Don't have any confessions but oh shit, I know the bitch in this secret thing.

What's the source on this?

a girl liked me and I led her on just so I could reject her because I've never done it before
felt good

I'm constantly competing with my best friend and cosplay partner for attention/popularity

>>4841685
Found it here: http://ljcos-secrets.livejournal.com/5944.html#cutid1

>>4841699
I know that feel anon
though its more just I'm constantly overshadowed by my best friend and she gets all the attention and whatnot even when we cosplay together. I kinda stand off to the side and hold her purse while she gets photographed alone. and the bitch doesnt even ask to have me in the picture.

I'm average and i try my best when making my cosplays but they still look a bit bad.
I hate that my friend who is really pretty makes all her costumes in her seamstress and is very popular i our cosplay scene and when people ask her if she made it she just said that she had ons of help. Makes want to punch her in the face.

I want to be well-known but without too much drama in the cosplay community. I suck at cosplaying though and my skills are still extremely rough and new so I don't see it happening

>>4841701

Thanks, this cracks me up.

I'm scared to sleep because I keep having scary dreams about my ex.

I'm a little sleep deprived.

I hate when my cosplay "friend" tries to weasel into gatherings with her shitty cosplay. She puts her cosplay together 2 days before a con, and I work months on mine. You don't even seem to LIKE what you're cosplaying from, jesus christ. I know she's good at putting things like costumes together too, but she's too fucking lazy to get her shit together before contime, then she asks me to do all the hard work for her. Then I have someone else who always pushes the cosplay sewing on me days before the con. FUCKING DO IT YOURSELF. I AIN'T YOUR SLAVE, FUCK.

I once had a cosplay partner who tried her hardest to make sure I didn't improve as a cosplayer so I would stay at her level. Everyone saw I had potential on the craftsmanship end, but for a year and a half I made nothing but halfassed, simple cosplays because she would beg and plead until I finally gave in and did a duo with her.

A year later, I've kicked her to the curb and I'm now competing at Master level with costumes I've wanted to do for ages. Feels good man.

There's a girl dressing as the same character as me for an upcoming con, saw her post on the forums. Part of me knows I should just be happy and try to meet her/get along from her but the other part of me is slightly pissed but mostly worried she'll be LEAPS better than me and i'll be known as the 'bad' version of said character.


Wow, how disgustingly petty of me.

>>4841751
Becky?

I don't actually cosplay, and I hardly go to cons.

But you bitches are by far the most drama filled crowd on 4chan and GODDAMMIT WHY IS IT SO ADDICTING to read all this?

I give a few pieces of advice here and there on prop work because my paint jobs are motherfucking boss son.

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I admit that like a lot of people, when someones cosplaying the same thing I am, I analyze the shit out of the costume.

And when I do it better than them, it fills me with pride.

If they're doing better, I get jealous and then make it my goal to make mine amazing for next time.

>>4841794
No? I guess it's a pretty common problem to have friends who want to cosplay who don't want to actually do the work. I told my friends to quit that shit a while ago, now they're still butthurt. LEARN TO SEW DAMNIT.

I hate most of the people in my cosplay group. If someone is cosplaying a certain character, it somehow becomes FORBIDDEN for ANYONE ELSE to do the same cosplay as them.

>>4841876

It really is. I had a friend who would sit there and watch me work on cosplay in the months leading up to the con and in the WEEK before she would bitch and whine about not having anything new to wear and how she might as well just not go and blahblahblah trying to guilt trip me into making her something.

And of course it's not because she can't sew. Bitch can sew fine, she's just lazy and wants everyone else to do the work while she gets the glory. I've heard she's telling our other friends she doesn't know how to sew in an attempt to get pity costumes from them now.

After the last confessions thread I tried out shoplifting, stolen about $250 worth of stuff.

I am also going to be a stripper when I move for college next year and even though I know how ick it can be, I'm looking forward to it.

I have a friend who did a fantastic cosplay of a character, and is well known for it (seen it posted on cgl quite a few times).

But it went straight to their head imo. They've changed their name on facebook to the characters name and a majority of their photos are of that cosplay in different places, with other people, etc.

They've worn it for quite some time, and talk about cosplaying other things, but just stick to this one.

>>4841908
Girl, if you have the proverbial balls to be a stripper, I say do it. Bitches make hella money. If I weren't so scared I'd have done that myself, just make sure you work at a good(? I've never been to a strip club, so idk) club so you don't get raped or something, I dunno.

>>4841908
I'm the anon who first 'fessed up to shoplifting.

whadja get?

>>4841915
I'd do it in a heartbeat as well, but there are no clubs for it on the island....

>>4841921
Lingerie and clothes, too chicken to steal anything out in the open yet but changing rooms make it too easy. It's beginning to lose it's thrill a bit now which is a shame.

>>4841933
people like you make me sick.
If you can afford it, buy it.

>>4841944
What about people like me who steal things like socks and shampoo because I can't afford it?

>>4841944

Blahblah something about big corperations blahblahblah moralfag, blahblah I'm edgy and cool.

That's about what this thread is going to be hit with. As someone with legit kleptomania these threads always just irritate me.

>>4841944
if they cant keep a proper eye on their merch, t deserves to be stolen. deal with it.

>>4841946

If you can't afford socks and shampoo what the hell are you doing on a board dedicated to an expensive hobby?

>>4841951
Corporations are out there to make us poor. Yet we have no choice but to work for the nameless shareholders or be poor.

>>4841957
I can dream, can't I?
Plus the drama.

I get really amped up for my costumes and plan to spend time doing every detail perfectly, but then by the end I don't even care and just throw it together so the outside looks good

>>4841701

I don't like how dead that comm is. I wish it were more active- I feel it could be so amusing.

>>4841961

Touche. As long as your not wasting money on cosplay rather than taking care of basic needs.

>>4841946
how can you afford a computer andinternet but not socks/shampoo?

>>4841952
bullshit. people shouldn't have to live in terror if they turn around for a minute.

i hope all your stuff gets stolen when you aren't looking

>>4841967

If that couldn't keep an eye on their stuff all the time it deserves to be stolen!

>>4841967
'cause.. I bought my cheap computer three+ years ago (when I.. had more money) and.. internet > socks?

>>4841966
Cosplay will come once everything else is taken care of.
In the meantime.. I learn.

>>4841971
I see someone has stolen your ability to make a coherent sentence while you werent looking
>>4841973
glad to see you have your priorities straight.

>>4841982

Yeah, I meant to say they. You know since that was their philosophy on stores. Damn my hands ruining my jokes.

>>4841982
Well they're just socks. Not.. food or something.

My confession is that despite it being a "meh" series I really love Ciel Phantomhive's outfits and really want to make one of them.
However, the fandom is batshit and the idea of being associated with them makes me sad.
I also hate the idea of being just thought of as just "another Ciel" and lumped in with the people that buy the shitty Ciel costumes.

>>4842047
ohgodmetoo
My plan is just to make a very elaborate fantastic Ciel outfit. And pull it of fantastically.

>>4841904
I know someone like this too.
A couple years ago I used to end up making a large percentage of her shit. Finally, I got fed up and told her I had my own projects, which I usually started months in advanced, and though she pesters me less, right before every con I still get a phone call because none of her sewing is finished or she wants me to draft patterns for her.
I'm already done with my shit - I can't stand all this hectic bullshit.


The best part is, like a year or two ago she decided she would take all the costumes I more or less made and try selling commisions using them as examples.

Anyone want to guess how that turned out?

I hate it when peoplecosplay things they dont know. Its okay if you are doing the costume for someone so they can have a group or so they arn't alone butit just bugs me if thats not the case.
Someone who cosplays, andonly knows what they read online/heard from other people. People doing comic/book Star Wars cosplays at Otakon usualy piss me off the most because i know for a FACT that they are just doing it to be slutty.
>Cosplay Deviants!!!!!!
>You are not areal model
>Most of you look horrible in cosplay
>Most of you are barely in their 20's
>ALL OF YOU are assholes
>sluts
Now, im all for cosplay porn or stripping but CD is sloppy, and they don't pair the models very well with cosplays...

1) I really dislike seeing slutted up versions of characters. Usually it's because its done be people who should not be doing it. I don't mind alternate versions, hell I'd to historically accurate Hetalia or time-period accurate Disney princesses/heroines, but to see a slutted up Ariel or a slutted up Madoka I DO NO WANT.

2) Adding to >>4842116 's post:
I'm tired of CD. A majority of their models come across as "hurrdurr speshal snowflake gamer/comic/anime-gurl" with a huge helping "lol I'm bi, you dun liek it deal wit it" on the side. Yes, yes, I'm sure some of them actually are but some many come across as fake. I also find it pretty creepy they're forced* to actually interact with their customers. I'm sorry, maybe it's just me, but I just don't see many well adjusted, socially nonawkward people who would want to interact with a soft core pornlet. It just seems like a disaster waiting to happen.

* I say forced because it seems as if one doesn't, they tend to get well, fired. Correct me if I'm wrong.

I can't stand my ex-best friend and ex-cosplay partner. At all. She keeps trying to weasel her way into cosplaying with me again. She's not exactly the best seamstress, either and she goes for the worst and cheapest wigs possible. Basically, she half asses everything... and just annoys me as a person. Bitch drives me crazy and thinks I'm STILL her best friend. It makes me rage. She embarrasses me... and asks people if they want our picture. Fucking embarrassment.

It's fun to laugh about it now. I'm enjoying watching it all fall apart. Can't wait to yank my hand away when it does. Can't wait for the crying phone call again. It's fun to watch someone become EVERYTHING they make fun of and think they are better than.

>>4842116
>>People doing comic/book Star Wars cosplays at Otakon usualy piss me off the most because i know for a FACT that they are just doing it to be slutty.

It sounds more like you're pissed they aren't cosplaying from GLORRIOUS NIPPONESE things.

What about comic book characters is inherently slutty?
You know what I hate? People who bitch about non-anime shit at anime cons. There aren't many gaming conventions, and cosplay isn't very popular popular at sci-fi cons. Comicon/D*con/PAX are much more rare than the multitude of animu cons, which are places we can cosplay and have fun.

Oh, and by the way, you won't see almost any people whining at those cons about anime cosplayers being "slutty" there. I don't even see people bitching at Renaissance festivals when you do it there.

I can't count the number of times I've heard some fat weeb make a snide comment about "stupid western shit ruining" their convention.

>>4842333
...Ummm. I bet you're white.

>>4842333
I absolutely hate when people take cosplay that seriously.

>>4842333
So... what you're saying is that people shouldn't cosplay as a character they like, but instead cosplay some random person with the same skintone even if their design is total crap and they don't even like said character? Brilliant!

>>4842333
You are probably the same person that was bitching about not knowing the character. So now what, do I just pick characters based on skin tone now?

>>4842317
Oh and I love hearing the weebs that bitch about non-asian things invading their cons and then they go to a con like Dragon*Con and are all "waaah! no one wanted our piiiictuuuure."

>>4842342
I hate people who don't

>>4842333
My money's on you don't even cosplay.

I wear shimapan under every cosplay.
every cosplay.
but i'm to embarrassed to show them so I always wear shorts.

>>4842348
Not every characters design is crap? Find someone, but if you can't, then it's fine.
>>4842349
And no, that wouldn't be me. But not knowing who the fuck you're cosplaying is retarded.
>>4842356
I proudly do, thank you.

>>4842317
not complainging about comic book cosplay atanime cons, dumb ass. Im complaining about the DESU cosplayers that dont know shit about what they are cosplaying. Dont twist my words

>>4842356
My money's on them being a horrible pasty cosplayer who's jelly of a black girl who cosplayers the same characters better than her.

>>4842333
ive met more black chick that cosplay better than white chicks...
I see more colored chicks that make better Seras from Hellsing vs. White girls.

>>4842359
Anon, you're now a friend of mine.

>>4842363
So then how am I supposed to find characters that match my skin tone, you stupid bitch.

>>4842333
What if I really like a character and want to cosplay it?

>>4842350

I love that. The delicious irony is my favorite. I few years ago I watched this group of Naruto cosplayers bitch about all the other groups gathered in the Hyatt lobby getting more attention then them.

One of them was like "No one cares about half these shows!" and I was like do you know where you are?

I can't stand overly matte wigs. They really look more fake than overly shiny wigs.

>>4842372
>>4842373
Calm your shit. It's my opinion. I'm sure you have yours, and you're entitled to it. As am I to mine. Sure, there is good black cosplayers out there. But some of them are just terrible, especially the ones I've seen.
>there are also terrible white cosplayers, before anyone has a shitfit.
>>4842379
I'm not a fucking search engine, find them yourself by watching shows and shit. Jesus.
>>4842381
>Find someone, but if you can't, then it's fine.

>>4842350
>>4842384
Not complaing ing about non-anime things at non-anime cons.
Shit, i went to Dragoncon in Tenchi Muyo cosplay,and Naruto at Comic Con, Ive done Comic Book cosplays at Katsucon and Otakon.

>Is black
>Cosplaying Stocking
>Eat a dick

I hate it when people complain about not being able to find characters that match their skin tone/build/whatever.
Give me a skin colour/body shape and I can name at least 3 characters you would suit.

>>4842317
>What about comic book characters is inherently slutty?
Not the person you were talking to, but here you go: http://rosalarian.tumblr.com/post/2325861377/dressed-to-kill
Pic related. See how fucking awkward it looks with a dude doing that pose? Preposterous levels of oversexualization. The entry is a pretty interesting read.

>>4842407
>don't give a fuck
>eat a dick
Fuck, people, I've already said if you cosplay well, it's fine. But if you just don't fit the character at all, don't.
>>4842413
Whoa, watch out, they might freak out because it's not someone they wanna cosplay.

>>4842401

Dude I just stopped giving a fuck but it's hilarious the amount of people that still do.

I showed up at an animecon as Jack Sparrow right when KHII was released and was told by multiple people I was at the wrong convention.

Yet they'll go to Dragon*Con or Chattacon as whatever the new big Anime is and still bitch. "No one cares about Farscape, that show sucked!"

>>4842420
Your samefagging is so obvious it hurts.

>>4842425
Not trying to make it a secret? I'm responding to others retarded comments on my post. Dumbshit.

I hate it when people take cosplay so fucking seriously to the point where they're mean to others over it because other people aren't as good as they are or whatever. There's a difference between being proud of what you've accomplished, and being full of it.

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE
SOMEBODY'S WATCHING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
AND I HAVE NO PRIVACY

I ALWAYS FEEL LIKE
SOMEBODY'S WATCHING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
WHO'S PLAYING TRICKS ON ME?

>>4842447
Rockwell... 1980's time???

>>4842441
Thatsbc most anime weebos dont know what they are talking about... They see the word "con" and think its anime related. I went to Dcon and CC(in anime cosplay) knowing people would most likely not know who i was, but i didnt go there to be DESU DESU, i went there because i read comics and love scifi. But good lord... the weebos that were there that knew who i was...ugh... they CRAVE anime at these cons so they kinda... latch on to what they can.
>Anime cosplayers complain about non-anime cosplays at "their" cons
>Never heard someone at a Comic Con complain about a anime costume.

My psychologist is dead certain that I'm bipolar, but I need to see a specialist and get a proper diagnosis, then go through a series of tests to get on medication. My psych recommended that I keep a journal of my mood swings, but in the meantime I've decided to throw myself into a weird project:

I have started charting my emotions on a calendar, and in each box I write my emotional state/energy level in the morning, afternoon, and night (each with a numerical 1-10 rating,) along with specific notes about how much I've slept, eaten, had sex, my menstrual stage etc. After a few months, I want to chart and graph *everything* to see if any patterns emerge, because I think it will help me understand my own emotions in the long run.

I'm already noticing certain rises and falls in my moods and energy levels day to day. Right now it's a three day/seven day ratio of high energy/happiness and intense depression, with thoughts of suicide occurring on average twice a day, days 4-6, but I'm sure as I keep going, the ratio will change.

...I'm such a nerd XD;

I hate how my cosplay partner of 6 years gets all the attention because she's skinnier and prettier in costume. I make all her costumes she can't even do anything herself... She can't apply her own makeup, put on her own wig cap (or even pin up her hair to the wig cap), or buy the right wigs... I have to guide her and do everything for her. Outside of costume she is that too pale anorexic girl with greasy hair and bad skin but in costumes she's that gorgeous slim cosplayer. Recently she's been accepting credit on the costumes and making it seem like she did all the work, when she never even lifts a finger. I continue to cosplay with her... because 2 girls cosplaying together get more attention and appreciation than just one slightly manfaced girl cosplaying by herself.

I want to take legit pictures of my costumes and make them perfect, instead I barely get one or two shots because I'm the one who owns the only camera. And I'm the one who does all the sewing. Sometimes I wish I could be a little more selfish and tell people to take pictures of me instead of making me hold the camera the entire time.

>>4842534

I'm going through a similar thing, anon. But without all the weird charting.

I'm pretty sure I'm bipolar, but the doctor I went to (a GP, not a psych) said I'm probably not. Because Canadian, I'm going to a free clinic and it's all messed up. I saw a psych and she got fired, so I saw a nurse and a socialworker. The socialworker referred me to the GP in another part of the building/company, who she said would diagnose me and give me pills. The GP now, instead of doing that, has referred me to a second psych and it's a month's wait.
And she told me I have a knee-cap problem, and need physio and shit. Bitch IDGAF I am depressed and everything you say, all I hear is "blah blah blah I'm judging you and you are fat."

I had a really excited/"Up" day yesterday, where I felt a little crazy, and then it tapered into feeling normal, then took a drop to "I hate myself and I want to die." So I don't know. I don't think it's just depression.

>>4842699

But I'm looking to get a diagnosis, so I can get government support/money and stuff. And medication so I can get a job. And my anxiety (which is part of why I'm seeing these people) has me constantly worrying "what if they won't give me an official diagnosis, ect."

I'm also worried about my bloodtest because I'm afraid it will tell them I'm a lardass. I'm so worried because I know my family won't change. I'm chubby, yeah, but I'm not a fatty, but I worry so much because of this anxiety. I worry about heart disease, and about how a stupid 5 pounds. I'm having serious body issues; I shouldn't feel as fat as I do right now. I was so happy before, but now I find myself obsessing and it's scary.
And I worry about my boyfriend and if he still loves me constantly. I can't stop worrying.

And the other program I'm supposed to go to, which will set me up with a socialworker to help me learn life/coping skills, has at least a three month waiting list. I can't take it.

Um, anyway, sorry anon.
I know that feel. I hope you can get a diagnosis and some medication soon. I know how you feel.

I really genuinely think I'm pretty but few other people tend to agree.

I think of myself as pretty fugly so I only cosplay as characters with helmets to avoid showing my face.

>>4842699
>Canadian
>free clinic
You do know this 'free healthcare' is paid through your taxes right? There is no such thing as a free clinic unless it's a charity one.

I started my eating disorders because of cosplay and lolita. I was thin, and then I started to compre myself to the japanese cosplayers and even knowing they are so shit photoshopped I still wanted to be like them. I achieved it and no one suspects. Since I put a lot of effort on it I laugh at fat cosplayers and I just lock to mock them and gossip about them. I hate fatties.

>>4841670
who are you cosplaying? Cause im in the same situation for DC :(

>>4842534
I'm diagnosed with bipolar disorder, and now I really want to try this lol (currently unmedicated, so I do still have swings - I've been working on learning how to handle them without pills for the past year)


And to the other anon who has anxiety problems and thinks they may also have bipolar: I also am diagnosed with generalized anxiety disorder, and I can tell you that's more debilitating than the bipolar (and actually is one of the greatest contributing factors for my mood swings). I feel 1000x better when my anxiety is under control. So I recommend getting that fixed first!

I only have regular depression but those talking of anxiety issues, yeah. It's debilitating. Sometimes I freak out and can't leave the house, it drives me mad as I avoid things I know I enjoy.

Since I've been seeing a hypnotherapist (who's also one of my GP's), I have been coping better. Still have some bad days, of course, only had three sessions. Essentially though it's like a psychiatrist and mindfulness techniques combined. Talking always helps and the scenarios and ways he teaches me to think about the things that upset me make me able to deal with things so much better.

I have CFS which is my main reasoning for wanting to curb the anxiety so I can try to sleep less. When I freak out I sleep, etc. So far no nap in two days, pretty good.

>>4842855

Uh, yeah, that's what it is.
It's for poor/homeless people, technically.
I go 'cause my mum's friend works there.

Yes, I know we pay taxes for our healthcare.
In Alberta, however, we do not because we are SO OIL RICH

I feel more attractive when I cosplay as a man than when I cosplay as a woman.

I had EDNOS for a long time, but I was able to 'beat it'. I want to go back. I'm so fat now it's not even funny. I look terrible. And everyone lies to me and tells me I look fine, but I can still see it in the mirror. I look fat. I have muffin top, I have a fat stomach, I have stretch marks everywhere, I'm just plain fat. I'm not obese like my mother, but I'm still fat. I know I need to eat better, and I'm making progress. I know I need to exercise more, and do more cardio, and I started that today.

But if I could starve without having to gain it all back as soon as I break the fast, I'd do it in a heartbeat.

I want to be thin.

I NEED to be thin.

So I guess I haven't really beaten anything at all. I've just stopped the unhealthy physical behaviors, while the mental behaviors live on.

Wow, /cgl/. You helped me realize something about myself.

OH.

And the best part of all of this?

I'm freaking out about my weight again because I want to dress in lolita style. Sweet, to be specific.

I hate hate HATE the fat lolitas. They stretch their fancy $350 brand dresses and can't do a decent coord to save their lives. They look fat and stupid and ugly. And I know this will be me if I try to get into the fashion now.

Besides, I need a 28 in. waist if I'm ever going to wear AP stuff. I had it once, years ago. I'll have it again one way or another.

TL;DR I'm sick in the head and really want to dress in lolita.

>>4842891

Thanks, anon. The GP I talked to asked me which was worse, but I couldn't decide. I know I'm definitely listless and unmotivated, which is frustrating. But the anxiousness is so, so bad.

They want to put me on a more "calming" anti-depressant, as the ones I've been on before are more "exciting," and could have aggravated my anxiety. I was on pristiq, and that was what happened. It didn't help my depression as much as I would have liked, and my anxiety was unaffected, at the least.

>>4842975

I assume you're new to lolita, and that's why you don't know about vanillablitz.
She is THE fattychan lolita, and she is amazing. She has great coords, and she's always looking polished. Just because you're "fat" doesn't mean you have to look bad.

And you can be a person you love, one way or another. Please, don't go down that path and don't continue these unhealthy thought patterns. See someone, and learn some coping skill to help you deal with the pain, and learn to see yourself in a better light . You can love your body without starving yourself, you just need to learn how to. It's hard, but you can do it.

I need to try and eat better too, but the point is you're eating. And that will always be a step forward. Your body just got this way because of the starving; it went into emergency mode. So the worst thing you can do for yourself is go back to your old ways.

Please, please try. There are people out there that love you, and want to see you well. They'd rather see you well, than the way you once were, so they might lie to you. But it's only because they love you.

>http://100reasonstorecover.tumblr.com
>http://100reasonstorecover.tumblr.com/post/8778576842/i-would-like-to-let-you-know-if-you-hadnt-
seen-it
Try the butterfly project. It might seem silly, but it also might help.
Whenever you feel fat, or want to starve yourself, give yourself a butterfly. You decide what kills it, but stick to that. And make sure you make a butterfly for yourself.

Because you deserve to be happy, and you deserve to love yourself. And you are the most important person in your world.

>>4842976
Yeah, the only medication I'm on now is clonazepam as-needed for anxiety. I've gotten to the point where I really only need a pill every couple of months.

Some things I would recommend in the mean-time until you can see a doctor that will help:
-figure out triggers for your anxiety and moods - I've learned that for myself, I need to sleep and eat on regular schedules. When those go out of whack, so does my brain!
-a counselor you really connect with is a GREAT idea. It was hard for me to find a good one, but I did last year and I made TREMENDOUS strides with her. Sadly, she left, so I need to find a new one...
-don't be afraid to ask for help/make use of your resources. For example, I'm registered with the Resources for Disabled Students at my university. I get a few accommodations that take off a lot of anxiety for me, and that really helps.
-exercise really helps, even if it's just walking for 15 minutes every day! I HATE exercising, but I walk everywhere and that makes me feel better.

I hope maybe some of that helps, anon! I've been there - it's tough, but you can make it!

>>4843016

Thank you so much. It means so much to me to have something nice and supportive said. I don't have many friends, so these threads really help me get my emotion out.

Luckily, I've got a good family and am not going to school at the moment, so there really shouldn't be much on my mind. But there is~

Making lists helps. Taking it one day at a time. I also have an appetite problem, so I have alarms on my phone to remind me to eat a little! But thank you so much for everything. ♥

>>4841908
Bro/Sis Fist for future strippers.

My confession is that I'm taking up stripping and not even to pay for cosplay, yes it will help a great deal towards cosplay but I think that it will be a lot better than the waitressing job that's currently paying my rent and course fees.

>>4843051
It's not a problem! I like to help people, especially when I've gone/am going through something similar.

And I make lists too! There's something fulfilling about being able to cross things off on it. (I even write things like "eat lunch" on there, because I have a tendency to forget to eat, too)

Just keep on going, you're stronger than you think.

I have a 35 inch waist and I'm disgusted with myself. I'm fat. I eat food that is awful for me and hardly work out expect for my job. And you can tell. My hair looks bad, there are dark circles under my eyes, and I just look... sick. My parents diets have rubbed off on me and I'm so used to their unhealthy lifestyles I don't even know how to switch mine around. I know how to exercise, but I don't fucking have a clue how to prepare healthy meals. For right now I'm eating 1-2 meals a day that consists of awful junk, and fruit for snacks.

Fuck me /cgl/, I'm making excuses but I don't know what to do. Surely someone here does; please help me. What are simple diet plans that a fatty like me can stick to? All of the ones I look at are too expensive for me to afford.

>>4843121
>go to /fit/
>read sticky and follow
>lose weight and be happy

>>4843121
Whole grains.
Eat rice, brown rice, buy in bulk, save money!
Veggies. Raw. Or roasted (350 oven, 15 min each side). Don't use oil.
Eat more eggs.
Discover tofu.
Pack a lunch.
Count calories.

I wish cosplay were more about the craft and less about the people wearing the costumes. I love making cosplays and paying tribute to characters I love, but I feel like it's a constant competition when it should just be about the fandom.

Just recently broke up with my boyfriend. The next day I yelled at him because he didn't want to go to the upcoming con anymore and I had wasted money on his cosplay. Felt like shit afterwards, still mad about wasted money.

When people cosplay outside of their race, I mentally refer to it as "Player 2 costume".

I hope this doesn't make me racist, I just play too many fightin' games.

>>4843143
This.

It seems like every time I try to find someone fun to sew cosplays with it always has to be about getting their stuff done and how they want all the attention and they tell me up front that they want the attention or else it's all null...seriously, it's one thing to have goals of being well-liked and admired as a cosplayer but then there's just them making it obvious that you've got nothing going in your life other than trying to become a massive attention whore, and you're failing at it already.

>>4843157
I like this way of thinking. I may verbalize your habits.

>>4843143 I feel like it's a constant competition when it should just be about the fandom.

If you were around in the late 90's you might have got a chance to enjoy this mindset.

I wonder if eventually it will come around to be that way again.

I've been a massive bitch to people. Some people I know, some people I don't, others I'm just 'related' to thanks to sharing the same interactive hobby. I feel horribly guilty about it and I can't say I'm sorry because only a select few know it's me and I don't want to be banned from the social aspects of said hobbies.

>>4841670
>>4841771
Hnn I know that feel. I'm not a hambeast or anything but she's got that model-like look that would definitely outshine me. I love this character a lot though so it won't stop me from cosplaying her, it just kind of bothers me a bit. I'm a bit ashamed of myself for thinking this 'cause it makes me feel selfish :(

>>4841728

>>4843823
I think the only way it will be is if people act like that. I do my best just to be proud of it, but I've had some of the most fun of my life with people wearing shitty outfits. The spirit of fun over competition isn't dead, it's just buried deep beneath a bunch of shit.

some of my friends are fat and they sometimes cosplay characters who are the opposite to them. it's embarrasing as hell. it doesn't help that everyone hates one of them and don't want to talk to the rest of the group.

>>4841766
My friends try to sabotage all my performances but I never let them to do that. I'll never make my cosplays half-assed for their sake.
Oh btw you can make simple cosplays that look good. I've done them, there is nothing wrong with them. Some of the best cosplayers I've met only make simple cosplays.

LOL THIS THREAD. /cgl/ is nothing but jealous, landwhales and bad cosplayers. jeez read your comments, you're pitiful.

I think MJ's boobs are weird.

My confession:

I did my first cosplay ever last year. I am by no means a seamstress and bought everything at the last minute. Needless to say, it sucked. The icing on the shit cake? I had never even watched a single episode of the series I was cosplaying from. But you know what? I don't care. I had a GREAT time just hanging out with my group of friends, wandering around the dealer's room and admiring all the good ones.

All that said, I'm grateful I wasn't posted up here and I've vowed to make my next cosplay a brilliant effort from something I actually know about. I'll do it right from here on out, I promise!

I've started to figure out a lot about myself lately and I've realized that obsessively judging others was stemming from my own insecurities.

Gaining confidence in myself helped to solve a lot of my issues and get along with people better. I still have my off days but I'm getting there.

I think I've grown up a lot.

>>4842534
This is a good idea. It's a lot easier to pinpoint where these things are coming from once you can figure out a pattern of behaviour and analyze whether it's coming from external variables or your own traits.

I'm terrified that I grow too fond of people too quickly.
I'm even more terrified that lately it seems like I've been unintentionally distancing myself from people that I used to care about tremendously.
I've made a lot of new seagull friends, but I'm afraid that the same things will randomly crop up. It makes me feel even more uncomfortable with trying to start up outside communication with my favourite seagulls.

I'm putting off talking to one of my friends about an upcoming con. Why? Because I know that all I'm going to hear is her bitching about how her mom "put off" making her costumes, so she has nothing new to wear this year again. Friend in question is almost 30 years old.

I feel as if I fucked up my relationship with my girlfriend.

I let my lack of a job start defining who I was, and not having work made me feel like I had little to no value. My attitude changed heavily over the span of a few months, and I'm afraid I damaged the best relationship I've had to date. I came to terms with the fact I changed; and essentially over the span of a few hours, have gone back to how I was before this whole mess. I've realized a job doesn't define you as a man, and that I'm so much better than letting something as simple as a few dollars make me into something I'm not.

The only thing I can ask is for her to forgive me for messing up something beautiful. I want to let her know I'm still the same guy she started falling for when we first got to know each other; not the guy who she started pushing away of late.

I'm back to how I should be, and nothing will change that.

>>4844296
You sound like a good person. :)

You're still with her, I hope?

(not a sarcastic post btw)

>>4844309

Hah, thanks.

And yes, I am.

>>4844296

Don't worry, I'm working on that.

>>4844296
Jeremy, PLEASE, a little less drama!

>>4844375
Who are you talking about? His name is Matt.

>>4844296
Oh Matt.

You're so cute. <3 <3 <3

I'm a bit bigger and I love cosplaying, but whenever my friends ask me to cosplay cute girls, I say no. I'd love to wear cute clothes and colorful wigs and shit, but I'm so fat and disgusting to myself I make myself dress as boy characters (usually in more loose-fitting clothes) so I have an excuse to wear clothes that won't make me look like some obese tramp trying to look cute.

I'm cosplaying more girl characters for ComicCon/AnimeFest this year now that I've lost a bit of weight, and to be honest I'm still really scared. I know how much heavier cosplayers get frowned upon.

My confession is that I'm a heartless bitch. Every single relationship I'm in I break it off after I get bored with the guy, even if he still has feelings for me. Then afterwards I still talk to them and sort of lead them on to thinking I still have feelings for them.

I have no idea why I'm such a bitch, I don't do it intentionally but it always turns out the same.

foreveralone

I'm at the point where I no longer think of my father as a dad, but as a child. He's nearly fifty years old, I've known since I was ten that he would not live to see me have children and that he could die at any second. I tried to be the best person I could possibly be. Got a job, went to school for a while before my savings got eaten up, and I help around the house. I even take care of him after he gets his surgeries while my sibling go off and get arrested every few weeks. I've given up all but a twelve hour period of free time so that I can see my boyfriend once a week and keep sane. But...Dad thinks even that is too much time to spend with the man I want to marry.

Because of Dad, I have self-esteem issues and a raging temper from growing up in a house full of nothing but insults and hatred. I've been getting a lot better at keeping the temper down, but I know I'll never think I'm good enough because I never was in his eyes. And recently, Dad has gotten so loud and violent I finally snapped. I can no longer pretend that it will get better. If he's alive when I get married, I'm having one of my guy friends walk me down the aisle. He was more of a father to me than dad was, even after knowing him for only two years.

I feel like a horrible person for hating my father so much, but I don't think I care anymore.

I cosplay obscure Vocaloid songs that are beautiful.

Then at gatherings/cons, I rage in my heart because all a Vocaloid cosplayer has to do is wear a short skirt and everyone flocks to them. I just wish more people would appreciate songs like Leia instead of Triple Baka

I don't look as fat as I weigh but that's only because I normally wear baggy clothes. Recently, my friends have been starting to drag me into cosplaying characters that actually have good figures and I've been declining them with the excuse that I don't follow those series but I'm terrified of the day when that excuse won't work simply because I know how people who don't cosplay according to their body types are judged and I've been the one doing the judging on various occasions.

I know I should get round to exercising and dieting but I can't seem to find the inspiration or willpower to maintain until I get visible results. I know, secretly, I'm still waiting for that miracle quick fix diet that'll change everything.

Also, with graduation looming ahead, I have no idea what I'm gonna do with my life and I keep getting this feeling that I'll end up being a disappointment to my parents.

>>4844633
TIME FOR FASTING.

protein sparing modified fast.

>>4844539
Don't feel bad for hating your dad. I hate my mother and the woman who raised me (seperate people, lived with mother until I was 9) and they both treated me like shit. Because I was the oldest, I was expected to be already all grown up and take care of the other four kids, on top of cooking and keeping the house clean. I grew up fast, and I hate them both for not being good parents.

To the person who posted last night but deleted their post: I was thinking about you a lot today and I hope you're feeling better with your anxieties and all that. I have a bad memory so I don't remember exactly what you were going to say, I was going to respond today, but I just wanted to let you know you aren't alone.

>>4844558
The world needs more people like you.
I cosplayed Rin from the Harvest PV and got told that I was at the wrong gathering.

For almost 2 years now I've been going to a mental hospital 3 times a week every week. I haven't been diagnosed with anything neither given any clue to what exactly is wrong with me. But I do know one thing, I'm probably considered very unstable or I'm at high risk. Only reason I've jumped to this conclusion because this is the NHS with all the strain and cuts going on for the service, I don't think they would give all of that time to someone who didn't need it.

So many times have I been trapped inside my home under suicide watch but I don't really feel like killing myself, I think if I died anytime soon I would be ok with it, I haven't had a very good life but all I can seem to remember are fun times. The hospital is there to help me but in all the time I've spent going there I haven't felt any better. I wonder if its actually doing me any good at times.

I always feel so scared I don't know whats happening to me, why do I have to be trapped in my home, why does my mother yell at me saying "If you carry on like this your going to spend your life in a nut house". I'm normal aren't I? I go out with my friends shopping or sometimes to grab some coffee or lunch, I like sewing, playing the piano, playing games and watching T.V, I eat well I don't self harm I have gotten and I still get very good grades, I've had 2 healthy long term relationships and currently in the 4th month of my 3rd relationship. Isn't this all average teenager behavior?

So why am I going 3 times a week and always being put under suicide watch or hearing things about being taken away and put into a home. All of these make me feel so isolated with crying as my only source of comfort.

I'm normal right? I'm going to be fine... aren't I?

>>4845752
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Borderline_personality_disorder

You're not alone in this. I've lived with borderline with my whole life, but never knew why I was weird until two years ago,after I was hospitalised for a suicide attempt. I knew I was fucked in the head, I just didn't know why.

Everyone here should read this by the way. The obsession with lolita and cosplay was a huge clue to my therapist; my wanting to escape into other personas.

>>4845752
Why are you going three times a week? Who says you have to, your mother? Your doctor?

When I was a kid my mom talked about putting me in a mental hospital, because I talked to myself, because I was withdrawn, because I cried a lot or zoned out a lot or... whatever. I was depressed because of how I was being treated, and she was just making it worse (several times she made me miss a day of school because I didn't get the kids ready right, or because the house wasn't clean enough) so... I dunno. Maybe the way you act around your mother, if she says things like to that to you, makes her think these things? Or if you aren't cutting yourself and have healthy relationships... that just sounds weird, that they would send you to a mental hospital.

>>4845776

I first got sent there because I was depressed because the year before my granddad died and my mother shortly afterwards attempted suicide and the school councilor recommended that I go seek help from my GP to get someone better qualified to deal with the depression.

I go three times a week because that is the course of action my doctor and my GP agreed is whats best for me since I need to be what they always say but I don't understand "In check". Plus like I said this is the NHS if they are giving me appointments 3 times a week something is up and it can be a pain going and all of this is really hard but I shouldn't waste them at all.

My depression cleared about 1 year ago in terms of getting to grips with what happened I thought I was just going for that.

I want to find out whats going on with me because I'm not sure why I have to stay and if there is something wrong with me, I want to find someway that I can help myself with whatever I have.

>>4845775

I'll look into this thank you. Hopefully this will clear things up a bit that or at least give me some idea. But it is something to bring up and discuss on monday. Probably won't get any answers though doctors can't technically diagnose teens but I should have the right to some idea of what it is maybe if I talk about these types of things I can get a step closer to knowing what I can do to help myself.

I haven't talked to any of my so called friends in a month. I usually take the initiative in contacting people, so I wanted to see who would contact me. No one has so far. The most frustrating thing is that we have a good time together and I don't feel like they hate me or anything, I guess either I'm forgettable or they don't care that much about me or something. It's just makes me feel so defeated because this past year I really put myself out on a limb and tried to make friends, and I feel like I have, but I suppose they just aren't as vested in me as I am in them.
Also I hate how rational and realistic I am. I feel hurt and irritated by this, and I know it's mostly because of my own expectations, but still it doesn't make me feel better. I don't know why I can't just let myself be hurt and irritated without rationalizing my feelings as unfair.

>>4845853
Well I hope you figure out what's wrong and that you don't have to go to those appointments so often in the future. Good luck!

When I do gijinka cosplays, I make up my own design 99% of the time, and I'm always more proud of said designs than I should be.

Being a cosplayer for 3 or so years should've at least taught me that if you're proud of it that means it's shit. And yet...