I know what I'm talking about isn't some big realization. Look where I'm posting this on. Silly me. You all know this already. Most of you, if not all, are in the same position. That should make me feel better, right? Because I'm a total failure, other failures should make me feel better, right? The truth is, everyone is a failure, we just had the misfortune of realizing it. Or at least, those of us who have accepted it.

So what now? Really? I've lived like this for so long, and I haven't really thought about it until I watched this anime. Kind of a lame way to turn my life around and start thinking about the future, but I guess I've always kind of done that. In the anime, there is no resolution. Sato gets a job, and him and miyaki maintain the lie that something is against them. Their fantasy to live together. What fantasy do I have? Am I supposed to lie to myself now? Even if I got a great job and made lots of money, I won't be any different. It's all still worthless. Not to be depressing, I mean, everything is pointless, but it's not like I want to die. Just like Sato said, that's a pain in the ass, too. So what the hell? How long am I going to sit here?

I feel like I should make some life changing decision now. Like go outside or something. But I don't want to. The outside sucks, and I'm uncomfortable around people for so many reasons, and even if I did, it's not like I would accomplish anything. I guess that's not a discovery anyway, since I've told myself that all along, but I guess I've always felt like that was a lie too. But it's not, is it?

We're all screwed? The only thing we can do is lie to ourselves, or be lied to and believe those lies, and live our worthless existence, and die. What the fuck? I don't want that! That's bullshit! Veto! Veto! Bullshit! Fuck!

So I guess nothing is changing after all. I have my own illusion. The outside world is full of people that look down on me..... But.. Well I guess that's not really an illusion. I feel strangely upset about that. Shouldn't something cool happen, like I get a knock on the door and someone is there to save me from this bullshit existence of "We're all fucked" and I get told that I'm the son of some God or something, and I get to go on an adventure? Dammit! Why is this all such BULLSHIT?!

I guess that's how it is. What has been seen cannot be unseen, and what is known cannot be unknown. I already know we're all screwed, so I guess I'll just stay in my room until I go crazy and accept lies instead of reality, and live my useless existence. It's not like it makes any difference.

I still say it's bullshit.

bawwwpasta?

tldr;

tl;dr

whaaaa...?

I don't even know why I'm posting this here. We all know I'm not going anywhere, and I'm really just making myself look like a dumb ass, and I'm not in the habit of pissing where I live.

Not like it matters, I guess. Still, what a depressing way to think. I'm treating the anime board on 4chan like a goddamn blog. Even if anyone did understand what I'm trying to say, what difference would it make?

I'm thinking about just deleting this thread now and letting you all get back to your discussion about whatever anime is cool these days. No need to drag you into my world.

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life..

>>34589415
Fuck yeah

kill yourself lol

>>34589274
No. If this is pasta, it's ragepasta. What a goddamn faggot. "I would like to change, but it's hard and I'm a pussy, so I won't. Wait, now what do I do?" Jesus.

>>34589400
No don't

>I just finished Welcome to the NHK
THIS IS HOW EVERY NHK THREAD EVER STARTS.
GOD FUCKING DAMN IT /a/
THATS ENOUGH ALREADY.
I MAD.

You sound like a small emo brat in puberty who's so GRIMDARK

How does it make you feel, knowing you sound like that.

Go cry in a corner, you fucking loser.

>>34589400
Go to a psychologist, seriously. I know you may be worried you'll get pumped full of meds, but going to therapy and taking my anti-anxiety pills has made my life 500x better.

And the fact of the matter is it's impossible to NOT lie to yourself. That's just how humans are. But we're also capable of wonderful truths; read/watch some Carl Sagan to get what I mean.

>>34589415

Love this song, takes humour from our pointless existence.

The Monty Python guys were true geniuses.

I don't know. I feel like I'm talking to a wall here. Talking to myself. Either I'm talking to someone so wrapped up in their self-deceit that they believe they're better than me, or something on the same level, which isn't even helpful.

As much as I feel like I'm cluttering things up, and that I'm not entitled to such a fit session, I really feel like there's some awesome realization just out of reach, and if I keep talking to myself like this, I'll find out what it is, and I won't be like this anymore.

I just.. Gotta keep thinking.. And I'll figure everything out, even if I'm a burden right now, acting like those pathetic guys that rely on total strangers to make themselves feel better. It's not like that anyway, I'm only talking to myself here, no one cares, and even if that did, it wouldn't make a difference. You can't fix the truth, you can only lie about it, and I'm not dumb enough to believe lies. I guess I am dumb enough to keep looking for the truth though, because I guess I think the truth isn't as depressing as it is, and if I keep thinking, I'll find out something awesome, and I won't be like this.

Dammit! Why do I have to be right about THIS! I've been wrong about so much STUPID shit, why THIS. THIS has to be the one thing I'm spot-on about. FUCK.

All your troubles get nullified by some drugs.

Just because of some drugs, all your worries are gone and you feel very happy. Just because you took some drugs.

That is how meaningless your "problems" are.

Stop crying at yourself and beign a loser, it's not that hard.

Living in a fantasy world and not worrying about the problems reality puts in front of you is too easy, once you start smashing your face on them you'll understand it.

tl;dr version:
finish your school study, get a job, start going out with random ppl, live your life happily.

importance is entirely relative, find something you love and pursue it. ie find happiness.
Unless your satisfaction with life lies upon establishing it upon absolute truths which for the most part do not exist, it is unimportant on what scale "truths" become "lies" because that scale does not apply to your current reality.
Basically don't over think things. Thinking about and questioning life is great and all, but if it's driving you towards depression, cut that shit out.

>>34589454
It's not like that. I know I have the capacity for change. I know how to do everything. Just baby steps, one at a time, until I've got a decent job and can support whatever life style I want. Except I don't want any life style. Dammit, life is pointless, and I know that now, and no matter how much that sucks, I know it's the truth, and it's stopping me from doing pointless crap, because I know I'll be wasting my time.

Oh, who am I kidding, I know how this works. I say something, and you misinterpret, and I spend a long time trying to rephrase, until I look like an even bigger idiot than I did in the first place. Whatever. I'm only talking to myself anyway.

>>34589560
Medicine costs money, and I'm not the type that would take any anyway.

Besides, I'm fine just where I am. No anxiety in front of my computer. No fear on the internet. What's the problem, anyway? Oh right, that life sucks.

You're right though, I do lie to myself, but I'm way too honest. It's only small and stupid things that I lie to myself about. Things like life, and getting the motivation to do stuff, I can only give myself the truth, and that's why I'm like this.

GO BACK TO /v/ AND PLAY HALO WITH SOME BROS. THAT WILL MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER

>>34589652
They would make me feel better, sure, but they don't solve anything. That's an illusion, too. Chemicals. Bullshit. Then when it wares off, I'm right where I was in the first place. What a waste of money.

I can understand what Imrinfected is saying. He watched the entire show, and realized that in some point in our lives we are all failures in some sort of way and find escape. Then we find excuses to maintain this form of escape.

Eventually we to deal with this and eventually face life, even if it means covering our true feelings and putting up with shit you hate.

Stop looking at the big picture you goddamn faggot. Death isn't a specific, particular or singular thing, it's the end of life. So keep living your goddamn life as fully as possible. Run onwards and then get cut off, don't just get cut off sitting down. Hard to explain, but the whole "Life is meaningless" argument really annoys me. How do you know there is no god? How do you know everything is a lie? You just let an anime get to you, stop looking at things like you're in a fucking anime, metaphors and shit. Not everything's a lie, just different points of view and ways of life. Life is the earth, being happy is top and being sad is bottom. Don't think that everything is bottom always and forever just because you're depressed, the middle just changes to the bottom when you get depressed. You can eventually work your way back to neutral and in to positive. I'm terrible at expressing myself by the way, but at least I said what I wanted to say.

tldr
>come to /a/ cry about being a loser
>cry for advice/attention
>fail to realise that /a/ is the shitiest place one arth full of lifes failures
Fuck off to r9k/adv tripfaggot

>>34589890
I never liked Halo. I only played it with everyone because they enjoyed it, and I felt obligated to do something better than the asshole that was hosting servers before me, just because I knew I could. Then it kept sucking, and eventually I got tired of it, so I stopped. Anyway, it always turns out the same. I top the scoreboards until I get too tired to play. I guess it's no wonder I got good at it, playing it all the time.

>>34589924
meant to say middle, don't know why I said earth

>>34589758
No, you're talking to me. And you're right that life is pointless, but you've gone completely in the wrong direction from there. The fact that there's no point frees you. You have nothing to live up to but your own expectations; do something worthy of yourself.

Read Nietzsche
Accept Nihilism
Go Insane
Discover Greater Passion
?????
Become the Ubermensch

>>34589651

Your brain is going through a kind of "high" (or maybe in this case "low") from finishing a series that you were emotionally attached to, something like withdrawal syndrome.

In a few hours, a day and a half tops, the high/low will wear off and you will think to yourself "what the hell was I thinking? Posting that stupid emo sentimental rubbish on the internet?" afterwords you will continue life as you normally did, either being productive to people/society, or, as your post suggests, being a useless emo fuck who is too afraid to do anything to his life so he makes up some shitty excuse like "its all worthless!!".

Personally, I volunteer for the red cross, we would go to third world countries (I prefer going to the Asian ones)and giving the villagers supplies, medicine ect.
Just last year I was in Vietnam and we were helping a village with a malaria problem (the meds cost $.65 per person) while I personally educated the young folks about life outside their village, they were surprisingly interested in America.

So you see, OP, the only reason why you're a failure at life is because you tricked yourself into becoming a lazy emotional fuck. Go kill yourself.

>>34589918
It's bullshit.

I know complaining doesn't really help anything, but it's not like it can even be helped. It's bullshit that no one can to anything about unless they pretend it's not true. Dammit.

>>34590039
Nietzsche was not an advocate of nihilism. Perhaps you should read again.

You're taking yourself way too seriously, just enjoy life bro

The fuck is with all these tripfags?
They're popping up one by one all over /a/.
Its never been this fucking bad.

>>34589560
What if I'm afraid of other people and the therapy would force me to talk to other fucked up persons?
What if I know, that the sucess rate is minimal and most people suffer a relapse anyway?
Shit sucks.
I also don't want to take drugs.

But I don't want to hurt my parents, so suicide is out of question.

What should I do?

>>34590247
It's summer.
I've seen people apologizing and saying "I respect your opinion.".

Fucking summer.

I didn't expect to feel better after making this thread, and, well, I don't. Another thing I ended up being right about, and I feel indifferent.

Nothing's going to change, which sucks, because eventually I won't be able to live like this, and I don't want to die because that sucks too. Stuck between a rock and a hard place. I can either not do anything, and end up starving to death or something, or lie to myself enough to keep on living until I either can't keep up the lie, or can't keep myself living. It's not like I can even decide to lie to myself, because I have to believe the lie, and I'm not dumb enough to.

Dammit, I am so screwed.

>>34590247
Summer.

And it was much worse when Code Geass aired. Every day a new tripfag.

Only you can save yourself.

>>34590276
I don't know, but I'll tell you what I've been doing.

Nothing.

I guess I could just be looking for an answer that's not that. I'm probably just screwed.

>>34590247
I've posted on 4chan with this tripcode for like two years. I'm only just now popping up because this is one of the few times I've ever posted on /a/.

Not intelligent or interesting in the slightest because you came forward with nothing new or insightful. You are a shit poster and a shit tier attention whore.

>>34589701
>Stop beign a loser
You must be from /adv/, I've never seen such great advice.

You forgot to include that he should also "man up", and your personal story how you managed to do all that, else someone could get the impression you weren't writing this for yourself.

>>34590608

He used "ppl" though, that's gotta give him some extra points.

>>34590590
I don't give a shit how long you've used a tripcode for, enjoy my filter.

>>34589870
>>34589906
You saying life sucks and holing yourself shows that you have some form of depression. In case you don't know, depression usually means your serotonin levels are fucked up. So, taking meds to fix those levels is like wearing glasses; it's correcting an error, not pushing an illusion on you.

Even if you don't have the money to take meds (and there are generics), you need to talk to someone. Yeah, maybe life is inherently meaningless, but even people like Sartre who believe that also believe it's up to you to create meaning in your life. And you can, but first you need to get yourself some help so you can work through the issues that are hurting you.

>>34590059

/thread

Looks like it hit a little too close to home OP. You have failed.

Meh, I've accepted the same thing. I just don't see it as a bad thing. Think about it, you could slave your ass off trying to attain huge amounts of everything, money, power, status. Or you could just take life easy and enjoy as much of it as you possibly can. Both lives will end up the same. Which sounds the most fun?

If there is nothing after death, that's great! Nothingness isn't bad, you won't be concious of it, it would just be like dreamless sleep. And it mean's that there's no responsibilities in life. You don't have to go to church a certain amount. You don't have to earn a certain amount of money. You don't have to populate the world with lots of new kids. If you want to do these things, that's fine as long as you enjoy them.

As long as I'm not hurting anyone, who cares what I do if I'm enjoying it? I love my life, can't understand why people whine about life being pointless, if it had a point it would mean I would have to work towards something. I don't like work, I like having fun.

SO DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEP OP

faggot.

>>34590669
>depression usually means your serotonin levels are fucked up.

But I don't have depression, that's for people with real problems. I'm just a complete worthless fuckup in general

>>34590669
It's not depression. People keep thinking that. People I used to know would always contact me about this stuff, but lately they've left me alone, which I'm pretty grateful for.

I'm not depressed. I'm happy all the time. Playing video games gives me such joy. I loved watching this anime. I talk to myself all the time and make stupid jokes which I laugh at, which I guess is kind of pathetic, but anyway, I'm not depressed. I just know there's no point. Ultimately, there's no point. It's all just make believe, and I'm not the type that can believe it.

I don't need help. No one can help. Like I said, you can't fix the truth unless you lie about it. I mean, I wish some pretty girl would try and help me and understand, if only so I could be around a pretty girl who understands me, which would make things suck a WHOLE lot less, and make living with this bullshit a lot easier, but I don't go outside, and even if I did no one would understand, and it's not like I'm really that lonely anyway. I'm not some emotional trainwreck, except for when I'm around people. Alone, I'm perfectly health, and I don't need help. I just can't keep living like this. Society won't allow it.

>>34590762
This

>>34590859

That's what they always say
you have depression

Lacking purpose? Feel useless? Join the Dollars

>>34590762
Sure, but how long can you do that? Until people stop supporting you, or you can't do it yourself anymore?

I'm not afraid of death, which I guess is strange since I'm terrified of being around lots of people and talking to strangers, but I digress. It's not that I'm afraid of everything being pointless, it's that it's bullshit that it's pointless. It sucks.

I could live with it like I am now, but I can't do that forever. Eventually I'll need more money, and I'll have to get a job, and then I'll have to be around people all the time, and that sucks. I don't even know that I can do that.

>>34591005
Maybe you're right, but I'll never consult a doctor, so I'll never find out.

>>34590895

So... what's the problem? You say "I'm not lonely" but you just "wish some pretty girl would try and help me". You say you're not depressed and you're happy all the time, but take a look what you've written in this thread, does that sound like the writings of a happy man?

Time to admit you're problems. You ARE lonely and you ARE NOT happy. Otherwise you wouldn't be complaining about them. And honestly, your problems aren't that bad. If they were, you would do something about it. If you don't want to do something about it, don't whine about it. It's like a fat person crying about their weight whilst shoving cakes and pizzas down their throat, sitting around doing nothing.

>>34590276
Therapy can be one on one, you don't even have to talk to other people.

Also, what is this "success rate is minimal" stuff? I went to a psychologist, and though I still have issues I'm much much happier because I talked about them and worked through why I have them and how I can cope with them. It's pretty simple and not some crackpot shit.

As for meds, if you had bad eyesight would you refuse to wear glasses? That's pretty much equivalent. Yeah, there can be side effects, but then you can talk to your doctor about them.

Lastly, talk to your parents. If you're afraid of hurting them if you kill yourself, imagine how they would feel being unable to help their child who's suffering. Your parents love you and want you happy, so please talk to them.

>>34591005
If it was that simple, I'd be better already. I'm not an idiot.

At least, not all the time.

>>34590859
Guess what? I'm a fuckup too! I've never been abused or raped or anything, just suffered a lot of internal pain and worries. That doesn't mean I haven't suffered, or that my pain isn't worth dealing with. Same with you.

Also, you'd be surprised at how much serotonin levels can simply MAKE you into a fuckup. When you're depressed, you just aren't able to do shit like you want to.

>>34591165

Why is it bullshit, why does it suck? If anything, it makes life easier for the reasons that I've explained, it gives you full choice over what you want to do without feeling obligated to do something you don't.

You don't know if you can be around people? Man up. Seriously, grow a pair, there are thousands of people just like you, feeling the same way, yet they can get a job. You can to. There are always easy jobs out there which may not be a ton of fun but will give you more than enough for you to survive on and lead an enjoyable life.

And how long can I go on living like this? I reckon with the amount of money I have, about 10 years. And if I haven't found anything else more fun than this in 10 years, then I will go alooking, but untill I do, I'm having a ball. Life is there to enjoy, go do it.

>>34591218
No, it's not that simple, but it's a part of it and it's helping to drag you down. You obviously have social anxiety (like me) and depression.

Things like these, when they've gotten this serious, don't just go away. You need to get professional help. Not because you're weak or stupid or a fuckup, but because you're a human being who doesn't know what to do next.

>>34591189
You've got it all wrong. I'm happy like this. It's just.. I won't be forever.

It's not that I'm complaining about things not changing even when I can change things. It's that I can't change things, and I think I should get to complain about that. To myself, anyway. I guess it's not appropriate to complain to people on the internet, and the anime board on 4chan is probably the worst place I could have chosen.

I'm not all that great with words, so conveying emotion like this isn't my thing. I probably sound all mopy and depressed, but that's not what I'm trying to convey at all.

Well, really, I'm not trying to convey anything since I've pretty much accepted that I'm not going to be told anything life changing, so it's all really pointless to try to get people to understand. Mostly I'm just talking to myself. I don't care so much if people think I'm a loser or depressed. It wouldn't be the first time people thought that. It doesn't bother me. At least, as long as I'm not around you and have to deal with it.

>>34591353
>or that my pain isn't worth dealing with. Same with you.

It's not worth dealing with. Everything I've done is completely my fault, so naturally I deserve to deal with the consequences, it's the least I could do, because god knows I can't actually fix my problems because I'm a worthless fuckup.

>>34591353
I'm familiar with depression. I never leave my room. I know how to deal with it's. It's not an issue.

>>34591217
I won't see a doctor. He'll probably just say something along the lines of "man up", I don't need such advice.
Also, I wouldn't know how to hide it from my flatmate. He mustn't know about how fucked I am.

>I went to a psychologist, and though I still have issues I'm much much happier because I talked about them and worked through why I have them and how I can cope with them.

I suspect, that I'm somewhat retarded, since I have like zero empathy, I never had.

If I went a therapist I'd probably just lie.

>>34591478
>You need to get professional help.

How could "professional help" help me? By telling me what to do? I know what to do. I just can't do it because I lack the skills and I'm afraid.

>>34591839

Exactly. I already know what all my problems are and how to deal with them. I just can't do them because I'm a failure, and I won't do them because a failure like myself deserves to live like this.

>>34591538

So what is the problem? That life has no meaning? I have already told you, that isn't a problem, that's a weight off your shoulders. Think about it with an open mind. If life did have a point, you would be stuck having to do something which you may or may not like. But seeing as it doesn't, you don't. Yay!

>>34591644
Same here. I'm not totally sure what empathy is.

Err, well I guess that's not totally true. I just don't feel it very often, and not like other people do.

If I went to a therapist and if I wasn't awkward(Big if) it's more likely I'd get into a discussion about science and philosophy than bettering myself at all. My problems can't be solved by talking to people. I talk to myself enough to solve all of my problems, if that were the case.

>>34591551
It is. How can you say that it's all your fault, when you have no idea if your brain is even functioning correctly?

Also, I can't fix my problems alone. I can't. I've resorted to taking medical leave from school and slowly but surely using my psychologist and my parents as stepladders. I even need my mother to take away my computer at night so I won't go all ADD on it and end up not sleeping. How is that not pathetic?

But I'm still doing it, because I believe that even people like me have worth, even if it's hard to see under all the pain and suffering.

There's dealing with the consequences of your actions, and then there's wallowing in shame and guilt because you don't know how to fix things on your own. I suffered through it, and in the end I realized that you need to ask for help.

>>34590472
This right here.

No one will come for you to save you. No one will just come up to your house and knock on the door saying "hai, I wanna be friends :3" or something as equally silly. It just doesn't happen that way at all. You have to make an effort to change things, otherwise you will just be sitting there doing nothing about it anyway. If you want something done about your situation, then do something about it. Only you can figure out what that is.

And how fucking egotistical are you when you believe that everyone is looking down on you? You seriously think the world is out to get you? That you are a target? Please, people are just trying to make their way in life so they aren't going to be too worried about you and whatever you have to say/think. And if they do care enough to sneer out of spite, tell them to fuck off and keep going.

Believe it or not, I was once the same way. This world, this life, its all meaningless. Nothing we do or say will effect anything, we will be forgotten, and one day the earth and all its history will disappear. But that's the beauty of it. Because of this, we can make up our own meaning, our own way, in this world. It will be our own, not something someone else just gives us, which makes it all the more worth while.

TL;DR: There is no one answer but your own. Save your damn self and stop asking people to give you meaning to your life.

ID HIT MISAKI SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FUCKING HARD HHHHHHHHHNNNNNNG

anyone just like NHK because it was fun and enjoyable?

FUCK, IS THIS THREAD STILL ALIVE ?

Seems I need to post Monty Python again.

Cheer up for fucks sake.

Some things in life are bad
They can really make you mad
Other things just make you swear and curse.
When you're chewing on life's gristle
Don't grumble, give a whistle
And this'll help things turn out for the best...

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

If life seems jolly rotten
There's something you've forgotten
And that's to laugh and smile and dance and sing.
When you're feeling in the dumps
Don't be silly chumps
Just purse your lips and whistle - that's the thing.

And...always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the light side of life...

For life is quite absurd
And death's the final word
You must always face the curtain with a bow.
Forget about your sin - give the audience a grin
Enjoy it - it's your last chance anyhow.

So always look on the bright side of death
Just before you draw your terminal breath

Life's a piece of shit
When you look at it
Life's a laugh and death's a joke, it's true.
You'll see it's all a show
Keep 'em laughing as you go
Just remember that the last laugh is on you.

And always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the right side of life...
(Come on guys, cheer up!)
Always look on the bright side of life...
Always look on the bright side of life...
(Worse things happen at sea, you know.)
Always look on the bright side of life...
(I mean - what have you got to lose?)
(You know, you come from nothing - you're going back to nothing.
What have you lost? Nothing!)
Always look on the right side of life...

>>34592081
Sure I do. I still have to conform to society and get a job and stuff. Eventually, anyway. That's the problem.

>>34592185
>my psychologist

What does a Psychologist do?
I neither want nor need to discuss my problems. I think I figured it out pretty well by now.
So the only thing he could offer would be drugs... and to get them, I'd be forced to talk about my shitty self, which is kinda embarrassing and ... unpleasant.

>>34592212
I did. I actually think I'm the only one who didn't go into a depression from watching it. Which is strange since I'm agoraphobic and should have been hit rather hard by it.

>>34592305
>Cheer up for fucks sake.

I think I would have done that already if I could.

I involuntarily expend all the energy I have, just to minimize the expression of any sort of strong identity. Everything about the way I act in public is subconsciously designed to make people feel not much about me one way or the other. I don’t want to say or do the slightest little thing that would make anyone, anywhere feel uncomfortable, or disagree, or clash with me whatsoever. Surprisingly, I think I’m also pretty averse to the idea of anyone deciding that they like me too much, so I also try not to be too interesting, clever, or funny. I present a totally false image of myself as someone who is bland, proper, formal, boring, humorless (except to laugh at others’ jokes), and easy-going to a fault. I suppress my real character, my real sense of humor, my real cynicism, my passions, my sensitivities, and my vulnerabilities.

I don't see how I'd ever be able to go to a psychologist.

>>34592360
Well, so his problems had almost nothing to do with your problems, right?
Maybe that's why it didn't have such an effect on you?

>>34591644
That's not what psychologists do. They don't tell you to man up, they try to help you by exploring your suffering with you. As for your flatmate, if you're this far gone he may already know you're not happy, but not know how to help you. That, and going to a psychologist doesn't mean your crazy or anything, lots of people go to one.

As for the zero empathy thing, you may have autism or asperger's. That doesn't mean you can't work through your issues, because god knows I have. That doesn't mean that things will be easy, but that's what psychologists are there for.

>>34591839
Professionals don't tell you what to do. They work with you to figure out what's hurting you, and then they help you gain the skills you need to deal with it. They also know you're afraid, and want to help you with that, too.

>>34592447
No our problems are pretty similar. Dunno, maybe it's because I already accepted my situation and have been working on a way to cope with things for quite some time. At any rate, I preferred the comedic aspect of the series. It was rather uplifting in a sad, hilarious kind of way.

/a/non is resistant to therapy for some or all of these reasons:

a) They're afraid of telling anyone anything about themselves, because of their insecurity
b) They're in denial about the legitimacy of their problems
c) They don't deem themselves worthy of help, because of their self-loathing

>>34592333

Then find a job you enjoy. Go looking. If you don't try things, you can't succeed at them. If you fail, who cares? It's not like it's going to make your life any worse. Guess it's your choice, do you want to keep feeling the way you do or do you want something else? If you want something else, you have to do something different.

Oh and for the guy who said "I'm a failure, I deserve this miserable life", yeah, you probably do, you whiny shit. Grow a pair and do something about it. "Ooooh my lifes so terrible, I have so many problems!" Same goes for everyone son, deal with it. It could always be worse. Always. Count your blessings and make the most with what you have.

>>34592627
Sad but true.

>>34592352
Psychologists are different than psychiatrists. Psychologists don't have an MD, and are there to talk to you about your issues. Psychiatrists do, and prescribe medication and diagnose mental disorders.

Also, you think you've figured your issues out, but have you really? If you figured them out, then why don't you know how to fix them? You don't, so the truth is you still have fucktons of unsolved stuff lying around.

Also, of course talking about yourself is unpleasant and embarrassing, but you think they haven't hurt it 50,000 times before? My psychologist has seen me angry, crying, and very very embarrassed. But she's never judged me, and always tries to help me work through things. That's what psychologists are for: helping you.

ITT: A self-fullfilling prophecy

You say you've found the truth, but you fail to realize, that that is just another lie you're telling yourself.

>>34592673
>If you want something else , you have to do something different
>something different
>think different
Buy a Macbook now!

>>34592627
Pretty much this, but telling them to man up isn't the solution, since they already think they're too pathetic to do anything.

>>34592696
That's why I'm IN this position in the first place!

Because I won't accept the truth, and I keep looking for it, and that's what I've been doing this whole time, like this.

>>34592695
Meh, I son't see myself talking about my problems with anyone. I would probably just sit there, not knowing what I should tell him and feeling out of place with my little problems. After all, I feel like I've no _releveant_ problem, just a severe case of worthlessness.

>>34592800

Or... you could just forget about it. It's not like you can affect it in any way, shape or form. And it's not like it has a real impact on your life, unless you were previously a devout god-fearing soul who led a chaste and morally perfect life near endlessly in prayer. Which from the sounds of it, you didn't.

Move on. Don't waste time worrying over things which don't matter and you can't control.

>>34592920
Went to see one of them once. There were so many things I really, really wanted to say, but I honestly couldn't bring myself to speak.

I said maybe twenty words over the two hour period.

Shit sucked, and I still feel horrible about it.

>>34593013
Whoa, thanks! Now I DEFINITELY won't ever do this!

>>34592444
Congrats, you have social anxiety, one of the many things psychologists can usually recognize even if you try to hide it.

And here's the thing, I understand why you do it, but since you're conscious of it you have to start thinking about whether it's a good thing to do. You have to understand, psychologists are there to hear every crappy, stupid, embarrassing thing ever. They WANT you to bother them, to cry, to be angry. To them, sorrow is if they have a patient they don't know how to help, and for that they need information.

All you need to do is talk, basically. Just talk, and let them talk to you. I doubt you'll be able to open up easily, but as long as you talk to and don't try to fight against them, you'll be able to gradually work through things.

If you are absolutely sure that there's no chance of things ever getting better, and that there's no point in continuing a "lie", then you can kill yourself. I'm not trolling here, and I'm not suggesting this lightly. Really consider your situation and decide what the best course is.
Life is tough, but this is the only chance you'll get. There may be something beyond, but there's no good reason to think that.

After watching this show, I promptly got a "real" job for the first time in my life, you just get out there and say "fuck it" and just do it.

>>34593013
But you said something. Even if it was just twenty words, you said something. That's all a psychologist needs, and maybe not even that. They know it's hard to talk, they know it's painful, and embarrassing and everything else.

That's why they don't force you to. They want you to just say what you can, and then they can work from that. They only want to make your life better, even if it's very slowly.

>>34593137
But it's kinda fun. Only about 30% are terrible, so I will continue at least for a while.

>>34593013
So what did the psychologist do? Did he just stare at you for 119 minutes?

>>34593336
He was actually super nice and understanding about it. I just couldn't bring myself to tell him much, so I guess he had to infer. I only managed one session, but that's only because I'm a fuckup. He was a great person.

I thought I put this in my original post. Turns out I should proofread, I guess. I feel fuckhorrible about >>34593064 .

Hey guys, I can't seem to hold up any sort of conversation with my peers, I'm so afraid of having to talk to them (or be forced to work with them) that I dropped out of college last year, restarted the year, and I'm headed yet again towards dropping out. Weird thing is, when talking to teachers, student managers or careers advisors I've got the confidence and charisma of a public speaker and they seem to get the wrong idea even when I'm explaining that I think I have social anxiety.

So guys, what the fuck?

>>34592673
>Oh and for the guy who said "I'm a failure, I deserve this miserable life", yeah, you probably do, you whiny shit.
Yes, I know, that's why I said it.

>Grow a pair and do something about it.
No.

>"Ooooh my lifes so terrible, I have so many problems!" Same goes for everyone son
Yes, I know, which is why I don't tell anyone about it.

>deal with it.
I am.

>It could always be worse. Always. Count your blessings and make the most with what you have.
I know it could, I'm only whining because I'm a spoiled, selfish brat who's never had any real problems.

>>34593443
>teachers, student managers or careers advisors

Well, those are different than peers, really, so it's not that strange.
I mean, I can talk to my coworkers about work-related stuff and all sorts of impersonal things, but talking to the same people as friends after the shift is over, is just impossible.

>>34593429
>I feel fuckhorrible about >>34593064 .

You shouldn't, after all
>I'm just a spoiled, selfish brat who's never had any real problems.

(not the sage, but he phrased it pretty well)

>>34593429
He didn't think you're a fuckup, I bet. I think he thought that you've suffered a lot of mental anguish and just wanted to help you. There are tons of people like you, who feel worthless and stupid, including me in the past.

If you go back, I think he'll be happy.

>>34593450
You don't deserve a miserable life, you deserve a happy one. I know this seems stupid from a random internet person, but I really believe it and I bet a bunch of people you know, do, too.

You suffer because you don't know how to fix things yourself, so you need help. Even the smallest of problems can seem insurmountable when you don't know how to face them.

>>34593443
Weird. It's probably better that you go to an actual mental health professional to talk about this, because they've seen even wackier shit and will listen to you. I was sort of the same for a long time; I could talk to teachers for hours but failed with my peers.

>>34593785
D'awwww.

>>34593785

aw

>>34593450

I don't understand, you seem to have accepted your problems but you don't want to do anything about them? Then I guess you are happy living the way you are. Yay, nothing more to complain about. If you admit you don't have any real problems, what are you so depressed about?

If you do have a problem, do something about it. But don't say "life is so terrible, but no way am I going to do anything to change it!"

And seriously, for everyone who possibly feels like this, hit the gym. It has given me the world of confidence. Get bigger, get stronger and you will feel a ton better about yourself.

Read the manga if you really want to feel bad.

>>34593992
Sweat spawns spots all over my face. I keep 'em under control pretty good as long as I don't though.

So doing sports would just make everything worse for me.

>>34592745
Only post worth reading

>>34593992
>I don't understand, you seem to have accepted your problems but you don't want to do anything about them? Then I guess you are happy living the way you are.
I never said that. I'm not doing anything about them because being depressed is what I deserve.

>Yay, nothing more to complain about. If you admit you don't have any real problems, what are you so depressed about?
I'm a lonely fuckup who's a dissapointment to both myself and everyone I know.

>If you do have a problem, do something about it.
I can't, because I'm a fuckup who can't do anything. And I won't, because of what I said in my first point.

>But don't say "life is so terrible, but no way am I going to do anything to change it!"
But it's exactly what I'm doing. Do you want me to lie?

>Hit the gym broseph
I hate the gym.

>>34594032
"my whole life is a wank" hit way too close to home

>>34593992
>Man up, stop being a pussy, go to the gym

It's like I'm really on /r9k/
Do you really think your advice is worth anything to someone who agrees to every insult you throw at them?

>>34589214
If there's no one to save you, then you must save someone else.
What's the point in waiting for the call, the magic opportunity that won't come? Isn't it a greater adventure to stumble upon other people who are like you who want to be helped? To become the person that they need and gain some type of purpose?

/a/ - Depression & Psychiatric help

>>34594363
brb, mailing moot...

Alex, I know you're in this thread, say hi to Nicky for me!

>>34594154

In that case, I have a revelation for you! You are happy! You just derive happiness from being miserable. You think you just deserve to be miserable, but you don't, you actually enjoy it. There's tons of people like that, go find yourself a dominatrix or a partner who enjoys humiliation/putting you down, seriously, by the sounds of it, you will be in heaven.

I'm not being a dick (or at least not trying), you might actually want to try this.

And don't lie, everyone loves the gym. Fact.

>>34594217

Just need to find the right angle, think I'm onto a winner now.

>>34594478
>And don't lie, everyone loves the gym. Fact.

I hate it. I was always the last to be chosen in games, the slowest, the weakest, the worst. School taught me that sports = humiliation.
so don't tell me everyone loves the gym.

>>34594595

Again with the lies! You love the gym. You know it, don't be shy. Everyone does!

>>34593646
I hope that you know that you're a good person. Thanks.

I went to therapy for a while, like half a year and it was actually kind of nice getting all of it off my chest. But eventually it reached that insurmountable wall of working towards getting a job that I could never do before and it was just awkward because I was making no progress at all in that aspect and probably frustrating her so I stopped going.

I come to /a/ and see this...
This thread made me cry a bit...well, not out loud but some tears came out, mostly from reading about going to a doctor...it seems (or feels) like talking to someone really helps you solve your problems. I wish I had the courage or a way to go to a psychiatrist without my friends knowing about it and avoiding me because they think I'm crazy or batshit something...

I've read every single post in this thread, and now I feel like I need someone to talk to and I want to be there for someone who needs me to listen to their problems -must be because I never had anyone to comfort me, I hide my problems even from my parents...Fuck, now I'm tearing a bit
Tell me anons, how many of you would like someone to be there for you, just to listen?

>>34595412
I gave up on people awhile ago. I'm now at the stage in my life where I refuse any person that could possibly enter my life or is already a part of it. I don't want anything to do with anyone.

>>34595412
I'm the same.
Like hell I'd ever tell my parents or the few people I have contact with about what's wrong with me.

I also really want tot talk about it with someone, but I won't.
I dunno what I'd do if I couldn't at least post it on 4chan. The anonymity of this place allowed me to be honest for the first time.

>>34595467
is it because people always consider you a failure, a weak, stupid, boring person? Have you ever tried talking to someone willing to just listen and not go "aw shit, this nigga is crazy, after this I'm outta here!"?

>>34595412
I could see a situation like this turning into an EPIC troll. Not saying you are, but...

As a note about all this you can't be helped if you won't help yourself, it just works that way.
Not saying man up or anything, but without wanting to change yourself no one else can really make you. I'm also a N.H.K. impactfag and working through the bullshit to where I actually get a job and all the other awesome shit that entails, I gave myself every reason in the world not, it was just a matter of being so disgusted by my situation that I refused to be that person, be it luck or by willpower and now I spend everyday fighting up that slippery slope that is progress.

>>34595591
I've tried all sorts of things, I've tried to connect with many people. Every single attempt leads to a more painful experience. I'm happier alone so I've decided to detached myself from others. I haven't spoken to anyone but my brother in about a year. True story.

>>34595412 here
I'm not trolling,these are my true "feelings"...

>>34595796
I'm a lonefag myself, locked myself into my room and daily I spend about 12 hrs at my computer, browsing the net, mostly here on 4chan (which is great because of its anonymity so I can be my usually repulsing self and ignore all the mistakes I make there).
I really have the feeling like I need someone to talk to in person, I get the idea it'd improve the image of myself and help me understand and accept the way I am instead of just making myself almost puke when I try to remember all the mistakes I made in my life...

I didn't make this thread to talk about my problems, actually.

It's stupid, but I thought there might be someone like Misaki that would read this, and by some stroke of luck happen to live somewhere near me. That way I'd have someone that could understand me, and my life would be better for it.

I wasn't lying before when I said I didn't do anything because everything is pointless, and really it all is, but that's not shocking. Things are pointless, but existence has substance. The fantasies we create are just as valid. There is no point, and there doesn't have to be. For me though, there is no substance. I'm missing what I need.

I've never had someone I could trust, or love, and since then I've found everything under the sun that I could need, except for that.

I can't trust anyone, and because of that I can't love anyone. I won't let myself. I know all too well the way so many people work. The kind that are social, that I see all the time. They change, always, so different from the way they were before. Unreliable. Untrustworthy, Dishonest. Not me, though. People can trust me, and I don't betray them. With the life I've lived, I would never let myself. I know there's another person like that somewhere. Someone I can actually trust, and love, and talk to about the things that I think, and not be thought of as crazy, or stupid. Really, that's all I want, and I've just now come to realize that.

>>34596956
Everything I do is because of that. I yearn for a pretty girl to trust and love unconditionally, and have them feel the same toward me. Even the silly things. I do things for people because in some way, I think I might help that person I yearn for, and maybe bring them closer to me. Even the tripcode I have, is so that if that girl sees me post, she'll know who I am. I'd probably include my e-mail as well if I could noko in addition to that. I never knew this is why I did those things, but it makes so much sense now. I've always thought I was so honest with myself. I guess it just too a little while.

Even this post, in some way I hope that the person I yearn for reads this, and.. Well... I guess I didn't think that far ahead.

>This thread
>WORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDSWORDS

>>34596980

What if she's not so pretty?

>>34597318
Or what if she is, but she wears a mask all the time like Kakashi? You have to think of these things, especially when you're a nut!

>this thread
tl;dr

Fuckin textwalls how do they work?

>>34596956
>I know there's another person like that somewhere. Someone I can actually trust, and love, and talk to about the things that I think, and not be thought of as crazy, or stupid. Really, that's all I want, and I've just now come to realize that.

Hey, I'm 100% trustworthy and honest. I'm extremely open minded and tolerant too and I never had a girlfriend before.
I'd never lie to you or betray you.
But well, I won't ever trust you though. I learned, that people tend to lie without any real reason about random stuff.

Where do you live?

>>34597423
>>34597448
It's indeed summer...

Thinking about it, I think I know where all of my insecurities come from now. I can't be around people without panicking because I think they look down on me, and judge me, and criticize me, because that's what people have done in the past. Everyone that I've ever trusted has betrayed me. Instead of becoming bitter and irrationally cynical, I've learned from those mistakes. I've learned so well in fact, that I can't trust anyone, because I know there are so few people that could really understand me, and that I could really trust. I'm so terrified of betrayal, that the thought of me betraying someone that trusts me horrifies me, and I could never do something like that.

I'm so judgmental to untrustworthy people that I come off as an egotist, and pompous, but that's not the way it is at all. I harbor a resentment towards people because I understand them, and that they would hate me and judge me, if they really knew anything about me. I've made so many mistakes that I can't judge anyone too harshly. Instead, I distance myself, and ignore the people I don't like.

I so many people I see small, good things in them. Principles they have, or even their dialect. I see such a variety, that I have no doubt that the person I long for is out there, and no matter their past, I would love them, and trust them, and understand them, without judging. The girl I long for is someone who needs me, just like I need them, and I'm afraid that if I become successful, I'll ruin that mutual yearn, and be doomed to be the person I judge and distance myself from.

>>34597560
Sorry, looks like he's looking for a pretty girl, bro. ;_;

>>34597774
Is that so?
Tell me more.

>>34597809
Damnit, they're all looking for a pretty girl, nobody wants to be mah bro ;_;

>>34597774
You can't even take care of yourself and you want a girl? I can understand yearning for another person to love, but do you really think any girl will put up with someone like you? Be a little realistic here. Learn to handle yourself first before you decide to try to burden other people with your problems.

>>34597318
It depends, really. It's understandable to want someone attractive, but I have kind of strange tastes when it comes to women.

For example, I see large breasts as a weakness. Same with hair that's too long, or fat. My reasoning is that in a dangerous situation, they wouldn't be able to defend themselves appropriately, and would thus be too vulnerable. Most of the sex appeal I see in a girl comes from practicality.

So, it's not so much that I went her to be pretty, but instead attractive to me.

>>34598049
>My reasoning is that in a dangerous situation, they wouldn't be able to defend themselves appropriately, and would thus be too vulnerable.

Wow, where the hell are you living? Africa?

>>34598134
United states.

Don't judge me. We have all kinds of wildlife here that are plenty dangerous. Like squirrels, or deer, or geese or something.

I didn't say it was rational.

>>34598049

That's odd. But probably related to some kind of instinctual sexual attraction to survivability.

>>34597899
Tell you more of what, specifically?

This reality doesn't have a point. The only thing you can do is enjoy it while you're alive. Though everything will be gone one day and eventually no one will remember or care about you, who cares? How do you even know that other people exist? Only you know that YOU exist. And you should enjoy your existence while you can...

Unfortunately, this is a lot easier said than done. True happiness is often unattainable for people and they just have to accept their average reality.

>>34598357
Whatever you want. I'll listen.

>>34598291
Probably. Survivability is important to me, which is why I maintain myself.

>>34598424
I think the people in this thread would be happy to have an _average_ reality...
Except OP maybe.

>>34598521

I don't WANT an average reality. I just have to live in it. Hell, I wish I lived in a world that had fucking Pokemon. Or a world where I went on some adventure to save the universe. But our reality isn't like that (or so far it hasn't been that way).

>>34598445
There's more to this than what I've said, but I don't really want/need to share all that with anyone except the girl I was just talking about.

I think that's about it, as far as my problems go, though. Like I said, every other problem I've had, I've been quick to resolve.

>>34598868
What if that poster *is* the girl you're looking for. You'd never know, they're all anon.

>>34598868
I can be that girl...
Lets play a game of pretend.

>>34598926
If I told just anyone, then it wouldn't exactly be special, right? I'd need to know them first.

>>34598946
Why?

Finally caught up reading EVERY post in this thread and it seems like the OP is a goddamn clone of me.

I've been contemplating starting a thread based on the "search for a Misaki" and how could most anons ever find anyone like that... obviously they wont be stalkers who come knocking on our doors knowing everything about us right off the bat.

NHK pretty much skipped a huge step by making Misaki be a "stalker" who already knows Satou inside-out

>>34599234
Because I'm desperate and lonely and you seem to be an interesting person.

>>34597774

It's kind of amusing in a way, we aren't that different. I have suffered from and been betrayed by most others too. I've been put through a lot of shit. But while it has made you weaker, it just makes me stronger.

People made fun of me for being weak and small, so I hit the gym hard and now all people tell me is how big I am. People move out of my way in the street, apologize for bumping into me, try not to meet my gaze. It feels fucking fantastic. I am now a hundred times more confident, able to socialize and function in a group and most importantly, am totally self sufficient. I learnt that I don't need other people. I can get by fine on my own. If I want other people around, I make it happen.

But I don't take everything to heart and complain about it. If something bothers me, I make sure that I will do something to change it. Less thinking, more doing. And really, what's the worst that can happen? You make yourself look like a fool. Big deal. Move on and try again harder.

me again from >>34599328

I believe that in our world, the "real" world, WE have to become the "Misaki" for someone that we believe can understand us. Remember, Misaki's goal was to create an "agreement between miserable and lonely people" in order for both parties to benefit in the end.

The hard part is finding that other "miserable and lonely person" who is able to relate to you. As you can see, it is extremely easy to do in this anonymous board, but in real life, there is almost no way...

think about it... what are the chances that two misearable, lonely people actually meet in public, let alone speak to each other?

pic related

>>34599522

Misaki followed her christian aunt around while she passed out tracks. That's how she met people.

>>34599342
Are you a girl?
If so, do you have an msn account or maybe steam? This thread probably won't last much longer.

>>34599522
they are zero. only a relatice small percentage of the population fits in this category and these people mostly don't leave their houses and try to hide their flaws.
even if you'd man up and talk to someone miserable, he'd probably repel your try to get closer and run away (sometimes even literally).

>>34599557

Miserable? Feeling lonely? Become a Jahovas witness and meet lots of other sad lonely people too!

Simples!

Don't know if copypasta or not.

Anyhow, if you look at everything as pointless then there's really no point to going outside is there? But what the hell else are you going to do with your life if you don't work to be the best you can be? You're already here, might as well make the best of it.

>>34599606
>he'd probably repel your try to get closer and run away
It's true. If anyone tried to approach me I'd fucking book it, regardless if they were trying to help or not. I don't even reply to emails anymore.

I don't know how the anime ended, but the novel ends with Sato still having no life. All of his friends move away. Sounds to me like the anime happy-fied the ending.

>>34599601

are you looking for pseudo-sex or someone who understands you and is willing to listen to you if you agree to do the same for them?

>>34599601
I wouldn't offer a game of pretend, if I were a girl.

>>34599522
>what are the chances that two miserable, lonely people actually meet in public, let alone speak to each other?
I agree. A huge obstacle.

A person would have to be actively looking, and even then, where to look? I can confirm I don't really go anywhere a person would meet me.

>>34599689
Oh god, sounds like the story of my life. Thank god I didn't read the novel yet.
And yes, they happied it up in both the anime and the manga.

>>34599673
Same here. I'd just feel worse if someone knew that's something wrong with me.

acceptance thats your only option

you have tried doing nothing about your problem so why not try something else?

You just gotta stop worrying. Hakuna matata.

>>34599696
Right, of course.

Well, you can still send me a message on steam or msn. I'm on steam pretty much constantly, and occasionally I'll sign into msn. I use the handle "Imrinfected" for everything, including these.

Actually, anyone here can send me a message. If only because it makes it that much easier to be contacted by.. Uh. Yeah, and people typically don't just leave their contact information lying around on 4chan, and I feel much more secure about that type of thing than other people might be.

>>34599606

Alright then, heres a question for all of us Satou/Shinji hybrids...

Is there any way a stranger could ever grow close to you?

even in NHK Satou was rejecting Misaki alot early on, but they ind of tricked him into getting to know her with the whole "she might get molested" guilt trip he had.
He'd have probably stayed home if it weren't for that warning he saw the previous night and then the NHK story would have never existed!

>>34599842
Yeah, I'll just stop thinking, that's it! Why didn't you tell me this 2 years ago?
Damn!

>>34599923
Quit being a whiny bitch.

>>34599601

Why does it have to be a girl? And a "pretty" one at that, from your own words. If you are really trying to figure this out and sort yourself out, you would be wise to accept the help of those who give it.

But saying "Woe is me, life is so bad, if only I had someone to talk to. But only if they are a girl. And a pretty one. And will have sex with me and be my girlfriend and live with me so I don't have to go outside." means you're just trawling for a sympathy lay.

And, no, you didn't say anything about sex, but you sure are implying it by requiring your help to come from a pretty girl who feels the need to comfort you.

>>34599912
Thats more of the excuse he presents himself.So he can reach out without feeling weak or exposed.

>>34598759
You are the center and apex of your own universe and your life is the adventure.
Don't you think you need to leave the rut and start having some adventures?
Do you want your story to be boring or do you want it to be something you think would be fun to watch or...I don't know, Participate in?
Think about it.
Your story and your universe began when you were born and will end when you die.
The time in the middle has nigh infinite possiblities for anything to happen. Action Adventure Comedy Romance Hentai Etc.
Go for it.

wow, this thread

shut-in fags who leech off their family and sit in their room all day: not once in your life has shit gotten real. when you have to go and hustle your own meal or starve to death, then that is when you will ultimately make your choice.

give up and starve to death (this is the toughest option because guess what despite your fucked up head, your body is going to do its damndest to survive)

or figure out a way to get money and start sustaining yourself in this shitty world or find someone else to leech off of

there is no magical answer. when your day to day life gets so tough that you cant sit on your ass and whine on the internet about it, thats when you will start taking care of business.

tl;dr: get out no one gives a fuck about you

>>34599912
>Is there any way a stranger could ever grow close to you?

I don't know. I didn't feel close to someone since I was 17 or so (I'm 23 now) and that lasted only for some great months.

It's probably possible, but very improbable, since I'm extremely shy and tend to avoid situations that'd force me to talk to other people.

So as long as I don't know you, I'm quite boring to talk to. Not that anyone bothers to test me anyway.

Read "Final Exit". It's an important book.

>>34599707

Alright here we go... the answer is: THE INTERNET.

Now I dont know much about social networking sites (hurr durr myspace facebook) since theres are only used by normalfags who "collect" friends (kind of sickening imo).

I watched .hack//SIGN in 8th grade (im 21 now fyi in college). So i thought, Hey tsukasa is just like me... maybe if i play an online game I can meet people who are just like me too? maybe even a girl like subaru!

never did find anyone interested in who i was in the real world :(

>>34599912
I'm pretty observant, even when I'm terrified. Maybe even especially when I'm terrified. If the girl I'm after were to approach me, I'd know enough to not run away. At least, not instantly. I just.. Wouldn't be very talkative, what with the fear and anxiety and all. Actually, I'm not totally sure what I would do. Probably something dumb.

I mean, I know the type that I don't like to be around, and I'd know the difference. I think.

>>34600069
>implying I leech off my parents
Nah, I live in a communist country, teh government pays for my food and shelter.

>>34600240

Again, why is it that only a girl can help you? If this is your reason for finding a girlfriend, it's not a good one. And it's not the best opener either. Sort yourself out then find a girl.

>>34599983
>Why does it have to be a girl?
I'm not attracted to males
>And a "pretty" one at that, from your own words
Because I want to be attracted to her?

I'm not after sex. Actually, I'm not very interested in sex. That's something I'd only do with someone I was in love with, and trusted.

I don't know how to explain it any better. I'm not attracted to males.

>>34600496
I think he wants to know, why you want a girlfriend to talk to, and not just a normal male (or female) friend.

>>34600496

So after all this thread, the culmination is that you want a girlfriend and are lonely? That's it? That's your problem?

>>34600496
It does sound like you're pathetically hitting on any chick that you think is desperate enough to "talk" to you.

>>34600586
Isn't that everyone's problem? Maybe he should take a trip down to /r9k/ and bask in the ronery.

>>34600496

Why do you have to be attracted to someone for you to accept help? Surely it would be wiser to accept any help you could get as opposed to waiting for the 1 in a million chance that someone who you deem as perfect will also want to wade through your self esteem issues to sort out your problems? What incentive is there for this attractive girl to do that?

>>34600240

>the girl i'm after

Well i meant a total stranger, not someone you are after since youd have no way of knowing who they are or why theyd want to talk to you.

Lets say you are in school, is there any reason for someone to start talking to you? (besides the usual can i copy/borrow and stuff like that)
The answer is probably "no" for 99% of us introverts.

How can we change this? how can we get people to notice us and maybe even bother talking to us?
Of course the "normal" answer is something like "man up" be outgoing bla bla blah.

Outgoing behavior attracts outgoing people. I'd guess most of us introverts despise dealing with outgoing personalities, but how can we ever hope to make our fellow introverts aware of our character if we don't say much about who we are and keep hidden behind the "generic quiet guy" stereotype?

>>34600462
>Sort yourself out then find a girl.
I have. Well, short of having a job. Or a license, but I really don't like driving anyway.

>>34600649
I'm not sure that's a he.

>>34600697

No offence, but you blatantly have not sorted yourself out. This thread is testament to that. Make yourself happy, a girlfriend will not fill that gaping hole which you feel, you have to fill it yourself (snigger, but for reals). Once you have sorted it out properly, not only will you be ready for a relationship but also more prepared and more likely to be successful.

Go out and chat to people, go do things. You can't expect to enter into a social relationship with someone if you don't be a bit sociable.

>>34600697

Me again, you shouldnt be afraid to talk to guys too, in fact it should be easier since if they betray you, it will result in far less pain than if it was a girl.

I've had a friend since gradeschool i met thanks to pokemon cards. We combined our collections and almost had all 150 of them too (Damn you Chansey, Dragonite and Pinsir!)

NHK thread devolves into self pity bullshit. What a surprise.

>>34600986
You seem confused, this was a self-pity thread from the start. It's just hiding behind an NHK mask.

>>34600986

This thread needs a bit of HYPER SELF-PLEASURE!!!

>>34601057

>>34600586
I explained my problem earlier. Why are you being an ass?
>>34600616
I could never hit on anyone. I'm too afraid. At least, until I knew them better. A lot better. Maybe.
>>34600661
I'm sorry, I totally misunderstood what you were talking about.

I don't want to tell anyone the more personal things about me because I'm kind of insecure about it, and.. Mostly because I feel like that would cheapen it when I tell these things to the girl I'll spend the rest of my life with.

I wouldn't say I have self esteem problems. I don't think badly of myself, and I can keep my chin up, if only because survivability is a big part in the way I think, and it's important to me to be prepared for something dangerous, including emotionally. Except in social situations, I'm.. Not good at all.. Which I guess is kind of ironic considering what I just said.

>>34601120
post the next page too.
it fits in this mood

>>34600672
I don't really need to talk to people, so I don't mind if strangers don't talk to me. Actually I prefer that they don't.

>>34601175

>I explained my problem earlier. Why are you being an ass?

Well, seeing as how your original problem started out as how empty and meaningless life was and has now seemed to turn into needing to find an attractive girl to spout your problems to surely you can see my confusion. Maybe finding a girl is enough meaning for you.

>>34601367
I don't really want to retype what I have already. If you're interested in knowing, then read the thread.

>I feel like that would cheapen it when I tell these things to the girl I'll spend the rest of my life with.

Really? That's your reason for not talking to people? That's a bit backwards mate. You will struggle to find this girl you desire untill you get sorted out, but won't try to sort yourself out till you meet her. Kinda catch 22 no?

And your "survival" thing? Sounds like paranoia. I'd dump it if I'd were you, it isn't even remotely important in this day and age. If shit happens, it happens, there most likely won't be a huge amount you or your girl can do. Unless you are planning on going out with some muscled out super woman who could crush all obsticles in her path and box out a bear.

>>34601428

Been here the whole thread mate, communication is a 2 way street, if you can't communicate the problem, don't blame others for missunderstanding it.

I'll be your girlfriend OP

This kind of shit belongs in /adv/.

Off to bed now, hope you find that magical girl who will magically make everything better for you in your life OP because god forbid you actually get off your ass and do something about it yourself.

Been a good bit of procrat from exam revision. Hit the gym, man up, enjoy life, best advice I can give.

>>34601594

MATSUDAAAAAAAA

I read at least 4 posts and I conclude OP is a giagantic faggot.

>>34601676
This. I'm a ronery faggot too but you don't see me whining about it.

>>34601717

Gym is for faggots who want to look at other faggots being all sweaty.

If you want to be fit, just eat well and do normal daily exercise like squats sit-ups etc, no need for a damn gym to steal your gold and travel time.

>>34601789
And yet you posted "I'm a ronery fag" ITT...

OP should watch episode 4 of Boogiepop Phantom

http://smotri.com/video/view/?id=v139405200f1

>>34601842
better yet, torrent p90x and just train at home

>>34601913
My room is too small for this shit.
Pushups and situps are all I can do.

>>34601594
Wait, are you serious?

>>34601842

Squats? Sit-ups? Don't make me laugh. All you need to do is one exercise. Running. It is unquestionably the most significant thing you can do to improve health.

And it's hard as shit too. I've been trying to run 1.5 miles in 12:30 for the Navy, and it's a real trial every time.

>>34601985

Its been a long known fact that anyone who poses as a girl on /a/ without evidence is guaranteed to be a man.

Real fem/a/nons pretend to be male so that they can avoid awkward approaches

>Watch Evangelion
>Think
>Come to terms with nihilisitic existence
>???
>Profit

Also, NHK is failed 'nihlism with a smile'. Dont bother with the trash.

>>34602005

but running requires us to leave the safety of our hikkikomori boxes... and its embarassing too :(

and treadmills are for faggots

>>34602218
>embarassing too

That's what I used to think, but actually having run I realized that nobody gives a shit when you're out there. You're sweaty, gasping for air, look like you're half dead...they ain't gonna mess with that shit.

It's even better when you have a stop watch hanging from your neck. Makes it look like you know what you're doing. :P

>>34602218
I live in a somewhat secluded place, next to a city. The area is surrounded by trees, and there's a lake next to my house. I run around the lake every now and then to stay healthy.

I get headaches if I stay outside too long, though. I'm so used to the darkness of my room, the sunlight really gets to me.

Is the OP still here?

>>34602416

You ought to run early in the morning then, before the sun rises too much.

>>34602673
Yes

I don't relate to this "Imrinfected" tool at all, and I'm saddened that this thread is forced to revolve around him and his naive, unrealistic ideals.

You're born, you do shit, you die. That's all there is, OP. You won't get any argument from me that everything is inherently pointless, but that doesn't mean you can't enjoy it. Hedonism is the closest thing to truth there is in this world. Just focus on the simple things that you can enjoy, that make you feel good. Now live your life to maximize those things and minimize pain. Suddenly you have a goal that is easy enough to accomplish on a day to day basis; just doing shit that is pleasurable.

aww man I saw a huge NHK thread but then the OP just made me not give a shit because of how poorly he interpreted it

>In the anime, there is no resolution.
yeah there is, you perverted and over analyzed it to the point where nothing would ever be an acceptable resolution for you

>>34602925
Naive, unrealistic ideals?
Like what?

>>34602925

Its not entirely unrealistic, I mean I must admit after watching NHK its hard not to wish for a girl like Misaki to show up in your life, I'm sure many people would like to have someone like her who would want to help them so much...

I mean a psychologist is just doing his/her job, but Misaki is doing her best to help Satou because she thinks that by doing so, they can both become happier and perhaps alleviate some of their mutual misery.

Granted, Misaki does have a few issues of her own... pic related

Would you do it if Misaki asked you?

>>34590665
look at this tough guy
you better watch out or he'll "filter" you