It was also the first time I ever went to a big city alone, which was kind of a nice milestone of independence, but I was still scared of getting mugged or robbed or beaten up for no reason. I made it to the convention center safely, thanks to a fellow con-goer who got on in Chiliwak and guided me through the city. I waited in line for my badge. As soon as I got it, I went back to the hotel room to drop off my luggage, take a bath and maybe take a little rest. However, I had been on the bus all night with little to no sleep, and after my bath, I tried out the bed. It was SOOOOOO comfortable yay (Hey, for $200 a night, I BETTER have a nice bed! Mad ) that I just fell asleep and thought "Damn you bed! Why must you trap me in your infernal comf...Zzzzzz... yay" and ended up messing up my sleep cycle and slept til about 3 or 4 in the afternoon if I remember correctly. When I woke up, I thought "Aw, crap, I slept the whole day away! Stupid bus ride! Mad ". But I figured I might as well enjoy it, so I did a few fun things, a lot of which I don't remember. At the end of the day, though, I went to the first rave. I had TONS of fun there! There was a family of asian kids who I had been chatting with. They had a sign painted on canvas which said to glomp whoever was holding it (And on the back, it said something about yaoi as well! XD) Naturally, I obeyed the sign and glomped the boy who was holding it (Oh, come on, it's a con! Everyone's weird there and he was holding the sign, so I was within my rights! I'm not a pedophile! Honest!! sweat)

The aforementioned sign. (Yes, that's me)

They kindly lent me the sign which quickly resulted in many glomps from cute girls! I wasn't surprised, but none the less, free hugs from cute anime fan girls = WIN! Very Happy We also took turns holding it during the rave which resulted in being groped for the first time ever! I was quite surprised and thought "OMGWTFLOLSOMEBODYFOUNDMEATTRACTIVEENOUGHTOGROPELOL! blush X3"

When I got my badge, the receptionist told me about the speed dating panel which would be held the next day. It was in the afternoon, but since I had slept in the day time, I couldn't sleep at night, so I set my alarm for an hour or 2 before the speed dating panel. There was no way I was missing that! I waited in line there, excited to get a chance at getting a girlfriend... Unfortunately, the con employees came out and announced the panel was full, at which the crowd and I cried "AWWW!!" in unison. That was pretty depressing and I thought "Gaaaaaah! Fate, why do you mock me?! cry"

Now, here's where my predicament begins. At the con, I was very shy and felt very awkward. As I said before, I was a con virgin, so I was quite nervous and didn't know what to expect. I may have aspergers or something, so I tend to make a lot of fauxpauxs and reveal too much about myself all at once. Not anything intimate of course, but just stuff that might make others think I'm self-centered. Because of this I was scared of making an ass of myself or just coming off as a creep. I've been told by many people that I'm attractive and handsome. I still have a somewhat high BMI. (I think 35.XX to 37.XX I'm around 5'11" and I think I weighed 27X at the time (Now 26X.) I'm not very self conscious about it, but I'm still aware of it and it concerns me that some girls might think "Too fat, don't date."

Anyway, I walked the con for a while looking for girls I found to be attractive, but whenever it happened, I would either be too cowardly to say or do anything and feel like I would look like a stalker, or sit down and intrude like an unexpected dark cloud and come off as rude. I managed to start up a few conversations, but little came of it. I wasn't blown off or treated rudely. Indeed, everyone I talked to was quite friendly and open which was nice.

Now, I am and was aware that I couldn't expect much for what I put into it and the things I said, but I figured if I outright said "Hey, do you think you'd ever want to go on a date sometime?" I'd appear like some cheap, uncommitted bloke (No, I'm not British, I just like to use that word) who was only interested in their body and would quickly dump them after I got my jollies. I know that women like confidence, but I really want to display myself in such a way that women know I'm not going to let myself get scammed because of my lust, and that I'm a good, nice guy who wants to be loved because of that and not some criminal or bully with... *ahem* ...(Ugh... Mad)"Good genes"... to pass on. See, at the time I was stuck in this superstitious fear of "Nice guy syndrome". I now realize it for what it actually is, so it doesn't bother me as much anymore, but I fear that I don't have confidence, and that's what puts women off. Of course, I don't actually get out much. I live quite a ways out of town, and I have neither a car nor a license, and even if I did, there'd be nowhere to go. So, I don't have any real basis for my fears.

I'm currently going to the community college in town here trying to get my dogwood. I'm 19 and the next term starts on the 4th of January, the day after my birthday. When I graduate, I want to move West to Kelowna and go to UBC and/or OKC. I figure I might be able to meet quite a few anime fans if I take Japanese, but the earliest I'll POSSIBLY be able to attend will be in the fall of 2010, and that's VERY unlikely, since I'll probably not be able to get all the credits I need before then, as well as the likelihood that I wouldn't be able to register in time anyway. This bothers me because that means that by the time I get into college, I'll be 21, or perhaps even 22. I feel like I should have been in college in 2008. I actually tried to move out twice in 2008, but emotional troubles consistently sent me back home here. Living with my mom and her boyfriend (I live with my grandparents) was too irritating and depressing, even if it was just until I could find a place. I just gave up and came home. Now, I'm going to be a freshman when I should be a Senior and I'm gonna feel REALLY old, and I'm scared that this will sabotage my chances of finding a girl who shares my interests and values.

Ever since I watched this conspiracy documentary called Zeitgeist, I've carried around quite a few mental scars. It completely drained my sense of power and potential. Even though I debunked the conspiracy theories, I just haven't been the same since. I've almost completely lost faith in both myself and in humanity. I've been recovering slightly as of late, but the last 2 years have felt very stagnant. In the two months before I watched it, though, I felt like I could do anything I wanted if I put my mind to it, even if it was silly or impossible and that even if I failed, it wouldn't be a big deal. I had so much confidence, and in one fell swoop, it was all destroyed. My belief in the afterlife slowly faded until I became scared of failing in life. That if I messed up, that was it. My life would be hell and I would get no second chances.

I'm really scared of either being eternally lonely, or of marrying some broad who I find boring who I met in a bar, simply out of desperation and fear of loneliness, and then being stuck in a cubicle for the rest of my life while my marriage and my life in general spirals into the pits of boredom and despair. I'm so scared of failure, that I'm afraid to live life...

tl;dr *sigh* my life is in shambles

FUCK YOU

>>2873735

why what have I done to upset you :(

You won't really find to many hot anime loving girls in japanese class's. when I took my three quarters of japanese at college, the age range was in the 20-50 year old bracket, but more or less centered in the 30's.

also Sakuracon 2010 was my first con as well... didn't see the guy in the picture with the glomp sign though..

.....chris-chan?

I decided I needed a trip.
>>2873750
There must be some very cute asian girls though. Since it is Japanese, and asian girls tend to like Japanese.
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>>2873747
Please I'm not looking to be harassed D:<

>>2873754
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>>2873767
I will just start ignoring you if you keep harassing me with rude images and not help D:<
>>2873758
No, I am Jon.

Sorry boy, you're my bitch now

a new troll, just what we needed.

>I may have aspergers or something
it all makes sense

>>2873771
Ignored.
>>2873773
I am not a troll, I just want help finding a decent looking girl into anime who is cute and not fat :<

>>2873764

I think there were maybe ~8 asian girls in my class of 40 for the first quarter. dropped down to around 23 students the second quarter with probably around half of the asian girls.. third quarter there was one asian girl although the class was only 11 students at that point.

I believe most of the asian people I knew took korean instead of japanese(it might just be a local thing though, I live just a ferry ride away in from seattle)

enjoy being trolled bitch!

I can't believe I read all of that.

Also, I couldn't help but stare at the picture and think, "That's not one of the badge designs for SakuraCon 2010."

And if you are being for real anyway. . .grow up. Your life could be a lot worse. Stop worrying about the "Nice guy syndrome" or lacking confidence, because you are certainly coming off as desperate and that right there is extremely unattractive and a definite turn-off, more so than the other two.

Lacking confidence isn't a complete deal breaker, you just have to find the right person who is either the same or willing to put up with it. But so you are aware, the reason why it is a deal breaker for some, it is tiring and draining on the other person. I dated a lot of people who were lacking in confidence ( still am. Argh. ) and I have to put up with hearing about whining and them getting upset with me if I don't compliment them enough. Which, by the way, it seems like I can never compliment them enough. It's tiring and old after a while. I personally cannot deal with it.

The whining about college. . .get over it. We don't live in an age where it is expected to go straight from high school to college, marry your college and/or high-school sweet heart, get a job right after college, and pop out two babies anymore. I was 19 and was going to college with people who were 33, 26, and whatever else. I didn't care. They didn't care. No one cared. It's not a big deal.

People go back to college to change careers or to finish degrees or because they waited a bit.

why do you want to date so badly? if it is for " to have someone" I'd think friends are enough in that case.

I'd really take some time and think about what you want and how you want to go about getting it, going to a con to look for " hot girls to date" isn't the mind set you should have, Wickedlady brought up a good point on that about going there to make friends and getting to know people and I agree with and add onto by saying for example you do find that " hot girl " you want to date, well if you are in the same group as her ( and her friends ) at the con....maybe you'll find you don't like her all that much afterall ( since people aren't always as great as they look ) and if you do like her and get to know her even better right?

>>2873792
Well, I really hope I don't sound shallow here, because I'm most certainly not, but to be completely honest, I want sex. Not just any sex, but romantic passionate sex from somebody I really love. Sure, friends are nice, but most friends won't give that to you, especially if they're of the same sex (I don't swing that way.) I know women are people and not just object to get off with. I'm WELL aware of that.

It's not merely the physical sensation I'm after, but the ultimate intimacy, closeness and oneness with another human being as well as the thrill and excitement. I mean, come on! Who DOESN'T want that? That certainly isn't the ONLY thing I want out of a relationship. I want to be able to have fun together and just talk. I want somebody who makes me feel like I'm a person and not a number in a cubicle. Someone that loves me so much, she always wants to be with me. However, I'd be lying if I said I didn't care about sex. And what irritates me is that people treat that like it's something bad. Am I not allowed to want that? Am I a bad person for wanting that? Am I supposed to just not care about intimacy, closeness and warmth?

Of course, I'm not one to seek it at all costs. The last thing I want is sex from somebody who's only doing it as "payment" for her not working and leeching off of me and me buying her presents all the time and will leave me as soon as the money dries up. There's a word for women like that and it starts with "W". I'd honestly rather die a virgin than end up involved with someone like that.

>>2873790
True, but I have this horrible fear of aging and becoming some inane, insipid old man with all the stereotypes. An old man who never fell in love.

I find it hard to fix my confidence, I don't know how I'd do it *sigh*

>>2873790
I agree with this. You'll find yourself whining about it a lot of you're looking for it and not having luck (Which is a huge turn off). Go to conventions, make friends, and have fun. Chances are that something will happen when you're not really expecting it, probably because you allow yourself to get to know someone better without always having the thought of, "Okay so I'm only talking to this person because I want to date them."

>>2873809
Problem is though is that I don't think it's possible for me to talk to a girl who meets my criteria without thinking about dating them. While I could pretend as though I'm not interested, I feel as though they would either see right through me and sense my true intentions, or they won't sense it and nothing will even come of it. To describe it, it's the same kind of feeling as watching somebody walking towards a cliff, having the power to stop them but not doing so. Something inside of you tells you "WHY ARE YOU LETTING HER GET AWAY?! DO SOMETHING!!" And I feel like the older I get, the less likely I'm going to be to find someone. As I said before, I constantly hear bad things about being friends with girls. That once you're their friend, it'll never be anything more. And I know I shouldn't EXPECT it to be anything more, but I honestly can't not care. If I'm talking to a girl, I'm going to be thinking about a potential date, and there's NO WAY around that!

Don't go to Sakura-con to find a girl man. Sakura-con is a place where love dies. DONT DO IT!

>>2873813
Then shut the fuck up and do nothing, stop whining on 4chan

>I know women are people and not just object to get off with.
are you serious?

Obvious troll. It looks like someone just copypasta'd off some forum hence all the weird emotion words at the end of all the sentences that are supposed to be forum emoticons.

>>2873833
dammit i was about to post that pic

>>2873712

honestly, you're shallow. btw /adv/ice is that way ->

What pains me is that somebody thought "LOL I'MA TROL CGL" and is investing this much time for....pretty much this.

Considering the time invested, making yourself sound 95% accurate as to how you are irl anyway, not really impressive nor funny, OP.

I can relate, for I too am looking for a boyfriend-free girl and complete my love quest. And then I can have a beautiful little girl named Crystal, which is similar to my own name. Maybe we should get together and I can show you my amazing comic with my electric hedgehog pokemon Sonichu.

>>2873790
I'm afraid you are right, that is not one of the badge designs of Sakuracon 2010. It's not even from Sakuracon at all, because it's held in during Spring. I used an exif finder online and is says that the picture was taken on June 12, 2009.

And why the hell did I wasted my time reading this...

>>2873880

Are you suggesting girls aren't? Because lol

i'm shy and awkward too but i'm not so good looking. i'm 25 (my birthday was last month) and i will be going to college too. i dont want a girlfriend or anything like that but i heard that most girls dont really care if you're some years older or younger. everyone is different though. you dont have to worry though! someday you will find someone who you like and who likes you and if you try hard it will happen sooner. so dont give up on yourself. and especially dont give up on people. there are a lot of people and a lot of them are good and a lot of them have faith in people and in you.

>>2873778
You my boy are no looker yourself and have no room to talk if you're not thin. Quit having such high ass standards, or move the fuck out of Mormonville. That simple.

>>2873919

^ person actually believes they're talking to someone who didn't just make this up

Its like the women of /cgl/ want to get trolled or something.

id fuck ur brains out
if u wanna hook up

WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST FUCKING READ WATTTT.

>I may have aspergers or something

diaf.

Troll.

This was on the Anime Evolution forums last year. Pretty funny shit if you read the original thread. Turns out the just guy wants meaningful sex.

>>2874001

Jesus. Ever feel the need to beat the ever loving fuck out of someone?

Probably would've solved his issues too.

>wall of text
>says sakuracon 2010, but that badge is not even close
>obviously a troll
>people actually replying

but what if there is someone who has a problem like this who is reading this thread and is too afraid to post but he needs help? i think the replies here will help that person.

This thread gave me an idea of what to NOT do at CT Con this year. Thanks fag.