metallica is playing now... know that feel.

>>4892973
Being unemployed doesn't mean the person doesn't have a lot of money saved up. Golddiggers.

>>4893133
That was a terrible day.

I was watching season two of Glee and that one girl died. Not saying who because spoilers and I hate spoilers.

But yeah I think I'm PMSing. I only ever cry over TV shows when I'm PMSing.

>>4897014 I cried buckets. I hate when TV makes me cry.

>>4896905
Rob, don't quit. Your outfit is looking great and all the effort we keep seeing put into it just shows the dedication you have. Plus you're an awesome guy and in this community as long as you're having fun with the rest of us nerds that's what matters most!

You keep up the good fight too man!

>>4896905
If you cant do it then I cant do it.

AND I WILL NOT LET THAT BE A POSSIBILITY.

YOUR COSTUME WILL LOOK FUCKING AWESOME.

I had a breakdown in front of my family. I don't think they feel any love for me. It got worse when they admitted they don't. That positivity I like to hold on to so dear? It's freaking saccharine now.

I think what bothers me the most is, not that they don't love me/care, but that there's no reason. I mean, I would love to fix what part of me drives them to apathy, but when you just don't care because of, well, all of me? Terrible feeling. Terrible.

I also used to wake up crying after nightmares. Happened again recently.

>>4897014
Was it Lea Michelle's character? God I hope so.

>>4893682
i know that feel actually very well, which is scary.. I'm in love with a guy who's turning 27 next month and Im 18. Everyone pushes us together and tells me that him and I would be so great together, but when were together I can tell that he'll never think anything of me but a younger sister. i really like him, but Im not sure if it's worth it at all. I feel like crying when I see his face, just because I cant get over him but I'm too beta to tell him how i feel.

>the guy I'm currently interested in is 26 and will probably never be interested in me since I'm only 19.
>he'll never think anything of me but a younger sister.
Oh my, you two are are making a mountain out of a molehill. Few guys in their twenties view themselves as too mature for 18-19 year olds. Just because they have picked up a bunch of friends and acquaintances around their own age from school and uni doesn't mean they're only interested in people of that age. You're both legal adults now, which opens up new possibilities for socializing with your crushes so get cracking.

I was defending my mom from my brother and he spat in my face three times.

I always feel like crying when I think about the fact that I'm going to outlive my boyfriend.

Last night. I broke up with my girlfriend because of her problem with drinking. Even though she hasn't had a drink for a month, I can't stand the idea of a relapse, the past 5 or so relapses hurt too much.

I still wanna be her friend and hangout, cause she's cool.

I don't feel like my boyfriend of 2 years and I are right for each other. I don't know why, we get along great, we have complimentary senses of humor, a lot of hobbies in common, and I find him physically attractive. He treats me like gold and is always there to comfort me when I'm feeling down. I'm scared that I feel this way just because I'm used to going out with guys who abuse me. I feel like I'm not content just because there's no drama in our relationship. I want to stop these feelings and find ways to appreciate him, but it's really hard. I don't want to betray him or abandon him, I just want us to be able to have a healthy relationship. I don't want to lose my best friend, but I can barely go on dates with him anymore without breaking down.

>>4898422
oh, and to make it worse, people just keep telling me to "stop thinking about it." If I distract myself, I end up feeling better, but is that really the right thing to do? It makes sense to ignore irrational feelings, but at the same time people are always telling others to "never ignore your instincts." I can't be sure whether I'm just having irrational feelings, or whether this is really my instincts trying to tell me something. I don't believe in "true love" or people who were "meant to be," so I don't know why this would be a valid problem. I'd much rather stay with him than date a bunch of guys in meaningless relationships that end up in boredom or fights after 3 weeks, so why is my mind hellbent on not being together?

I just wish someone would care about me.

>>4898422
Anon, I feel like this. I was physically, emotionally and sexually abused by my mother and my first serious boyfriend. Guys and guys later, I am with a boyfriend who treats me like gold and would never hurt me if it was the last thing he ever did, and I'm scared that the abuse is MY fault, like it's something wrong with ME that makes people abuse me, and as nice as he is now - eventually it'll end the same as my other relationships have. We actually discussed this last night. We came to the conclusion that there's no real way for him to "prove" he'll never touch me, and I just have to trust that he won't. It's hard, though. I keep feeling like, yeah - he doesn't hit me now, but one day he will. Because that's the only sort of relationship I've ever known. I don't have any real advice for you. Just letting you know that someone else understands. I don't want to leave my boyfriend because of it, I just want the feeling that eventually he'll turn into my ex to go away. I'm hoping it does.

Couple days ago, when I realized I'm not actually over her, and at this rate I feel like I never will be.
The butterflies of love are nice, but I want to move on already.

>>4898438
>>4898422
you need to speak to someone about this. a therapist; work on your self-image issues. It could be you're sabotaging yourself because of past issues.
You have a healthy relationship, you just have personal hangups with abuse and drama.
Seek help and connect with him, even go to couples therapy after you've gone through your own.

In the end, if after all that, you still feel the same, you can know you did everything you could. You can be happy without drama.

Last night I just started crying because I feel like I don't do as much for my boyfriend as he does for me. I know it's not supposed to be a thing where you keep score, but he just seems so much more free with his affectionate gestures than I am. There's nothing that makes me think that he's unhappy with the way things are. We've talked about it before. But I am paranoid that he misses how clingy/mushy his ex was. (He thought it was cute sometimes.)

I'm sure we'll talk about it soon, I just needed to sort it out by typing. Thanks /cgl/.

I am 5'3 at 114 pounds, I dont have high blood pressure but I am so stressed. I suffered a stroke the other day. It was horrible, I didnt even think young people could have strokes...
I cryed later on from the thought the man I have been with for years isnt by my side anymore. He isnt even my friend and yet I still love him, would want to marry him even. I wish he was here, "baby I was so scared" I would say but I would be in the arms of my lover, the arms of my best friend. It hurts although I have been brave for a long time on days like yesterday I was so vulnerable. I love him so much. I wonder if he found out I had a stroke or what I have been dealing with, what he would do. I wonder if he would come running to my rescue. I wish and I hope.
and if not....well I am trying to keep my chin up and find someone who will for me and I will for them.

Last night. My boyfriend of two years is wonderful I love him deeply but I don't know if he loves me. Also I feel fat again I put on 4 pounds while on a diet as staying over my boyfriends his mum likes cooking us meals which are delicious but I can only eat a very strict diet without putting on weight.
I wrote a long letter telling my BF how much I love him etc etc to help me fall to sleep.

last week; i wanted to go to my brother's deputy graduation, a huge milestone in his life. I planned a road trip and when that fell through due to a shitty car (drove all day and had to turn back ugh) i went to look at plane flights. I had this massive panic attack because i'd have to fly alone, rather than have my best friend with me like with the road trip.
I panicked so much due to the frustration and stress i had to take 4 sedatives and sleep through a day. I've flown alone before, but this time i just wasn't as mentally prepared for it as i thought and i had to puss out.
I've never been more upset with myself. My brother understood, but ill never forgive myself for being such a baby and not getting down there.

I really need to get my anxiety issues under control.

Earlier today, dog bit the bridge of my nose, which irritated my eyes

>>4897286
>>4897294
Thanks for the encouragement guys. I just need to keep rolling with the punches and we'll see how ready I am for this weekend.

Exboyfriend keeps on trying to talk to me. We're both just off to college but he still wants to be together and whatnot. We broke up in January and lately is the only time he's talked about what our relationship was. We've been friends since, but apparently he still liked me when we broke up and now is the only time he had the balls to talk to me.

I'm so finished with all of this but it doesn't make it hurt less.

Two things have made me cry recently. I feel left out from my friends. I always find pictures of them hanging out together and it seems like they don't even try to hide it. I invited my best friend to a concert once, but she said that she 'forgot' that I asked her and went with all of our friends and they didn't even invite me to come along. There's a lot of other things that make feel bad that they've done, but I'm not going to list them all. The other thing that's made me cry is the guy I like. Just, everything about him makes me happy but at the same time I feel like crying..... ♥

>>4898572
I haven't been able to afford therapy since I got fired from my job because I wasn't "connecting to customers" (lately I've just gotten more and more depressed). I'm also a student, so I can't just get a fulltime job at McDonalds or something. My dad is out of the picture and my mom won't pay for real therapy because she's convinced that I don't have a problem and that medication is evil. So, I've either going to economized guidance counselors or school guidance counselors. They basically have absolutely nothing to say. They say "yes, you have a problem where you focus on one issue and ignore any rational explanation for it (for example, having a small argument with boyfriend and freaking out assuming we're not right for each other). However, none of them really tell me how to help this. They say I have a problem, but don't give me any way to help it. They suggest medication, but I can't afford it and as I said before, my mom thinks it's evil. She put me on some herbal crap, but that's not doing anything. Furthermore, because I'm not of "mature age" to have "mature relationships" (I'm 18) they assume that our relationship was built on childish infatuation and that it's not worth fighting for. In my mind, it doesn't matter how old I am, if I'm with someone who is compatible with me, who I enjoy being with, and who is special to me, why not fight for it? I feel like I cared about him at all, even as just a friend, I'd try as hard as possible not to hurt him. Not even trying to mend the relationship and just letting it go to date guys who don't have much in common with me that I just date because they're someone new to pay attention to me would be the ultimate "fuck you." So, I don't have much trust for guidance counselors.

>>4899067
Damn dude. Hmm.. I'm sure there's some way for you to get real help.

I'll see if i can research an answer for you friend.

>>4899377
iirc, there are mental health professionals that only ask you what you can pay instead of having flat rate.

Check it:

http://findahealthcenter.hrsa.gov/Search_HCC.aspx

Last night, when I was reading The Dark Tower. I just finished the section "In This Haze of Green and Gold"... Oh god. So many tears. I thought Eddie was bad enough, but this was so much worse. I cried myself to sleep after.

Stephen King, I want to love you unconditionally, but... but sometimes you make it so hard. ;__;

>>4899067
Are you me? Holy fuck. Minus my parents knowing about it and a small age difference our situations are frighteningly similar.

Just a little earlier. I'm off to uni tomorrow.
Shit scared.. I've lived a very sheltered life on a Scottish island so far.
I don't know how I'm going to cope. I have terrible social skills, I'm not pretty. Life skills are minimal.. I don't think anyone in my class will like me.
And then there's the guilt of leaving my parents to cope with my violent autistic brother. It seems so unfair I can get away from everything when they can't.
Also my student loan hasn't gone in yet.
Just a bit emotional right now.
Being on my period isn't helping either.

My boyfriend left for basic this past Tuesday... I last saw home that monday, I nearly lost my shit when he left.

Since Tuesday it's been a constant battle not to cry and I just keep pushing it down. Every night I hope and I pray I see him in my dreams. But I never do. Sunday is coming, hopefully I get to hear his voice...

I thought I was ready and I would be fine but I'm not

>>4898438
>>4898554
I feel sorry for your boyfriend. Having to deal with some bitch who wants to leave him for some random drug dealer just so she can have her drama needs fulfilled.

>>4899496
I feel sorry for him too. I wish I could be happy with him more than anything in the world. I wish I could be affectionate and loving and treat him as well as he treats me.

this.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qiz-y_QfkaU&feature=player_embedded#!

>>4899417
how are you dealing with it? I feel so stupid looking around on 4chan for answers, but it feels nice to know that other people are going through the same thing. >>4899411
I've considered this- maybe getting a part time on campus job or something. I get 20 dollars a week in allowance, but using that on therapy would mean I'd never get to go out except to go to therapy, which I doubt is good for me. Possibly I could only use ten dollars a week, save it up, and go once every two weeks?

>pic related

just now. i lost my father in the bosnian war, was browsing through some old photos.

Just under a month ago. We had a big family reunion and I was having so much fun hanging out with my twin sister (who lives several states away), her awesome husband, and my two adorable nieces. Saying goodbye was extra difficult. She's my other half! Don't know if all twins feel the same way, but I feel there is a special connection between us that many wouldn't understand.

This afternoon, I cried for the first time in as long as I can remember. Not sobbing or anything, just got all choked up and shed a tear.

It was the ending of Toy Story 3, which I was watching for the first time.

>>4900534
I know that feel, bro. You're not alone. I was crying when I first saw that movie in theaters.

>>4900534
oh fuck me, that was sad as donkey dicks. I kinda cried.

WHAT? NO I AM NOT CRYING, I JUST HAVE DIRTY IN MY EYES. B-BAKA!

Kinda 30 minutes ago.
Stopped my car on the railroad tracks out in a remote part of our county.
The gates started flashing and coming down, and I saw the headlights of a car ease up about a quarter mile behind me.
I backed out. It wasn't too late. But what about next time when I decide to wait about forty seconds longer to start the ignition...?

I feel like I can't talk to my family about my emotions because I think they're so bad that it actually upsets them (and it has before). I'm not sure how I'm supposed to express my feelings in a passive and pleasant way when they are anything but that. I feel isolated, and I feel like I'm only adding fuel to the flames when I feed my family the delusion that I'm some strong, successful college student that's hurt-proof. The reality is that I'm a hurt, fat, and tired girl that's barely keeping her head above water.
Truth? Truth is when I'm gone I won't care who missed me and who danced on my grave, just so long as I don't have to face the guilt and shame that is my life. I'm too proud to admit there's problems, bad ones, and too much of a coward to confront them to the people I have those issues with.

>>4900713
Please, seek professional help. Talk to a counselor, therapist, psychiatrist, something. You are not alone in this. The part of you that wants to stay is obviously stronger than the part that wants to let go, but it sounds like you're at the point where you can't turn things around through willpower alone (as I am).

I've known for years that I was suffering from depression but didn't want to get any kind of help for it. I thought this would "legitimize" the depression somehow, whereas I was convinced that it was just me being weak. I didn't want to burden those close to me with it (and still don't). But just last week I finally broke down and talked with a therapist who confirmed my suspicions. Even though I haven't actually done anything towards recovering, it feels immensely better just to have the weight off my chest, and to have spoken to someone who not only knows what I'm dealing with but knows how to help. I have another appointment next week.

There IS help for you. Don't waste as many years as I have trying to deal with it on your own.

>>4893938
>I wish I could talk to some of my friends about my depressive moods but I feel even crappier because I know compared to a lot of people in the world my life is great.

I feel the same way. It's one of the reasons I waited as long as I did to get help, but remember that no matter what the underlying reasons are for why you feel the way you do, the feelings themselves are very real. You deserve to be happy as much as anyone else, and the fact that other people have bad shit going on in their lives doesn't mean you should be miserable all the time.

Never
Men don't cry

Forever.

Crying forever.

Last night. I'm coming to terms with the fact that the relationship with my boyfriend (who I live with) is an emotionally abusive one and that he isn't going to change. I'm bitter over the amount of work and hope I've put into it and I'm so scared that I'm damaged goods now.

>>4902664
you are not damaged goods. you deserve better than him. leave him. he will beg, threaten, and demand that you stay, but do. not. stay. it is not worth it. you deserve someone who will love you as you are without belittling you. once again, YOU ARE NOT DAMAGED GOODS. leave him ASAP. and no matter what happens, do not return. you are so much better than that.

I got selfishly mad at the girl who wanted wig pictures because she has cancer. I'll always have epilepsy and have to take my stupid pills, when her cancer goes into remission, her treatments will stop, and her hair will grow back.

It wouldn't be so bad except I would love to shave my head. I used to have a beautiful long mohawk, but now I live with my dad again because I might hit my head in the shower and I can't drive, and I can't give a sign that I'm anything but straight.

CAPTCHA: weak* rodsturn

Two nights ago.
I came down with strep/tonsillitis (didn't go to a doctor, just a guess. I've had tonsillitis a lot before, so I'm pretty sure it was that) a few days ago, and the pain got so bad I couldn't even swallow my own spit. I'm a wuss anyway, but a mouthful of water felt like razorblades and shards of glass were having a dance party in my throat. Tried to eat some applesauce and just broke down crying from the pain.
I seriously can not do pain.

Yesterday, actually! Funny story, really...

So a close friend of mine is leaving for college, and we're having our goodbye, and I can feel the bitch tears welling up but we just had a great time hanging out together so i'm not about to ruin this with sadness. I figure I can contain myself until I get to my room once she leaves. So she's walking to her car, but she's taking a long time about it, turning around and waving and saying little things like "Enjoy the rest of your summer!" and "Don't change too much without me!" and i'm waving back and laughing but it's getting HARD for me to act casual when i'm about to unleash a deluge down my face. So finally she gets to her car, and I run inside as fast as I can because there's no stopping the flood at this point. So I slam the door shut and the dam just breaks, and i'm sobbing in my mud room, and my dog is going crazy barking at me, and i'm telling her to shut up for about three minutes. Anyways, I finally compose myself and start to walk to my room when I notice my parents WERE HAVING A PARTY CONSISTING OF ALL OUR NEIGHBORS and they were all in the next room, staring at me like I was some kind of greek tragedy.

Well, it was pretty embarrassing then, but i'm over it now.

>>4902664

I was with an abusive man like that, and believe me for the longest time I was convinced I was only a warm wet hole to fuck and that I was being needy for asking him to love me.

I still struggle with it now, but I know for a fact that we are not damaged goods. Damaged goods would still take a man's crap and never realize how they can do better.

Today.
Realized that, as happy as I am with my girlfriend, and happy as she is with me, our value system is too different and there's little hope of a healthy long term relationship. I'll have to cut it short.

I also think she's asexual, or just not as interested in girls as she claimed to be...I can't stand all the doubts i'm experiencing, especially when i'm struggling with my own sexuality currently. I don't need other people's issues too.

Month ago cause I was feeling very overwhelmed with how my school is and future blah blah blah.

It's ok to cry every now and then but you have to pick yourself up.

I cried about the fact that I'm forever alone, about ten days ago. Realizing how pathetic I was made me cry even more.
It was a bad day.

Yesterday, when I watched Phineas and Ferb Movie.
...Yeah.

This is embarrassing but...

I cried over being alone. It was a month or two ago. My friend started dating the guy I liked, and for a while I tried my best to be happy for them but couldn't shake off how pathetic I felt. So I logged off from the chat I was having with them and bawled my eyes out almost the entire night. Afterwards I took two days off and didn't talk to anyone, not her, not him, and not my circle of friends, to get a hold of myself.

It kinda worked, but I still have that weight on my chest.

>>4903387
Did she know you liked him before they started dating? :|

Last time I cried was when Conan was leaving his show.

after i watched this video

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EOAcRKZxjy4

>>4903404
.... Yeah. A few days ago actually she messaged me and apologized. They broke up a few weeks later.

"I thought you liked him, I ruined your chances. I'm sorry."

I'm happy she apologized but... Still really doesn't cut it for me quite yet... I'm still bitter over it. And I'm bitter with myself for being angry at her still.

>>4903433
you should be bitter about the fact that you didn't have enough courage to ask him out in the first place instead.

Last friday, I went to some party and since I'm not used to drinking I ended up very drunk. But the bad thing is that I ended up having sex with some guy whose name I couldn't even remember the day after. I'm still feeling like shit.

>>4903444
Yeah, I'm bitter about that too. I can never express my feelings to others, it's a lose-lose situation.

Last night at a wedding I had to go to. I cried when I saw the bride dance with her father, because my dad refused to come to my wedding from earlier this year. It makes me very emotional.

Just now I'm watching the interview with George W. Bush about his reaction when 9/11 happened. I always get teary eyed when they show clips of the people running, screaming & you see the people in the windows of the world trade center waving for help or jumping out the windows.

Ugh I can't control the tears right now, even 10 years after it happened I watch these documentaries and cry

>>4903433
If they were only together like five minutes you still have a shot, jus' sayin'.

If she dated him without concern for your feelings, then alls fair IMO. It's not like they dated for a long time or anything.

Bros before hoes is only acceptable if they return the favour.

Either Thursday or Friday morning, over the student production I was in. The run would end Saturday, and I was listening to that one song that the first four members of Houkago Tea Time played for Azusa in the final episode.

It came naturally...I know I'll miss those guys and the crazy times we've had.