My boyfriend of 8 years and I broke up this weekend...

>>4186901
Why were you on your brothers computer in the first place?

I'm tired of being fat =(

>>4186900
that is a LONG freaking time.
you should have got the hint when you didn't get a ring after 6 years.

>>4186913
Then get off your fat ass exercise, fatty

Don't complain to /cgl/ about it

>>4186915
It's a mutual break up actually. He's going through some shit.

My best friend is in a pseudo-relationship with this guys who is only interested in slowly manipulating and using her, while refusing to date her. They were "friends" before we were, so there isn't much I can say to her about him because she just won't listen. He tried to talk to me at a party and I ended up speaking to him harshly, though I felt he deserved it, and now I can see that he is using that to turn my best friend away from me.

I love her so much, and our relationship is so important to me, but I know that in her mind, he comes before I do.

>>4186920
lol u mad? Why do you think I work out 3 hours a day?

>>4186915
Plus.. I'm only 23... We started dating in high school so I didn't really want to get married...

>>4186922
>>4182729

yo, right here.
/m/en come in and talk about KR and scare people out of it. But don't worry, it's still a Gokaiger thread!

My mum was looking for her camera and stumbled across a box of condoms (which she says my father had never used with her), an insane amount of cash, oxycontin, and a hash pipe in my father's closet.

She never knew about any of this stuff until this afternoon, so she called me up at uni in a total panic, and now I'm not only scared for what he'll do to her if he finds out she knows, but what he'll do to me or my brother if we come home for a visit.

I've been sick for the past day and have slept about 40 minutes since yesterday morning. I have spent that time reading an 800 page biography on Chairman Mao, watching reruns of Xena, colour-coding my socks and trolling 4chan. I am so tired I can see through time.

>>4186928
Then why are you still fat?

3 hours? Usually after the first hour you stop losing calories... do you know anything about fitness?

mom hates me and loves the shit out of my brother. Brother is good for literally nothing. He doesn't clean up after himself of help out, he can't even brush his teeth without being told to. Yet I am the demon child. I do everything my mother asks of me and am almost done school and have already had an industry job over the summer. I have 3 possible job opportunities waiting for me when i'm done school. I have a successful boyfriend in the videogames industry. I don't swear(around her), drink or do drugs.

Nope, still a piece of shit daughter.

OTL

Every other day, I keep finding a new reason to hate myself. But I don't really let anyone know, so they all think I'm this Super Confident Optimist when in reality I absolutely loathe who I feel like I am and am mostly nice to other people because I can't make myself happy so I might as well make them happy instead...
Holy run-on sentence Batman!
I also started smoking pot to help me deal with this. Feels okay, bro.

I recently returned to /v/ because I love discussing video games.

It's such a terrible shithole once you spend a week away from it and realize how bad it actually is.

Now I have no home board. :(

/cgl/ seems to accept me a little, though.

>Lupus anticoagulant detected.


Worst words on the planet. Hoping for a false positive.

House lied to me.

>whats bothering you
bro names she's back and i dont know how to handle this its like the one thing i thought i could count on never happening

I have no real skills or marketable talents, and I am a rather fragile person. I feel like I'm wasting my parents money at university when I have no idea what I'm going to do with my life. Basically, I'm Useless S. Grant. Maybe I'll join the Peace Corps...

>>4186966
Don't cut your hair, you are beautiful the way you are.

I really don't like talking to people when they're not sober.. (Specifically when they're obviously under the influence and you don't even have to ask if they are.)

My friend took some 'narcotics' (for sudden pain I believe)... and our conversation was... half there. I was lost half the time and she was jumping around in her thought process.

I just... I know it's lame for me to be less than enthused about it. But I really don't enjoy it.

Guys messaging drunk needn't be mentioned. That's a given, though if they're good friends, it's usually good times.

This is totally petty, and I have worse things going on in my life right now. But I just had to say this somewhere.

Dear my friends, I generally don't enjoy chatting with you online when you're not sober. It's not a great conversation from my end, especially when you already know I'm busy.

>>4186946

This is what happens when a women fuck with your heart. Feels bad man.

My friend was found dead in a ditch yesterday.... I didn't even know and she lives basically across the street and down some roads from my apartment. She had been upset and ran out of her house and didn't come back... I miss her. ;_;

>>4186998

>>4186998
i always found this image to be slightly arousing

I'm unemployed, haven't found a job yet.

Fiance and I both agree I should go back to school and pursue a career. But I have no freaking idea WHAT. I don't want to go to school just for the sake of being in school. I want to go for a career/industry in mind.

>coming to realize that I'm trans (m2f)
>family is all conservatards, hates LGBT
>wutdo.jpg

At least I have friends who I think will be okay with it. Now I just have to figure out how to talk about it.

>>4186993
18,

I don't care if he talks with his other girl friends. Just this girl since she basically did whatever she could to break us up in the sneakiest way possible and it was obvious she wanted him to everyone but him apparently
:|

I have to get up for class in 6 hours but for the love of god I cannot stop refreshing this RP

>>4187029
2 of my friends are trans. One lives with ultraconservative grandparents and still did it. It's hard but she's so much better now than before in the closet, and doesn't regret it. You got dis, sis.

College I applied to is taking it's sweet time getting back to me with a yes or a no.
My boss is pulling strings to get me permanent shifts in the city when our small-town call center closes.

I really, really want to lose this weight and I know I can. It's just really hard to lose weight when there's snow everywhere and my family is so god damn un-supportive. ;-;

i need weed in my life. I need drugs to take my anger and sorrow away. nothing else has worked and I want to try this. I just want to be chill and not constantly balled up in a coil of rage and angst.

I can't for the life of me find any drugs and I'm so desperate. I'm taking more and more of my anti-anxiety meds just to keep my anger down.

i don't know what to do.

I've run out of weed and my dealer is out too; no idea where to go to locate more. I've only been smoking on weekends but I really, reeeally look forward to those weekends and now I have none.

My thought processes around this matter run thusly:
>>Aaargh, I can't feel relaxed without *something*
>>And nobody seems to have trouble locating it but me. Still it's not like I can go up to strangers and ask for illegal substances.
>>Shit, maybe I could start drinking to unwind? But I hate drinking, makes me feel groggy afterward
>>Or maybe I could buy some of that stupid "legal high" stuff, it worked OK last time, even though I don't like smoking mystery herbs and I'm not fucking 13
>>Shit I'm really desperate and it's pathetic. If it's making me this antsy I should just cut myself off.

Etc.

I just started dating again after my gf cheated on me and haven't had much luck so far. First date was with this cute punk girl. I thought we hit it off but she never responded to any of my calls. Second date turned out to be a nutjob.

Going to a job interview tomorrow and my mother is making ridiculously stupid drama about it and insisting I can't get a job. I'm not really sure I want the job anymore if it's already causing this much bullshit. Ironically she's the one that's been pestering me about getting a job since I started college, but couldn't because lolrecession.

I don't even know why it's setting her off so much. I'm applying for a retail position, not running off to join the navy.

>>4187064
You and me both, dude.

>>4187069
overwhelming, innit? :(

>>4187064
>>4187065
Lol dependencies. That's hilarious.

>>4186998
My boyfriend died of meningitis a week ago

I haven't left my room since

;_;

I'm eighteen years old, I've never worked a day in my life, I go to college only three days a week, and I get a hundred dollars each month for "bus faire" and "lunch money"- but I just eat at home so I get to pocket about 50 each month.

Oh and I live in my mom's basement.

Sounds sweet right? WRONG. I feel guilty, because I feel like a worthless slob who's never ever going to amount to anything in society. I'd get a job but I'm too fucking scared of being fired to even TRY. I keep getting told to try but I just... I have no guts. I'm a worm. A little crybaby WORM.

I was really confident about my costumes for a convention a few weeks ago. I hadn't been able to see pictures until recently.

They look so fucking horrible I can't even see straight. If I would have known I looked so fucking terrible, I wouldn't have dressed up. Now I don't even fucking feel like getting my costumes done for Momocon.

It just reminds me of what a useless fuck I am no matter what I do, I can't do anything right. In life, I'm too lazy to get it together, in my own favorite fucking hobby, I can't get anything to happen right.

Feels bad man.

>>4187096
;_;

>>4187085
lol w/e bitch.

>>4187101

If you're feeling guilty. Become your parents housekeeper. I'm on unemployment right now, and I'm not having much luck finding a job. So I'm using my time to help take care of the house.

>>4187122
I'm going to sound really dumb right now, but that's a pretty good idea and I never thought of that.

Thank you. ;_;

>>4187101
There is no try. Only do.

>>4187116
U mad?

>>4187119
I'll give you Kpop, but 30 seconds to mars? The only good songs they have is The Kill and their cover of Bad Romance. As for booze, I haven't had anything to drink in awhile now, it kills my workout progress. Plus it's expensive as fuck and best enjoyed sparingly.

It's about moderation folks.

>>4187157
>they have are*

>>4187157
nope. but keep trying~

>>4187163
I'm not that interested :V

>>4187169
then stop

>>4187172
I like to organize my music by artist even if I only enjoy a few of said artist's music. It's a habit of mine.

>>4187178
?

>>4187205
I do the same, and am sure I have neither. Some people just work better if everything is organized. All my photos and music is sorted in a similar manner. It makes it easier to go back and find exactly what I want without wading through everything for god knows how long.

>>4187205
Keep wading through meaningless garbage to find what you want. Glorious organized master race reporting in.

Guy I like stopped talking to me

>>4187216
>implying I would even keep garbage
Glorious I-know-exactly-where-everything-is-when-I-need-it master race reporting in.

>>4187230
GO CLEAN YOUR ROOM.

>>4187230
So do I. The folder with it's subject or artist name on it.

Or one of those boxes. But I don't think my sorting translates to well to life. At least it's in a particular spot of the room.

I went to Fabricville and lifted three rolls of galaxy twill. Not something people would complain about, except I had surgery recently and now I hurt.
Also, they don't carry the colour of leather I need. Only brown with ugly ass textures and a weird square cross-weave thing. I don't know how to get the colour I need, seeing as I don't has job or Paypal...

I'm hungry. other than that I'm fine. just playing rift.

>>4187240
If you have money to be buying stuff, you can get a paypal. Get a reloadable card from Walmart or something, sign up.
No problem.

>>4187243
Lolslobs.

>>4187245
:< Ikr

>>4187250
Is it good?

>>4187248
The Wal-mart where I live don't sell them and Shopper's only sells then in 25$s and they DON'T STACK. I raged so hard in the store...

>>4187258
I like it.

>>4187109
that actually made me tear up a little

fuck i am so screwed ;_;

>buy brand new BMW
>park it in driveway
>old lady passes out in her car
>hops curve and hits my car
YOURE FUCKING 90 YEARS OLD STOP DRIVING

>>4187261
You can order one off Walmart's website, I believe?
https://www.walmartmoneycard.com/walmart/getacardnow
I'm going to assume they send it to you and then you go to the store after activating it and put money onto it.

I can safely say that I have never, ever felt comfortable in my own skin, I have big problems of socialising due to having a mental break down for the last couple of years...I can barely even talk to my boyfriend of three months...it's pathetic.I'm terrified he's going to dump me because I'm so shy and quiet. Even though I bake for him a lot and love him so much...I still feel as though I need another dimension...
...and I'm desperately lonely without friends. [my mental condition stops me from getting any, because after one day of meeting them, I grow distant and break away from them...and I can't even stop doing this, it's subconcious..] I really hate myself.

>watch guy friend develop feelings for my other friend
>she doesn't feel the same way
>almost agonizing to watch
>suddenly guy just stops talking to her, stops hanging out with our group and will talk to everyone in our little circle except her
>If she tries talking to him he usually just walks away
>WHAT IS GOING ON?!

We were extremely baffled at first, my only idea is that he's trying to get over her and realized he can't be friends with her without liking her?

I get really tired of helping with making costumes for/with friends, but I won't ever stop because it sometimes feels like that's the only reason they want me around. Not because they're using me but because honestly beyond sewing and nerdiness I'm just a bit quiet. They never call for anything besides that but when they do I jump all over it because then they need me.

Also, it really sucks when people who make up drama because they're paranoid make their paranoid fake drama true by spreading it around. I'm feeling shitty over everything and while I damnwell know what to do.. I really don't want to.

>>4187302
I know how you feel. I'm bipolar, and I went through a stage where I felt like my friends didn't really want me around. I faded out a bit, and told them to text me or call me if they wanna hang out, and they never did.
Turns out they just hate using phones. I got medicine, got over it, and they were really happy to have me around again. I guess my advice it to just take a bit of incentive.

>>4187286

You clearly have no idea how attractive shyness is to many boys. Shy girls sucker me in every time. And you COOK for him? You know how many girls do that? NOT MANY.

>baaw I need another dimension

This isn't a fucking dating game, you don't have to meet minimum stats in 4 out of 5 categories to make him happy. A very wise man once told me that love is insanity, because we love people BECAUSE of their flaws, not in spite of them.

As for attractiveness... love really is blind. Back in lolhighschool, we got a new girl in my band class one fine day. I judged her as somewhat attractive but her features were just a little too "sharp," kind of odd-looking to me, so she missed being "really cute."

Then I fell for her. Three weeks later, she was the most gorgeous girl on earth, and I couldn't take my goddamn eyes off her.

Take a screenshot of this post and the next time you doubt yourself, refresh your memory with it.

I have really bad ezcema, and it's not getting any better any time soon. Because of this, I have a really hard time making new friends. I can't wear certain clothing because all of my scabs and red spots would show. I would always wear a sweater and a hat everywhere I go.

People on the street stare...not a pleasant feeling.

>>4187351
>>4187351
thank you so much...You made me cry with your kind words!
Yes, I love baking so I sometimes take over a cake, scones or maybe a few cup cakes when I visit. I'm getting really good at it, and I love to see his happy face when he receives them... :D

thank you so much! seriously....you have made me feel much more secure...

>>4187390

Just telling the truth. Honestly, I'm jealous as HELL of your boyfriend (half of /cgl/ probably is, too.)

I will never have an adorable, shy girlfriend who's so thoughtful she bakes me cakes.

>>4187403
ahhh there is probably a few of us around! Just need to look under rocks...
I love him so much that I just can't help backing for him...

I caught pneumonia from a friend last year at a con and spent my vacation on the bed. Then, said friend refuses to acknowledge that she gave me pneumonia and blames my other friend. I'm better now and the doctors say my lungs are fine.

What bothers me the most is that I am still coughing and it feels like it's never going to stop.

>>4187406
>I love him so much that I just can't help baking for him...

SHIELDS CANNOT REPEL D'AAW OF THIS MAGNITUDE

HAVE MERCY, WOMAN

>>4187417
mmmm sorry to have caused you so much discomfort..! Please have a nice day :]

>>4187423

I CAN FEEL THE D'AAW OVERTAKING ME

IT IS A GOOD PAIN

(pardon my /tg/)

I've never really been a very emotional person, but as of this past year things have been getting to the point where I feel apathetic towards just about everything. I can't even remember the last time I was really angry, I don't feel excited for anything that I normally would, I just barely feel anything emotion-wise anymore. I have a wonderful family, amazing friends and my life's great otherwise, but I just feel so dead feeling-wise all the time, I really have to force myself to act like I'm feeling happy/sad/whatever when the situation calls for it. Any suggestions?

>>4187271
Aw, I'm sorry. Let us huddle and cry together?

>>4187441
Loss of interest can be a sign of clinical depression. Consider seeing a legit psychologist if you're worried about it.

I'm serious, I just saw my therapist last week and we went over symptoms to show that I -don't- have it.

i owe my school 4k because i took a medical withdrawal after i fucked up a semester going without meds and they fucking lied to my face when they said the withdrawal would not cost me more money but they aren't liable and now i have to sign a lease five months early unless i want to get a higher rate and i have to start paying off loans in a couple months that i can't afford because i can't find a second job or get more hours at my first job and we need to find a new roommate for july because the dude who shares the room with me is moving out and without someone coming in my rent is gonna double

and that's just one slice of my problem pie, there's still my car, my boss, my meds, my fuckbuddy, and my roommates

Liked a friend since forever, but it was useless to like her since she was in a relationship.

Finally I just give up from either guilt or some other hopeless shit and move on.

Develop crush on another girl who digs me.

Girl 1 started being all over me recently and I fear re-developing a crush on her. I really like girl 2 and I don't want to ruin things with her.

OTL WRY I SO DUMB?

Not baww or anything, just... apathetic, I guess.

I don't miss my boyfriend. I mean, he was a good boyfriend and he's doing fine on his own (now basically living with a girl he can't date and her girlfriend), but... I dunno. I just don't long for the relationship we used to have and, quite frankly, if it means I don't have to be around my our ex-gf anymore then fine by me.

Amidst everyone's "oh, I'm so sorry"s and "you'll be fine"s, I feel like they're expecting to me to still be upset almost seven months later. But I'm happy here, my new friends make me feel so much more complete. And they're faaar less picky about their cosplays, lol.

Is it so bad that I'm not being all foreveralone and actually enjoying my single life the way I wanted to in high school?

>>4187506
go with girl two

things hardly ever go well in a relationship with a girl you had a big crush on a while ago

i'd suggest finding something about her you dislike and concentrating on that for a while

>>4187506

she's using you for a re-bound. All she'll do is fuck things up with #2. Tell her to cut the shit, she had her chance.

>>4187514

Thats the plan, I'm just nervous about myself.

That's a good idea. I've been sorta doing that before hand now that I think about it. She's tells me I'm her bro, and I keep narrowing down my view of her like a 'sister'.

Plus, even though this is kinda horrible but...
Girl two is way cuter and has a better personality.

>>4187552
there's nothing horrible about that

people are allowed to like some people more than other people

as long as you don't spread your opinion like it's gospel it's all good homes

>>4187559

Thanks brosef.

Just needed an outside opinion I suppose.

>>4187506
First of all, Wry =/= Why.

Second, this isn't you being dumb, but it seems like you're better off with #2. Going back to #1 doesnt sound like its going to end up well for anyone.

>>4187589
if you're not gonna end up making a costume you feel comfortable with maybe don't cosplay this year i dunno

I just discovered doing a test in class that I'm emotionless. We were supposed to write down our emotions as the day passes, my sheet was left blank.

>>4187589
I think you should stop prioritizing conventions and costumes before food, because that's just fucking stupid.

>>4187613
I'm not putting them above food. I make sure that I'm fed before thinking of starting a project, that's why my costumes are made out of old clothing scraps and bedsheets. I'm just bad at wording my posts.

>>4187615
it's cool i mean he shoulda just assumed but i guess bitch don't know about maslow's hierarchy

I've been having pretty severe anxiety attacks on top of crippling depression for a while now. Today I couldn't even get out of bed because an anxiety episode kept me trapped there for 3 hours. It's embarassing, but this all started because of a breakup that I just can't reconcile. And all that I need to make all of this go away is for her to tell me that she misses me. Just had to get that off my chest.

>>4187612

I think you're just lazy.

I have a $7.50 an hour job and about $1,500 of medical bills.

I think Spidey's new costume looks terrible...
Also after complaints to the studio that Toby was too small to be a convincible superhero they got that tall thin guy from the facebook movie to play him. And he looks anorexic.

I want my life back to super fun tiems awesome. And my want for this actually makes me wish someone was dead, and I feel horrible about that.

>>4188785
and this isn't helping...

>>4188813
My favorite thing about this costume is how all the angles point to his junk.

LOOK AT IT

>>4188468

Sounds like me.

But on the plus side, I've already met my insurance deductible for this year! In 2 months.

Oh well, at least I have a 4 month supply of Oxycodone and Oxycontin. That makes things better...

i'm being stalked by a compulsive liar who likes to talk shit about me.

>>4188468
This except I'm in college and the bills are 3k +

>>4188785
I didn't knw the junk part was black.. wtf.

I just found out my therapy co-pay is actually twice what I was told, so I owe them another month's worth of money. And my car insurance is running out after March because it got comically high (3x the price of my actual car). It's not even because of any accidents, I apparently become a much riskier driver when I'm no longer a student. And my father's stopped giving me money and I don't know why and I'm not sure how to breech the question without going WHERE'S MAH MONEY, HONEY and feeling like a huge bitch about it.

And my friend who's aspie as fuck owes me money and is still trying to get me to give him free rides everywhere. What is it about Dungeons and Dragons that attracts autism like iron filings to a magnet?

>>4188785
Why is his dick a different color than everything else?

>>4188468
Similar situation. My last job fired me when I got sick, the assholes.

I only just found a new one, minimum wage. I'm hoping to get a raise soon though (fingers crossed).

I'm sick of my boyfriend always guilting me into doing things, and then saying I can do what I want only after I decide to let him win. He will spend hours bitching at me until I say "ok", but says "Nevermind. Do what you want," because he KNOWS he's won.

He's probably the only in the world who would want to be my boyfriend, but I wish he respected me.

I hate my friend's girlfriend. I hate her so much. And I hate him for being with her and putting hoes before bros.
I really want to tell him, but then I'll feeling like a clingy, jealous bitch. I think I annoy him and he only hangs out with me so he won't be alone going to anime club.
I also have the hots for him and would totally hook up with him. But I know it wouldn't work between us.
He surfs /cgl/, but he's probably outside enjoying the nice weather so that's why I post.

My best friend is becoming closer with her ex-girlfriend to the point they're apparently best friends now. They're always talking and doing stuff together. It's weird because my best friend currently has a girlfriend and she doesn't know what's going on. It also bothers me because the ex-girlfriend told me flat out that she was going to replace me as the best friend. Ummm what? It seems like the two of them are out to start drama or something which I really don't want to deal with right now.

My sister and I just had a huge fight, which boils down to her screaming "if you ever marry [my boyfriend,] I will make sure nobody from our family attends your wedding, and I will never speak to you again. He's a low-life slacker and you will end up divorced and alone."

>Boyfriend is a driven, talented, straight A student about to graduate from a top university.
>He helped me overcome severe depression.
>He spends summers rescuing baby sea turtles in Georgia.

Yeah...

She's also abusing cocaine, pot, adderall, alcohol, and a myriad of other things. We had another fight about that too >>;;;;

>>4189104
i like your sister

>>4188967
>mfw you assume that just because you posted it now doesn't mean he won't see it in 2 hours, tonight, or tomorrow.. Because the thread will still be here.

And easymodo has already caught it and archived it forever and ever.

You ain't a bright crayon, babe.

My mom just lost her job, and I'm still having trouble finding work myself...

Even if she gets unemployment, we won't be able to afford rent... I feel so useless.

>>4189144
Not the anon, but how would he even know that post's about him? If he's self-conscious enough to ask if the situation is about him, he wouldn't be ignoring the anon.

The captcha is fucking perfect: iteent him

I failed some serious exams last June and couldn't get into a repeat school due to being broke. Since August (around the time I got my results), I have practically resorted to being a hikkikomori, depressed out of my tree and only going out like twice a week. I can't even bring myself to go to the nearest shop and get milk most of the time - that's how bad I am. I know I need to get a job to help pay for my reapplying to a repeat school in September, but I'm scared of going looking for a job because I have literally no experience and I think that employers are going to take one look at my resume and tell me to basically fuck off.

I feel incredibly useless, can't stop crying, and I know I've to just push myself to send that resume out... No matter what. To be honest, I'm also afraid of running into people I haven't talked to since I left school. It doesn't help that all those people are in their second year of university while I'm... stuck here.

I miss my ex-gf, we decided being in college and living too far apart made the relationship not work. she was the only person I've ever dated that I actually liked and still do, it's almost been a year.

my ex-best friend is a bitch/whore and i told that to her face months ago. she would ignore my existance while she was in a relationship, and only hang out when she was single. and if we ever did go out while she was taken it was to meet up with guys to chest on her bf with (and she knows i'm not interested in guys so i'd sit there, texting my long-distance gf).

i hate my new college, it makes me depressed every day (bursting into tears when i'm all alone and think about having to do homework and go back to class). it depresses me so much that i've deicded not to persue a masters degree once i graduate, this school has made me so depressed that i can't stand the thought of doing it anymore.

someone I seriously hate wants to cosplay a character that I wanted to cosplay long before she even heard of the show. And now I cant. Whats worse is that Ill associate that character with her forever.

Let's see here.

Just moved into the Herndon area. Just got a new job. Just spent the last of my money getting an old 2004 Civic Hybrid. Get up to go to work at 3:30 in the morning. Job is stressful. Most profitable, and busy, Panera location in the area. No real spending money. Nothing to do. Love online gaming, love role-playing, hate having to pay-as-you-play. Currently playing: nothing. Have no idea what to do. Started making my own tabletop game. No one seems interested in experimenting with it. So bored. My boredom is starting to cause stress. Trying to quit cigarettes; can't, I'm too bored, I can't find something to do to take my mind off of things. Tried pushups. Tried situps. Not. Working. Endlessly, I pace around my room; I have no place to go to hang. Every guy is always too busy/not playing what I'm playing, every chick is taken or, for some reason, hates playing whatever it is I want to play, leaving female friendships/relationships in the dark as the only thing I can do is talk to them about non-geek stuff. Which is fine. But I've been down south for a year and I'm finally free and with my friends again, I WANT TO NERD OUT. I WANT TO MMO AND SHIT. LET'S PLAY STRIP BEER PONG EVERY TIME GHANDI SAYS "SAY WHAT" IN CLONE HIGH, COME ON COME ON COME ON WHY AM I SO STRESSED FUUUUuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu

Okay, can we play heRO? Sweet. What are you names? ...Okay, I'll wait for you to text me with them.

For three weeks.

Wakfu Closed beta, then? ...No? LoL? CC:S? Dawn of Discovery? Minecraft? Fucking ANYTHING?

Great. Still bored. So bored, it's starting to affect my writing. Can't write. Can't make the rest of the rules for the game. I swear to God, even masturbating is looking dull to me now.

Help.

My family is annoying and I'm bummed out because I keep remembering that no matter how successful I am, my life is still gonna be fucking boring.

Feels Haruhi, man.

My parents split up the day after my 18th birthday, mum has had another mental breakdown because of it.
She looks so pathetic. I don't know what to say to her.
My friend's girlfriend died. He's the nicest guy I know. Everyone's shocked about it.
My dad's taking one of my dogs with him and my mum is giving the other one away.
Shit fucking sucks.

I'm actually quite thankful for the most part. The sun is finally out and my working hours have picked up.

However, there are times when I feel like I'm always behind and it will take me twice as long to catch up to others - I can't tell what exactly is holding me back from what I want to do and be. It makes me wonder about my future . All I can do is keep going and hope for the best (on another note...I just want to pass my accounting courses >_< I can't balance accounts for my life! ).

I suppose another thing that's bothering me is that I miss my ex-bf, and the same situation is much like >>4189180. In spite of being involved with another person, a day never passes without me thinking about my ex. I hope he's doing alright. It's been too long since I've heard from him.

I worry at times about my dear friends. One whom like me feels behind (he actually has to take last semester's courses again D8), and another whom has all sorts of issues - living in a drama infested household, seeking a job, and the like. I wish the best for my friends.

Im eating like a beast, and monstering it at the gym but it is taking forever to break 155lbs.

I finally got a job( a part-time, but the pay is quite good), and was planing on making a savings account, and finally be able to pay for basic necessities and have a little left to spend on myself once in a while, without the help of my parents

>financial independence achieved!

NOT! My mum has financial issues and needs my money. I want to ask it back but I don't have the guts. Plus she lends me money every once in a while for public transportation and lunch, which is cool but... she says it counts like the money I lend her, but the quantity is so little compared with what I lend her.
I know it could be really worse, and I'm actually fine, but I can't save money this way, nor spend it in anything at all. I'm always without cash even tough I work now... it upsets me and I'm starting to build a grudge of my mum.
I hate myself for this
emo.jpeg

Femanon here and I just got in a fight with my girlfriend over something stupid. Lately she's been blowing up at me. Ok granted I'll admit I do and say stupid things and I get angry easily, but I'm trying to change and I apologized to her. She gave me a half-hearted apology and walked away.

And all I can think about is how awesome the sex was last night. I just want us to make up, but I don't know what to do.

I'm spineless.

I like this guy a lot, but we fight a lot. We flirt and stuff, and get sexy via webcam sometimes, but it's nothing serious.

I want to stop liking him so it won't hurt so much when we fight, but he's so goddamn PERFECT it's SICKENING.

>>4189376

You sure you're a femanon?

No one will ever love me and I will never contribute anything useful to western civilization

>>4189403
I am. Did I say anything to imply that I'm not?

>>4189407

No worries, once natural gas runs out there won't be any civilization anyways. You might want to buy a gun btw.

>>4189418
New drilling techniques will ensure that I never have to deal with that in my lifetime. And I already own several guns, none of which I'll ever use.

I'd probably just let the mob come get me.

I'm a photographer and I've recently begun to develop strong feelings for one of my former subjects.

He's my type physically and intellectually; attractive, androgynous, artistic and intelligent. We get along great and I could talk to him for hours. As if that weren't perfect enough, he's stated openly that he reciprocates my feelings and has said several times that he wants to have sex with me and be in a relationship.

The only problem? He's barely eighteen and I'm twenty-six years of age.

He's never even been kissed before. I would be his first EVERYTHING and I'm terrified. I told him that I'm nervous about accepting so much responsibility and that I'd need time to get used to our age difference and his inexperience. He said that I'm the only guy he wants and he'll wait until I come around, but part of me is worried that he's not going to wait forever and I have no idea how to get over my anxieties.

>>4189459
>>hot smart trap
>>of legal age
>>wants to jump your dick

What's the problem here, exactly?

My. Fucking. Shopping service.
The first fuckers didn't reply and still haven't.
I used them twice before and loved them but idk/idc what the fuck is up now.
I then decided to use another group which whatever didn't look too bad.
I ordered 2 wigs, 2 wig holders, and two dresses. The dresses are custom made and shit.
Shopping service says the wig holders are out of stock and they refund me. No big deal.

Check the next day and the dresses are fucking canceled in my order. What the fuck.
>"Oh lol seller didn't reply and it takes 20 days to make them so we're gonna cancel and refund you!"

NO. WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK YOU'RE DOING. ASK ME IF I WANT TO FUCKING WAIT FOR A REPLY. ASK ME IF I'M OK WITH WAITING FOR THEM TO BE MADE, IT'S NOT LIKE I DIDN'T FUCKING KNOW IT FROM THE START.

I readded them to the order and left a bitchy note in the comments section.

>>4189459
You lucky bastard.
Sage because I can't help though ;w;

>>4189511
Name of the bad service please?

There's this guy I really like but even though he flirts with me a bit I'm pretty sure he isn't interested. I'm going to confess to him in a few weeks anyway but I'm terrified of doing so. I'm extremely shy and I've gotten rejected the last 3 times I confessed just because they always see me as 'one of the bros'.

I've done a lot to distance myself from my tomboy past but being 'bro-zoned' is still a huge fear of mine.

Yeah I know my life problems are lame.

>>4189523
Yoybuy.
Watch your ass around them.
They can't English their way out of a paper bag and just suck dicks at communication.
>mfw I have to somehow make them go through with the dresses or else I'll have to go to an entirely different shopping service and just pay a shitload for shipping.

God they make more money the more shit I buy. Shouldn't they be the more patient ones?

My friend who I'm doing the order with and I are just raging so hard these past few days. I need the costumes for a birthday in 2 months and a con in 3. If they don't come then both plans are duds.

>>4189524
I'm forever bro-zoned too.
Good luck. I've given up.

>>4189488
Mainly its just that he's so much younger than I am. I would feel better if he wasn't so inexperienced, honestly. When he asked if we could have sex, I felt kind of bad telling him to give me time because I think I hurt his feelings, but I want both of us to be sure.

I have really strong feelings for him, but I feel like such a creeper for wanting to do things with him when we're 8 years a part in age and he's never done anything. I don't know how to get over that.

>>4189518
I know I'm lucky, and yet I have no idea how to get over what's holding me back. Feels bad, man.

>>4189524
Never understood the bro-zone thing as most of the girls I've liked were more of "one of the bros" except maybe more feminine dressing.. Do you have a picture?

>>4189548
Maybe try taking it really, really slow? I think part of the reason you're worried is because you don't know what he's like in a relationship. If he seems mature enough to handle it as a person (since he's never been in one), then I don't think you have anything to worry about. Once you see him as someone who's able to be a boyfriend instead of an inexperienced friend with a crush, I think you'll get over it.

I pop painkillers any chance I get and pretend their anti-depressants that way it seems like I'm fixing myself, hoping that these pretend-happy-pills will make everything good.

I'm becoming depressed because of a past relationship that was one-sided, a prestigious school that I hate being in, my family hates the fact that I'm gay, I stopped going to cons because of work/school, because I stopped going to cons I haven't talked to my out-of-state friends, all my friends here are either married (in early 20s) or in the engagement mode so no one has time to be friends, my best friend moved away, my body refuses to lose weight no matter how much I diet/exercise and I'm just alone.

I used to cut myself in my teen years, I also used to have an eating disorder. With all of this going on I just want to start throwing up/refusing food again, but the ex that I cling to and my best friend both said they won't talk to me anymore if I go back to my old habits.

>>4189629
I'd at least pop xanax or something.

But that sucks, mang.

I used to have a very, very deep crush on a friend of mine. It didn't turn out how I had wanted it to, but we're still friends all the same.

A girl I know who I ended up telling a lot of my crush "woes" to now has a giant crush on him. She's trying to play it off like it's nothing but I've been told that's not the case. What's worse is that she is trying reeeeally hard to be extra super duper nice to me to the point where it's uncomfortable and annoying.

I don't know how to tell her to back off and just let me take this all in... and I'm angry with myself for being bothered by the whole thing. I thought I was totally over him... guess not!

I just cant figure out how to make him love me. I can't tell if he does.
>anything that could help?

>>4186895
I am flunking.

>>4186944
Welcome home.

>>4186944
God, I have so much 4chan ageda like this.
>mfw /a/
>mfw /co/
>mfw /y/
>mfw /r9k/
I keep having to board-hop, shit is depressing.

I realized after fighting so hard for someone, I don't love them anymore. They hurt me to much, and although they're trying to make up for it, it's just not the same.

Here's a unique one.


I will never find a group of people to do a live performance of 'Come Sail Away' with while dressed as the cast of Final Fantasy XII.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sm-Vh3j8sys

Dream skit/performance right there.

>>4189317
Stupid question but... where are you located?

>>4189779

somebody needs to drawfag this. now.

>>4189376
>attention whore here

>>4189459
Take it slow. Glacially slow. Like, plan to go all the way when he's 20 and not a moment sooner.

My best friend lives hours away, you'd have to catch a plane to get there but we're both dirt poor so can't.
I want to see him.

>>4189397
>osu
I just nostalgia'd; consequently, I am now re-downloading it, as well as some more beatmaps.

>>4189317
Don't give up anon! I'm in the exact same boat, getting up at 4am to go to work, meaning I have to be in bed by 9 or 10pm, which of course is when most of my friends are just getting online.

I would totally play games with you, (in fact, I'm on RO right now), but sadly I live on the opposite side of the country

>>4190023
I dunno, though. I kinda don't like games that are too grindy... which is what RO is. The main reason why I wanted to play it with some friends was that we could have shit to talk about or whatever. I might give it another try, though.


I just won't pay for it again. Free to play for life, baby.

>>4190312
Lol, same, which is why I'm on a HR free server. Basically, my friend and I just hunt MVPs or sit around shooting the breeze while looking at cute sprites.

I'm always on the hunt for new games, though. Which ones were your favourites?

>>4190374
Well, right now, I seem to be playing CC:S, since it's free... and is the only free-to-play FPS I own. I love games like LoL, however, I do not own HoN (yet!) and my friends are hardly ever on LoL these days. I refuse to solo queue, though, after my last few matches where my team has dicked me over because "herpa derpa insert bullshit here". Seriously, when an Udyr face-checks with his turtle up and in bear stance he's ready to go, don't run when he finally finds them! Sheesh.

I have heRO installed right now. I also play Dawn of Discovery, which is a great game if you have allies to build yourselves up to finally wage war against each other - but, it's very slow. Let's see... I have WoW and all the expansions, but I refuse to play them on Blizz servers.... have the Wakfu Closed Beta... Warcraft 3, of course, but I don't normally play it online competitively... And, well, pretty much anything I can download for free (Or cheap!) is a toss-up for me, but I have no incentive to do anything new right now unless I know I'll get into a good crowd.

Email and goodnight, it's time for bed.

>>4190413
Hmm, well, other than RO, I play WOW (paid, yes I know, but I'm in a seriously decent guild and it's super fun) and then single player games. I do suck horribly at FPS, though, so CC:S, while fun, is basically brutal, brutal rape for me.

Anyway, I'm going out for a bit, but I'm leaving my AIM sn, just in case you ever want to, I dunno, talk about playing things I guess, haha.

I haven't been able to see my boyfriend for over a week because he's fixing his car. It wouldn't be an issue except his dumb-ass friends keep making it take longer than it should. One guy who has a lot of knowledge is always busy so the car can only be worked on when he's around. Also, someone accidentally threw away a part that was needed. So instead of being able to see him today/tonight, it's going to be more like 2-3 am or tomorrow after work. It doesn't help that only 2 guys out of the group are actually helping with the car.
I mad.

I am inferior to everyone around me. I just wish I was special, smart, and talented, like them. I can't even log into facebook anymore, I just end up comparing myself to everyone and feeling bad.

Also, I will complete my BA by next year and I still don't have a set career in mind. I wanna try working places overseas, god knows what I'll be doing but...I just really hope it happens.

>>4190752
But I'm a creep.
I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here.

either my standards are too high or i'm just plain ugly because i still can't find a cute nerdy girl who isn't a 300 pound whale who doesn't think its weird that a guy is into cosplaying and anime.

I've found several girls that fit that criteria: one enjoyed anime and cosplay but her idea of anime was hentai, not regular hentai but creepy hentai. One girl liked cosplaying but said her favorite anime is boku no pico and that she has thousands of yaoi fanfics and loves the /y/ board on 4chan. And the last girl i found seemed pretty normal but was very controlling when it came to cosplay. She wanted me to wear a certain costume with certain fabrics and memorize a script and follow it strictly and never break character for a second.

I didn't think finding a gf would be this tough, damn i'm starting to think i'd be better off single for the rest of my life

>>4190488
not >>4190413 but what realm if you don't mind my asking?

also polite sage for off topic

>>4187511

You aren't alone. My bf broke up with me, and now I feel so much better being single, haha. (Although I was wanting to break up with him anyway)

I want to lose my virginity to my boyfriend.

On the other hand, I don't. It's a combination of conservative Christian parents (and me being a Christfag myself), extreme fear of pregnancy, extreme fear of later breakup and regret loss of respect and losing my best friend and all the dramabaww that comes with sex that I've seen happen a bazillion fucking times with my friends.

I love him and have already told him I'm going to follow him for the rest of our lives, even if we weren't in a romantic relationship - this was before we got back together after breaking up for LDR reasons - and he was cool and didn't think of me as a stalker or psycho for saying it. I want to give everything to him and at the same time I'm so scared.

And all this paranoid fuckwit thinking has only been brought on by the fact that his hand brushed up against my vag for a second and he apologized for it after I told him "Too low." My head is full of fuck.

Lately I've just felt like running as far as I can fucking go until I just can't run anymore, collapse and am forced to just sit down and rest. I want to escape and get away from all of the bullshit here, but I know it's practically impossible for me to do so.

I just want to get in a fist fight and get the shit beaten out of me or something, I don't know. I'm just pissed off that I made so much effort to change myself into a better person, yet I still can't change my surroundings and the worthless shit I have to do.

>>4191015
You do not sound like you are at all ready for sex. What I strongly recommend is that you do some exploration of your own body first. Get comfortable with yourself and how it all works. Maybe next time, don't tell him that it's too low. You can take things in steps.

At the same time, I can promise you sex is not as big a deal as you are making it out to be. It really, truly isn't. Our society does make it a huge deal, but really, it's not something life altering. It's nice. It's fun. It feels good. But that's really the extent of it. Take your health and the risks seriously, but don't take the act itself so seriously. If you make it into more than it is you will either a) be tense and therefore not have a good experience or b) be massively disappointed.

jobs jobs jobs jobs

Unemployed and I just used the last of my bank account to pay last month's rent.

Yep.

Almost got another job if this works out, though. Just waiting for the call.

lol, nothings bothering me, life is awesome.
Although I cant find a job. But whatever man.

>>4191317
Pretty much me right here

>>4190874
My mains are on Bladefist, but I have several other alts on other realms.

I'm always looking for more semi-casual wowfags, though. Realm? :D

Also polite sage for wow-talk

I'm hung up on my ex.

We're still friends, but I keep feeling like I want to find a way to get her interested again. She's dating a new guy now, and she dumped me for ANOTHER guy that wound up ditching her, but at least she's happy now with who she has. It was long-distance, so I don't really blame her for not wanting to keep it going, but it still makes me sad.

>>4191317

i feel ya there too bro

life is good except for no job

>>4191354

me a couple of months ago.

>>4191321
>>4191317

me atm

I am very tired, and tired of having something to do all the time.

I'm glad for break coming up next week.

I've been wanting to take a fun trip to my favorite city 5 hours away with my best friend for a couple of years now, but we both decided to just drop it and wait due to her not having enough money to help fund a trip anywhere. Turns out she and her boyfriend are now going on a trip to the same place I've been trying to get her to go to next week and both of them are paying to go...Thats a bitch ass move from what I'm seeing. Bitch also still owes me 400 dollars from another trip from 2009...STILL waiting on that money almost 2 yers later...

I've had constant nausea for the past year now, all day, err day. Had nearly every possible medical test done to try and figure out what's causing it, to no avail. I'm a pretty happy peron otherwise, don't get me wrong, but I'm almost to the point of suicide from how miserable it makes me.

>>4191393
*person, derp

>>4189856
What? No. I'm pretty sure this person is trolling and if they're not, they should be.

Your difference in age is not that big a deal, especially if both of you are on the same "level" mentally. You said you can talk to him for hours, right? I'm assuming you have serious conversations if that's the case.

Look, you may very well not have sex until he's twenty, but don't try and schedule it. If you're both sure and you're both ready before then, then it's meant to happen. He might get discouraged and get the impression that you're not really interested if you keep telling him to wait.

Like the other anon said: start really slow. Asking him out to dinner is pretty harmless, especially if that's what you normally do. Pick a place that's a little nicer than what you usually eat and cover the check. That way, it's still "safe" territory because it's what you typically do together, but it's unquestionably a date.

There's nothing wrong with wanting to have sex with him now. He's eighteen. Just don't rush into it.

I think I've bitched about this on here before, but my god damned uterus won't make up it's fucking mind on how long in between my periods it wants to wait.
28 days? Ok fine
Next month, 36 days.
32 days.
10 FUCKING DAYS.

I give the hell up. When my insurance gets activated, I am finding a new doctor and pestering them until they can either fix me or just take the damned thing out.

inb4 'birth control pills'. Can't take them. They cause me to have blood clots in my legs. Feels bad, man.

I'm unable to focus on anything and spend days, even weeks, doing the absolute bare minimum of what I have to do. I spend a lot of time feeling worthless, and I feel like all of my friends hate me. Furthermore, i worry about things instead of doing things about them, and then things always turn out badly for me. Plus, I'm 19 and i've only ever had a summer job in my life, i'm completely dependent on my parents.

It's not going to get better either, because i'm incapable of change because i have this pervasive laziness and apathy towards everything except staring blankly at 4chan that never goes away.

>>4191540
go to a psychologist and try to figure out what's going on. and probably go to college.

>>4191963
I'm in college, my grades are mostly Bs and Cs, which concerns me because i should be getting better grades for applying to grad schools and whatnot. I'd put more effort in, but then I just get really fucking lazy.

It's also the reason why i've never really made anything outside of like two closet cosplays in the past....three or so years.

I've tried to tell my family that I think my laziness is a problem, but then they just tell me to try harder, and I dunno...there's something inside me that just can't. I mean, if i were thrown out on the streets with only whatever I had in my bank (about $1000 or so) I'd probably be able to force myself to make ends meet by working part-time jobs and getting an apartment, but I can't really drive (I do have insurance and a license though.)

The thing about this that really scares me is that I have a brother in his thirties that got two college degrees and still lives in my parents' basement on disability. I don't want to become like that, but I don't know if I can change, because there's just something that holds me back and keeps me from actually doing things I want (for example, it'll take me like an hour of doing nothing to sit myself down and do something as simple as watch anime half the time).

>>4192065
yeah i was pretty much just like that. i mostly still am. i got a diagnosis for adhd-pi and now i have meds and a life coach and a psychiatrist and things are slowly getting less fucked up.

not to say that's the problem that you do have - but when people call you lazy and say you just have to get motivated and you don't and they say you need to get over it and the problem's just in your head - that's why you go see a psychologist. they specialize in the problems in your head.

it can be awkward and it can be really hard to convince yourself to go but if you don't feel like you can pull it together yourself, it's worth checking out. i managed to crash and burn pretty good last semester - preferably start figuring stuff out before then.

i got denied for a credit card. it's bugging the hell out of me because i have a good credit score (mid 700, not great, still good), good history with no delinquent accounts or late payments, haven't applied for a card in a couple years, and a fairly low total credit usage. i am awaiting that bloody rejection letter (denied online, no reason given) and why.

i just wanted a card with cashback. is that too much to ask?

mental problems and out of meds. I'm too depressed to go to teh drugstore

>>4192143

Have you tried going through your bank?

>>4192152
The one I got denied for was a Discover More card which I wanted for the cashback for my day to day purchases (might as well get something back for my responsible spending of money). While my bank does have at least one card with cashback and who I do have one decent sized credit line with, they aren't as good as Discover's program. The reason it bothers me is because I have no clue why a card would deny me because I've got pretty much every base covered as far as looking good to a creditor.

>>4187300
wow that sounds like what one of my friends started doing to me D: I rejected him, we stopped talking, if I went to talk to the people he was hanging out with he would immediately grab his crap and leave.
But he went really weird and sent me some creepy obsessive sounding txts after that so >___>

Nothing really expect I had an off day that went worse by a friend mocking my speech pattern. I made things worse by basically snapping on people including making fun of said friend behind her back by mocking the way she walks (Her ankle is deformed or something) and the death of her mother, Things got even more worse when I was harassing and snappin' on other people, including my nerdy/geeky friends abd their friends by shouting "NERDS" and "Virgins".

I went a bit too far by telling this guy that the only way his rep of being a furfag creepier would go away if he put a gun to his mouth and blow his brains out.

That last part didn't go so well and now people think I'm a huge jackass now. Fun fun.

I fear for my future and for myself.
Long story short, I am forced to continue studying in a school that makes me feel like shit and I'm to old to change it and frequent another one. I'm afraid I will not pass this year, and being the second failure of the same year I would be kicked out of school. I already failed 2 times and failing the 3rd would probably just destroy me. I'm old enough to be in my first year of university but instead I'm stuck in this shithole of a class of 17 years olds that is going to get psychoanalyzed because it's extremely troubled. I want my indipendence right now but I feel like I'm trapped forever in this nightmare, restrained and forced down a path that will never end in success.
Also, I'm being more depressed since my first ever relationship (it was 2 years long) ended.
I generally feel shit about myself.
I'll probably break down, grab some money and run the fuck away and build a new life somewhere.

I'm nearly $500 into medical testing, and we still haven't figured out what this burning pain in my stomach-area is. In two weeks, I get to have a camera shoved down my throat to see if they can find anything. I'm absolutely terrified that I'm going to be like my mother's friend who has been living with abdominal pain her whole life with no relief and doctors are clueless.

I feel like a fucking idiot being 25+ and afraid of a doctor procedure. Mostly afraid of being completely sedated for the first time in my life. Last time I was sedated it was only Valium and I evidently meowed at the person who took me home instead of talking. I'm not affected by things made from poppy and other stuff hits me like a ton of bricks.

>>4192744
Oh, I'm sorry. Gastroscopy will not hurt but it will be very uncomfortable during and afterwards, during, because of the gag reflex, and after, because it leaves a certain amount of air in your stomach. Just get through it all for this anon, ok?

>>4192572
Same thing here anon. I did manage to pull myself up out of it, and graduate. It was worth it, I guess. It's better to have a diploma than to not. And you'll probably regret it if you don't see it through now.
Do you have any interests that you really enjoy? Weirdly enough I don't think I would have graduated if it weren't for cosplay. Also, counseling.