>>50895101
lol horrible gaijin fan art

>>50895112
Fan art of what?

>>50895136
Look at this retard.

Pretty much every day.

>>50895136
Vomit-chan

>puke girl

"Sometimes?"

I always feel depressed. Though I'm much more depressed than usual right now. I've never felt such crushing loneliness. Last night I was honestly going insane and came the closest I ever have to suicide. It's a little better today, but I'm still a fucking wreck.

Atleast I know /a/ is here for me, right?

>>50895144
What?

That feel when no feel

>>50895201

Dude, fucking take a shower, and walk outside and familiarize yourself with society. That's step number one.

Sometimes, I realize I'm not depressed.
It's crazy

>>50895201
You should seriously consider this. Suicide is point of no return.

>>50895201
/a/ is always here for you.

We don't judge you on your hobbies. While we might judge your tastes, you will find others with similar tastes. Like true friends.

Oh, and go take a walk. Just being outside with your thoughts is nice. I get a kinda runner's high from mere walks.

>>50895201
I've held a knife to my chest four times so far and tripped off a balcony on accident and seriously thought about letting go (was only five stories, probably would have just fucked me for life, not killed me).
Depression is awesome.
But this is not a depression board.
This is a video game board.
Age.

­reported

>>50895391
>This is a video game board.

I took a leave of absence from university cause I had missed so many classes back in April. I went home on April 13 w/ my parents for an early summer break. However, since then I have not left the house even one time. feelsbadman.jpg

I know nothing but emptiness.

Not anymore. Started working out, eating healthy. Sure it was hard at first, but it was worth it. If you won't put any effort into it you'll continue to suffer. Good luck.

I get fairly depressed quite often, many times because I feel I can't measure up to my family's expectations of me.

I've contemplated doing the deed before, but I usually realize that life is worth living and fuck my family they aren't in charge of me I'm a goddamn adult now.

>>50895201

>>50895101

Why would I feel depressed? I've only been diagnosed with a few mood disorders and I compulsively pick at my own skin until it bleeds.

>>50895101
I'm depressed every single day.

If it weren't for my waifu and my computer, I'd have no idea what to do with my life.

>sometimes

No. I'm depressed all the time.

>>50895101
apathetic 24/7
mad at this thread for existing

That is physically impossible as I almost always have "rap is a man's soul" or "libra me from hell" stuck in my head

>>50895101
Sometimes, but hey it's ok to feel sad once in a while though.

I'm depressed since 2 years... I wish I could die, but suicide is too complicated.

So much so that it's not "depression" anymore. It's who I am.

Except for the three days of the month where I feel awesome.

captcha: was nnutton

I'm a fucking fish

>>50895700
Why would you want to die? Even a miserable life is better than nothing at all.

>>50895201
This.

No job, fearful to even get one. Too scared of fucking something up. No friends, no life, no school, nothing. I just fap and browse /a/ all day. I am depressed all day every day.

>using this girl of all girls for your shitty depressed threads

bitches she goes on crazy ass head adventures with ghosts, demons, etc just having one hell of a good time.

Don't use her for your shitty lives goddamn.

>>50895685
>>50895623
>>50895575
>pictures of moeshit
and they wonder why they're depressed.

What were you guy hoping for, watching k-on?

>>50895744
Would you like to eat your shit instead of flushing it down the toilet?

When ever I look into my past, I get depressed.
Whenever I look into my future, I feel even moreso.

Untill I reach a point where I can look back and laugh, look forward and feel proud, and look at the present and say, "this is the life," I'll always have Mado's face when.

I haven't gotten around to the VN, so please excuse me for asking: Why is Madotsuki taking drugs? And, since the likely answer is depression/anxiety, why is she depressed?

>mfw I don't know that feel.

>>50895784

Nobody can be depressed while watching K-On.

>>50895784
What?

>getting controlled by your own emotions

>>50895841
After watching it, I mean't.

>>50895498
was in university and everything, but I suddenly just stopped caring. before i know it, can't afford school anymore because i botched all my scholarships. Twice. Second time, I tried loans to help motivate me, but it didn't work. Now, I'm depressed and 20k in debt.

sometimes i think i'm a mental wreck with no chance of integrating into society but then i look at this picture

and my worst fears are confirmed because i don't feel anything

Yeah, I feel depressed. A lot. My brother outshines me in every way, he's a really good wake-boarder, and may go pro someday. He's popular, funny, and is generally good at everything he does. This depresses me. But I feel great. I feed off the depression. I love it, but not in a masochistic way. It's hard to explain.

>>50895897

>>50895784
We watch cute anime because we're depressed. It's one of the only things that make us feel any sort of joy.

>>50895897

My first thought was about that armpit hair

Never REALLY depressed.

I'm pretty lucky, though, my family has a history of depression and my mom was contemplating suicide once.

Pic related, it's my mind 95% of the time.

That feel when i'm 23 years old, never went to college or did anything after graduating High school, born in a poor as fuck family which few give a shit about me and have no future prospects.

>>50895897

WHY DID I OPEN THAT

Check out Tohno's ronery board and try to cheer up.

>>50895897
What has science done

>>50895979
WHY DID I OPEN THAT HAVING READ YOUR POST

>>50895897
I was eating cookies because i'm depressed but now I lost my appetite.

Reported

>>50895897

>>50895924
I get it.


>>50895885
>mfw

>>50895897

I know i'm a failure and all but I just don't feel depressed
anyone else recognize that feel?

I feel depressed pretty often. Tried to get into university last year, but fell short of the mark. By then it was too late to apply for colleges, and my family don't want me working because of their shitty-ass welfare scum tendancies. So I've been stuck doing basically nothing but sitting on my hands for the past year while life passes me by and all my old buddies get on with their education and shit.

On the romantic side of things, I've got a good friend of 5+ years who seems interested in me, but she lives abroad and I'll only be meeting her for the first time face-to-face next month. Even then, I'm still stuck obsessing over some loli from back when I was at school, even though it's been two fucking years and I should be over it by now.


To be honest, I'm surprised I don't feel far worse.

According to my psychiatrist, I suffer from a medium-heavy depression. So far, I haven't been successful in ridding myself from it.
At least I managed to rein in my social phobia to an acceptable level...

>>50895897
what

>>50896008
GOD DAMN IT I DID IT TOO

>>50895897
Fuck, I opened it before seeing the reaction...
I'm afraid to close that window now...

>>50896076
>Just enjoying what you enjoy doing and not giving a fuck.

>>50895897
JESUS FUCK

>>50895897
I felt nothing.
Come to /b/ sometime and post more of that, if you will.

I swing between depressed and happy. But really, I'm only depressed when I interact with other people, aside from /a/ of course. I love you guys

I'm very rarely depressed. I'm a happy person in general. I get irate and I get stressed out, but I have various methods of chilling out. Either I watch anime, paint, cook or go to the gym. All of those things make me happy.

I'm at Uni studying Law in one of the my favourite cities in the world, so I have nice future prospects. I have a fantastic group of close friends, and an extensive group of 'people I meet up with for coffee or at parties'. I have a brilliant relationship with my mother and my grandparents, even if they are far from perfect, I help myself by helping them. I'm pleased with where I am and who I am.

I hope you guys get to that point one day too.

Someone describe the horrors of >>50895897, I'm somewhat curious now.

>>50895784
No I was merely giving out a reaction image because I wanted to express how bloody depressed I am.

You try being a shut in and never leaving your house.

>>50896182
It looks like a man who got a horrible boob job with armpit hair.
Good God, don't click it.

>>50895979
>>50896008
WHY DID I OPEN THAT HAVING READ YOUR POST ABOUT HIS POST?

>>50896206
And terrible, terrible nipple hair I think. I didn't look at it long enough.

>>50896182
sewed on tits, armpit hair, probably a trap.
Kinda ugly, glasses. Also, 3d.

>>50896182
I pushed the limits of my reaction times closing it.

>>50896226
Fucking curiosity man. It killed the cat.

And made the /a/nons throw up in their minds.

>That feel when you're depressed to the point where you honestly don't give a shit anymore, and just want it all to go away. You struggle to even open your eyes and crawl out of bed. On a daily basis you contemplate killing yourself with fond notions of "That would really make everything better," and "At least then I won't feel like shit."
>However, you just don't do it, because you're too scared to actually go through with it. You constantly think about what that would do to your family, and as such, never do it, continuing to struggle through life.
Anyone else know that feel?

>>50896076
I don't see why I should be obligated to be successful. Why should I have anything to prove to anyone? I definitely recognize that feel.

>>50895897

>>50896164
It's interesting, actually. Guro does nothing to me anymore, one of the perks of being a med student, I suppose. People die all the time, why should I freak out at some random chunks of meat?

His thing still disturbs me though. It raises so many questions . . . it's so wrong, and yet he's so satisfied with himself. Referring to the $5 boob job I mean. If I didn't want to be the little girl too, I wouldn't be on /a/

>>50896281
Just become batman.

>>50896165
I think I have the same feel.

>>50896281
Meh, I sort of feel like... like killing myself would be just a waste. Like, if I killed myself, it wouldn't make any difference, so I might as well use my alloted time on this world trying to mkae others happy.
If only through the internet, it's still a tiny bit of difference that I'm proud to make.

>>50896281
You and almost every other human being. Everyone gets depressed at some point in their life, it's normal. You shouldn't let it take you over though.

BE STRONG.

>>50895897
NOW I'VE LOST IT

I feel like shit.

Got my BA in psych, put in my second application for grad school, but I'm not optimistic. My GPA, though within their requirements, is on the low end. Of course, even if I get accepted, I'm not sure how I'll pay for it.

The biggest problem, though, is the lack of direction and general emptiness. I have a hard time opening up to people because I fundamentally don't trust others; however, the idea of finding someone I can confide in is incredibly appealing ... if depressingly impossible.

>>50896165
Are you me?

But yeah i'm still depressed some time...
But with /a/, my waifu and some beautiful song, everything is going very quickly better.

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>>50896248
no nipple hair, just exposed stitches around the areola.

>>50896361
Are you trying to make something out of moonrunes?
'Cause all I'm seeing is a shitload of boxes.

>>50896281
Knew that feel for about two semesters back. I'd just sit on my ass in my boxers from morning to noon, throw on clothing for meals and shit else.

It gets better, /a/non.

No. I only have two states of mind. Madness and despair. Never depression.

>>50896177
Sure sounds normalfag.

>>50896281
give up, but don't kill yourself.

>>50896281
/a/non, just by nature of you posting on /a/, you are an intelligent, well educated person with half decent ideas. You're just a little deluded right now. You'll be fine.

>>50896414
Sure sounds content and happy with his life over there.
Not a samefag.

>>50895897
I like how his breasts look as if they're made out of butt skin.

I got rejected from a job at McDonalds. I feel very shit about it.

>>50896394
　∧＿∧ 　
　　　　（ ｡∀ﾟ　） < Install Mona font you baka

>>50896318
I'm neither rich enough, nor physically capable of becoming Batman.
>>50896335
I can kind of understand that.
>>50896336
>>50896399
It's been almost 2 and a half years. Can it hurry up and get better already?

>>50896458
>yfw you have to be black or hispanic to even be considered a failure at life.

>>50896177
>I hope you guys get to that point one day too.

Well, thanks, bro.

How can you guys consider suicide when there's so many fun things to look forward to?

Sad playlist engage.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkAvVqjbUG8
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8Z1FZyYg4HU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HlWcF1h9fQE

Anyone care to add?

Cheer up /a/ someone loves you

Can someone explain why /a/ is depressed, enjoying your anime and not caring about 3DPD?

>>50896528
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=l9_p-nhZXLg

>>50896458
Oh that says nothing about you really.
There mighta been someone really hot looking for something to fill in their time, or someone with like 8 years of experience working in another fast food chain. I got accepted to a high level intern ship abroad recently, and was rejected even before interview for a part time job selling soap n shit. Just keep trying bro.

>>50895101
>depressed
I'm not even sure what that means anymore all the doctors and therapists, I've met just throw the term around like it's nothing.

As to the question, I feel melancholic, I feel like Haruhi but I don't have the courage nor the ambition to go out looking for interesting things, except on my "good" days. And it doesn't help that I'm slowly turning in to another Rei clone

>>50895897

>>50896484
Look at this bad ass motherfucker, he had no goals in his life, no wife, and he wasn't rich, he didn't know what to. So one day he said fuck it, and just decide to put on a costume and kick some ass. Look at him now, he's on fox news talking about him kicking ass.

>>50896538
Life 'aint all that bad. Much better than most other anons.
I enjoy my shows, r/a/dio, /a/ sings, and mostly every aspect of my life.

Feels Okay, man.

>>50896504
Funny, this is the thought that got me out of my depression.

>>50896484
http://www.mcdonalds.com/us/en/careers.html
http://sites.target.com/site/en/company/page.jsp?ref=nav_footer_careers&contentId=WCMP04-030796
http://www.starbucks.com/career-center

I know these are normally posted ironically, but . . . well, to answer your question, as soon as you're ready. That doesn't just mean when "You think you're ready," though.

A good first step is getting yourself out of the house. Get a job, /a/non. Make money. Buy something nice for yourself. Like bacon. Oh my god, bacon. . . and even if these don't work out for you, keep trying. The job marked is shit right now, and you'll need some friggen dedication.

Once you've got that down (or even while) start finding some people to talk to, and try and find someone who shares your interests. If all the soronery.jpg femanons are any indication, you'll be fine.

Does someone need a hug?

>>50896538
/a/ has the blues. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OQ654Lg6m8k

Nah.
Just not really motivated to do anything right now.
Don't hate life
Don't hate the world
Don't hate people
In fact love most of those things deeply.
But I lack motivation and don't know where to get it, no inspiration. I understand that life is beautiful but... don't know where to start to make it more so, or know anyone who doesn't feel like it is so I could show them how.

Ah well, at least I've got /a/ and a dozen computers to fix to keep my mind off it.

Sage for personal blog.
Sage for not anime.
Not out of spite, though.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oMaBYMQ4xQg

/a/ and anime/manga are what keep me going. Not out of dependency, but they always cheer me up when I'm down

>>50896484
I know how you feel, bro. I've had a lot of shit thrown at me over the years. Sexual abuse, overbearing and overexpectant family, a fiancee who beat me and eventually left me for one of my friends. My life hit a low a good ten years ago, and though there have been rays of hope, I've never fully pulled myself back outta there. I know what it feels like to wonder if things will ever really look up. I'm still wondering that.

But I'm holding on. Fighting. Keeping my head in the game. I know you can do it too, anon.

I saw the thread, and thought "Heh, good thing I'm not depressed today."
But then, 20 minutes later I remembered the dream I had this night, I was with the girl I had a crush on in 9th grade. We haven't met for 5 years now, I loved her so fucking much.
She was my friend.

When I search my mind, she remains the only 3D girl who's always been nice to me.

Yesterday was pretty bad, friends. I should be glad right now, I do nothing but watch anime and play video games. I don't go outside for anything and my parents are ok with me staying at home for now. The problem is that I know that I can't keep this up forever and I'll have to do something with my life eventually. This wouldn't be so bad if I didn't know that out in the world there are tons of people more qualified, intelligent, attractive, and better at anything and everything I can or want to do. I feel fucking worthless. I feel sick and I feel jealous of the people who seem to have everything planned out. I hate how complicated everything is.

Sorry for the rant, I guess.

>>50896639
I've tried getting a job. I honestly have. Not a single place will hire me. I've gotten hired once out of pity because the manager knew my parents. I ended up getting sick just after the first 3 week and getting fired because I couldn't come in for 5 days due to illness. After that, I've been unable to even secure interviews at the places I'm applying at. The jobs are all getting taken by the recently graduated, or soon-to-graduate high school kids that are actually content with their lives and are extremely social people.

>>50896538
Open up the r/a/dio. Right now.
Then you'll understand.
Hallelujah, hallelujah.

>>50896672
If you find even one thing you enjoy, it'll make EVERYTHING much easier. You'll find it easier to go to work/get a job, study, whatever it is you find yourself inclined to do.

Preferably something active, not passive - like anime or vidya. They're sorta like time sinks and you don't have much to show for them. Art or writing or a sport. Something you wouldn't have thought of, like bloody flower arranging or becoming involved with a society and participating actively (whatever tickles your fancy - I love the drama soc, simply 'cause you can take a back seat if you feel like it and just soak up the happy rays of productivity).

That's my advice anyway, 'cause it's what worked for me when I was in that position. G'luck, bro.

This applies to other apathyfags too.

I haven't felt depressed in..geez a long time. So I'm good. Could use some 9s though

>>50896731
Man, I feel horrible for getting depressed and contemplating over suicide for basically nothing, when people have real problems out there.

>apply for Unis
>pick the only subject that interests me
>4 rejections
>only 1 offer for a different course
>dream job taken away

Currently living at home, slowly saving up to buy my own place, hopefully by the end of next year. I'd like to say part of this is because I'm finally in a position of financial stability and that I feel more upbeat about my prospects, but in all honesty I don't want to be constantly reminded by my well-meaning family of all the other areas of my life in which I so sorely lack, and just want the freedom to indulge in my hobbies/obsessions by myself.

>>50896774
See
>>50896554

Everyone's having a tough time getting employed at the minute. Perhaps you should focus on finding something you'd suit best, like if you consider yourself to be less socially able than the bubbly high school graduates, go for something that doesn't require you to deal with customers regularly. Like a receptionist, PA, secretary, something like that. Get a qualification (even from the open university or something, you can study from home that way) of some sort relevant to your interests if you're rejected even before interview.

Just keep trying. Good luck.

This picture was in the deepest depths of my [old] folder.

Hope you like it, cheers me up when I see it.

Used to, it took long to find the right combination for me
It turned out that 40mg fluoxetine in the morning, 150mg venlafaxin each 12 hours, alprazolam 0.5mg any time I feel slightly tense completely remove my feelings and negative thoughts
at most I can feel bored sometimes, thats when I do cocaine, pic related

>>50896895
Exact same thing happened to me! I took a gap year and was accepted by four rejected by one (for no reason, I met their damn requirements but hey ho). Just reapply next year bro. In the time you've taken out for yourself (just for you, that's what a gap's all about really!) you might come to the conclusion that your dream job wasn't actually your dream job in the first place. (Also what happened to me).

>>50897002
Please be joking bro. That shit just gets you more depressed.

I've only felt depressed once in my life. It was last semester after I had to take a test in each of my 5 classes in a 3 day period. After I took them I felt as if I failed every single one so I started seriously considering dropping out for some reason, and literally did not get out of bed at all (except to use the bathroom) the next day.

Then, turns out the lowest grade I got out of all 5 tests was an 86% and afterwards I felt silly as fuck.

>>50896648
May I?