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!c4.MXvMVO2 12/13/08(Sat)02:16 No.17108416>>17108405 What
I want in a woman makes it possible for me to love her and forgive her
for whatever she does. Anything less, and I would come to hate her. But
after I do find a woman, why does there need to be anything else? It
all just seems so superfluous. I'd have a woman I love, so why should
we have to get married? What, just because we're supposed to? At the
end, was the entire courtship applied so we could get married benefits
on our taxes? Was the entire purpose of our relationship to save money,
add another link to humanity and die? Where's the love? If that's how
it is, then we may as well just skip it all and start arranging
marriages again.
And then on the point of kids, I mean, I like
kids and I'd probably make for an Akio-esque father and all, but maybe
I'm just selfish. Looking around, everyone's life after the child just
stops indefinitely. No more romance, no more fun. Just meaningless days
in and out. That may be a nice sounding life for livestock, but I'd
like to do more than all that. I want to have an endless whirlwind
romance, one that makes everyone around us envious and jealous. I want
to run around, learning, experiencing, doing whatever the fuck I want
to do. I mean, what has this life given me so far? A computer and a
shitty job that kills me. Coming to think of it, I think maybe I'll
skip the new computer for now and quit to spend the next few months
bumming around.
And the worst thing? The part that pisses me
off the most. The straw that broke the horse's back? I try to tell this
to any fucker out there, and they have the gall to chuckle and spout
the canned response "Oh, I use to think like that. But you'll even out
eventually". Thanks for the advice, I didn't need any of those dreams
or ambitions anyways.
Why. Why, why, why, why, why. Someone just tell me what the fuck is going on here. |