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SHSBC-253
renumbered 282, 28 Mar 63 The GPM
A
lecture given on 28 March 1963
*[Editor's
note: The diagrams mentioned by Ron in this lecture can be found in HCOB 2 April
1963, DIAGRAMS ILLUSTRATING TAPE OF 28 MARCH 1963, Technical Bulletins Volume
VII.] [Fz Ed Note - also in FZ Tech Vol for 1963]
How are you today? This is the 28th of March,
AD 13. I don't have any messages here saying any of you people have gone Clear
or anything like that here today. I guess you must be all slowing down, huh?
Well, it's getting towards the end of the week.
Spring's here. That's it - spring. You're suffering from spring fever.
We have a new arrangement here today. We've got
a - I got a board here I can draw you some pictures on and it's about time,
because if you can't get it verbally you can always get it through pictures,
huh?"
All right. Now, let's see. Want to talk to you
today about the GPM - the GPM. The composition of the GPM - the GPMs - and the
composition of any single GPM actually marvelously enough can be found in
Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health in the description of how an
engram is formed. And we're right back to basics. Every time we've had anything
that was true and anything that was very useful and usable to us, it is traced
back, oddly enough, to the dynamic principle of existence is to survive. That
is the primary take-off point, to survive.
And of course, the oddity of that problem is,
how can a thetan be so fixated on the effort to survive when actually he can't
do anything else. And that is his basic problem. His basic problem is he can't
do anything else and therefore he works at it.
Truthfully, some thetan worries about will he
get through or will he make it. He worries about that in processing. Well, I've
been wrapped around a few telegraph poles myself in processing, pioneering the
way, as you very often are. Pioneers fall into ice crevasses and that sort of
thing. I've had my share of ice crevasses.
But
the basic problem here is that you haven't got any other place to go. That's
something for you to remember. That's something to keep in mind.
Some pc says, "I don't know whether I
should be processed or not. Ha-ha,
ha-ha-ha." Huh! That's silly. That's a silly thing.
"Whether I should be processed or not."
Well,
you see, he in actual fact hasn't got any choice in the matter. He's definitely
in trouble. He may tell you he isn't, but he is. And he's trying very hard to
survive.
There one time after I wrote the first book I
thought there was a dichotomy here. And I thought that it was succumb was the
opposite to survive. And it isn't. There isn't any. The trap of this universe
is you can't quit.
Now, we've had - we've had a student who
arrived over here and he isn't a student, really and he's been playing footsies
with the idea that maybe he shouldn't go on course. He thinks maybe he ought to
quit. Did you ever try to quit? Let me tell you something. You can't. It's not
possible to quit. You'll always rise up again and try again because there isn't
anything else you can do.
Now, if you digest that basic datum, "How
can a man quit?" - you go back on the track and what do you find? You find
he's still trying to fight this battle. He has not been able to quit.
You go back a hundred thousand years and he's
still trying to play the game of knighthood was in flower. Only right now he's
still trying to play this game. He wants to be a gentleman or he wants to treat
the ladies nicely or something of that sort. What's this impulse stem from?
He's still trying. Well, this game's been over for ages.
In fact the first game of this nature I know is
about a hundred trillion years ago. And there's another sort of
knighthood-in-flower game earlier on the track than that even. And he hasn't
ever quit. Oh, become degraded, become miserable, become bogged down; but he
never quit. He can't! Even though he says, "Well, I quit. Well, that's
it."
Well, let's take a businessman. And the
government officials are all over the shop and all day and all night, every day
and so forth, and the tax people and the licensing board and the food surveyors
and the this and that-a's, and he's always mixed up in some way or another, and
he just can't get the help to go on. And after a while, why, he says,
"Well, the hell with it, I'll quit." Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. Let him try, let him try.
You know you always can pick up such a person a
few months later, and you can ask him whether or not they should have quit.
Well, you see, they've had to work twice as hard, because all the papers that
had to be filed have now got to be refiled and so forth. And a bankruptcy or
something like this is the most overworked activity you can possibly engage in.
People come around and they say, "Well, how about this tin of sardines
that you didn't sign a receipt for in 1952?" He says, "1952, tin of
sardines. Were we even in the sardine business back then?"
"Oh, well, yes. Yes, yes, yes, yes. Well,
you'll have to figure that out," and so forth. He can't quit.
You take a box fighter. He has been in there
shifting around in the ring and he's gotten himself well up toward the
championship, and so on. And then one fine day, why, he loses a fight, so he
says, "I'll quit, I'll quit." Only he hasn't got any finance with
which to quit. And here he is fooling around trying to quit and he has a few
minor fights so he can have enough money to quit, you know. And he has a few
other fights so that he can have enough money to quit.
Eventually, here he is a sparring partner, you
see, for five dollars to go three minutes, or something like that. And he
hasn't been able to quit there and eventually there he is walking around in the
street with the birds going tweet, tweet, tweet on every side of him, still
trying to quit the fight game.
These fellows who quit the war are all very
interesting to me. They quit the war. They stopped fighting the war. They
stopped, and by God they're still in the war.
Every place a thetan has ever been, he is still
trying to be, or trying not to be. But as far as an absolute succumb, this he
cannot obtain. And his basic problem on the track is that he can't quit. I say
that very advisedly, he is not permitted to quit.
I remember one time pulling a gag on the
stellar organization. There's an organization they used to have. You know, they
used to have ships on the sea before they had missiles. You probably wouldn't
remember that; it's a long time ago. And they had these ships and they went
around and shot at each other, that sort of thing. Interesting game. And I
finally worked out how to be left alone. I decided I was tired. And day after
day, why, I just laid down on the job. I was on a base and I didn't care
anything about it, and so forth. And - why, I really got reamed out, I was
supposed to be in there every morning and read that bulletin board and that
sort of thing. I found out about as close as you can come to quitting and I
said... This commander - I mean, he had gold lace and all sorts of things - and
he says to me, he says, "You're supposed to be here every morning. You're
supposed to read that bulletin board. You're supposed to go out here and muster
oh-oh-ah-rruoww, you know, rocks and shoals, perils of the sea." And I
looked at him and I said, "Oh, Commander, it's been a long war."
"Oh," he says, "you can't talk
like that. You can't talk like that. Oh, come on now. Well, we can find an easy
billet for you and so forth, and be a good boy and so forth, and you can't just
quit, you know." And God, after that, why, anything I wanted on the base
they let me have because they thought I was about to quit. So all life actually
conspires to keep people in there pitching.
Now, a thetan exteriorizes out of some mangled
body that has unfortunately got in the road of some scientific achievement and
he gets out of the skull and he looks around and he says, "I've
quit." Well, he may have quit, but what are you and I doing as auditors
finding this guy still exteriorizing, and still trying to quit. I don't care whether
- if it was a hundred trillion years ago or otherwise; we find the engram of
him doing that. Isn't that interesting?
Now, engrams - engrams are there to provide
methods of survival - methods of survival. There's a long discussion of this in
Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health. He's long since found out that
he can't quit so he adapts methods of survival. And these methods of survival
are quite interesting. He learns lessons which he instantaneously applies. The
one thing he finds out is that life permits him no time to confront. If he were
given unlimited time to confront, he could then work out any situation he is
likely to encounter. Do you see that? You know that with a reality? If you just
had time to confront everything in your environment you would then be able to
get yourself enough familiarity with it, in order to handle it.
Well, the one thing which this universe and
life omits in the platter of goodies they give you - the one thing they omit -
is enough time to confront. That's the main thing - enough time to confront.
That's the whole crux of the situation.
Lacking enough time to confront you have to
develop instantaneous reaction. Gradually the individual becomes convinced that
he no longer has time to confront, so therefore he builds a house which will
instantaneously react on given stimuli.
Here's the way this works. Fish swims into an
area which has a yellow sand floor and gets bitten. So he just solves the whole
problem of being bitten - he hopes, since he can't solve the problem; he didn't
have an opportunity to confront it, and he just never seems to get around to
having enough time to confront being bitten - that every time he gets over a
yellow sand floor he goes away. That is his solution to the problem. Yellow
sand floors are dangerous so you don't stay around them, you leave. So he has
this engram and he keeps this engram up so that if he doesn't leave over a
yellow sand floor, if he doesn't leave, he experiences the pain of being
bitten. So when he experiences this pain he is reminded that he had better
leave, so he gets out of there.
You see that mechanism. That's an engramic
mechanism. Then he develops a crazy jerry-rig-built house whereby when he sees
a certain stimuli he then replies with a certain response. And you've got a
stimulus-response mechanism which is built in in the form of engrams.
Father speaks loudly: drop food on floor. Well,
it's a good answer. It sure shut the old man up. He stopped talking about that,
didn't he? Huh? So there's a whole little series of pictures here that go along
with this and they operate as a stimulus-response basis. It's all survival
mechanism. It may not look that way, but it is.
Remember all the data of the service facsimile?
The service facsimile was one the fellow used to get out of trouble. This is
how he operated. Well, it was very useful, very useful. By observing a certain
stimuli he recognizes danger may be present. Lacking the time to adequately
confront that danger, he is now placed in a situation by the engram of reacting
in some way or feeling the pain of former accidents.
In other words, he sees the stimuli and he gets
the response. And he either executes the response or he forces himself
instantaneously to execute the response by inflicting upon himself pain - pain,
unconsciousness, something like this. There's always - these things are
infinite in the number of ways they can be worked out. This is all discussed in
Dianetics: The Modern Science of Mental Health.
Well now, what's this got to do with the GPMs,
or a GPM? Well, we're dealing with the engram on a very easily recognized and
recognizable level. But the engram is hardly a lock on to an item in the GPM.
Every single item in a GPM is to some degree active and the RIs are
compulsively active and they all have the same purpose. When confronted by a
certain situation, the thing to do in order to survive is the terminal RI. When
confronted by the oppterm RI one then assumes the terminal RI. This is
survival. One knows what to do.
When confronted with too many loud voices one
becomes – or when confronted by a hostile audience, one becomes a cabaret
singer. That's the dictates of the RIs.
Well, what about this goal? Well, a thetan was
going along minding his own business and he finally found out he couldn't trust
himself. That is always the common denominator of the formulation of any
pattern such as a GPM, an engram or anything else. The lesson he learns is that
he cannot trust himself. He did not have enough time to confront, so therefore
he could not properly react. That's elementary. He found out that his efforts
in some direction became nullified through an incompetence in himself.
Well now, it's slightly more gruesome than
this. That's his first determination before he enters these things. But before
he enters that, there's a slightly earlier one. And that is he gets the idea of
possession and protection. This is compounded later by using things to create
an effect with. But early on he is simply trying to protect what he has. And he
protects what he has and eventually he has areas as a thetan, you know, like
King of the Wood, talked about in Frazer's Golden Bough, so on. He plays this
game of King of the Wood and he's protecting the wood, don't you see? And
somebody comes along and decides to cut down the wood and he protects the wood.
He's playing a game there of havingness, and
havingness is an integral portion of this. And then he finds out he can't trust
himself to protect the woods, so he fixes up an automatic mechanism. When
confronted with an axman, he becomes a storm, something like that. Oppterm,
axman; terminal, storm. All right. That's a solution to the situation and he'll
put it into effect. He knows that he won't have enough time to confront the
situation and analyze it. He's lost trust in himself as an analytical
mechanism. He has made mistakes is what he has done, so then he no longer can
quite be himself. In other words, he can only continue to be himself as long as
he had a reliance upon his own judgment and upon his ability to protect things which
he considered his.
Those are the mechanisms on which he is
operating. And when he finds out that he cannot trust himself, he has made a
mistake. He then, as a being, himself, a thetan, tends to degrade and tends to
become some other thing. And these, then, are repeated over and over with -
that is to say, his disasters are repeated over and over with consecutive
removals.
Here you have the individual himself, right
here. Now, here he is. And as himself he is being perfectly happy here, he's -
so on - got a nice halo and so on. He's just a happy thetan and he's not
bothering anybody particularly - so on. Somebody comes along and they say to
him, "That halo looks silly." And he says, "Well, it's worn by
all the very best saints," and so forth. And they say, "It's still
silly."
And he says, "Well," he says,
"I'm - I'm - got a perfect right. I have a perfect right to wear this
halo." And he gets mixed up in a glare fight of some kind or another and
so on. And instead of being himself, here, totally capable of having a halo or
not halo, he becomes fixedly – he becomes fixedly an identity: a thetan with a
halo confronted by a critic. So a critic; here appears a critic. When
confronted by a critic he becomes a thetan with a halo.
Now, he's had some wins this way, don't you
see? He's had some wins this way. He finally manages to spread the word around
that thetans with halos are actually - are actually the chosen of the big
thetan. And the critics are actually daring the wrath of the big thetan if they
criticize thetans with halos. He's had to then adapt a secondary thing over
here which is an imagined force or an imagined power.
But, he's now an identity. That's an item. He's
no longer, actually - feels safe as just himself. See, he's protecting the
havingness of the halo and he is (quote) a thetan with a halo (unquote).
Well, that'd be some kind of a way backtrack
sort of a glare fight area thing and we wouldn't have any GPMs yet. But he
finds out through many encounters of this character, he finds out that, eventually,
that he had better have a purpose in life. And that is about the first identity
that he assumes that he never really gets rid of. And the common denominator of
all thetans who have ceased to trust themselves is a thetan with a purpose. It
is easier to survive with a purpose, he thinks, and he's got this all worked
out, but he's always a thetan with a purpose. Therefore he never becomes
himself. He never becomes himself. He's always a thetan with a purpose.
What is this purpose? Well, it's any postulated
action which he feels will get him out of the trouble he's been in. That is his
purpose. And one of these purposes is characterized just that way. It's a
postulated purpose, which will get him out of the trouble which he has been in.
Now, I covered that briefly. I said here he
was, and one day he mocked up a halo and somebody - somebody criticized it and
so forth. Well eventually - eventually, he will have a goal "to be
godly." He's now a thetan, not only with a halo, but he'll have a purpose.
Of course, this is way back. Later on he gets
this idea of having a purpose, and he'd better have a purpose or else. That's
the thing, to have a purpose or else. So he says - about the time he adopts God
here - he says "to be holy" or "to be a holy person" or
something of that sort.
Well, "to be holy," this is perfectly
all right. There's nothing wrong with this, but in the process of "to be
holy" he starts out as a thetan with a purpose. There he is, he's a thetan
with a purpose. All right. That's fine.
Now, what's his next action? Is to assert the
purpose. He's doing this all for survival, don't you see? He's already learned
the lesson that he can't trust himself. He's already learned the lesson that he
had better protect things and he's already learned the lesson that the real way
to survive is to have a purpose. So here he is, thetan with a purpose.
Now let's take our next progressive action here
and he isn't a thetan who has a purpose, he's a thetan who is a purpose. Now, this
we just have as the stated purpose. This'll just be the purpose here "to
be holy." But this, by the way, will be an all-dominating thing, and he'll
call this the goal "to be holy." Now, this becomes the thing, you
see. That's becoming more - more important than he is. And now let's take it
one more stage - one more stage here - and we've got a purpose and then we also
have him as somebody. "Somebody with the goal to be holy" or
"somebody who wanted to be holy," something like this, and we get the
first three stages of evolution of a goal.
First it's just the goal. You see, it - all by
itself, it's just the stated postulate. And then the postulate gets a little
more massy and becomes, "the goal to..." And then gets a little more
massy, "somebody with the goal to..." you see. And that succeeds in
every case. There is no variation from this.
Now, he goes further than that. And as he goes
up the line here, he eventually finds himself in a very fine state of affairs.
Let's take it the way you find it.
Here's a purpose and over here some kind of a
provocation and here is the goal, stated as the goal - purpose, you know;
"the goal to..." That has some kind of an opposition. And then over
here, here is, "somebody with the goal to..." and more opposition.
And then, so on, and then so on, and then here he Is, his terminal lines, don't
you see. Well, a lot of these things - but when we look this over we find out
that he is down here, he's down here, and that's just the stated purpose. And
then it becomes "the goal to ..." and then "somebody with the
goal to..." And now look, if this is holy, this will be "a holy
person," see? The purpose is now getting more and more massive, don't you
see? It's interiorizing more and more.
In other words, the more he conflicts with
these things over here - these opposition terminals which are the difficulties
he finds in life - the more he conflicts with these things, why, the more
massive he himself becomes and then of course conflicts with something else and
then the more massive he becomes, and then he conflicts with something else and
the more massive he becomes. He conflicts with something else, don't you see?
And then to assert that he becomes more massive like this, and there he goes,
you see. Rather fascinating the way this thing winds itself up along the line.
In other words, he's asserting this same thing
based on the fact that he can't trust himself, based on the fact that he wants
to protect or defend something or to survive in general, and based also on the
fact that he can't quit.
Now, he gets up the line here and - well,
"a holy person," you see. And now he's liable to go into some
postulate character like this. He's "being holy." You see? He can't
quite be a "holy person," but he's "being holy."
Well, that's fine, that's fine. Now, what's our
- what's our evolution up here at the top, as we get into the top of this
thing? Here he is "being holy," and what he's confronting here, what
he's confronting, you see, is "critics" was the first one, you see.
And then "critical people" was the next one. And when we get up here,
why, we'd say "sneering, overwhelming people." And then over here,
see, this is "being holy" - in sequence to the other one that we just
had - this is "being holy." And over here are "critical church
people.
Oooh, what's this? Well, his purpose is
beginning to cross over here, don't you see. Is - he's getting a cross-over
purpose. So he's-now he's got, "critical church people," you see.
Waah, what's this? Golly, he's now fighting, "critical church people,"
so what you resist you tend to become. And he gets up here and he's got here a
new identity which is a crusader. Well, that's not quite a holy man, you know,
that's somebody who fights.
And over here - over here he's got,
"religious bishops who excommunicate, or "excommunicators" or
something of the sort. And now as we go on up he finallv gets to these top
terminals and here you have him being "a critical thetan." That's
"a critical thetan," see, and then over here what do we find? We find
"holy people." You see the evolution of what he did there, see. And
here we have "a critical thetan."
Now, what have we got? What are we looking at?
We're looking at the bottom-to-the-top proposition. We're looking at a
situation here where the individual is being called on to defend mass. He
postulates himself new identities in order to do this. He can't trust himself,
so he has to postulate these new identities to keep it going. And of course he
starts in fighting critics and he gradually mingles his identity until the
whole thing crosses over and changes over.
Well, what do you know? This is still a
survival situation, just as the bottom of the thing was a survival situation.
How did you handle a critic? That was his
problem. And he solved it by becoming a holy person and he winds up here
fighting holy people.
Now, there is the course of existence as far as
he's concerned. To some degree he becomes these too, don't you see? So he's
less and less his goal, and more and more the enemy becomes his goal.
Now, you ask, in running off goals you say,
"All right" - here's oppterms - "What would be the goal of holy
people?" See? And he'd say "to be holy." Bang, and you'd get the
thetan's goal. You ask, "What would be the goal of a critical
thetan?" He'd say "to be critical." And it won't check out
because that's actually the goal of the oppterm throughout.
Now, this is very interesting. These things
contain... I haven't drawn the complete number of items which are actually to
be found in one of these GPMs, whatever it is, twenty, thirty, forty. And it
all takes - how long it takes them to graduate, you see. And here he goes right
up to the top.
Now, when he gets here he's got a new problem,
he's got a new problem. He no longer considers this a survival activity. This
he doesn't like. It's a violation of his own purposes. So he has to do
something new, and this becomes extremely important to him.
Here's the bottom of one of these - here's the
same two that you just saw. Here's "holy people" - right here, and
here's a "critical thetan." This game is worn out. This game is worn
out. The old game, you see, that's gone. That's gone. He's not got anything
more to do with this.
How do you get out of a spot like that? How do
you get out of a spot of being "a critical thetan?" Well, you do it
by postulating - you go into a sort of a blank area and you say, "I'm
completely lost now. I haven't got a goal. It's all gone." Get into this
blank area - you've still got, however, over here, "holy people."
How do you handle these dogs? Not as a
"critical thetan," that's all unsuccessful and he feels pretty
degraded. No, he's got to postulate a new goal. A new goal has got to be
postulated here which handles these "holy people."
How are you going to postulate this goal? Well,
you just up and postulate it. But you see postulating and insisting upon is
quite interesting. You don't just sit off - you've got - probably got an idea
of a thetan sitting off in space, in the blackness of space saying, "Oh, I
think I will postulate a goal. Yes,'to be a good boy.' Yes, that's what I'll
do. All right. Now, that's postulated." No, man, that isn't the way that
goal is postulated. That goal is postulated something on this order, see: He
says, "It's gone. I just feel like the devil, you know. And everything's
gone to pieces here. And these confounded 'holy people.' God! What are you
going to do about them? There's only one thing that would work, I'm sure, only
one thing that would work, only one thing that would work. Haarrrrrrrr! To be a
devil. Ha-ha-ha-ha-ha-ha. That
would work. Yes, yes, yes. I think... I think I'll try it out
tentatively."
"Well, how are you today father? You
probably don't recognize me. I'm a devil. Oh, holy people say, "Eeek! God
almighty."
"Oh," he says, "that's terrific."
He says, "That'll handle them." So he says, "To be a devil. All
right, that'll handle it. To be a devil. To be a devil. To be a devil. To be a
devil. I'm going to be a devil, a devil. I'm going to be a devil. Now, you got
that now. You hear me now. Me, you Fznow. Listen! I'm going to be a devil, a
devil, a devil. Rrrr-rrr. I'm going to be a devil, I've got to concentrate on
that, you see. To be a devil, that's the thing to be. Brrrrr." Finally -
finally, "That's pretty good, you know, that's pretty good, and it handles
this. There, it handled it." And he finds he's now the enemy of "good
people.
He's got a new enemy. He handled these
"holy people" but now all the "good people" in the
community turn on him as a man and they say, "Oh, oh. He's a devil. Ho-ho-ho."
And he recognizes these are good people so he begins to detest good people. So
he dramatizes this one. And of course he has to become the goal to be a devil
and he runs into self-righteous people, and then of course he has to be much
more - more mass involved in the thing. And he's got to say, "I am
somebody who is a somebody with the goal to be a devil. That's who I am. I'm
somebody with a goal to be a devil, who else I am, that - that's me, somebody
with the goal to be a devil. I mustn't forget that." And of course runs
square into "inquisitors." And there we go again. And what does he
finally wind up at the top of the next bank? (Just amputating this.) Winds up
at the top of the next bank "devilish people - a good thetan." You
see how this goes? It's his effort to survive. You don't even have to mild it
up to the point of saying, "the effort to have a game." You
understand? It is frankly, very correct, that at the bottom of this bank it is
a violent effort to survive. He's finished. He's absolutely finished at this
point. He's a critical thetan. He hates himself. He is faced by holy people; he
can't stand that. It's an intolerable pair, so he postulates himself a
brand-new goal.
Now, how come thetans do this? How come they do
this time after time after time with such great regularity? How do they do
this? Why do they always do the same thing? Well, they are faced with exactly
the same problems.
The problems are identical. You have the
problems of this universe; you have the problems of formulation of MEST and
mass, matter, energy, space and time; you have the thetan's effort to cope with
this situation; you have a common denominator that he actually can't quit; you
have a common denominator that he will wind up not being able to trust himself;
you have the common denominator that he inevitably will try to protect some of
this MEST and as a result he winds up with the identical solutions.
And it actually rattles off on a whole set of
axioms. These axioms are unwritten at the moment, but they are a whole set of
axioms like the MEST universe axioms. And they consist of now-I'm-supposed-to's
or laws. And he actually forms his GPM by law. And that law is all agreed upon
and - at any time that it's this and that. Actually they are very simple laws
and they are based on the very elements which I gave you earlier in the
lecture.
Now, that's how that GPM parades. To some
degree, you see, each time, he becomes "holy people." To some degree
he becomes here, "good people." To some degree he becomes, in each
case, the opposition terminal. So when he's finally through - when he's finally
through this mess and mass and potpourri - we have you, and actually have me.
And when we start going on the backtrack, what do we run into? We run into the
top of the bank (or we should), and we find the thetan in his most degraded
form opposing an exalted opposition terminal. And then by opposition we go on
down through and we finally come down to the bottom and in every case you find
somebody with the goal "to be a devil." Some - you'll find somebody
with the goal to be a devil or somebody who wanted to be a devil. You'll find
in every case an item down here which will be "the goal to be a
devil." In every case you will find right here "to be a devil."
That's inevitable.
Over here you get variation. This is variety at
the bottom of the bank. You say, "Well, listing these things out, if the
pc knew they were there he could simply put them on the list." Yes, pcs
who know they are there put them on the list. But the trick is just this - if
you're not overlisting madly - the one that belongs in the position will fire.
Let us say at this position of the bank we've
got an item here, "a devilish fellow," see. This is this item here,
that's "a devilish fellow." All right. And the pc says, "Well,
let's get down to the bottom of this thing and get the show on the road and
let's put 'to be a devil' on the list," see. Well, he'll also, of course,
list "a devilish fellow," and he'll list two or three other things. And
he'll also list "to be a devil." And it won't fire. What'll fire on
your short list is "a devilish fellow."
All right. Very well and good. Our next action
in here when we come down, the pc says, "Well, I - I - I know what this
would be. I know what this would be, this is obviously somebody or something
who wanted to be a devil. That's obviously that." So he puts that and two
or three other things on the list. And if he, at that same time put on the
"goal to be a devil," and "to be a devil," on the same
list, only the one in sequence will fire.
You're saved from this embarrassment. We don't
care how he - well he knows the bottom of the bank. In fact, I'd prefer him to
know that there are three down there _at the bottom of the bank. When he puts
them on the list, if he's way up here somewhere, "a devilish fellow,"
they just don't fire. You say, "Well, that's the goal. Of course that will
fire." No, the goal won't fire as an RI when expressed as an RI with - if
it's not in proper sequence.
In other words, it will come out by 3M
correctly unless you are overlisting. But that's what occurs on the bottom of a
bank. And there's a border between these two banks like that, and you actually
go over the border of the banks. Well, it's - they're two different GPMs. They
exist as great big black masses in their own right, which is a compounded
squeeze-together of all of these items I've been talking about. In other words,
one goal, one black mass.
Well, what happens - what happens if you have
four or five goals all jammed together? No, they still come apart – one goal,
one black mass; one item, one black mass; one – inside the goal but part of the
black mass. In other words, every GPM is a black mass. And the GPMs, if they're
apart or separate or stuck together or anything else, constitute what looks at
first glance like a mass; but as the pc begins to run them his perception picks
up, he begins to recognize one mass from another mass. Quite interesting.
Well, why are they so burned down? Why are they
so black? Well, it's just that he's exhausted all the energy out of them,
that's all. You'll find he'll still dramatize these things. They are apparently
moving on forward into present time and always under formation. He's always in
some stage or another of the GPM in its formation. He's always forming the top
of it, but he also very often dramatizes that which has gone yesterday.
You see, he couldn't quit, so he's just as
likely to use this goal of his, "to be holy," in some given
circumstance. Well, he goes into a church and all of a sudden he's
restimulated. He feels kind of weird and kind of sick, but he's restimulated.
He goes into this church and at first he - well, let's say he starts to church
as a career. And, oh, he gets along all right. He goes to church for a little
while, he goes a lot - a lot of Sundays, a year or two, or something like that
and one day he starts to feel kind of sick. He gets into the - sits down in the
pew, and he starts to feel kind of sick. And he looks around and suddenly he
realizes that that priest is pretty critical, pretty critical of him. Or maybe
the priest did say a critical thing. And he's all set, you see.
And the next thing you know, why, he gets this
horrible feeling that he had better do something devilish. Inexplicable. All of
a sudden he does something devilish. In other words, he just picked up an old
area in an old GPM - was restimulated momentarily - he lived through it, did
its responses and so forth.
Why? Because it's the now-I'm-supposed-to. He's
got a whole system of now-I'm-supposed-to's. And these now-I'm-supposed-to's
routinely will give him the right answers and the right responses for any given
condition instantaneously without further inspection on his part. He just knows
what to do, man, and then he will survive. The only trouble is these things
have never been very survival and formulated to match the times of Charlemagne,
they don't go very well in the days of Khrushchev. They don't match anymore.
"I know what I'm supposed to do - a
swordsman. Ha-ha. Golly, ain't nobody wielded a sword for a long time." He
feels sort of out of place. He feels upset. He is faced with something and it
says to him that he must be a swordsman, but, thhuh, he can't make it. He goes
and reads books about sword collections. That's about as close as he can come
to it. The more he reads, the more he's got to read. The more he reads the
sicker he gets, but he's still got to read these books about sword collections.
But he's in an interplay here of the universe around him and these things still
have survival answers.
This girl is faced by a loud man and she knows
what to be. She knows what to be - a cabaret singer. And she goes ahead and
tries to be a cabaret singer and fails at it most gorgeously. Whereas the girl
could probably be an opera singer with no difficulty at all. The one - see,
opera singer, that isn't - wasn't going to be very upsetting. But a cabaret
singer - oh-ho-ho-ho, that's the thing she's got to be and can't make.
You'll find people all the time trying to do
things that they can't do, whereas they can do something superior to them
superiorly and won't do it. That's one of the puzzles of human behavior. Well,
those puzzles of human behavior are contained in this.
You can explain these things by engrams for the
excellent reason that that which sticks and has a command value in an engram is
actually one of these GPM items underneath the engram kicking in. And when you
ran the engram you actually ran it off the top of the GPM item and it didn't
trouble the pc. Old repeater technique, or something like that will as likely
as not, as often as not, key the thing out and free it.
This is why processes have worked where they
have worked, and also why they haven't worked where they haven't worked. Because
these items here, the fellow has lived. He's lived those things with ferocity.
Those goals haven't just been, "Well, I now think I will put a goal in 'to
be a devil.' Yes, I think I will postulate that. All right,'to be a devil.'
That's postulated." Ah, God no, man. He worked at the postulation of this
goal day in and day out, week in and week out, year in and year out. And he
just got it so it would stick. Never, never again is he going to be caught in
any such situation as "to be holy." Never. Never. "To be a
devil. That's the thing to be, to be a devil. Now, you hear me now; you hear me
now. Now, listen - to be a devil," and so on. This is to - in other words,
he trains himself into the thing. And then of course he inevitably gets its enemies
and then he partakes of those enemies, and then he partakes of those and those
and those and finally this thing betrays him and he can no longer have that
goal or basic purpose.
A thetan has a basic purpose - a thetan has a
basic purpose when a thetan can no longer trust himself after trying to protect
something in the physical universe. That gives him a system of goals and out of
that system of goals you give him the piled up system of items which you get in
a GPM.
When a GPM fails to survive anymore - I mean,
to serve anymore as a survival mechanism - when the GPM fails our next
immediate action after that is to create a new goal and to go the limit on it
as long as it is useful. And is - when that one wears out and one is no longer
able to see anything in it but a totally degraded form, to achieve the next -
to postulate the next goal to solve the GPM that's just past. So we just have
nothing but a solution to a solution to a solution to a solution to a solution.
In other words, the cures become the illness.
Now we go back and look over this situation,
and we find out that the reason this fellow can't stand this universe, can't
stand closed places, can't stand anything in a dress, can't stand this and
can't stand that and yet can't stay away from them is because of this goal
"to be holy." And the reason he can't do that, of course, is because
he's got a goal "to be a devil." I'm sorry, if anybody has these
actual goals I'm sure they will be found. I'm not using synthetic goals in this
lecture. But there's the whole mechanism. There's the whole mechanism of the
GPM. There's why it exists. There's how it evolves, and so on. It is far
simpler than you would believe.
Now, when you realize - I said why they were
black - when you realize that this item here, the "goal to be a
devil," may very well consist of lifetimes, each lifetime having a full
array of pictures, and that that has all been burned down and charred to
nothing but cinder by the hammer and pound of existence, you'll see why it's a
black lump and you'll see why the GPM is a black lump. Actually, the GPM is a
lump of burned up residue, but its postulates are still there, the charge is
still in it, and it still separates and it still squares away.
Now, as you recognize, an individual has gone
through a great many very weird and terrible adventures on the course of
postulating a goal and becoming the various items in the G - in a GPM. And you
recognize also that he has been through GPM after GPM after GPM in order to get
where he is today, and so on. And he's got a lot of overts, and he's got a lot
of difficulties on the backtrack and he's having a lot of difficulties in
present time - that it is not easy, it is not easy to find the goal, to find
the top item, to go back on exactly the right number of items and to walk all
the way through the GPM, to never skip, to never jump out into another GPM, to
get down to the bottom of the GPM and list it out and find your next goal, and
so forth. None of this, none of this could be considered to be easy. It isn't easy.
But oddly enough, these GPMs are so much a carbon copy, one to the next, from
pc to pc, they only vary in the significance of the goal and the significance
of the items. They don't vary in the pattern of the goal.
You'll find the person's goal there and you'll
find the - the item, "the goal to be a devil," or "the goal to
catch catfish," or "the goal to be a tiger." "Somebody or
something who wanted to be a tiger" - you'll find that there. You'll find
out up here "a tigerish person" or "a devil" or something
like that. And we go up the line and we get up to the top of the thing, we
inevitably find in this column of terminals, we find "a saint,"
something like that. "A saintly person," something. It's totally
reversed from the situation.
We find out that the similarity of items in
this GPM here, well, let's say we have an item "people who care for
nothing." Nothings pile up more than anything else. We have "people
who care for nothing" as an oppterm here. And down in "the goal to be
good," "people who give up nothing" or something. And those two
items are liable to collapse one on the other. And because they're liable to
collapse one on the other the GPMs bang.
In other words, very similar items sometimes
group. And you'll be auditing along minding your own business and all of a
sudden the pc will go whop, or whoop, or urp, and so on, and he'll have felt a
couple of GPMs smashed together.
You'll have excited - through some wrong
listing, or something of the sort - you'll have excited a similar item in another
GPM and have collapsed it on.
Well, all this is avoided - the randomity is
avoided – by being particularly careful to get the items that belong in
sequence in sequence. And that is normally done by not overlisting on an RI
opposed list and not underlisting on a source list. There's nothing much to it.
You can even find on the last R... - the goal as an RI oppose is a source list
and you can even find the next goal on that if that last source list from here
down into this bank is completed.
There's all kinds of mechanical arrangements
here and we haven't even really begun to exhaust the number of possibilities
that you could do to get a GPM. It very possibly is not necessary to do a goal
oppose terminal to get this top GPM up here. you just say, "All right.
Tell me an item, who or what would be the least likely to have the goal 'to be
a devil'." And the guy says, "a saintly person." It RRs and you
put it in as a beginning terminal line. I mean these things - these
possibilities are great, but they are - are mostly assistive in recovery. If
you do the goal right in the first place you don't run into these things.
And then there's the admonition that in actual
fact you should make a Clear before you try to make an OT You'll find auditors
will go on at a fantastic rate of speed GPM after GPM after GPM and they never
clean up the GPM they're in and they never look for these various items. They
don't try to get the pc. They don't - they find something still ticking so they
just list it further. They don't go back and patch it up. They don't try to
find any of these bypassed items. They don't try to get these bottom items in
the goal line. They don't try to neat this thing up before they go along. As a
result you've got three or four or five GPMs alive and they frankly are maybe
not as easy to patch up as it would have been if you had just patched up one
and done it right in the first place. You haven't lost any time. You can patch
these things up. You can take care of them.
The way to take care of them best, however, is
to know the anatomy of the GPM. To know what you expect to find in the pc. Not
go on expecting that every pc is different, that every pc is going to have a
different pattern, that all of these things are going to be so difficult, and
so on.
Well, I saw a GPM just today which - well, I
won't try to quote the items out of it, but it's something like this, "the
goal to be a lady," and the first oppterm, "a steam locomotive,"
and the first terminal, "astronomy." Well, come out of it. I mean,
how does this relate? The auditor has banged off into three different GPMs.
He's got a goal for something, but he hasn't got any terminals for anything. In
other words, he's very dispersed on the thing.
No, if you know, you get experience as to what
these are all about and you know what the thing should look like and you know
whether you're right or not and you know how this thing should add up, you'll
all of a sudden become aware of the fact that you've skipped something - both
by the pc's ARC break and behavior and so forth, and because you can't go on,
and for other reasons; but also because you just know your stuff on the anatomy
of a GPM.
The easiest way to run a GPM is know what
you're running. I've given you the picture of the GPM, its basis, modus operandi
and repetitive characteristics of the GPM. If you know these things quite well
you won't have too much trouble clearing anybody.
How many GPMs are there? I don't know. You've
sure been around long enough. I can hear you now on Marcab and on this place
and in that age and that age. "All right. So that's failed. So I can no
longer be a holy person, and so forth. I'm going to be a devil. Yes, to be a
devil. Now, listen carefully, to be ..." You know? You've been doing it
for a long time.
I don't know how many GPMs you'll cook up in
somebody. I'd say the more complicated the GPM first found sounds as a goal,
the more GPMs there are in the bank. I think you'll find out that's a working
rule. If the first one - the first goal you find of a person is "to be somebody
who plays a pipe on various clouds and looks sad," I think you've got an
awful lot of GPMs in the bank.
There's the other factor. The first GPM you
encounter is sometimes truncated there, so you just have a new thetan, he looks
like. His behavior will be very brash. Next one will be truncated up here
someplace and he'll be a conservative. He'll be backing up the conservative.
And up here someplace it just happens to be where you find him in that GPM. And
you get him up here at the top ranks of the thing, he will inevitably be a
beatnik.
It's funny how coincidentally we have so many
people who are just winding up their banks in this present society at this
particular time. But remember we also have the new ones.
So that we have somebody cycling down the
track. At some time we'll have the fellow being a great success. Well, he's in
this part of the bank, the lower part. He'll be a rather conservative mediocre.
He's in this part of the bank. And well have somebody very degraded. Hell be in
this part of the bank. Actually his current conduct depends to a large extent
on where he sits in his first GPM.
All right. Well, that's all the data I had for
you on the subject. I hope it'll do you a lot of good. I know it's been very
difficult to dig the stuff up and get it hinged together and make sense and get
processes that make it work. But we're at this point and the information is
there and it is stable and it's yours.
Thank you very much. Thank you. Good night.
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