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08/18/11(Thu)01:43 No.4864170>>4864037 This
is me. I dunno how to talk to people. Cons are the easiest place to
try, but in the end I think I still bother people and it's probably
better to just stop trying so I stop being a burden. Either way I guess
I'm a burden though, but less so when I'm not giving someone an awkward
time when they would otherwise be fine. I thought I'd get used t it
after a while, but I haven't really.
I grew up with no siblings.
My father was really social, but my parents split up when I was very
young. My mother doesn't exactly neglect talking to me, but she's not
very talkative with anyone but her friends. So in the end I guess it was
mostly my family upbringing. No eating at a dinner table with people to
talk with, nor any real role model to see how people converse. The
little friends I had usually just came over and played video games with
me, and we'd do commentary on maybe TV shows or something as well. But
actual conversation wasn't something that I experienced much.
I
don't think I'm making excuses. I just was fairly isolated from social
interaction when growing up. It's funny actually, because my parents are
proud that I'm not like all the other kids that their friends had
around the time I was born (who dropped out, or got into drugs, or went
out partying every night at the age of like 15, and getting pregnant
before being 18, etc.) But they feel it's almost as if I was TOO GOOD of
a kid. They expected to run into troubles, but never did. And my father
was a little annoyed that I never got into liking alcohol and I turned
down his offer to take me to a strip club at my 21st birthday. That
stuff just isn't appealing at all to me.
I strayed off topic, didn't I? I didn't think I was awkward online, but maybe I am even here. |