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09/28/11(Wed)19:14 No.55249037>>55248485
To finish up
>There
is a part of me, though, no matter how much I hate it, that wants to be
social, get a girlfriend, be accepted and what not.
Everybody
yearns for this kind of happiness, however, everybody also want to get
it all at once and become blinded from other simpler pleasures. I guess
this is probably because how society "measures" happiness and success.
To me, i can feel almost ecstatic when i go out in the wilds and camp
for a few days by a lake even though others wouldn't consider just as
much success because of how society says that only the whole pie can
make you happy.
>This is the one thing
that's keeping me from just giving the finger to the entire world. I
honestly wish I was a schizoid so I could just live happily not feeling
dependent on other people.
I know that feel too well. It's
like there is some kinda transparent barrier that holds you back from
releasing your full potential. You can see through it, and you can see
yourself far happier than what you are on "your" side of the barrier.
Yet you never attemt to really break it, you just stand and watch it,
hoping perhaps that it will break by itself.
I'm sad to say, it
doesn't. That barrier will always be there, almost tauntingly. But what
most people don't notice is that no matter how happy or sad you are,
that barrier will always keep the same distant. Instead of yearning to
suddenly break through it, use it as a carrot and walk gradually towards
it. After all, if you suddenly were to reach the top moment, the climax
of the story, where then would you go afterwards?
Anyways, this
all is some sleepy rambings. Take it as advice or not, but remember that
everybody has to solve these problems on their own. There is no 100%
guildeline to happiness. And don't measure happiness towards others and
try to find happiness in the minor things in life instead of "saving" it
to the end of the book. |
