>Be meat computer
>Programmed to survive as long as it can and reproduce
>Do it 

>Be meat computer with advanced features
>Capable of handling more information and act outside of its strict programming
>Become aware of ones own death, still programmed to survive for as long as it possibly can
>Become aware of the pointlessness of everything
>Fellow meat computers discover that there is nothing above or below than our programming
>COPE.exe encountered an error and has stopped working permanently
>DESPAIR.exe slows everything down while also triggering pain and fear
>Eventually DESPAIR.exe takes up so much space that it kills and deactivates other processes, leaving the meat golem controlled by the meat computer in a useless state
>The code that contains DESPAIR.exe is constant being passed on from meat computer to meat computer via word of mouth, books, media... and also triggered within isolated systems

It was knowledge all along...damn...