>>32616029

My feelings are shatterd

>>32616029
The guy looks kinda funny so I felt no sympathy.

;____;

Depressing thread tiem?

>>32616029
every
goddamn
night

;-;

>>32616029
Anyone have the original?

>>32616155
Ouch man, just...ouch.

>>32616155
Nah, that sucks for a while but you get used to it. Although, I suppose you can say that about being lonely too.

>>32616252
>Get used to being lonely
lolno. You may think you do, but it progressively gets worse and worse.

get this /b/ repost shit off

>>32616252
>>32616283
Keeping myself distracted seems to be the best thing to do.

>>32616283
7 years. 4 hikki, now back at uni but still quite reclusive. You get used to it.

>>32616299
I had more than seven before I changed it up.
You're deluding yourself.

If you're that miserable about it just go get a girlfriend. It's so fucking easy, really. Whatever you think is a barrier, whatever your shitty excuse is, it's just in your head.

>>32616321
That doesn't mean it isn't working.

>>32616321
Yeah, if fucks like this could get laid, YOU COULD TOO

>>32616321
>a girlfriend

But I don't just want ANY girlfriend. That is the hard part.

>>32616308
Why? Never said I LIKE it, just said I'm used to it. Doesn't bother me as much anymore.

>>32616300
I admire this lady's honesty, it is refreshing.

>>32616321
I'm fat though, nobody wants to date a teddy bear.
So the amount of hugs I get from hot girls is like taking a prisoner who lives his life in darkness and showing him a beautiful summer day then throwing them back in their pit.
I'm working on losing weight now so it's okay ;_;

>>32616300
saaaaaaaaad

Truth is you do not want any of this [a/. If you did you would go out and get it.

>>32616345
Of course. You're self-absorbed and lost in fantasy, so you want a fantasy girlfriend who will worship you without having any humanity of her own, like your anime girls. So that's fine, have a waifu and stay by yourself. I'm not knocking that. But don't whine about how lonely you are. It's your choice to live that way.

>>32616388
THANK YOU.

>>32616388
/agree

>>32616388
I will never find my Akiha ;_;

Well, fuck.

>>32616385
But highschool was awesome, and I don't study at all.
Flawed comic is flawed.

>>32616388
I have low standards and still no girlfriend. What am I doin' wrong?

>>32616388
That's a lot of wrong assumptions you're making.

But [a/ is not my personal blog so I'll stop here.

>>32616449

Wrong answer.

>>32616459
Being shy and introverted. It isn't cute, it's boring. Grow some nuts. You don't need to be a buff dude, just be charismatic or fun to be around. Nobody likes the quiet guy.

>>32616490
I like this version better, but I like the remakes version of the fantasy falling apart.

>>32616459
Hmm, I would suggest you start with actually trying to get one. Do you actually talk with girls? Do you look like a tremendous dork while conversing with them? Have you even tried the internet? You can hookup with girls online even. Seriously, there are meth-addicted toothless criminals who have girlfriends, so all you need to do is put in effort.
>>32616482
None of those assumptions are wrong. It's all truth. Accept the truth. Why do you fight so hard? You can't just admit what you're doing? I said there's nothing wrong with it.

>>32616500
>Nobody likes the quiet guy.

This

everybody hates you, even if they don't say it to your face

>>32616514
lol

>>32616531
When you're quiet, normal people assume that YOU think that you're better than them, and it makes them despise you. They're usually right too. Because you do think you're better than them, don't you?

None of this helps and just makes me feel worse. Is being gay easier? Gay guys are total sluts, right?

>>32616585
yes because they get bitter over me thinking im better than them

Yes, it's all about the quiet

I overheard coworkers discussing the most attractive men at work, and I heard myself come up, then I heard "anon never smiles though.."

Of course I have no interest in intimacy, but I do like shooting girls down to get back at them for all you brothers. Of course I never get asked by anyone who actually knows me..

>>32616623
Yes. Total sluts. Also some of us look pretty close to girls these days. I highly recommend that path for you, it's pretty much the best thing ever.

>>32616585
>>32616531
>>32616500

You guys are horrible.

Except for the first guy. You are probably right.

>>32616689
It's legit advice. Shy people are boring.

>>32616585

No, I don't talk to anybody because everybody's better than me in more ways than I can possibly imagine. social situation, work situation, school, really anything. I feel like a child around everyone
but if I stay in my room I won't have to make such an embarassment and idiot of myself
I guess worrying about that is a bit prideful but I'm too weak to change that about myself

I try not to be quiet since I know I am, but I have a natural tendency to it I s'pose /shrug.

even when I do speak to people regularly, it never goes anywhere. I know the problem is me and other people have no issue with this shit, but I don't know how to fix it.

>>32616689
Horrible for what? It's how the fucking world works dude. I don't like it either, that's just how it is though.

>>32616686
I think I can work with this. I mean, if anime has taught me anything, it's that there's plenty of hot traps out there.

Hideyoshi, here I come.

If I get approached with something I'll repond and do smalltalk and be very into it, but if not I won't say much. It's probably why I don't have any friends anymore, because I'm too much of a lazy worthless shit to organize anything, and I'm too boring for them to want anything to do with me. They probably never liked me anyways, which is perfectly understandable.

>>32616297
This is the best solution. Just distract yourselves and it won't matter.

>>32616759
>>32616703
Pretty much this and this on different days. I wish I didn't identify with /a/ posts so often.

>>32616783
Second post should be this. <__>
>>32616709

>>32616703
Yeah, that's what I meant to support, only I mixed up the numbers so that the first poster is mentioned last...

>>32616715
For some people, I suspect it might. Some people just give off that aura of 'I'm not going to grace you all with the enlightenment of my conversation because it would be a waste on your knavish ears', but in my experience such people are few and far between.

But for most, it's not hate. At worst uncertainty, but almost never hate. I would say never, but it probably has happened at some point so I can't really justify the absolute you know?

Of course I suppose I do live in a pretty sheltered region, which might effect my positive outlook on the world...

>>32616759
Are you a good listener? If you're a good listener you will pretty much always have friends, people love people who will listen to them compassionately, even if you are the most boring fuckhead on the planet. I've always had friends because of that. Until college ended, they all moved away, and I don't go anywhere to meet anyone now. Also never called people back, it's kinda important to do that.

>>32616709
Christ /a/, this is exactly what goes through my head all the time.

also, pic related.

I just noticed I look like those generic mspaint jobs at the moment..
>5 o'clock beard shit
>messed up week-unwashed hair
>paints are pulled down to my shins because I just got done fapping to /d/ material
>Not so much overweight but we'll pretend

This is why I still come to /a/, the late late crowd is the only one I still identify with.

>>32616709
same here, except school = university.
i have an avoidant personality disorder though, shit sucks =/

i distract myself with vidya and animu, if i have to much time to think about stuff i just become depressed

Sometimes I'll talk to people often but never go anywhere with them... Sometimes I'll actually go hang out with people but it doesn't last long. No one ever seems much happier because I'm there. I don't really have anything to offer in a relationship, friend or other.

>>32616842
By far the most depressing pic so far. Fuuuuck.

>>32616811

I have been called a good listener a few times, but the whole "us moving apart and me not calling them" is a big problem

Also they're too busy nowadays, because they all have actual jobs and careers and lives. I don't have anything. It's like going to some high school reunion and everybody being miles above you.

>>32616849

University is what I meant

>if i have to much time to think about stuff i just become depressed

oh god, tell me about it. 6:30am right now, I'm TIRED, but I won't go to bed until I'm practically blacking out at my computer
If I go to bed, no matter what, i won't be able to fall asleep until a good two hours in. And in those two hours, I'll be completely alone with my thoughts, eventually going over all my life's mistakes, regrets, and failures, in a vicious cycle.

Man, I have maybe five friends, and the only reason they visit me is because I buy a lot of excess crap (computer, consoles, hand helds, games, etc) to keep myself from feeling depressed. Of course, they come over and use all my stuff, don't talk to me at all, and leave me to sit in a corner, reading a book. Maybe it's also a symptom of why I have few friends, but whenever they come over to do this, I resent having them around, but once they leave, I go back to feeling alone.

>>32616859
god, this

If I make any sort of effort at all people seem to die around me. I go sit with everyone else at work instead of reading at another table by myself, with the excuse that it's spring break so I don't need to study. 0 Conversation from a table that is usually having a ball, one guy puts in his mp3 player, another goes outside to talk on his phone. Few minutes later I'm sitting at the table alone. Seriously.

Just yesterday someone told us to have a good weekend, and I said "you too." She looked at me like I just cursed her for 7 generations.

I have classes where I haven't spoken to anyone all semester, and nobody has gone as far to look at me. It's weird, like I have some sort of automatic drain on people I can't turn off.

Even my family is scared of me, my 7 year old sister acts like I'm some sort of devil.. which is actually kind of cool at times with the utmost respect she doesn't give anyone else.

I'm just not meant to be around humans I guess, I'm a genetic anomaly.

>>32616985

>>32616968
holy shit, josh?
poor guy sits there and plays WoW constantly as a few people come and go to play his games and read manga.
Of course I stopped going after his mom finally got the point across that she despises me.

>>32616942
>>32616849
>>32616766

this. Constant distractions, people. Constant distractions

Even now, I'm sory of just on autopilot.

>>32616985
I can't quite pinpoint it, but there is this slight feeling of unease whenever I try talking to new people. I can tell they feel it at least twice as much as me the way their eyes dart around and the laugh nervously between the awkward silences. I just don't know how to be interesting. I have a nine year old step-brother who is afraid to touch me because he thinks I've got some kind of illness that he'll contract. I just don't understand how people interact, I don't know how to be worthwhile.

/a/, you are thinking too much

>>32617029
I get freaked out about stink all the time. My sense of smell doesn't work well so I have a few safety measures to make sure I don't have any scent.

>>32617029
Y'know, your lives would be far easier if people would just up and tell you what's wrong.

>>32617065
This infuriates me at times. It would be so much easier if people just said "you're awkward", "you talk funny", or say whatever shit it was that deters them. Instead it's just weird looks, uncomfortable laughs, and made up excuses to get away.

I haven't tried initiating a conversation with someone new in years, I'm tired of how it always seems to turn out bad.

>>32617056

>>32616985

You are negatively charged while everyone around you is positive, this explains why you connect so well with the other negatively charged people online and if you're very lucky in your daily life.

>>32617049
story of my life.

i dunno why, i suspect it has something to with my (not so good but not scarring terrible) childhood and my DNA. science says that shynesscan be innate.

i just can't socialize. i made zero new contacts since i begun my studies.

>>32617065
A world of absolute transparency would be the ideal state on so many levels...

Thankfully I do in fact know how to handle myself in social situations due to a crash course I put myself under in high school to really turn my life around.I had it made, man. It was fucking hard work, I pout everything of myself into it, and when the results started appearing, things were looking up. I mean, I had friends, I did things, I was happy.

Of course, it's all gone now. Just completely gone, like it never existed. Nowadays, I can still sort of pretend to be normal in short bursts when people are around, but I shy away immediately afterwards and under no circumstances make any sort of lasting relationship, because god knows I won't be able to maintain anything that exists outside of my room. I can be adequetly described as a person with a complete sterility of ambition and devoid of any sense of responsibility, and a coward.

when i see other people, in class or so, it looks like as if everyone already has someone to talk to, except me.
so i remain quite, cause if i speak up and try to talk to someone they overhear me or don't understand (i checked it, no, i'm not too quiet and not too loud either). i feel embarrassed and i get angry, so i stopped my attempts.

>>32617121
>>32617056

You can't stop thinking.

>>32617179
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Avoidant_personality_disorder

Once I worked up the nerve to say hello to a girl I sat beside in class every week while out of class. She just walked past me.

Just handle dealing with people like how you handle dealing with spiders.

Remember they are more afraid of you, then you are of them.

>>32617056
That's half the problem. Over-analyzing everything. "Did they really mean that, or were they just making fun of me?" "Am I annoying these people by hanging out with them?" "Is that person only being polite, or are they being nice?"

I think a really important thing to realize is that all those people have flaws too. If you put everyone else on the tier above you, you'll never get up the courage to fit in.

Not even necessarily to talk to anyone even, but just to feel like you fit in - I'm not one to believe in things like someone's 'energy field' or something, but subconscious things like body language and facial expression.

I know I've already said in this thread that I am quite reclusive, but I actually have a reasonable group of friends at uni. Just nobody I trust (I have issues there). When I'm hanging out in my usual place, I can talk to people reasonably well. People don't avoid me etc, even strangers.

What I'm trying to say is. humility can be a bad thing. Try to look around you without the rose-tinted lenses. Snigger at that hipster with his pants hanging around his ass. He looks like a retard. And it's not just you that thinks that. You hear that idiot listening to some terrible rap on their cheap, nasty iPod headphones (up so loud that half the bus can hear them)? Yeah, other people are just as disgusted as you. I'm not saying be hate-filled and disgusted with humanity, but you're on the same tier as the rest of them.

>>32617235

Maybe she was just nervous and didn't know what to say?
Ahaha, I used to think of stuff like THAT once upon a time. I was so innocent back then.

she either didn't want to talk to you, or didn't even notice you

What scares me most is what I will become.

At first it was just having trouble being semi popular, then it was having just a few friends, then no real friends, then spending a year in solitude, then hearing voices, then outbursts of anger, etc, etc.

My internet friends know more about my life than anyone IRL, even my family. I feel like I could trust them much more than anyone else. I detest socialization, and at the same time crave it like some unobtainable elixir

I can however imagine my utopia. Somewhere in the distant future when immortality is commonplace and interstellar travel big, we could just float around the stars for millenia with no human contact outside of some sort of hyperinternet

I'm quit happy being alone in my room watching my animu and playing my vidya.

I only hate that this won't last forever and I have this feeling that I might be missing out. Though any experience outside my room has told me that it's really not that interesting out there.

>>32617230
Jesus fucking christ look at that "Treatment" section. That sounds like most fucking work in the universe especially for anyone who actually has this thing. So much for just growing balls and getting on with it.

Thanks for the downer, wikipedia!

>>32617299
>My internet friends know more about my life than anyone IRL, even my family. I feel like I could trust them much more than anyone else. I detest socialization, and at the same time crave it like some unobtainable elixir

Oh god, how I relate

in fact the only reason I think my family, especially my mother, still even tolerates me anymore, is that that don't know anything about my life, which I only post about on rare occasions on /a/.

>>32617299
do you really detest socialization, or are you just afraid of it because you fail at it?

many people deceive themselfes, pretty much the only field in which i'm up to my own standards. i don't have any illusions.

>>32617367
I don't know if I feel better or worse seeing other people describe my life...

>>32617206

A few days ago I saw an old acquaintance on the train on the way to school. Stood right in front of her. I spent entire ride trying to work how how to start a conversation and wishing that someone would get off their seat so I could go sit down away from her. No words were exchanged in the end. Feels bad man.

>>32617269
I fully believe everyone IS tiers above me, and all evidence points to it being true. It doesn't matter if it's a case of 'mind over matter', because my mind is completely convinced of my utter ineptitude and lack of positive traits. I don't know how to place myself above others anymore, and it's almost ironic. Part of why I stopped socializing with people was that they all seemed so annoying and their range of mind so small, and now, I feel like a parasite for even beginning to converse with them.

>>32617363
yeah, i read the treatment part and though " if i could do all this, i woundn't need a treatment at all"

dammit, i can't even imagine how i could drag myself out of this.

"just do it" doesn't work, since i my body counters my attempts with annoying symptoms,one time i almost fainted because a teacher yelled at me (i didn't though, i was just blind for some 20 seconds and felt like as if my skin was burning and the world was spinning)

>>32617388
This is one of the only things I pride myself on: I don't bullshit myself. I feel relatively certain of my worth and place, and even if I'm dead right, it's better that I underestimate myself than build up a lie that I can never achieve. God, I monologue to myself as politically correct as possible, constantly revising whatever it was that I just thought.

"He was one of God's strange prototypes, never meant for mass production. Too strange to live, too rare to die."

words to live by anon

>>32617388
I don't know, maybe both.
A lot of it depends on the number of people.
1 on 1 hate
2 on 1 is a little better
anything more is a true challenge.

Hell last week I walk to the library, which is more crowded than I've ever seen. I quickly make my way to the shelves and stay in a part where nobody can see me. I feel safer when I'm in the dark. It's strange how you can think about things like this once someone mentions a related topic.

>>32617435
>notice someone walking towards me keeps glancing
>make strong effort not to look and just go by
>he starts talking, turns out he's an old highschool friend
>starts talking about his band and his upcoming 21st birthday
>I tell him I'm in a hurry and have to do stuff
>go home and get on 4chan

>>32617492
When I was little, I used to tell myself I was God's first mistake.

Never would admit that without anonymity.

>>32617443
I used to. I still do for some people. But I guess I've gotten more cynical. The hot chicks in high school got knocked up. The popular guys are off living their dream (like, being a mechanic. Or in the New Zealand navy. Sounds thrilling). It's not always true, but there are some good examples (at least from my past).

But I really think it'll help if you just be a bit MORE judgmental. Don't get in people's faces, don't be an asshole, but just think to yourself "Wow, look at that idiot." when someone does something stupid. Cause they were stupid. Everyone agrees with you.

>>32617484
i don't speak political correct, but i always revise what i type and think and how i might look and move.

i'm terribly afraid to fail, so i avaoid tests.
and beeing in a social situation is kinda the most complex test i could imagine.
i can't even use a forum, since someone could check all my prevorious posts and find flaws.
if 4chan wasn't anonymous, i'd never post anything.

>>32617516
>>I tell him I'm in a hurry and have to do stuff

and this is one of the GOOD outcomes.
Imagine if you tried carrying on a conversation, creating an extremely awkward situation.

>>32617550
EXACTLY why I did it. I find it's better to leave under your own circumstances than to wait for them to deny you. Reject them before they can reject you!

>>32617492
Who said this

>>32617540
I can't stand to look at most people these days, because I automatically start judging them based on their face. I'll create a fantasy world on the spot in which they're a detestable and irritating individual, and I can't help but feel annoyed. If I have to talk to someone, I just look at their forehead or shoulder specifically.

>>32617563
if they reject you, other people could notice that too. they could think bad of everytime you see them.
and you don't know where or when you might see them again
-> constant danger

running away is the best choice in this kind of situations

>>32617484
>>32617388

Whenever I read people here saying how much smarter and more 'mature' they are then everybody else, it reminds me of how I thought...when I was 12.
Now I'm perfectly aware of how inferior I am

The worst is when you catch yourself thinking something stupid, makes you feel like a hypocrite. Or when you catch yourself blaming something that's happened to you on someone else or some external factor, deliberately ignoring the fact that when you follow the lines of casuality, it was ultimately entirely your fault.

>>32617542
>if 4chan wasn't anonymous, i'd never post anything.
Goddamn truth.

>>32617542
Avoiding tests, now THAT is something I can truly empathize with. I'm 23, and I still haven't got a learners, because I went in once and failed (we use scratchy sheets, I knew 4 wrongs = fail and left immediately). I'm still too embarrassed to go back, even though it's been years and years. Turns out even if you get 4+ wrong, the tester usually just passes you anyway afterwards.


Also, the self-censorship thing I can totally understand. This is probably me at my most honest, and although there is a risk people can associate my trip with me IRL, it's very unlikely.

>>32617568
http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0120669/quotes

it's from a movie

>>32617540

but that means nothing's stopping everyone else from telepathically thinking I'm a stupid idiot

>>32617230
Anyone else read this, feel like it perfectly described you, then felt like you were being self-centered and pathetic for feeling that?

>>32617484
>God, I monologue to myself as politically correct as possible, constantly revising whatever it was that I just thought.

I do this all the time, as if I'm practicing for the time when I'll get to say it to someone IRL. Not that I actually get an opportunity to say whatever it is IRL though.

You guys are lucky
I go on a rollercoaster between extreme inferiority and extreme superiority. It's an awful ride.

I see people taller than they are for one. Unless they are right up next to me I'll think "that person is tall." Then when I am near enough I notice that they are my height or sometimes even shorter. Same thing works with muscle mass. If I have to speak in class or walk through a crowd I get extremely hot. So hot it's like I'm wearing 5 parkas in the rainforest, I'll start sweating and everything.

Other times I'll think highly of myself because I am not amused by the simple things everyone else are, like sex or drugs. Their meaningless bicker makes me think "at least I don't sound that stupid, I must be something more." Of course I know this is wrong, but it's more of a subconscious thing.

>>32617686
just analize every movement, every thought, every word you have said and the amount of knowledge you possess.
compare every aspect on it's own to what you consider perfect or at least decent (pretty much the same for me, part of my problem).
evaluate yourself relative to your very own scale and see, that you are worthless scum. other people might be scum too, but everyone is better than you at atleast something. concentrate on your own inferiority.

>>32617230

I just finished reading this and honestly, although I hate the expression, it fucking PERFECTLY described me.

Then I realized I was acting just like those assperger-type kids on the internet who post random made up diseases as excuses for their own failures, and how much I've chided them for the exact same shit I'm doing. I mean, isn't this all just pretty much "bad self-esteem"? Everyone has at least a little bit of it, right?

But apparently it's a disorder that only certain people have, so not only do I feel even more disconnected and inferior from everybody else, but makes me feel like some arrogant self-centered brat who has this 'special disorder' or someting

>>32617261
>Just handle dealing with people like how you handle dealing with spiders.
So I should wait till they stand still then clamp a plastic container over them, slip a piece of paper under that and release them out the window. Doesn't sound too hard, I'll try that next time I go outside.

>>32617686
True, people probably are judging the things you do. Constantly. Because everyone does. And everyone messes up. *shrug* It sucks sometimes, but try not to sweat it. I know I worry about it.

I also sometimes worry about telepaths, although how we got on this topic is beyond me. I have a mental trick to 'get rid of' bad mental images, or mental images that would be offensive to any nearby telepaths. I imagine it being clusterbombed. Yes, I am slightly crazy.

>>32617727
I do the tall thing as well. I honestly never realised I was over 6 feel tall (we use metric), I always thought 190cm was less than 6 feet (not because I didn't know the conversion, just because the idea that I was "tall" was foreign to me). People still seem tall around me.

>>32617765
>analize

>>32617710
i simulate comversations with people i know, just in case. and if i somehow happen to see them i don't even greet them.

>>32617727
well, i got rid of the arrogant phases, maybe you'll grow out of it too.

>>32617782
>>32617705 here, you described it perfectly..

>>32617810
I obsess over my spelling because I feel like people will respond like this...

>>32616029


Mmmmmh there is a hidden message in the sun but I'm missing some words

And then I feel like shit for complaining and whining about this shit when there are people with cancer or lost their parents or have to work 3 jobs to feed their kids or people with real problems that they're able to deal with like adults
Meanwhile I have these worthless problems that I don't deal with at all, like a child

So on what scale do we see ourselves? How do we determine how inferior we are? Seems like most of this is gauged by what society deems important (friends, women, money, etc)

>>32617859
How about just plain "Sum total out of 10"?

>>32617844
at a glance, I can only see 'thinking too much'

>>32617859
we're behaving like insecure children as >>32617850 put in.

>>32617844
>>32617886

I've been thinking too much about you.

>>32617810
yep, that's 4chan for me. if this was a forum, i would have to delete all my post and leave it.

>>32617859
Intelligence, wisdom, skills, looks, ability to hold a person's interest, actions in regards to personal morals, energy put into the pursuit of ideals, accomplishments...

Whatever I can notice is lacking within myself that others seem to have plenty of, really. I don't keep a list, I just realize how little I know and can do depending on the situation. I always come up last, is the key thing.

>>32617892
But the others out there, the 'normals' are just as avoidant as we are. They just use other methods. They deal with their shit by drinking themselves into a stupor, drugs, smoking, sex. Sure, it might sound 'fun', but they're doing the exact same thing we are. Distracting themselves from feeling like shit. Also, fucking cricket just snuck under my door. I hate insects.

My own crutch was used to beat me

Throughout early school the only way I made friends and became popular was through insulting people. Back then the only way to be cool was to either be bigger or come from a rich family, I was of course lower middle class and was a year younger than everyone else and already had a very small frame. 2nd shortest in class throughout all of elementary school I think.. So I would make fun of people to other people to befriend them. I really had no idea how else to do it, and it's still true to this day. I'm not a funny person unless I'm laughing at and poking fun at someone else. I did this until all of my friends abandoned me, and now spend at least 90% of my conscious time not at school or work on the internet. So what do I do?
Insult people on the internet. Troll like hell.

I now think everyone around me is insulting me. I know they are. I hear those girls laugh and quiet their voices when I walk into the breakroom. I know they're probably laughing about my hair or clothes or something. I see those people in the halls on the way to class staring at me and then talking amongst themselves. I see the groups of people eying me as I walk by in a store. I avoid their eyes because that will only alert them even more to my presence, I just want to be unnoticed.

Hows this for a story:

The other day I was at an engagement party of my friends, all my college peeps were there. At the end of it, one of the girls, and a friend of mine, kissed everyone on the cheek as she was leaving. Everyone but me that is, to me she waves and in the voice a mother says to a baby, she says "bye Joshie" and waves.

It felt like my chest caved in, because I thought we were good friends (She has a boyfriend, not actively trying to pork her or nuffin but it was still a cruel thing to do) but it really looked as if she was scared of me.

I don't let it show that I'm hurt in my voice, but I go "Hey, how come everyone else got a kiss?"

She says sorry, kisses me on the cheek and leaves. Later on she says it's cos she thought I didn't like that sort of stuff

>>32617941
And yet they interact and make connections through these events. I think you're completely wrong. They drink and do drugs for the thrill of being young. Very few of them do it for the reasons we do. Even if it were partially true, they're doing the right thing and masking it. Here we are, complaining to others. It's a sign of how inferior we are.

The most contact I have with other people these days is opening the door for people. I'm a very generous door opener for people. I'm pretty much an expert. I know how far is too far away, how much force to push the door open is neccessary so it doesn't hit the back hinge and push back, and when other people accidentally keep it open too far away for me, I move in in a way so it doesn't make it awkward for them.

But then there's the odd time I rush into an open door because I just know people want me out of the fucking way, but I realize that I shoved a few people who were waiting near the door and were about to walk in themselves. Then I feel just completely awful, and I can't even say sorry because that would just be awkward and I'm too far away

then I realize I'm so pathetic that I'm so far gone that I think about this shit so fucking much, and that it's the only contact I have with people at all

ANYONE REALLY GOOD WITH SMALL TALK? I mean i'm perfectly capable of sitting down with someone random and having a chat but I run out of ideas. And when that happens, all conversation ceases. Though sometimes i'll say, "ok, now it's your turn" and it'll roll for a little longer.

>>32618074
One of the pros and cons of 4chan, it can do one hell of a job simulating socialization. At times you'll feel great when someone else responds to what you've posted. In the end, though, the thing that empowered you to say something in the first place is what condemns you to never making a lasting impression: Anonymity. You get a small high off of being acknowledged, but that other person will never knowingly respond to you specifically again.

>>32618081

just have a small talk ruitine. Have you travelled? Something like that is always interesting to hear. It's not that the things you typically want to talk about (movies, anime, technology or whatever) is shit, it's just hard to have a conversation with someone who doesn't know about it without making them feel dumb or patronizing them.

>>32618024

I feel like a spotlight I shone on me whenever I go anywhere I feel like I'm not supposed to be. A million eyes boring into me, judging me, laughing at me for doing whatever I'm doing
And I know it's true because I do exactly the same to others, I'm such a bad person

>>32618081
i run out of ideas after the "hi", so i don't start any conversations at all

>hikky
>NEET
>female

how does i awkward position'd

>>32618048
Friday is a popular night for partying. They could do it Saturday, and sure, on occasion they do. But it's Friday when 'everyone's' out partying. To forget the miserable week they had. To get puking drunk and cry on some stranger's shoulder about how work sucks, and their significant other is messing around, and even trivial crap like stupid dramas or getting a speeding ticket (because they were being stupid). Sure, not always, but I like to think that the reason we come on to 4chan isn't JUST to whine about being lonely. We also have fun, whether it's discussing the latest ep of flavor of the month, trolling, etc.

>>32618131
Yeah... Sometimes I try to tell myself that I'm being silly, no one gives a shit and the entire room isn't staring at me and evaluating everything I do, the way I move, how I look... But then I remember, I do that to other people. Constantly. People can and almost certainly do notice all those things about me.

>>32618143
Does anyone understand what this dog is trying to say?

>>32617179
My twin! Now neither of us will be virgins!

>>32618131
You're perfectly normal. The only difference is, they don't let it get to them and you do. I know, it's not something I can say "just get over it", but with time and our natural ability to see the worst in people you too can be the judge as well as the defendant.

This thread is scarily accurate.

brutal honesty is the only true way to post

>>32618176

"Bark!"
no, I don't understand.

>>32618178
I don't want to judge. I want to connect with people like everyone else seems to.

>>32618146
I have been the awkward, silent person at these parties you're talking about on many occasions in the past due to knowing someone who pitied my constant eventless life. They really are operating on a different system in my eyes, I have never seen this 'depressed drunk' trying to forget the pains of life. All I could see were people drunk on youth.

Though perhaps I'm just so out of tune that I couldn't see what they really felt.

>>32618127
dammit, i really post just to get a reply. i dump pictures and troll, just for a some words from a person i don't know.
without 4chan i'd probably feel completely alone.
maybe i should mail moot and thank him.

>>32618074
I hate doors, I really do.
The door is like a magnet for close contact with people. Seems like every time a door is around I'm bound to have some sort of collision. Or maybe that's just the painful people doors weighing in my mind heavier than the good doors.

I remember trying to open one that had closed right before I got to it, and it latched on or something. I started frantically trying to open it because I knew people were behind me. Finally it opens and I turn to the girl behind me and say "sorry."

Another was a girl with huge boobs (but wore a twilight shirt on a few occasions) who started yelling the parking lot for someone to wait. I didn't think she was talking to me, but I started walking faster because I didn't want to be caught with them through the doors and all the way up the stairs. She catches me on my way up and says "I want to talk to you." How the fuck should I respond to that? After some very akward shit I ended up telling her she sounded like the nanny. She didn't really sound that much like her, but her laugh reminded me of it. She said "gee.. thanks" and as to not incriminate myself further I increased my pace and walked ahead of her to class. She never said anything to me again, but I do remember hearing her whisper something to someone else and laughing when I had to do a presentation with someone else.

>>32618198
;_;

u guys so retarded, it hurts.

haha you all fuckin suck, I'm popular with girls AND I like anime and 4chan.
But then again, I like 4chan because it has also a big load of losers.
It wouldn't be entertaining without you guys =)

>>32618206
No, I think tripfriend is just projecting. Those other people aren't like us.

>>32618202
This. I want to have meaningful conversations, or just a plain good time. I don't want to judge people, or be judged for what I said that might seem strange. I want to listen to people tell me things they think I don't want to hear, and I just want to interact.

>>32618246

>>32618243
>>32618246
Sorry, but now that there are several of us gathered in this thread, we're quite apt at ignoring these small jabs.

>>32618251

This. So fucking much.

you guys are making this way more complicated than it really is.

Whenever I see these thread, I feel like I should just throw down my email and ask anyone to talk. Then I get worried that I'll just sound awkward, and even they will think I'm some loser.

>>32618230
>>32618074

There's this one broken door at my uni that you have to press really down on the hinge to open
once someone was in front of me and didn't know how to use it, and had a lot of people standing behind her (including me). So in a rush she just went on to the next one.
With pride and skill I opened the problem door in a flash. I felt FUCKING STUPID. I probably embarassed her!
But of course, she probably didn't and it's only me who gives a shit about these kind of worthless things

>>32618288
Isn't that sort of the core of the entire problem?

About a year ago I was betrayed by my friends. One of them started to talk about me behind my back. She told all kind of lies about me. Because we are in the same class it was troublesome. And the another friends of mine didn't really mind it... Then for about half a year I became a social retard. I didn't really talked to anyone. When that school year ended I was a little addicted to /a/.
But in that last summer I was really relaxed. I thought about the bad and the good times. And I made two friends. And I spent some time with my cousin. When this school year started I met a new classmate. And with some other classmates we formed a pretty good group. And I'm not lonely anymore.
Anon. All you have to do is become helpful. In my class probably I'm the most helpful member. And to make some friends, you must became a good listener. And of course you have to talk a little. It's not that difficult. I pretty much not really care about my other classmates, though they go drinking ect. Anime and manga is one of my hobbies. But I don't really talk about it in front of my classmates because they don't really care, I have two friends that I can talk about it. But that's all.

>>32618202
I think judging and categorizing is a natural part of connecting. Stereotypes are a natural part of human society. Putting people in boxes. And working out which boxes you're LIKELY to be compatible with. There'll be times when people surprise you and are more open than you expect, or more bitchy, but it'll work out most of the time.

>>32618206
I'm not talking about the awkward, quiet ones. I'm talking about the noisy, happy life of the party ones. It's skin-deep. Cause I've watched their relationships and lives fall apart. That popular-but-geeky guy I mentioned before? I was his girlfriend's friend zoned shoulder-to-cry-on. She was 'in' too. They were miserable most of the time. And they broke up long ago. That really hot chick you knew in primary? I listened to her crying on my shoulder after we'd finished half a bottle of gin. Apparently daddy wasn't very nice to her.

Seriously, they're just good fakes.

>>32618128
I've done a lot of things in life. Problem is that I have really crappy memory. Heck, i've been to England, Belgium, Copenhagen, Florence, Tuscany, Paris, Rome, Austria, Hawaii, Juneau(Alaska), Canada, California, China, Hong Kong, Japan, Greece, and Turkey.

The only problem is I can barely remember anything that i've done that didn't happen about a week ago, or wasn't traumatically seared into my memory.

>>32618288

Yes, we're well aware.

>>32618293

I'd be worried that we wouldn't have anything to talk about and it will turn out really awkward and make both of us feel worse.

>>32618317
Actually if I try to recall any notable event in my mind during a conversation, my mind pretty much goes blank.

The last party I went to the girl had video games going, because she knew I'd have nothing else to do and had begged me to come out of pity. So my friend and I played for a few hours before leaving. Everyone else was outside in some tent with music, I wouldn't have dared to join them. I hate parties.

When someone walks through in a situation where I would nearly faint I do them a favor and look away. I know I hate it, so I save them just that little bit by looking away. Of course sometimes I'll make a few glances if it's an attractive girl since that and internet pictures are the only female contact I get anymore.

>>32618277
I still love you guys. You can also work harder in terms of looks and attitude. It's not like I became popular by luck. If you're fat loose weight. If you're fashionless, do some homework and dress better. It really DOES help.

>>32618341
>begged you to come
>made sure you'd have something to entertain you
>out of pity

She's either a fucking saint, or you're getting the wrong message.

>>32618312
>It's not that difficult.

But that is the hard part. Speaking up to offer help/a listening ear, or speaking up about anything at all.

>>32618074
You are a bro, never change.

>>32618312
Oh, and I nearly forgot...You must have a goal. Mine is to get into tourism.

>>32618293
i wouldn't talk to you, you would look down on me.
you would be right, but it would hurt nonetheless.

>>32618317
my isn't as long as yours, but yeah, i forget way to fast too. when i look at the pictures i took just 7 months ago in st petersburg it feels like as if it are just random pictures from the internet.
it's like i have some sort of list of places where i've been and what i've seen, but that's pretty much it. no emotions, no tastes, no scents, just an equivalent to a list.

i love these threads, but i hate them too.

because i always feel like the biggest loser here, and i usually am

>go to barns and noble to get a book
>get in line and am next / the only person left in line
>fat chick walks up the exit and cuts me
>she asks questions for five minutes
>she then buys shit
>I'm pissed but don't say anything

Feels bad man.

>>32617710

So true
I go over and over the perfect way to go through with a conversation. Then I never go through with it anyways.

>>32618293
It doesn't work, I've tried.

Even in threads like this the private conversations are sour. There are only so many things you can talk about after "what anime do you like?" and "what video games are you playing?" Eventually one of us would lie and say we're going to bed, and if you don't remove me from your list I will in a few weeks when I go on another depression stint and kick everyone off.

It sucks with us since most people can come together with a common problem like this. But ours lies in the very prospect of "coming together." I love these threads, this time of [a/ is by far the best, and every time I replied in this thread I was so relieved to see it not 404. I've been giving it all my attention for over an hour. I wish these was some way we could all have sake together in a Japanese bar and whine about our bullshit, maybe in some other universe.

>>32618454
i blush furiously and sweat like hell if something like that happens. it feels like as if she pissed on me in front of everyone and i hate myself to much to speak up against it.

>>32618471
>and every time I replied in this thread I was so relieved to see it not 404.

Oh god, you too?
I love you all

>It sucks with us since most people can come together with a common problem like this. But ours lies in the very prospect of "coming together."

exactly, it feels like a trap

>>32618454
I have this, you know what I did?
I carry a knife.

Something about it always being in my pocket makes me feel like I can come out of everything ok. It's not the weapon itself, it's just the pacifying effect it gives off. I feel like I'm just one step above everyone else.

Beware though because it goes to your head. Sometimes I am normal, other times I take absolutely NO bullshit and will freak out. I just got into an argument with my grandma's neighbor last week and it was got pretty bad, nothing you'd expect from someone in this thread.

>>32618451
The worst part is I feel if I bring up these places without saying what I did there(which I can't remember) it's no different than bragging, which is obnoxious.

What's worse is that recently i've been so bogged down by work that I barely have time for socialization, much less sleep. Procrastination is an evil enemy that I don't deal with very well.

>>32618454
this I can't stand, if i'm waiting in a line and someone dares cut ahead, I immediately confront that person. It just takes one person to get the rest, of the idiots, going.

>>32618230
Maybe you should've asked: "what is it?"

OMG PROBLEM SOLVED UNBELIEVABLE

>>32618552
Funny, everytime I carry a weapon i'm afraid I might attack someone with it. I remember I was carrying a hammer while I was walking around this one time and all I could think about was bashing open the head of the person in front of me. It doesn't help that there are a lot of secluded areas in my campus.

>>32618626
You're really not seeing the whole 'over-complicate everything' problem.

>>32618594
I envy that. I'm terrible at confrontations. The best I get is yelling at people when they start touching my screen or messing with my laptop when I'm using it.

>>32618626
Yes, we know all of these problems are stupid and they should be solved easily. That's why we're all so emo about them.

>>32618626
after she said it she just sort of stopped and stared at me

if I'm afraid of anything it's those awkward silences, be it in person or on the phone. I knew I couldn't just let it grow and make me look more like a faggot so I had to go with something.

>>32618626
sane people have often problems to understand how the mind of insane people works and vice versa.

I'm a self-sabateur. If there's an opportunity out there, i'll actively avoid it, and when I'm on a roll with something, I'll put an end to it. I also punish myself considerably. When I do something stupid, I'll be damn sure I pay for it, physically and mentally. My waking hours that aren't spent with distractions like school or internet, are spent with me drilling into my head all the things I don't deserve.

And then I come out of these little depressions feeling no better or different than before.
I was going to write another introspective conclusion sentence here, but I have nothing.

>>32618627
Ever sat behind a girl on the bus and looked at how delicate her neck is, wondered how easy it'd be to snap? Self-control is a great thing. If I was ever uninhibited, either I would end up dead, someone else would end up dead, I'd end up mutilated (body dysmorphic disorder ftw), or any combination of the above.

I really think carrying a weapon is pointless unless there's actually a significant crime risk and you realistically think you could use it (hint, knives are more dangerous to the wielder than the 'victim' if they don't know what they're doing, or they hesitate).

>>32618697

"Yes?"

everyone here is stuck at level 0 of the SOCIAL GAME and they can't get past the first obstacle. If you want to play the game you have to put in some effort, just like a video game. Imagine giving Super Mario to your grandpa and then he dies at the first enemy, he rages and throws the controller. This is what everyone here is doing over and over.
Just like with ANY ability (juggling, drawing, learning languages) you will fail and you will get better. But you have to go outside and fail first, instead of sitting in your room and forever talking about wanting to play, but never actually playing.

Weird how these threads seem to flourish on /a/. Why do all the people like this wind up here? Guess anime is for losers after all.

>>32618720
"hey wait I wanted to talk to you"
"..about what"
"I just wanted to talk to you"
"er uh..."

If memory serves that's how it went before it got ugly

>>32618729
Everyone knows that you "just have to do it". If things were that easy, the tobacco industry would be out of business. Psychiatrists would be out of a job. Etc.

>>32618738
I don't normally do this, but
>implying it doesn't happy on /b/, /v/, somethingawful, MMOs, clubs, etc

You're walking down a hall or a sidewalk, looking around, just observing when you accidentally lock eyes with someone. And their looking straight back at you. Rather than quickly looking away and risk looking funny, at that point you should point you should give them your best condescending glare(bonus points if you do it with one eyebrow up) or stare, your eyes the same way they were, at them until the person looks away. Alternatively, approach them and ask if they needed something.

>>32618711
>>32618627
>>32618552

I think these things do, except they're about myself
A week ago I was being subtley reminded of a majorly idiotic, stupid thing I did in class that could ruin my whole academic year, and just felt like blasting my head open with a bullet, or thinking about joker's magic trick.

This is so fucking cliche emo shit that I can't write any more, god damn I'm fucking pathetic

>>32618729
yeah, it's not like mental disorders exist or anything. people should just man up.

>>32618738
of course not. anime are for children and teenagers.

>>32618711
Like I said, it's much more of the psychological aspect of it. It's like a safety blanket. I guess other things could work.. Maybe lifealert

And fuck off normalfags, we're here to bitch to eachother not hear your pseudo cures like "LOLZ JUST TALK ITZ EZ GO WIT CONVO BE ALPHA I AM A SOCIAL GOD TAKE IT FROM ME XD"

>>32618729
The problem sometimes is doing over it with the same groups of people. Eventually you run out of lives

>>32618738

See:
>>32617542
>>32617617
>>32617915

>>32618729

I've tried and failed already. I've done everything I possibly could. I just don't have what it takes, as a person. And even if i did suceed, I simply don't deserve the things that come with it.

There's not much more to it that that.

It's funny, because threads like this make me wish I could actually help some of you. Because I've been in a situation such as this before, if nothing else, at least know somebody out there cares for the faceless loners, even if I don't know you specifically.

>>32618790
buy a gun then. i live in the 14th floor and that feels kind of safe, since i can always kill myself.
i won't do it (probably, i at least enjoy anime and vidya), the i COULD and that's what puts me at ease

>>32618790
>>32618820
Everyone, EVERYONE makes mistakes. Everyone regrets, everyone humiliates myself.
Here, how's this for size:
>meet girl you've known for a while on the ferry (I live on an island)
>get her number
>keep texting later
>eventually work up the balls (read: stupidity) to tell her you've got a crush on her over text message
>she doesn't reply
>she still doesn't reply
>send emo message about how she could at least just tell me to fuck off or something
>get reply "sorry, was in the shower"
>never talk to her again

Thank god I've grown up a bit since then, but shit happens, sometimes you lose the game. The world's a big fucking place.

>>32618790
knife guy here, I thought the same thing after I said it. I can only imagine how you people pictured me..

>>32618782
I don't want the reputation of being some sort of perverted staring guy who makes people feel even more uncomfortable.

During my second year of high school I came down with an illness that put me in the hospital for days on the week, they would "think" they figured out the problem and release me and id be back in the very next week ( this lasted for about two years and at this point I had to leave the state to go to a special hospital because nobody could find out what was wrong with me. )

During all of my time in the hospital and me leaving school I kinda lost track of my friends and they lost track of me and here I am five years later with nobody.

They eventually found out what was wrong with me and I finished high school in an online school, I still have my illness which randomly comes and goes. I still need overnights in the hospital sometimes when it comes back and can't really hold down a steady job because of it.

Feels bad man.

>>32618845
who cares for pathetic losers?

>>32618891
Not enough people. But frankly? More people than you might think.

>>32618888
At least you have an excuse or something to blame. I'm perfectly healthy and a total fuckup.

(See how your situation is way worse than mine and I manage to complain about it? Fuckup.)

>>32618845
D'awww. This is very true [a/. No matter how socially rejected you think you are there is always at least one or two people who care about you. It's pretty much the same for people who appear to be liked by everyone. They are only truly liked by the small group of people.

>>32617542
>>32617617
>>32617915
>>32618216

Fuck I feel like emailing moot now too

I used to have friends, but I hated them. In high school they would keep bothering me about going out to play Tennis, basketball or some other boring crap, and I always feel the need to go because fear of being rejected.

Now thats all behind me, and I am glad I am finally free. Moved 350 miles away from my high school so everybody I know wouldn't ever bother me again, go to school and stare/ignore everyone that ever approached me, and live by myself in a downtown apartment.

The great, free life it is.

>>32618888

I kinda feel like a male version of Asa Shigure from shuffle!

By the way are any of you from Vegas?

At an early age I was bullied and thus I became anti-social. I also had a step dad who was a jerk but who was also wealthy which lead to conflicted feelings. It was because of his personality that I ended up spending most of my evenings in my room rather than with the family. The combined effect stifled my social growth and I ended up always by myself and partially insane(don't ask). It wasn't until around the end of 10th grade that I opened up again, but by that time it was too late. People had already assigned themselves and others to groups and I was socially inept. Now I am a freshman in college, and while I don't have trouble starting a conversation with one person, I find it hard to prolong. It's almost impossible for me to talk if I ever find myself among a group of people.

I've got a problem with people looking at me.
Problem is it feels like I know when they do. Mostly I'm right and meet their eyes and stare them down until they look away again.
It's awkward going out thinking about people always looking at you and even more awkward that you're probably right.
Nowadays I only go out when I'm so tired that my senses are numb.

>>32618920

I was about to make your same exact first line, but then thought your second line to myself. God I'm such a fuckup.

>>32618845
>>32618925

We're stupid, pathetic shits who can't do anything but run away. Anybody who'd want to deal with that sort of person is not sane. Hell, I sure wouldn't, I would know, I have to deal with myself on a day-to-day basis, ti's frustrating and exhausting. And besides, they'd avoid any sort of help to begin with. Everything in my life is a result of my own actions, and it's all been one big failure, so it's not like someone can just rewrite my F grade to a B without it being cheating. I deserve all these consequences.

>>32619034

Going out walking on campus when you've been awake for the last 40 hours is a bizarre experience. I'm completely not self conscious at all, but also too unenergetic to do anything either. So I just walk around in a daze, I probably look high or something (I wouldn't know). It's kind of nice.

>>32619038
You are being too hard on yourself, you don't think normalfags get help from others? And the fact that nobody but you can help you is what frustrates me so much, damnit being able to maybe help somebody not feel like shit for 5 minutes would be worth "dealing with" whoever. But therein lies the problem, this particular situation and it's variants shuns help from others so I can do nothing but watch.

>>32619038
>Everything in my life is a result of my own actions

It's true. We all chose everything we did and said and didn't do and didn't say. But, some of us got crappy dice rolls and wound up without the experience we need to be able to deal with 'normal'. Most of this can be fixed with experience. But even then, there are problems that we just can't fix without external influence. Recursive problems usually (I should get a prescription to help me with my depression, <depression talking> but I'm not really depressed just lazy and useless and making excuses).

Saying you deserve the consequences is like saying people who get cancer deserve it. Because cancer can be a result of things like bad diet or smoking or even being out in the sun too much. Bad shit happens, it's the result of our own decisions, but we sometimes still need help.

>>32619038
In a Darwinian world, we'd be fucked. For sure. But, we're a social species. We're mentally hardwired to require external inputs.

>>32619113
>>32619080

I just wanted to say that your posts were very good and made me feel relieved a bit, so thank you
Maybe I've been feeling so down these past few months because it was winter or something

>Most of this can be fixed with experience

Not much. Those of us on the more severe spectrum that have missed out from valuable childhood experiences (or had extra experiences) and won't be able to live these out in the right developmental timeframe.

>>32619180
Lived till I was 5 in the city, then moved to the back-end of nowhere. Had 2 friends in primary school. Went into homeschooling for the first 4 years of intermediate/high. Dropped out at final year and spent 4 years as a hikki. I'm learning. I'm getting better. Still a long way to go, but I'm getting there.

Sometimes I feel like my mind and soul is trying to rip itself out of my body to try and do SOMEthing or talk to someone, but my body doesn't react, it just stands there with it's unmoving stoic face, and my self-preservation mindset kicks in telling me to back down.

>>32619175
Hey, even despite our various situations as individuals, we are in this together as humans right? Keep fighting the good fight bros, all of you. Even if you don't think you are worthy of anything, even if nobody but you can do anything, know that somewhere out there somebody cares. I say that at the risk of sounding like a stupid after school special.

tl;dr, although I got the same general felling from most of the posts I read. Therefore, to end this endless faggotry, just think to yourself, fuck it. I don't care if you don't like me. I am how I am, and bollocks to you all. The problem isn't you; it's how you think that others perceive you.

/thread.

my depression is back, thanks /a/

>>32619215
>primary, intermediate, high

What country are you from? Just curious.

I'm a terrible person for typing this.

I watched my father die in our driveway when I was seven. My stepfather never liked me, and is on medication because he is bipolar. I've gone to psychiatrists and therapists for most of my life. One of them actually gave up and said I was "just naturally a loser". I was ridiculed from middle school til the end of high school, and now I'm extremely ill. I don't go out, sometimes because I can't. I want someone to care, but that's selfish. I don't want someone to care because I'm a terrible person, and because I'm so sick. I feel like a parasite. Never talk to anyone, never go anywhere, use up insurance money...

And most of all, I just complain. If only I were stronger, I could just keep it all inside, yet here I am. Even typing this is attention-seeking, and I hate myself for it.

Ha ha, feeling sorry for myself, much?

>>32619327
New Zealand. Better known as "some islands in the pacific. With crappy internet. Next to Australia."

>>32619342
That sounds an awful lot like a medical malpractice suit. Fucking people get PAID to do this shit, if they can't stand it just fucking quit don't take our their failure on their clients.

>>32619342
It's good to get it out, Anon, there is no shame in admitting dissatisfaction even when directed at yourself. Complaining is what we humans do, it is the first step towards achieving something greater. You are among friends, and I am sorry for your loss. You also must understand that psychiatrists are people too and as such can be rampant jackasses. Nobody on this planet is "a natural loser".

>>32619345
Squee. I'm from Chch :P

Just thought to double check, you might of been a dirty filthy aussie.

>>32619342
>And most of all, I just complain. If only I were stronger, I could just keep it all inside, yet here I am. Even typing this is attention-seeking, and I hate myself for it.

We all know exactly how you feel. Every post I've made in this thread, and I'm guessing most everyone else's, was carried by the same feeling. It's only because this place is anonymous that we can make the jump.

>>32619345
i always wondered why australia (and supposely NZ too) have such a crappy internet connection. is it because you are so far away from the center of civilization? but japan and south korea have high speed internet too...

>>32619342
You're more deserving than me. Yeah, I had to deal with some shit, missed out on some social development, but my parents divorced quite peacefully and I'm still on good terms with both of them. My brother's tolerable. I've got no 'real' (read: physical) problems. Yet, I've felt exactly the same as you.

Those starving Ethiopian kids in the middle of the scrap yard scavenging for scraps of food can be happy. Why can't we, (comparatively) privileged, given everything on a silver fucking platter? The human brain is a wonderful and horrible thing.

>>32619474
Submarine cable or high-latency high-cost satellite links; so our national telecom company can get away with charging bullshit prices for ridiculous connections.

We used to have 128k 'broadband', except the internationally-accepted definition for broadband was minimum 128k/128k and ours was something like 128k/64k. Now we have DSL and some lucky people get DSL2+. And over the next 12 years they're planning on building a fiber network, and some time soon they're planning another submarine cable. Basically, it's all bullshit.

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Psychiatrists can sometimes be completely retarded. My parents forced me to go see one when I was in high school and she told me how I should stop being friends with some guy because apparently he was pulling me down, and how I should apologize to this girl and work things out with her even though she insulted me and my family without any valid reason. 2 years later I am still friends with said guy and he has proven himself to be a great person numerous times.

I don't blame you for complaining Anon, you have all the reason to do so. But try getting better at life slowly, baby steps. If you try focusing on good things that might come in life, the bad ones will eventually fade away on their own.

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>>32619577

http://doujinland.com/shota/sub-audio/#more-1222

delete your post, it's an eyesore

Dropped out of academics

Work full time.

Buy figures/dvds/managa/vidya

I don't know what else to do

another thing some might relate to
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Quarter-life_crisis

>>32616500
>Nobody likes the quiet guy

That's not actually how reality works.

Also, to fucks in this thread trying to be "Cool" nobody important fucking cares. We don't need normalfags here

Oh well, I've said my piece and I'm not doing any good sitting here refreshing this page. Funny thing, as I've been sitting here encouraging people I'm waiting for a text message that will, in all probability, never come. Someone asked if we could meet up on the weekend, and I said sure, I'll text you and we'll sort something out. That was Friday (it's now 2:20AM Sunday).

Baby steps. -.-

>>32619755
Good luck, keep surviving.

It's reaching the bright early sun of morning, and so I think this thread should really end here, for the sake of us all. And I also request people actually read through the thread fully, if they're going to do it at all.

It's been really fantastic talking with you all, and I've shared a lot and let a load off my mind. Maybe I'll make those extra baby steps.

so good morning, good night...

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This thread was actually pretty good stress relief, even if it did an equally good job making me feel bad. At least we're all suffering together?

Well, time to soldier on with this life bullshit. You're not alone, Anon.

While my problems dont seem to be as big as many of you guys problems, I would still like to write something.
I have been in serious relationship, it lasted for 5 years or so. It took almost 3 years to fully recover from it (maybe little negative thinking here) but I haven't been dating anyone after that. I am very social guy, I'm likeable etc. but the main problem is that I have low self-confedence, which is problematic that I have hard time to actually meet new people. Of course if I know them even a little bit, then its much easier but even if I know that the girl would like me, as a friend or more, I still can't talk because I'm afraid of rejection. Or that they think that I'm some asshole/stalker/desperated guy.

I know that I do not look bad, my personality is rather nice etc. but damn, I just wish that I have more courage and less "WHAT IF" thinking.

>>32619858
It may seem like less, but you're suffering from the same thing we all are. Thankfully, you've got it at a much less severe level. Just don't let it develop, and do not entertain the thought that those feelings are true. Accept even the smallest feelings of inadequacy for long enough, and they start building up.

Sadly Im the quiet guy with the superiority complex and for good reason. Im smart as hell (apparently thats what every fucking body tells me , though the shit that i spew out my mouth are just random facts that iv'e learned from readin to many god damn books. )

Of course i have poor math grades But once i get a formula down thats it , im good .

But back on subject i feel like im better than everyone and there mom . And on the rare occasion someone does talk to me , i sound very polite , but somehow i always answer questions like im a super genius and putting down people .

and i can feel it in there face.

as far as talking to people myself i just keep to myself and mind my own buisness don't have a job and need to get on my shit . uhg fucking hate people you all are retarded . half the shit is common sense .

>>32619935
You sure write like a super genius.

In some cases, humility can be a good thing.

>>32619935

>smart as hell
>there mom
>there face

Ya.

I used to have a lot of problems like this, but I read something which sort of recovered me out of the dangerous state (along with discovering 4chan).

>>32619935

Maybe you should work on your english skills instead. God I hate morning /a/.
And this thread is really not about superiority complexes, whatsoever.

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One, simple, image made it possible.

>>32619998
It's about being ostracized for reasons we can understand but seemingly not change. Notice how annoyed you got with him? That's part of his problem. There simply isn't enough to go off of other than his spelling in that one post to judge him properly.

>>32620028
You're starting a little late. The thread will be gone soon enough, and most of the people who participated are leaving regardless. Just give it a little longer to disappear.

>>32620028
That's what God Tier trolling is. All it takes is an image.

>>32620035
>you all are retarded . half the shit is common sense .
Now if it was just bad spelling, capitalization and spelling I don't think he'd get our hackles up quite as much. But, what sure appears to be an unjustified sense of superiority in a thread about people who have an unjustified sense of INFERIORITY is kinda asking for it.

Although, maybe I misinterpreted the part of his post I quoted.

>>32620093
Wow, I'm tired. That second spelling was punctuation in my mind. It just didn't make it to my keyboard.

1: put this soundtrack on http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YkzADPkNYNI
2: do whatever you want, because YOU ARE INVINCIBLE.
3: ??????
4: profit

>>32620035
>There simply isn't enough to go off of other than his spelling

Actually, I was more turned off by the "I have a superiority complex and for damn good reason" bullshit. You know, his actual personality.

>>32620073

That's not what trolling is.
And the thread is 5 hours old for christs sakes, let it die.

>>32620093
I'm not saying he's write, simply that the problem he is having is very evidently showing itself in this thread. We've been able to communicate fairly well because we seem to be having the polar opposite problem, which can cause hypersensitivity to what people say, and how we articulate ourselves. He though already feels comfortable in his superiority, and it makes things hard for him because he would be numbed to what others say/what he says, because he has been conditioned to think "whatever I say is smart, and whatever they say is dumb".

Or maybe I am over-analyzing.

>>32620161
Write....Right. Ugh. Almost 7AM. Don't want to reread anymore and notice any more errors...

>>32620161
No, that's fair enough. I'm tired, and I'm prone to making snap judgments (I admit it, I'm a bit of a spelling/grammar nazi).

If I misunderstood, I apologize.

>>32620137
That one hits where it hurts. I still remember her. She's the one who gave me what little self-confidence I have. Luckily it didn't all die when she left.

Every once in a while (like once every 6 weeks) I get this strange craving for a real girl friend and social contact and all that stuff
Then I walk outside, look at people and just return to my room. Humans are so unattractive.

Thread going to shit. Going to bed.

About two days ago, some writefag posted a story in the second person perspective, in which you got turned into a little girl and (presumably) started a new life. The writefag forgot to post with a trip, and the thread got completely derailed, but I wanted him to go on so fucking much...

>>32620137
fuck you ;_;

>>32620255
Same here.
But the girl I was with for so long, I know without her I wouldn't be here, doing all the stuff which I wouldn't have done in the past because of my very low self-confedence.

And I know I also changed her life. Sure, she has now her new love (I presume they are still together, happily) and that she isn't thinking of me anymore, but as she helped me to gain self-confedence, I also did the same for her.
Sure, break up was hellish but in the end, I'm happy that we were together. May her have a happy life.

>>32619600
Thanks man